Rebel Demon King

Chapter 1091 The West of Timing (10)

In terms of feelings, Cheng Mo has always preferred absurdity to openness.He is deeply aware that some things can be deceived, but there must be no deception in terms of feelings.So whether it was Xie Minyun, Athena, Shen Youyi or even Gao Yuemei, he did not cheat in any way.

Therefore, even though Shen Youyi expressed his attitude to him with very literary and affectionate words, and said very euphemistically that she didn't mind, Cheng Mo still didn't intend to hide his situation and everything he had experienced.He knew that what Shen Youyi said didn't mind that one refers to Xie Minyun and the other refers to Gao Yuemei. Originally, he could have avoided the embarrassing things without saying anything, or just mentioned them all, but Cheng Mo still planned to tell the whole story without hesitation. .He glanced at Cheng Linglu, who was sleeping soundly, and asked in a low voice, "I have a long story to say, so I won't disturb you if I say it here."

"Xiaolu," Shen Youyi raised his head and said, with a sweet smile on his face, "Her nickname is Xiaolu. As long as she doesn't speak too loudly, she won't wake her up. She is used to it. Just typing in front of the desk, crackling, sometimes she can't fall asleep without hearing it, and occasionally I talk to Xiaonan, she won't wake up either."

When it comes to his daughter, Shen Youyi's face will immediately be filled with waves of happiness.Cheng Mo's mood was complicated, for some reason he was a little bit jealous of Shen Youyi's love for his daughter.He turned his head and looked at the chair with the cushion and back of "East of Time Series", and whispered, "Then let's sit down and talk!"

Shen Youyi nodded, turned around and carefully helped Cheng Mo drag the chair out of the desk, while she sat curlingly on the side of the bed.

Cheng Mo saw Shen Youyi sitting on the wooden bunk bed that he used to sleep every night, his eyes were in a daze, as if he was in a dark dream with floating foam.Everything in front of me feels unrealistic and unreal.He stared at Shen Youyi intently for a while, then turned on the wiretapping shield, and said softly: "I have to start with the 'Asgard' operation, which was November [-], and I suddenly took over Upon notification, go to Europa for training."

Cheng Mo's narration without much emotion sounded in the quiet air, without too many adjectives or metaphors, all of which were expressions like journals, from his arrival in Europe to Denmark, where he met Stern King, and then to Greece. Fight against Xiyuanji Benimaru again, then go to Italy to enter the arena for the first time, then go to Paris, and Xie Minyun to attend the banquet held by Napoleon VII at Fontainebleau Palace. Turn around in Europa, Only then went to Christian Field and entered the "Land of Asgard Ruins".

Hearing Cheng Mo say that he got the "Singer's Horn", Shen Youyi also became elated.Speaking of fleeing through Europa, even though Cheng Mo's tone was light, Shen Youyi felt that everything was extremely thrilling. She listened so fascinatedly that she didn't even notice the continuous vibration of her mobile phone.After Cheng Mo reminded her, she turned off the phone without looking at it, and couldn't wait for Cheng Mo to continue talking.

Then came the main event - the Paris attacks.As soon as the clown Sith came out, Shen Youyi couldn't help but raised his hand to cover his heart.She has no habit of climbing over the wall at all, and she doesn't usually go online very much, so she didn't know that Cheng Mo and Xie Minyun had been on TV during the French terrorist attack, but she only knew that Cheng Mo and Xie Minyun disappeared during the Paris terrorist attack.Of course, many people saw this scene, but the domestic network was blocked too quickly, and it was eliminated before causing waves.Overseas, due to various reasons that Cheng Mo has not been able to figure out clearly for the time being, he chose to delete all the scenes about Cheng Mo and Xie Minyun, and focused the reports on the clown Sith and the Black Death, which made Cheng Mo not Famous all over the world.

Today, Shen Youyi just heard this epic and magnificent plot of life and death from Cheng Mo's mouth, and his breath became short of breath several times.When Cheng Mo said that Xie Minyun chose to self-destruct at the top of the Eiffel Tower in order to rescue the Parisians, Shen Youyi couldn't help nodding and weeping, holding back his sobs, got up and took a tissue several times.

It wasn't until Cheng Mo talked about how he took revenge, how he was coerced by Jing Quan and Gao Yuemei to go to Xila, that Shen Youyi regained his composure.Cheng Mo did not evade his own question at all, and analyzed to Shen Youyi the reasons why he chose to have a relationship with Gao Yuemei, and also said that he was grateful for Gao Yuemei's current feelings, and there was also a bit of love, but not that much. kind of love.

