Evil Emperor Zun

Chapter 1418 The End of the Soul
"My family told me that people are usually in (A)."

"So, I frequently asked my neighbors, (B), the people around me alienated our family."

"No matter what they think of me, I don't care! I really want to see... (C) that incomparable beauty, which makes me tremble when I think about it! Finally... Finally, I don't want to wait anymore, One day I was in the toddler department, (D)!
At that moment, I felt that my consciousness entered another level!I can't see the people around me, and I can't hear what they are talking about. My attention is all attracted by the beautiful colors!But this is too little, not enough, I need more... (E)...

When I woke up, I heard that classmate was crying, and everyone else was huddled in the corner, (F)!isn't it?
Because of this incident, I was expelled from the college, and the neighbors would point and point at me when they saw me. In addition to the original disgust, they also had the same fear as the classmates that day.than those (G).

Both happiness and sadness can be faked, but (H).

My parents also knew that I just wanted to see the color too much, and there was no malice, so they didn't accuse me too much, they just quietly took me to move and transfer to a new place to start again.

They also told me that getting hurt is bad, (I)?
After that, I entered an elementary art college and gradually fell in love with photography.Because I really want to know... Will the world I see be different through the camera?It's a pity that the result still disappointed me. Even in the photo, I still can only see the dead black and white.

Although inherently blind to color, my perception of tone, texture, and movement is much more pronounced, and I can be said to be living in a more intense reality.This also allowed me to be at the top of the class in my comprehension ability when I was learning photography.

I am talented... The photos I took were praised by my instructor for their excellent composition!There are also several photo contests organized by the city, and I have won No.1!I'm obviously a genius, I'm obviously better than everyone else!But I still can't see any color!In the eyes of normal people, the color is as ordinary as sunshine and air!

Fate seemed to play a cruel trick on me...it opened a window for me to fall in love with photography, (J)! ! "

Listening to his frantic confession, Bei Mingzang also sighed silently.

It is true that if ordinary people cannot see colors, life is at most inconvenient, but for an outstanding artist like him, the incomplete vision is almost fatal to him!

"Later, I got a girlfriend." Bai Linwan paused.When someone like him talked about that girl, he couldn't help but have a gentle smile in his eyes.It seemed that it was a rare good memory in his life.

"Her name is Xiaoya, and she is a student of the Department of Fine Arts. The first time I saw her, she was walking from a distance from the auditorium, wearing a pure white shirt, holding a drawing board and painting utensils in her hands, and her long hair was blown by the breeze. Blowing up, fluttering beside her...beautiful like an angel. I always remember her smile that day.

At that time, I won many awards on behalf of the photography department, and I was very popular with my instructors. I was pretty good looking, so I was always a man of the hour in the college, and many girls were chasing me.But I can tell that what they fancy is only my appearance or status, and they think that being with me will be very beautiful... They all have impure thoughts!I can see the vanity in their eyes!
Only Xiaoya is different... She is pure, she doesn't have so many messy thoughts, she just concentrates on studying art.We sometimes have classes together and ask questions from the instructor together...I will guide her on the composition of the picture, and she will also help me find beautiful scenery, and accompany me to take pictures...What she appreciates is my talent, and It's not something I can bring to her, only she is the girl who can make my heart beat...!
In this way, I confessed to her. Although Xiaoya dodged it shyly at the time, I knew that she also liked me, so we hugged each other soon... In this way, we started dating.

The days with her are very happy. We will sit by the lake together to take pictures, go to the park to fly kites, ride bicycles, and do all the things that normal couples will do...With her by my side, I feel that this black and white world is like It's not so boring anymore.

Xiaoya loves life very much, and she often tells me about the world she sees.In her description, the world is so beautiful, so colorful... On the surface, I just smiled and echoed her. After so long, I have been able to skillfully disguise myself as a normal person, making people including Xiaoya Everyone in the world can't see my incompleteness.But in my heart, I feel like a hundred claws are scratching my heart!I'm starting to want to see more and more!I also want to see the same world as Xiaoya! ...

