365 Kinds of Difficult Living Methods

Unlike the card paper for painting Human Bone X, this electronic "handbook" that records the details of Chu Touching's life has almost no emotion or color. It just states what Chu Touching did, what it used, where and how long.

It was a genuine memo, so I had to print it out and put it on the refrigerator to remind all the clerk boss of their work and rest time.

After watching it at that time, Chu Yu was also puzzled, why should Mu Shangqing pay such attention to Chu moving? Still down meticulously?

Chu Dongren himself explained that Mu Shangqing felt that the murderer was about to attack him, so he had to understand his movements and protect him.

Muyu didn’t care, but also gave an explanation: this is the style of Chief Mu. He not only remembers the great chu, but also remembers himself, the flowers and grass, and the white clouds and blue sky. He will pay attention to everything that happens around him. Record the bits and pieces.

He and Xia Yihan are two extremes, Xia Yihan is slow and weak, and doesn't care about everything, but he is delicate and sensitive, and full of curiosity about everything.

Chu Yu checked his delicate records, and couldn't help feeling that the power of heredity was so great, sometimes it looked like it was carved out of a mold, and sometimes it looked like it was picked up in a garbage dump.

After reading Chu Dongren's exclusive record file, he found nothing unusual. Chu Yu rubbed his eyes, feeling that the stars were shining in front of him. If he watched for a few more hours, he would pretend to be the moon.

Muyu handed her the medical examination report: "Why do you go to bed? I'll read it again. If you have any questions, I will call you again?"

"I don't sleep now. When I finish this ticket, I will sleep for three days and three nights. You can't wake up even if you want to." She took the file, moved her eyes, and started to use them again.

Muyu sat on the sofa to see if he could help, "Chu Chu, where do you suspect there is a problem?"

"The psychological disorder detected at that time," Chu Yu stared at the column of additional symptoms, frowning, "manic."

"However, Gu Miao and the others have visited the residents of Huaxieting in the past, and they also said that when Section Chief Mu would be irritable, it was sometimes normal, and sometimes turned his face and refused to recognize people and was easily irritated."

"I don't doubt this. What I doubt is the description and treatment of his problem by the Office of Da Chu."

As she said, she raised her head and recalled, "According to his statement, when Chief Mu took the assessment, his condition had eased a lot, and there was almost no more impulsive or irritable situation, and Chief Mu himself attributed this to leaving the original I got married and had children, and my personality became more cheerful and optimistic.

"There is also Da Chu said that he pays special attention to Chief Mu, whether in life or psychologically, pay attention to his state, and both of them admire each other very much. Da Chu likes Chief Mu's persistence and steadfastness. The section chief is grateful to Da Chu for his kindness and special care."

"But," at this point, Muyu understood what Chu Yu meant. "According to the previous clerk's report, Da Chu treats everyone equally, and he can be regarded as an impartial and good leader. Moreover, he is very busy every day and has to coordinate with each other. In the department, I don’t have time to pay attention to who else. In addition, Chief Mu doesn’t talk a lot and concentrates on work. In terms of interpersonal relationships, he is a gentleman’s friendship, and he does not have too much overlap with Da Chu. Generally, he performs his own duties. Show a good relationship."

Chu Yu put the file on the computer desk and pressed his palm, "This is considered the most contradictory part of the statement by Da Chu, but it can be explained. In the past, Superman was not as refined as ours, with a large number of people and obvious job levels. In the presence of competition, Chief Da Chu may be afraid that paying too much attention to Chief Mu will cause dissatisfaction with other clerks, so he quietly pays attention to it. If there is anything, he will call him to the office or the third floor and talk privately."

Muyu curled his mouth, "But do you completely believe in this explanation?"

Chu Yu smiled helplessly and didn't say a word. Now she didn't believe anything, unless the truth was completely solved and then pushed back.

"So now, we have to get rid of the influence of Da Chu, start from the beginning, re-understand Chief Mu, and examine his inner monologue."

Muyu nodded, pulled another revolving chair over, and sat in a pile with Chu Yu, "Come on, let’s watch it together. At that time, I heard about Mr. Mu’s being forced, and when I read his diary, I was very worried. For fear that there will be memories of that rapist, I can't help but smash the computer!"

Chu Yu turned his head and took a look: "How do you know I want to read the diary?"

"Aren't you going to examine the inner monologue?"