Shen Youyi never spoke, just listened silently with red eyes, but Cheng Mo could observe from her silent expression Shen Youyi's complex emotions towards Gao Yuemei, Cheng Mo didn't know what kind of job it was He didn't intend to explain his emotions, except that he lamented that everything was a bad relationship, and he didn't intend to make peace for the two of them.In his opinion, it would be best for these two people not to meet each other in the future.

Then it comes to the plot between him and Athena. This paragraph is still straightforward, but the focus is no longer on my own psychological changes, but more about what kind of person Athena is.But when Xu Liya saw Xie Minyun's photo again, Cheng Mo spent a lot of words expressing the shock in his heart.

After recounting the experience of these years in general, including the matter of preparing to get married with Athena, Cheng Mo let out a deep breath, straightened his body at the edge of the lamp circle, forced a smile, and said softly Said: "For me, the experience of the past few years is a baptism, especially after I was locked up for so long, I came out to see the sun, and felt that the sun was so warm for the first time. It turns out that taking a hot bath is so happy. I Hearing the music playing on the TV, although it is not my favorite style of music, it is also very pleasant. I made Coke by hand in a remote Middle Eastern village. The taste and ice cubes really made me want to cry. I was in the sea Wandering, met a lot of interesting people, each of them has a different personality, like Khalid, his family is what he cherishes most; like Heller, the freedom and happiness of queer people is what she strives for The goal, like Dr. Azar, is his dream to achieve national independence. Like Uncle Mohammad, he lived very confused and lost his direction, but now he seems to have found hope again. Everyone's happiness and pain are different , but they are all alive and strong." He paused and closed his eyes, "I met Athena, she is a very good girl, originally only mathematics was interesting to her in the world, but I've taught her to watch cartoons now, taught her to drink coke, taught her to chop vegetables and skewers, and maybe taught her how to like someone I'm really happy, I think I still have some meaning in this world .Today I held your hand again, and I saw my daughter. Although there are still many problems between us, and even though my emotions are complicated and difficult to describe in words, I found that these ordinary little happiness can make me so Nostalgia for the world. I thought, so! It turns out that I am not as afraid of death as I imagined. When I had a heart attack, it was just because I didn’t live well enough, so I kept deceiving myself with various philosophies. Maybe I don't want to admit defeat to the illness, so I stubbornly say to fate that I am not afraid. There is a kind of stubbornness of a child who refuses to admit defeat."

Cheng Mo found himself once again unable to restrain his boiling emotions, perhaps because he finally returned to this place called his hometown, perhaps because this house was the harbor where he lived, perhaps because Shen Youyi was his most nostalgic Tenderness, maybe he has been suppressed for too long and needs to talk.He unreservedly confided everything to Shen Youyi, his hopes, his fears, his satisfaction, and his greed.
Hearing Cheng Mo's confession, Shen Youyi's eye sockets were moistened again, she raised her delicate hand to wipe her eye sockets, and said softly: "Today, I'm going to shed all the tears in my whole life."

Cheng Mo wanted to get up and help Shen Youyi wipe away his tears, but felt that he was not qualified yet, so he got up a little and pretended to put it down inadvertently.At this time, he deeply understood the sentence: life is not God's poem, but the laughter and tears of mortals.

Wiping away the tears, Shen Youyi said again: "It is only now that I understand that I was not unhappy before, but I always felt that I did not deserve to be happy, I should not be happy. I always have a sense of guilt, whether it is about Luo Jiayi or you. I don’t allow myself to be happy about anything, as if I’m making mistakes when I’m happy, and I can only escape from myself in the book. But after knowing that you sent me a painting, and you may have misunderstood something, I’m really afraid of losing you, yes For me, you are the only other shore I can live in. I must reach you even in the face of huge waves. When I was interviewed, I thought very clearly that perhaps the most important thing for a person is not to fulfill The "responsibility" imposed on me by those moral families is not to achieve ideals or certain missions, let alone to be a master, but to enjoy life. No matter what role I am playing in society, no matter what my Whether my talent and character will be recognized by others, no matter who I am just a tool person or an atmosphere group, as long as it is my own hard-earned happiness, it belongs to me and I am worthy of it. I I don't want anything else, and I don't care too much, I just want what you give me. Good or bad, I will accept it calmly. Because you are my most precious and most important." She looked at Cheng Mo, lightly , but said firmly, "You are my destiny."