Back home during that holiday, I expressed to my parents my wish to see it, and that was my only wish... But they said that the current level of medical treatment is indeed incurable, and there is nothing they can do.They just hope that I don't feel inferior and can continue to live happily like when I was a child.

How am I supposed to be happy...damn it!How can I be happy living in a world that is different from everyone else!That was my first time (K)! ...

After venting, I regretted it again. (L)...After that day, my parents bought me a lot of red paint to compensate me. They knew that red was the only color I could see, and they knew that I like red. They thought that if I could see it anytime, anywhere If it is red, it may also be a kind of comfort to me.

I used those paints to paint every inch of the room, from the walls to the tables and chairs, bright red.Even though it is the same bright red color, I always feel that something is missing, not as shocking as when I saw it for the first time.I feel very disappointed.

Later, I finally realized that it was because of (M)...

So, I started trying to collect (N) from various ways!
My parents see me holding that kind of book every day. Although their words are flickering...they look at me a little wrongly, but after all, these photos are the only ones that can bring me happiness now, so they acquiesced.

After seeing those photos too much, I always feel something is suppressed in my heart, (O)!
However, when I invited Xiaoya to visit my experiment...the way she looked at me, she also appeared (P)...

why?Doesn't she appreciate my talent?Doesn't she not love vanity, if she likes me, she likes everything about me?Then why when I showed my real side, she just ran away in fear?
She also said, (Q)!
When I saw, (R)...I really love her!I hope she can accompany me and witness my glory...!
One night, my parents asked me why Xiaoya hadn't come to eat at home for a long time, and I replied, (S)...

While talking, I still bowed my head (T).

After hearing Xiaoya's response, I excitedly told my parents, '(U)! '

The parents seem to be stunned, after a long silence, (V).

(W)...they just pulled me and said they want to take me to (X)? "

"You..." Bei Mingzang also felt his throat roll up, "(Y)..." He couldn't say what to say next.

"(Z)?"

"You... you people are the same as my parents, you are all a bunch of common people!"

"When I come to my senses, (N word)..."

"Xiaoya has always loved beauty, (n word)..."

"I found a lot of beautiful people. Some of them have very well-maintained skin, some have beautiful facial features, and some have beautiful fingers. Unfortunately, they still have various defects. No one is absolutely perfect... But It's okay, (omit the N word)?"

"(Omit the n word), transform yourself a little bit, enrich yourself... From my artistic vision, this is definitely not a problem."

From what he said, I don't know who he is (omitted), but that's how he came here... Bei Mingzang wanted to vomit.

"In order to carry forward my art, I stepped into the fashion circle, and soon met a girl named Tong Xiqian." Confiding all the darkness that was hidden in her, Bai Linwan still remained expressionless. In his heart, he may have always regarded all this as pride, not shame.

"At that time, she was not well-known, and she was chasing her dream. The first time I saw her, I just got a good job to help an advertising director shoot hard photos. I need cooperation, mainly a A hot-tempered first-line actress. It is said that she often plays big names on the set and has driven away several photographers. She is notoriously difficult to get along with. This time, the director really had no choice but to consider letting me, a newcomer Come and try.

Is that actress very angry?I think it's okay, when she talks to me, she will lower her airs to accommodate me.Maybe it's my perfect face... that makes her angry even if she wants to.

She is the heroine of the advertisement, and there is also a girl in a supporting role on the scene, and there are not many shots in total.But she just stood there honestly, wearing a clean white dress, neither fighting nor grabbing, neither arrogant nor impetuous, listening carefully to the director's explanation, nodding slightly from time to time, with serious and persistent brilliance in her eyes, just Like a ray of wind passing by.Seeing her... I actually had the same feeling as when I saw Xiaoya for the first time. "

(End of this chapter)