Chu Yu smiled slightly, and found the folder that records daily trivial matters. The first document was the diary.

Half a month ago, she worked overtime and watched it. She didn't find any breakthrough points, but she was still unwilling to read it—the diary, the inner monologue, is the most true and deepest reaction of a person, how could there be no clue?

Pointing the mouse over the document, white paper and black characters appeared, and Chu Yu inserted the series of unsettled cases in the order of time.

(On April 12th, six years ago, Hu Qing died of low temperature in Wangjiang City)

June 23

There have been a lot of things in the past few months. I may be too tired, and my mental state is not very good. I can always recall the childhood things, especially the jingle. As long as I think of it, I will feel uncomfortable.

In fact, I can basically face and accept the things in the past, especially after I joined the big family now, I have established a friendly relationship with my colleagues.

Since university, I have learned to join a group and cooperate with others, and my office is a supportive group. My colleagues and I help each other, discuss issues, build up trust and security, and no one will use it anymore. They look at me with strange eyes, they like me and appreciate me, and the achievements brought by work also make me feel satisfied.

Here, I feel very at ease, it is my second home.

But the childhood experience is always there and will not change, and only myself can make changes.

Chief Chu told me that we need to "introspect" and increase our self-awareness and the ability to clarify our inner emotions so as to grow.

For example, like writing, writing down my deep emotions and thoughts, trying to feel the original appearance of events and how they have affected me now. In writing, I can connect the past with the present and truly let the past pass.

Just like I am now, recording my feelings and emotions, I find that there are many things worthy of happiness in life, and it is not that difficult to let go of the past and grow into the future.

I believe that I can get better, even if I think of that jingle, I will no longer be afraid, and Xiao Han will get better and better!

October 15

I have to say that Luoyu is a good place. There are many universities here, with the largest number of college students in the country, which is really a gathering of talents. This time I was invited by the police to coordinate the interrogation work. The workload was not too large, so Chu did not stay in a hotel hotel, and booked a special hotel outside. There is also a Sichuan restaurant on the opposite side, which tastes very good.

The owner is a couple, both surnamed He, the female owner is He Lan, and the male owner is He Zhiping. They were both bosses and waiters, tidying the rooms, cooking and preparing snacks, repairing electrical appliances, and also helping customers carry luggage and take out. They were really hardworking and capable.

They also have an old mother, my auntie Shi, who is an old shopkeeper, haha. Aunt Shi can be regarded as a local aboriginal, and she has traveled all over the corners of Luoyu, which can be called a living travel guide.

She told us that if you want to travel, you can visit the park behind. The air is fragrant, the environment is beautiful, and there is a university next to it, which is also a good place to go. , Autumn has maple leaves and small animals.

After eating, she occasionally went for a walk inside, and even saw a little fox. She wanted to buy a pet fox to feed, but her daughter kept disagreeing, saying that it was dirty and could not be domesticated.

So I suggested to Auntie Shi that I can buy a small hamster and feed it to enjoyment.

As a result, Auntie Shi really went to the pet market, hahaha, really cute auntie.

(Six years ago, Shiling, Luoyu City, died of hanging herself on October 17th)

January 18

The sun is shining today, so it is suitable to go out to bask in the sun. Chief Chu made an appointment with me, Brother Wang, and Section Chief Gu for tea. Although there were no investigations during this time and it was relatively leisurely, we were not in a good mood. Something bad happened last month.

But Chu Chu still wanted us to relax, chat, and drink tea. We are all older otakus. We usually stay in the house and there is almost no entertainment. Chu Chu probably saw our morale low during this period. So I want to enlighten.

We arrived at the small teahouse by the lake. The sun was good today. The boss put the tables and chairs on the wooden road outside, facing the lake and mountains. It was a good place for chatting.

Chu Chu ordered a pot of black tea, suitable for drinking in winter, to appetite with oil, to keep in good health and protect against the cold. Brother Wang also asked for a pack of cards. The four of us fighting with the landlords, chatting while fighting, looked like old men who started their retirement life.

Soon, a table of people came to say hello to Chu Chu. It turned out to be his neighbor, named Bai, who was a family. They drove to the lake to play, parked the car outside, walked around the lake, and took a rest when they were tired.

Chief Chu introduced us to a family of three, saying that they were all colleagues, who had nothing to do with "gathering crowds to gamble."