Cheng Mo and Shen Youyi looked at each other, and the warm atmosphere flowed between the two people's eyes, "Teacher, you are also my destiny. If it weren't for you, I wouldn't be who I am now. You don't know the days when you were locked up in prison. , how do I spend it, every day I take bread slices and that bottle of water, I will think of the days with you. In the winter rainy evening, listening to the raindrops hitting the window to stew braised beef and pork ribs and radish soup. The cold spring In the evening, I recited Borges' "The Lover" with steamed bacon and steamed rice cakes. In the sultry summer afternoon, I listened to Lisa Ono taste the rose honey smoothie. In the cooler autumn night, I sat on the balcony and watched the moon, chewing crabapple crisps and Chestnut biscuits This is by far the way I have resisted all the low moods. And those days spent in Dawei Mountain, we were happy at night and we were happy during the day, those were my most boundless happy days .It was those sweet days that gave me the confidence to persevere and not give up hope in the face of any danger."

Speaking of Dawei Mountain, Shen Youyi's fair cheeks blushed, she lowered her head a little shyly, and whispered: "I can only bring you very small happiness, I'm not that important."

Cheng Mo said eagerly: "No"

"Cheng Mo, listen to me." Shen Youyi gazed into Cheng Mo's eyes affectionately, "I know that this universe is vast and infinite, and my thoughts are infinitely good even though they are delicate. And, precisely because I know that I am not so indispensable to you, and I will cherish you and myself more. I will understand you so that I will not be messed up. I have the courage to go through alone, no matter how lonely the situation is, I will stick to myself and will not give up this hard-won relationship. I understand myself and you, so I am worthy of the reward given to me by fate. This is not Sacrifice for you, but a sacrifice to be my true self. I am not greedy for your love and care, but to make a fair deal with you, which is not fair at all. Far more than what I can give you. Perhaps for most women, a sense of security, being loved all the time, and growing old together are their value and happiness, but this is not mine. What you give me, The magnificent and dangerous world of the Chosen One, the rebellious and deep love affair, and the unexpected waiting and landing are exactly what I want. This is what I need. Even if I can’t get a title for this, I don’t feel ashamed .I will not compromise because of disapproval of the world. I don’t want to live in this world in a false way. I don’t want to be that flower in a vase that is only for people to appreciate. Reckless, I will live in this world according to my will."

Is there a more affectionate and touching confession than this?Cheng Mo felt that it was gone, if there was anyone in this world who could love him wholeheartedly, then apart from Shen Youyi, Cheng Mo felt that there was no one else who could do so.His heart was trembling, this ferocious love caused Cheng Mo's tear glands to burn, he knew that this was the love he was looking forward to, and when he got here, he no longer needed any more love, he even Hope to be able to reach the end in this state.

Cheng Mo closed his eyes.

The air is filled with the smell of damp and faint roses, the neon lights outside the window are gradually extinguished, and the dark night envelopes the whole room.

After a while, Cheng Mo opened his eyes, and asked softly, "Then would you like to see her tomorrow?"

"Athena?"

Cheng Mo nodded.

Shen Youyi turned his head to stare at Cheng Linglu, and said with some embarrassment: "What's so good about this?"

"She likes you very much and knows about our relationship."

"Ah!?" Shen Youyi exclaimed softly, then immediately covered her mouth, she shook her head in a panic and said, "Then I can't see you anymore!"

Cheng Mo thought about Athena's conditions and his headache was splitting. Having such a wife who can't figure out what she thinks is definitely not something worth celebrating. When thinking about it like this, he dared not think in front of Athena.He persuaded him insincerely: "Xiaoxi, Athena is a very easy-going person, you'll know it when you meet her, and she doesn't mind Xiaolu either. So we can be together in a fair and honest manner."

"How can this be done? How can this be done?" Shen Youyi's expression was very disturbed, she was completely unprepared to see Athena.

"It's nothing wrong, she even joined your book friend group! She was the one who asked me to go to your book signing in Beijing that day."

"Really?" Shen Youyi asked suspiciously.

"I'm sure I won't lie to you!?"

"Well, let me think about it, okay?"

"How long will it take to think about it? Is one night enough?"

Shen Youyi asked with worried eyes, "Is it only for one night?"

Cheng Mo glanced at Cheng Linglu and said, "I want to celebrate the New Year with you and Xiaolu."

"Okay." Shen Youyi nodded.

Cheng Mo asked in surprise, "You agreed?"

"No, it's not." Shen Youyi shook her head in a panic, she whispered, "I mean let me think about it for one night."

Cheng Mo let out a very disappointed "Oh".

