Evil Emperor Zun

Chapter 1668
Yi Xin went to the film crew this time to bid farewell to the director and other staff members.

She decided to leave anyway.The young master really won't let it go. Before, he told himself viciously that if he didn't do what he said, he would attack her friends, for example, Xu Wenwen.

He said, my father is the director of the college, and I can find any excuse for the college to punish her.Even if she was fired directly, her family had nothing to say!

Once it is recorded and fired, it means to a certain extent that her future is over.Naturally, Yi Xin couldn't let him ruin Wenwen, so she could only compromise.

Maybe it's like what the young master said, she is easy to control, because her heart is too soft, she cares about too many people, and she never wants them to be hurt because of herself.As long as he knows this, he can hold her firmly in his palm.But even so, she never wants to live as a person who only cares about herself one day, she has her principles.

At present, she has signed a contract with the company for this film, and if she stops filming midway, it will be considered a breach of contract.As a reward for her obedience, Rong Huang also took a step back and reached an agreement with her to let her finish filming this drama in the shortest possible time, and not accept the next female lead drama.

She didn't intend to tell Wenwen about these things.Wenwen is still obsessed with the young master, she doesn't want her to know that the perfect person in her eyes can easily use her as a bargaining chip; she doesn't want her to know what she has done to protect her.

However, it was Wenwen, whom she wanted to protect, who had a big fight with her a few days ago.

After finally recovering from the recent academic pressure, Wenwen came to her and asked for President Xiling's contact information.

——Ever since Liu Mo leaked this information to her "with ulterior motives", Xu Wenwen has been obsessed with it.But a few days ago, she was so busy that she was arrested by her head teacher to make up lessons, and she was making support boards for idol Yan Nanqing's concert, so she put it on hold for now.Now that I'm free, it's natural to get in touch with Chairman Xiling.

President Xiling had specifically told himself not to leak his contact information, Yi Xin explained to Xu Wenwen in a good voice, telling her that she really couldn't give it to others without authorization, and she needed to ask President Xiling for permission first. .But Xu Wenwen was angry, thinking that she was deliberately making excuses and refused to give her, and was "treating her as an outsider".

With Xu Wenwen's mouth, when she got angry, she would say all sorts of ugly things.Even "I just found out today that you are guarding me like a thief", "Don't you just want to eat alone", "You have a young master and you are not satisfied, you are on two boats", it hurts Yi Xin's heart.

After the incident at the hospital last time, the two broke up again.

During this quarrel, Yi Xin's biggest feeling was not sadness or anger, but loneliness.

She cares about many people, but how many people really care about her?With so many troubles recently, she really wants to talk to someone, but who can she rely on?
Although she has gotten a lot closer to Brother Xiao, she doesn't want to always pour bitterness on him, making him feel very troublesome whenever he thinks of herself; President Xiling, Senior Sister Liu Mo, and Sister Liang are all busy people, and she is embarrassed to let him They listened to the troubles of these little girls; Shiyu, Sister Long'er, and Sister Yanyan were far away in a different plane, unable to accompany her;

Chen Xi is a new classmate, she knows nothing about her past; Dai Hang, he has already lived a very hard life due to family reasons, and she doesn't want to add another hard work to him; Hao Wenbo, their relationship It doesn't seem to be that good yet; Xie Shaochen...why do you think of him again?He's already ignoring himself...

So far, she has only the last few shots left, and the director promised that she will shoot her scenes in one go today.Because she is not an important role, the requirements for many details of the performance are not so high, basically one pass.Then she took advantage of the break to say goodbye to those who were closer to the crew.

In fact, she was a little hesitant to say goodbye to Xie Shaochen.After I left, I basically had no contact with him in my life. Out of politeness, it seemed that it was better to talk about it.But she doesn't know what he thinks of her now, maybe going to him is just hitting a snag...?
She found that she was subconsciously prolonging the time to say goodbye to other people. She wanted to do a little more psychological construction, which could be regarded as giving the two of them a chance.

When she had procrastinated to the point where she could no longer procrastinate and had to prepare to leave, Xie Shaochen actually took the initiative to walk in front of her.

"angel..." He doesn't look as cold today as he was in the county government last time, but it's also not like the previous period when they could talk freely.He was a little timid, as if he was afraid of being rejected by himself, and he was cautiously flattering when he spoke, "Can we walk?
"There are a few words I want to tell you," he added with a sincere expression after a short pause, "Maybe this is the last time."

"...Of course, if you don't want to, I will never force you." Seeing that she didn't respond, he smiled wryly, and added another sentence mockingly.

Seeing him like this, Yi Xin's heart softened again, and she gently agreed: "Then... okay."

Xie Shaochen was obviously relieved for a moment, and his smile also revealed a bit of sunlight at this moment, and he nodded vigorously.

Yi Xin remembered that he had shown such a relieved expression many times because of his attitude.A person will be satisfied just because of a little kindness of himself.This suddenly made her feel a little bit sorry for him.