Mr. Bai’s son is called Bai Mengmeng. He is very cute, with big eyes and full apple muscles. He should be about the same size as Xiaohan. I can’t help but look at a child of her age, so cute. Looks so likable.

After the "gambling" continued, the four of us continued to draw cards, Mengmeng slipped over and watched quietly, saying that he wanted to learn how to fight the landlords.

His mother met and called a deck of cards. The three of them also started playing, but they were playing while they were learning. The tables and chairs on both sides were so close that they could hear their conversation.

The family is really happy. Mr. Bai patiently explained to Mengmeng, which card is big and which card is small. Mengmeng is very interested first, but after learning for a while, he can't sit still, and he wants to run over to see us play, he Say: I just want to watch others fight, but I don’t want to fight.

His mother tempted him and said: If you learn the card, I will buy you two new clothes next week.

As a result, Mengmeng said: When I learn it, I don't need you to buy it, because I will win all your money.

We laughed, we all liked the kid.

Later, we met again in the self-service barbecue restaurant. We felt that we were destined, and we simply got together. Mr. Bai was very interested in us. He knew that the people around Chu Chu were different, so he wanted to see it.

At the dinner table, everyone had a good time. Brother Wang performed "Clairvoyance". He has excellent eyesight. He can see the small characters on the wall seven or eight meters away through the oil fume. Section Chief Gu performed mental arithmetic, within seven digits. Addition, subtraction, multiplication and division, he came casually, Mr. Bai was shocked and wanted Mengmeng to worship him as a teacher.

I performed my memory, Chu asked the waiter to bring the price list, including all the barbecue ingredients in the store. There were five or six pages, and showed me it in three minutes. After that, Ms. Liao took the price list to test me, and she said the name of the dish. , I said the price, or she said the price, I quote all the corresponding dishes.

Mr. Bai was shocked again, the skewers of meatballs almost burnt.

In the end, Mengmeng also performed a stunt. He performed the Big Stomach King and ate three people alone-we were all stunned and applauded.

After the party today, we were all very happy. On the way home, I was thinking, if I had a younger brother or sister for Xiao Han, I would pester her every day to make her happy. She would not be alone at home alone. .

But it may be that I think too much. She thinks that she is having a good time alone, haha.

(On January 25th, five years ago, Bai Mengmeng died in a fire in Wangjiang City)

January 28

I missed Anan. It was two o’clock in the morning. I finally fell asleep and woke up again. It was too uncomfortable. I wanted to take sleeping pills, but Chu didn’t let me take any medicine. He told me that if I feel uncomfortable, I went to him, but he was so busy every day. If I took up his rest time, he would not even have time to talk to his family.

I think of the past, long, long time ago, every time I feel uncomfortable, Anan will hug me from behind and pass my body temperature to me, and then my uncomfortableness is like an ice cube, covered by her, slowly melted and finished. After that, I got better.

But now she is gone. Although she has been absent for six years, I still miss her. I still remember her body scent, the shape of her nails, and the light itching when her hair rubbed against the back of my neck. She has melted into my body and will never forget it for a lifetime.

Sometimes when I see Xiao Han at home alone, I want to remarry and have someone help me take care of Xiao Han, but I can’t get through my own hurdle. Apart from Anan, I won’t fall in love with other women again. I believe Xiao Han is the same, except Anan, she will no longer recognize other people as mothers.

I feel terrible.

Whenever I feel so uncomfortable, I hope that Anan can be by my side, even if she is sick later, although she is very cold towards me and doesn't care about me, but as long as I look at her and know that she is by my side, I feel much better. .

February 16

During this period of time, I have been running back and forth between Superman's Office and the Public Security Bureau. I was a little too busy, but I still hope that I can help my friends in the bureau. , I also get busy with them, always feeling anxious in my heart, to see if I can do my part to help solve the case.

March 18

Now I feel that I’m much better, I don’t lose my temper, and I don’t get angry easily. Even after Anan leaves, I can control my emotions, although sometimes I feel very sad and feel empty in my heart. But maybe because of the presence of Xiaohan and the goal of work, I am not depressed, and I have a very fulfilling life every day.

Xiaohan has grown up gradually. Although she is still small and some babies are fat and look like a low-grade pupil, she has already started junior high school and is an older child.