Shen Youyi sat on the edge of the bed and played with her fingers nervously for a while, then suddenly got up and bumped into the upper bunk, she suppressed the pain and let out a groaning sound.Cheng Mo hurried over, wanting to show her a rub, but was gently pushed away by Shen Youyi, she whispered: "Others are still waiting for you in the hotel, you should go back early!"

"It's okay, she never cares about me." Cheng Mo said, "Speaking of it, the emotional component between us is more friendship than love."

Shen Youyi stroked the top of his head, took a breath, and said softly: "That's not okay, you'd better go back early." Saying that, Shen Youyi pushed Cheng Mo out of the door.

Seeing that Shen Youyi's attitude was firm, Cheng Mo had no choice but to leave the room.The two pushed their way to the door.Cheng Mo grabbed the doorknob and said, "I finally came back, do you just let me go like this?"

"Someone else, a foreigner, will come back to your hometown with you. What's the matter with you fooling around with other women?"

"Why do you call it a fool? Are you a ghost? What the hell?"

Shen Youyi snapped his teeth and claws, and said: "I am a female ghost, a Dou Nu, let's see if you are afraid!" The protagonist Nan Sanfu in this article can be regarded as the number one scumbag in Liao Zhai. After this scumbag lied to Dou Nu’s body, he immediately refused to admit it. When Dou Nu came over to beg with the child, he didn’t Letting them in, caused the two of them to freeze to death outside. After the death of Dou Nu, she became a ghost, and Nan Sanfu got the retribution she deserved.)
Shen Youyi's fangs and claws are also very dignified and beautiful, Cheng Mo looks a little crazy.There was no light in the dining room, only a few gleams of moonlight in the living room, his heart was like a falling meteor in the desolate and silent night, he let go of the hand holding the cold handle, turned around and stared at Shen Youyi hidden in the shadows face.Her face is plain, without any makeup or jewelry, only a simple purple headband tied behind her long black hair.The pink apron is topped high, drawing unscientific arcs under the meager light.He thought of that soft and huge tenderness, and his heart became hotter and hotter.

Cheng Mo couldn't hold back the throbbing in his heart anymore, he reached out and hugged Shen Youyi, holding her waist as tight as before. Leaned over.Shen Youyi dodged a few times, and Cheng Mo pressed her hard against the door. Amidst the rapid panting, Shen Youyi gave up resistance, and finally put the bracelet around his neck, followed by a long and short rubbing of ears and temples.

Just when the situation was getting more and more difficult to deal with, Cheng Linglu's call sounded in the room: "Mom! Mom!"

Shen Youyi hurriedly pushed Cheng Mo away, she didn't dare to see Cheng Mo's eyes shining in the dark, she begged with a charming voice like silk: "You know I can't refuse you, but I really don't want to be here That's it tonight."

"I know, I know" Cheng Mo took several deep breaths, Shen Youyi was an irresistible temptation to him, but it was this irresistibility that was also the reason why he had to respect her.He turned around and held the doorknob again, no longer looking at Shen Youyi, who was more attractive than all the beauty in the world, "Then I will pick you up and Xiaolu tomorrow morning."

"Didn't I say it would be considered for one night?"

"If you have the heart to leave Athena alone in the hotel for the New Year, I agree."

The mother's cry sounded again inside, and Shen Youyi said with some sadness: "You go!"

Cheng Mo opened the door, and when he walked out of the room, he said: "Tomorrow, our family of four will celebrate New Year's Eve together! There must be no one left."

Shen Youyi gave a soft "hmm", then walked towards the room in a panic.

Cheng Mo stared at Shen Youyi's swaying figure in the faint night, and closed the door cruelly.After going downstairs, the night wind was bleak, and Jiang Jun, who was guarding downstairs, pressed the window of the Rolls Royce and asked, "Aren't you going back by car?"

Cheng Mo waved his hand very depressed, "No, let me go."

Jiang Jun would not ask why, and drove behind him.Cheng Mo walked in the cold wind, looked back at the lights at home, and then at the lights of the IFS Hotel not far away, and let out a long sigh. It should be a very happy day, but why can he only be alone? Walking in the cold wind?

But thinking of tomorrow, he became happy again, and he thought where he should take Shen Youyi, mother and daughter, and Athena.Thinking of himself holding his daughter, Shen Youyi and Athena on the left and right, Cheng Mo felt that gods were nothing more than that.

Of course, it would be even better if he could not be kicked out of the room at night. But it would be terrible if Athena covered him with electrodes and observed him.

Cheng Mo shuddered, thinking of how to persuade Shen Youyi to cooperate with Athena's research work, he felt that this was simply more difficult than any conjecture in the world
(End of this chapter)