Evil Emperor Zun

Chapter 1180 Peace of Mind
In the prison, it was still as dark as ever.

The bleak light slanted across the mottled iron bars, and with the flickering light of the candles, it reflected the remaining nostalgia together.

Probably only this place, as a window connecting to the outside world, has the brightest light.But the completely enclosed space still has a depressive atmosphere engulfing it when first stepping in.

Su Shi'an stood in the shadows for a long time, watching his father, handcuffed and fettered, walk into the visiting room and sit down at the narrow square table.He remained silent for a long while before slowly walking forward under the direction of the jailer, and sat down opposite his father.

"Your eyes have changed." The two just met each other, and the father said with emotion.

"In the past, your eyes were like a pool of stagnant water, filled with endless despair and hatred. But now, in your eyes, the brilliance of life began to ignite. Outside, there must be someone, or something, that changed Is it you?"

Su Shi'an didn't answer directly.After another long silence, he put his hands on the table and said lightly:

"I have a question for you."

"Have you found your inner peace?"

His father was obviously taken aback, Su Shi'an also raised his eyes, stared into his eyes, and said slowly:
"A friend told me that doing good deeds is not to get actual rewards, but to have inner peace."

"Then, from that 'heinous' criminal back then, to now you are resigned to your destiny and serving your sentence here honestly, is it because you have found peace of mind?"

That's why back then, I stopped myself from continuing to take revenge on Guan Yukuai's family... There was no more ferocity left in him, but he was content and grateful for everything around him, and let himself be unfamiliar with a peaceful mind... As early as that time, Has he already figured it out?
After a long time, my father smiled, as if even the wrinkles on his face melted away.

He nodded deeply: "You have found a good friend."

"I think your change now is because of him. With such a friend by your side, I don't have to worry about you going the wrong way anymore. Our father and son have finally been truly redeemed."

Su Shi'an avoided his gaze, and smiled wryly at himself: "I have risked my life many times to kill a person, until recently, it was the first time I risked my life to save a person. I found that redemption is really more important than Killing is more practical."

"Every time I kill an enemy, my heart is still empty. I know that all I leave behind is coldness and hatred, and this hatred will breed more hatred. No one will applaud me. The enemy has solved a There is another one, I can only keep fighting and struggling.”

"To survive is to continue the endless cycle of hatred. If you die, you will have nothing. It's like a sharp sword hanging above your head, forcing me to keep going. But I can't see what lies ahead. direction, and can’t find the meaning of my own existence.”

"But... saving people is different." His voice also warmed up, "The person I saved will thank me, and his relatives and friends will also surround me to greet me... This feeling , I have never experienced it before." He sighed softly, "I can only admit that love is indeed happier than hate."

He had never told anyone about this journey, including Mo Liangcheng.

He is not used to showing weakness in front of others. Facing Jian Zhiheng and Guan Lin, he always insists on saying "I live a good life" and "I just take revenge for pleasure", but every time the emptiness after revenge, he is unmatched. Say.

Perhaps only in front of his father, he can not shy away from confessing his weaknesses.In front of him, I can seek comfort like a child.

Blood is thicker than water. Since the same blood flows in their bodies, then their own hatred, their own crimes, and their own fragility...Father, maybe they all understand.

My father listened to him quietly, and finally smiled again: "You are talking about this public welfare reality show, right?"

"I can see it all." Amid Su Shi'an's doubts, his father explained with a smile, "Here, every prisoner who performs the best will have the opportunity to watch the show with the guards. Since you entered the Tiangong Gate , I have more opportunities to show my face on public platforms, so I try my best to perform every time, just to...see you more."

Such a system seems to make the prison more humane.

"Here...what do you do every day?" Su Shi'an gradually relaxed, and began to chat with simple homely conversations.And he also realized that for so many years, he never seemed to care about his father's daily life.

My father still smiled, and there was more emotion in his eyes: "In addition to the daily labor, I miss you every day. I will pray for your mother, for you, and for Mrs. Guan day and night. May God bless you." You are safe and sound..."

Next, they kept talking a lot.