But her temperament hasn't changed at all, she doesn't like to talk, and she is extremely quiet, as if she is not interested in human beings and society. In fact, Xiaohan’s teacher has contacted me many times and asked me to take her to see a psychiatrist or have a full body check.

I also want to take her to see it, but Xiaohan always rejects her. Like me, she rejects the three words mental illness. I don't know if it has something to do with her mother. Anan committed suicide because of a mental disorder.

However, if Xiaohan does not go, I will not force her. Others say she has no emotions, but I can feel it. At least she likes me. Last year, on Father’s Day, she personally cut a three-dimensional greeting card and opened it. A house rose from the ground. In front of the house, there was a little girl and a tall and thin man.

I know that the little girl is her, and the tall man is me. Xiaohan likes me. From the look in her eyes, I can tell that she recognizes my father.

So I believe that Xiaohan is just a little slower to react, and her feelings for feelings are dozens of times slower than that of ordinary people, but it does not mean that she has no feelings. She is smart, rational, calm, and independent. She can cook, craft, and learn independently. Will think critically, she will be able to live a normal life in society in the future.

I'm just worried about her interpersonal relationship. Except for me, she doesn't seem to talk to people very much. She is cold from the sky, so I heard from the teacher that she has no friends at school, and other children still repel her a bit. After all, she is too bad Gregarious.

But what makes me happy is that at dinner today, Xiao Han told me that she had a friend with a cold character in her name, but the girl gave her the title "Xiao Han".

Although she only mentioned a few words, I was still very happy. Xiao Han finally has friends, and she has a school with her, so that they can be together every day, and in the future, they will become best friends in a junior high school and a high school.

My long-time wish is that Xiaohan can make friends. Now that the wish comes true, I am so happy!

May 1

Today is Labor Day. Chu Chu, Section Chief Gu, Section Chief Ai and I are all working in Fushan Hospital.

In the past, we were full of energy for "work", but this time, although our energy was unabated, we were always in awe, and we were cautious about everything, for fear of accidents.

This time Chief Chu also sent all the Security Department out to patrol and check in Fukuyama together with the hospital's security guards. The monitored places are also open 24 hours a day. As for him, his life trajectory was simplified to the extreme. He did not stay outside in the hotel, so he slept in the ward and went to ward 513 during the day to check the condition of the target object. Sometimes I was with him, sometimes Section Chief Gu accompanied him. Go back to the ward to sleep at night.

Work and rest are strict and monotonous.

But Chu Chu was very happy today. He had an accidental discovery that the patient who lived in Ward 413 had some differences. I heard from Dean Qin that he had hysterical symptoms and was full of emotions, so he would talk about it. Nonsense, sometimes very naive, lying in a corner and afraid of seeing people, but in a few cases, he will transform himself into a doctor, analyze his condition, and behave like a normal person.

Chu Chu was very interested in him, and he even felt like seeing each other too late. He also said that he would mention it, and if he wants, let me meet and communicate with him.

Thinking of meeting him, I became excited and felt a sense of sympathy. In fact, he and I are very similar-both have psychological problems themselves, but discover, understand, try to solve them, and finally heal themselves.

I have not talked about my experience with anyone except Chu Chu. I believe that after meeting "Doctor Lu", there must be many common topics.

Looking forward to meeting him!

(On May 4th, five years ago, Lu Xuanwen in Changyan City died of panic.)

May 22

There was an accident in Xiaohan's school. I heard that the child who had the accident also had a cold character in his name, so I guessed whether it was that good friend of Xiaohan.

But Xiao Han didn't answer. Instead, she asked me if I was tired from work.

How should I put it, there have been a lot of things recently, not only at work, but also very unexpected situations. I feel like a clump of lead in my heart. If I don’t figure them out, I’m panicking, so I will be a little more tired than my colleagues. The pressure will also be greater.

I told Xiaohan not to worry about me, but she told me not to go to work anymore, she raised me.

Hey, this child, I must have been too haggard lately, so busy, that caught her attention. I have never mentioned my job to Xiaohan, she only knows it is confidential, and it is commonplace to work overtime on business.

She has always understood me, but recently I have been so busy that she can't stand it anymore.

But I have to be busy. I have to work hard to clarify things and protect the Chu place. I believe that after this period of time, it will be much better.

(Five years ago, on May 21, Wangjiang City Xia Yihan died of drowning)