Soon, the two were strolling together on the streets outside the college.

After such a long time, Yi Xin's mentality has been adjusted a lot now, and it is not so embarrassing to face him again.Although there will still be a little bit of fear, but this is on the street with people coming and going, so nothing should happen.

After the two of them walked for a while in silence, Xie Shaochen took the initiative to speak.

"I know, I am a dead person in your eyes now, maybe you don't even want to see me anymore. But I mainly... I hope you don't have any pressure, things will turn out like this, It's all my own fault, I deserve it, it's all my problem, you're fine, you're really fine."

"How should I put it, I hope you don't dare to make friends anymore because of this incident. It's unnecessary. You can still... Live the life you want. I also believe that you will meet again in the future." Anyone who arrives will definitely be better than me.”

Yi Xin looked at him blankly, even though she really wanted to tell him that it wasn't like this, she also had her fault, and she wanted him not to call himself so useless.But in a hurry, she didn't know what to say. She felt that there were a lot of things in her mind, and she needed time to sort them out.

Because she didn't answer, Xie Shaochen probably thought she acquiesced to these words, his smile gradually became bitter: "If you don't know what to say to me, then listen to me."

"You see, I'm really a useless person, am I? I'll screw up everything in my hands. I've messed up my work and my relationship. Now, I've even screwed up you. "

On the day he left the village, he promised his family that he would gain a firm foothold in the big city.But now he is just filling the bottom group.Become the group of people who are needed by this city and can be replaced at any time.

When we are young, we always think that we can control the world.When we grow up, we try our best just not to be controlled by the world.

"This city is very snobbish. It doesn't care about the feelings of the people living here. It only cares about whether they have made achievements. Only the voices of successful people have a chance to be heard. The lives of ordinary people are not as good as grass."

Looking at such a bustling street, there is a lot of traffic, and it is a thriving scene.But it is also here, how many people stay up all night for a meager salary, and finally collapse at work; , these sorrows and tears will soon be submerged by the hustle and bustle of the city again.

When the sun rises, vehicles are still running on the street, and people are still rushing between the cubicles, as if everyone is full of hope for life.But those who sleep in the past are forever left in yesterday.

"And it will make you despair, make you feel that you only deserve to be here because you can't catch up with the upper class. It will wear down your enthusiasm day by day, and make you really willing to work as a laborer. "

"I sometimes feel like it's like a high-speed wheel that only takes a limited number of people to the destination, while throwing away everyone who can't keep up with the rhythm."

"I don't know when it will be my turn. In short, when I realized that no matter how hard I try, my mentality is getting worse and worse. I can't just be a transparent person like this all the time. I also I want to leave something behind, something that can prove my existence in this city.”

"Yes, I don't want others to live a good life. I can't understand why some people can live so well, so I might as well make things difficult for them. At least I have changed some things a little. That's what I think."

"After I met you, I really tried to live like you, but I soon found that I couldn't. If forgiveness can make you happy, then hatred and revenge can make me happy. Maybe people are born to be doomed There are two kinds, one is good and the other is evil, and I am the bad one."

After Yi Xin had been listening for so long, she finally found a chance to interject.

"Although I don't know whether I understand what you want to express, but I think I can probably understand what you said."

"I often have this feeling too. The world is big, but I am very small, and I can't find the meaning of my existence. I used to always feel that there is no more than one in the group, and there is a lot less than me. I am like a Extra people. Especially when there are group activities, this feeling is more obvious."

"For example, for some activities, everyone decorates the classroom together. I don't know what I can do, so I can only stay alone. There are also sports games, and other students will work hard to cheer for the class, but My reaction was very flat. The sense of collective honor seems to be insulated from me."

"However...then one time, the instructor asked me to form a small team with a few classmates to participate in a math competition outside the academy. At that time, because I had the best grades, the instructor asked me to be the team leader."

"It's strange to say that if I were an ordinary team member, I would probably just learn by myself. Team tasks, anyway, someone else will do it. But because I am a team leader, I have an extra sense of responsibility. I will help everyone make a review plan very seriously, and I will help others if they fall behind a little bit, and I want to lead this team wholeheartedly."

"Later, we really took No.1. That was the first time I felt that I was needed, that I was no longer an insignificant person in the group."

"I said this because I realized that for everyone, the role that suits them is different. Some people may like to be part of a team. There are many things that you don't need to worry about too much. As long as you are honest It is enough to actually complete the tasks assigned by the team. But some people cannot integrate into other teams, and they prefer to have a team led by themselves. Maybe... I am this type of person, I want to start a business now , for the same reason.”

"What I want to tell you is... don't underestimate yourself. Everyone must have their own position in society. What we are doing now is to find this position through continuous attempts."

Yi Xin didn't know if he had expressed his meaning clearly.Having said so much in one breath, she felt a little embarrassed, Xie Shaochen looked at her for a while, but couldn't help laughing.

"You're still like this. Obviously you have a lot of problems, but as long as you see someone unhappy, you will still enlighten him."