That was the first time he was no longer full of resentment, and no longer thought that the person in front of him had ruined him... He could truly communicate with his father frankly as a son and friend.

They talked about the years they missed, and they also talked about many interesting memories.

Knowing that he was coming here, Mo Liangcheng made a special trip to greet the prison, allowing him to walk around with his father accompanied by the jailer.

Now, Su Shi'an is by his father's side, "visiting" the entire prison, "visiting" the place where his father works and lives every day.

It's depressing, it's depressing everywhere.No matter how spacious the space is, the air here is still filled with an indescribable heaviness.It turns out that people who have lost their freedom live like this.

Where they walked, they also saw many other prisoners.They were also charged with various crimes, and some of them were once infamous.But looking at them now, I really can't see the traces of past crimes.They are all working diligently, striving for commutation of sentences, and striving to get out of here as soon as possible and reunite with their families.

Although it is a dark place, it is also a place where sin and new life are intertwined.

Su Shi'an walked and watched all the way, feeling a lot of emotion.

"It's time for prayer, let's go." Suddenly, his father led him into another large room.

Many prisoners had already gathered inside, all listening to the Zen master's lecture.Everyone's face is also full of piety.

According to his father, he has read a lot of scriptures in it over the years and gained some insights.When he sincerely repented for his past crimes, cultivated his body and mind, and finally found that "peace of mind".

For those who survive in prison, the most important thing is to have hope.Other prisoners can work hard and strive for a reduced sentence, but like him, a person who has been sentenced to life imprisonment is destined to be drowned in the dust of the cell for the rest of his life.Under such circumstances, it is indeed of extraordinary significance to have a belief, not to be moved by the vanity of the outside world, and to practice self-cultivation.

"Come and pray together." Father knelt down on the futon, clasped his hands, and closed his eyes. "Repent your sins. As long as your heart is sincere, the gods will forgive you."

Su Shi'an also knelt down in cooperation.Although he knew nothing about these things, he just imitated his father, interrogating his own heart amidst the sound of wooden fish.

The power of faith is invisible, but it does exist.In this room, everyone is praying sincerely, and the gathered power of faith is also subtly transforming every new person who joins.The buzzing bells and the steady rhythm of the wooden fish all turned into a special atmosphere, allowing him to seriously reflect and repent.

The long prayer was over, and it was time for dinner in the prison.

There are vegetarian dishes on several plates, and it is rare to see meat in a month.A piece of monotonous color makes people lose their appetite just looking at it.

Seeing Su Shi'an's frowning expression, his father couldn't help but smile: "Do you think it tastes bad?"

Hearing this kind of coaxing tone, Su Shi'an was stubborn again, and picked up the chopsticks to pick up vegetables on the plate.

"No matter how unpalatable I have eaten!"

Father laughed again, and kept adding vegetables to his bowl.

I spend too little time with this son.When he was very young, he had been working outside for a long time, and then the accident made him completely absent from his childhood.Although on the surface he is aloof from the world and has no desires, but if given the chance, he still wants to see his son cuddling on his lap and acting like a spoiled child, just like an ordinary child.

What I owe him, let myself make up for it.

The other prisoners at the same table looked enviously.They haven't experienced this kind of family warmth for a long time.

After dinner, after a short break, it was time to work again.

Su Shian plowed the land with his father.With the experience of participating in reality TV, he did it very skillfully.

"I heard that Xi Lingchen, the current business boss, was also in prison before. Is it true?" During work, he suddenly remembered something, and couldn't help asking the other prisoners.

He has also been in prison, but Xilingchen is now famous, everyone will only worship and chase him, and no one will mention his disgraceful past.

Sure enough, there is no dirt that is destined to be carried for a lifetime.

The other prisoners immediately chattered: "It's true! I heard that when I was in prison, I met Wang Dongliu, the old president of the Lianghu Chamber of Commerce. They saw that he had business talents, so they gave him such a big treasure house! "

"It's also in prison, why can't we meet such a noble person!"

Su Shi'an glanced at his father, then at the other prisoners, and interrupted them with a faint smile.

"Who says you can't meet them?"

"You take better care of my father now, and when he comes out, I won't treat you badly."

All the prisoners laughed, and there was another joke.

The impact of the death of a policeman in the line of duty was too great. When the principal culprit was imprisoned, he was also notorious and became the boss of the room.Whether it was those who lived with him at that time until now, or the newcomers who came in in the next few years, they were somewhat afraid of him.

However, in the past, he has always been a loner, aloof and indifferent.It was rare for his son to come today, so that everyone could see that he was just an ordinary person, and he yearned for the warmth of his relatives.

"It's time for the interview." After the work was over, the other prisoners went back to their room to rest, but the father went to a separate room again.

"Interview? What interview?" Su Shi'an followed him and asked suspiciously.

Father smiled: "Isn't it because you are outside and stir up the heat of old cases again and again, so some reporters saw the news value and prepared to do an exclusive interview with me. I come every few days, and now I have done it." about there."

Su Shi'an was suddenly embarrassed.Back then, in order to take revenge on Guan Lin's family, he wantonly used the double-edged sword of public opinion.At that time, he really never considered his father's feelings.

"If it will disturb you, how about I send her away?" With a dry smile, he also offered to propose.

The father waved his hand, and the shackles rattled, "It's okay, she's still a very energetic little girl. Besides, I also cherish the opportunity to meet outsiders."

The reporter waiting in the visitor room looked like a young girl who had just graduated, her face was still childish, she was very serious when asking questions, and she had an enthusiasm that had not been extinguished by time.

Although she has tried her best to consider the emotions of the interviewees, individual questions are still somewhat sharp.

When his father frowned subconsciously, Su Shi'an took the initiative to hold his hand.

He hopes that he can bring strength to his father, no matter what storms arise, he will carry them with him!

His father looked at him gratefully, and he knew everything about him.And he also realized that after so many years, his son finally agreed with him, and that was enough.

The interview finally ended in a peaceful atmosphere.

After Su Shi'an left the prison, his authentication status on the micro-time and space was also changed from "the only son of the principal culprit who died in the line of duty" to "the new member of Tiangongmen".

In the past, he has always indulged in this identity, taking revenge on others and himself.

……

At the same time, there was a light knock on the door of Mrs. Guan's house.

Mrs. Guan stopped what she was doing before she opened the door. After seeing the visitor's face clearly, she hastily closed the door vigorously.

Liu Mo raised one hand to support the door, and whispered softly and aggrievedly: "Auntie, why do you close the door as soon as you see me?"

"Do you remember me? I'm Momo! You said before that I am like your own daughter. Every time I come to your house to play, you will make dumplings for me. The dumplings you make taste delicious That's great, I still remember it to this day!"

Mrs. Guan looked at her overly beautiful face, finally sighed softly, and relaxed the force of pushing the door.

"Momo... Ah Duan didn't tell me why you broke up back then, but I, a mother, knew that he was in great pain! Since you were able to leave him so cruelly back then, and you hurt him like that, now Why are you still coming back?"

Liu Mo bowed her head full of apology, and said softly, "Auntie, I know that what happened back then was all my fault, and I didn't cherish Ah Tien properly. But I didn't come here today for Ah Tien, I was worried about you, Auntie... ..."

"Recently, I often see on the news that the chief criminal's son was 'whitewashed', and that old case is often popularly searched. I just think that my aunt will be very sad when she sees it, and Ah Tien is not with you. By your side, after all, he and I have dated once, and we can't be lovers but also friends, so I want to accompany you instead of him."

These few words of hers touched Mrs. Guan's heart and made her pound her chest in pain.

"Yeah, yeah...how can you forgive so easily...then what about the hardships our orphans and widows have suffered all these years?!"

Liu Mo stepped forward to hug her in a timely manner, and gently leaned her head on her shoulder.

"Auntie, even though Ah Duan and I can't go back, you can still treat me as your own daughter! If there is a chance in the future, I will definitely come to take care of you often!"

Mrs. Guan looked at her sadly. When people are weak, their hearts are always the softest.After a brief hesitation, she finally opened the door.

"Good boy... It's hard for you to have a heart. Let's talk about it first."

(End of this chapter)