There was a relaxed look on his brows again, but soon, sadness was added again.

"I'm very happy to know you, but it might be a disaster for you to know me."

"Not anymore," Yi Xin quickly explained, "I still have a lot of fun..."

She wanted to find something happy to say, but the more she tried, the more she couldn't find a clue.Seeing her distressed look, Xie Shaochen couldn't help laughing again.

"Before today, there was something I had been thinking about whether I should tell you or not. Although it might be meaningless to say it now, let's say it anyway. I... I'm sorry, I let you go through all this. "

"Actually...you don't need to apologize to me." Yi Xin hesitated to speak.In fact, if he could apologize to senior sister Song Panlei, she would be happier.But she also knew that he would not like to hear such words, and the senior sister would never want to see him again, so she endured it and said nothing.

When she was secretly distressed, Xie Shaochen suddenly gave her a hand.Yi Xin came back to her senses again, just in time to see a motorcycle speeding past in front of her, if she had just walked past in such a trance, she might have been hit right now.She was startled, and quickly thanked him: "Thank you."

Next, she mustered up the courage to apologize for what her family said to him in the hospital last time.

After all, I chose to be friends with him at the beginning, so it is really wrong to say that he harassed me.

Seeing that she was still so pure and kind, Xie Shaochen couldn't help but feel guilty for wanting revenge.He said a little stiffly: "Your family also wants to protect you, and I didn't take it to heart."

At this moment, he was suddenly very grateful that Mo Qianlong persuaded him.If she had really done something terrible back then, she wouldn't be talking to herself so kindly now.

"Well, how should I put it..." Yi Xin hesitated for a long time, and finally decided to tell him, she tried her best to express it tactfully, "Malicious words are very hurtful, I don't want others to hurt you, and I don't want you To hurt others, I hope everyone around me can be fine."

Xie Shaochen was silent.Maybe he couldn't give her such a promise after all.

No matter how long this street is, it will eventually come to an end.The parting was imminent, and he finally took the initiative to provoke a cruel topic.

"Then... that's about it. Anyway, we have contact information. If you still want to talk to me in the future, then you can talk to me, and I will definitely get back to you. If you don't talk to me, then I will also I won't take the initiative to find you, so as not to embarrass you again."

Yi Xin got stuck for a while: "Ah... I actually don't find people to chat with very much. I spend most of my time studying, and recently I'm studying business administration by myself... So don't think too much, you can still find me!"

Xie Shaochen bowed his head and remained silent.His smile at the moment is very bitter, but there is also a hint of relief in the bitterness.

She is really kind, and until this time she is still stepping down the steps for both parties, but the meaning in her words is already obvious, she will not take the initiative to find herself again.

Then, in order to avoid embarrassing her, I don't bother her anymore.

But that's okay, after today's communication, his heart knot was untied, and now he gave up her voluntarily, instead of others forcing him to give up her.And she said that she could still contact her, even though it was just a polite remark, it made him feel that he hadn't completely lost her.

"For my parents, I will find an opportunity to tell them that we have broken up, and tell them not to contact you anymore." He offered to resolve these follow-up disputes for her.

Yi Xin bit her lips lightly, and a trace of unbearableness flashed in her eyes: "Uncles and aunts are very good people... I don't want them to worry too much. If I just chat with them occasionally, I can still do it Or, let's break up after you really find your own happiness?"

"I know that in my life, there is no hope with the person I like the most. I really hope...you can be happy." Finally, she stared at him and sincerely expressed her wish.

Xie Shaochen couldn't help asking: "Since you like it so much, why don't you try harder?"

Yi Xin shook her head gently: "I can see that brother Xiao is very happy now, he and sister Liang are very happy together. I don't want to destroy them. To love someone is to hope that he can get the best happiness ?”

Seeing the satisfaction on her face, the satisfaction she had because of Rong Xiao's happiness, Xie Shaochen sighed and stopped interfering with her choice.

"...You really are an angel. An angel who is always thinking of others." In the end, he just said with emotion.

Now, they have come to a crossroads.

"Then... I'll go this way." Yi Xin pointed slightly to the right.

Xie Shaochen nodded, and glanced to the left: "I'm going over there."

In this way, they embarked on opposite paths and never looked back.

Xie Shaochen still stayed where he was, watching Yi Xin's back gradually recede until it merged into the brilliance of the setting sun and was blurred into a small silhouette.Sure enough, she was destined to walk into the light.

After watching her walk away, Xie Shaochen walked in the opposite direction.Their shadows were stretched very long, and soon they each merged with many shadows on the street.It also seems to indicate that they will have their own lives, and they will each meet new friends and find a new destination.And for the rest of their lives, there will be no intersection.

Only then did Xie Shaochen lightly let out a breath of turbid air that was suppressed in his heart.

She used to be the only ray of light in his life, his last conscience, and now, this last conscience is gone.

She will become a better person, and she will become someone who is no longer worthy of her.

Some people just walk away.

(End of this chapter)