Rebel Demon King

Chapter 1266 Ragnarok of the Gods (44)

During the lengthy self-analysis, Cheng Mo suddenly stopped. He stared at the pilgrim's star-like bright and dark robes, as if his soul had been sucked into it.

However, the pilgrim didn't give him more time to think, and said puzzledly: "I don't understand what you mean, child, do you still want to get entangled with your unfortunate fate? Is there anything specific that you are worried about?"

Cheng Mo raised his head and looked directly at the dizzying rainbow-colored halo above the pilgrim's head, "What kind of life can be considered a happy life?"

"Everyone's answer is different, you need to ask yourself this." The pilgrim replied meaningfully.

"Yeah! You have to ask yourself." Cheng Mo nodded, "The process of our growth is actually the process of understanding the world. And there are some things that we haven't experienced before, so we can't understand them just by learning. Just like me, I have read so many books , no matter how I arm myself with knowledge, I am actually just a lonely, fragile and sensitive child trapped in those layers of tin boxes. I have to thank all the people I met, they let me gradually gain After growing up, especially today, I finally understand the truth that happiness and pain are a pair of contradictory and unified concepts. If we want to obtain happiness in our life, we must pay pain. No one can reap a happy life for no reason. Just like me, my life as a whole is based on darkness and pain, but I continue to reap happiness in these darkness and pains. Many people I meet help me grow, they are my The warm colors that sink into the darkness are the painkillers when I am in pain. My father, mother and Xie Minyun are the highlights in the darkness and the redemption in the pain for me. They make me grow into a complete self , and let me experience great happiness.”

The pilgrims stood silently in the void, like statues listening to repentance.

Cheng Mo took a breath and continued: "If I choose to be reborn to pursue a happy life, I can say with certainty that it is impossible. Rebirth cannot bring me greater happiness. People can only get happiness in pain. Grow up, only when you grow up can you truly understand the meaning of happiness, and you will know how to cherish and be grateful. People often mistakenly think that a life that is smooth sailing without any pain and setbacks is a happy life, but in fact, people who are smooth sailing do not understand what is smooth sailing Happiness can be said. Just like you can hardly experience the happiness of health before you get sick. It is difficult for you to experience the happiness of not being cheated before you are not cheated and losing money. Only when you encounter an accident, such as a car accident Lost your legs. You pray in pain on the hospital bed, maybe to the Creator, maybe to some pilgrim, when He fulfills your wish, you are unscathed, and you are born again. Then today will be the incomparable in your life Happy day. However, when nothing happens, so your day is still boring and flat."

"It's really a profound explanation. Then as you said, you should feel extremely happy now. I don't know if the Creator has heard your prayer, but I, the pilgrim, have heard it." The pilgrim said, "and I have given you a response. Then you have nothing to hesitate."

"No, Your Excellency Pilgrim." Cheng Mo shook his head, "Life is the same as a movie. It needs both overall happiness and local pain. For example, a movie that touches people's hearts always starts from the ordinary, and then because of some kind of The cause changes suddenly, the plot speeds up in the crescendo music, the protagonist encounters setbacks and falls to the bottom, life loses its color and turns into painful black and white, sad music sounds, emotions gradually become turbulent and out of control, and then a sudden epiphany finds the way to The path to happiness and the true meaning of life finally come down to plainness. Look, this is almost the formula of all movies. Isn’t it not just movies, music, painting, and dance? Music needs melodious prelude and high-pitched verse and meaningful chorus; painting requires both cool and warm tones; dance choreography requires the repetition of balance points and the randomness of unbalanced points. Art is always expressing life, and it needs to sublimate and express the theme from the contrast. So we In your life, you need to pursue overall happiness in the face of local pain. How much effort you put in and how much pain you overcome, you can reap as much happiness. Fate is absolutely fair in this. Not only art, but everything in the world So it is, so it is with people, and so it is in life."

The pilgrim listened to Wan Mo's long narration, and said with great interest: "So, after you have said so much, you just think that you can't live a happier life than you are now? Don't you think that your parents and wife's life is not yours? Experience is important?" He sighed and said, "Your rhetoric makes me feel that you are explaining your ignorance, so your cry and your tears are all deceiving! You are really a born good actor "

Cheng Mo didn't care about the pilgrim's sarcasm, and he didn't say all these things for the other party.Just like those trembling and remorseful people who uttered their sins in the "confession hall", are they begging the "creator" for forgiveness?No, they are just looking for a kind of psychological comfort, as if as long as they confess their sins to the "creator", they can gain peace of mind.

Can you really feel at ease?

Cheng Mo himself has doubts, not only doubts, but also confusion, pain, and bewilderment. He doesn't want to convince the pilgrims, he wants to convince himself.

"Your Excellency Pilgrim, since you have the power to transcend time and space, have you ever tried to go back to the past or spy on the future to change your life?" He asked back.

"I can't do this. My life is not within the three-dimensional rules. When I step into the three-dimensional rules, I am just a mortal." The pilgrim replied leisurely.

"Then how many people's lives have you changed? Do you think 'rebirth' can really change the lives of a person and the people around him?" Cheng Mo lowered his head again in that holy and bright light, like He said to himself, "You deliberately didn't mention whether I can save my memory, which means that these plots that never happened must not exist in my brain. If there is no information gap, maybe there is no heart I am sick, and I can indeed obtain a perfect life in a short period of time, but in the long run, as long as I live in the same era, I will not be able to break free from the shackles of this fate."

"Maybe." The pilgrim replied ambiguously, and then he said, "But how can things be perfect? ​​People can't be too greedy."

"It's not a question of being greedy or not." Cheng Mo looked at the pilgrim, and the closer things got to the correct answer he guessed, the tighter his heart tightened.He amplified the volume a little, and uttered a series of questions that made him terrified, "Do you think Stargate, Ouyu, or the Black Death will let my mother go? If they won't let my mother go, then my How should my father and I stay out of it? And my wife, her identity is destined to make her life impossible as an ordinary person. How should I choose, and how can I keep up with her footsteps? Therefore, I. And why fight against the torrent of the times? In the end. In the end. Will I still be the only one left?"

Facing his question, the pilgrim remained silent as if he could not hear him at all.

The other party doesn't even bother to lie.

Cheng Mo's heart gradually became cold, and he said to himself: "And if I am reborn as a healthy me, then I will lose my most powerful weapon, which I have gained from the torture of heart disease. The strength, rationality, indomitability, and solitude that don't care about others' eyes are the weapons I used to stick to this place. If I can't change the future now, then how can I change the future when I am reborn? Should I come again and again? Come here, go back to the past, and keep escaping from the real reality in the doomed cycle of happiness? And if I choose to be reborn, then at this time, am I abandoning those people who are full of expectations for me? Those who are still waiting for me, and those who have been with me through all kinds of hardships to get here? My father taught me responsibility, my mother taught me responsibility, my wife taught me What is dedication and bravery. I don't think it is my father, mother, or my wife. I don't think that I ignore their sacrifices. It seems that I am paying for them. In fact, I just made a weak An option to escape reality."

"You have too many questions, and I can't answer them. But I want to say that there is no right or wrong choice in life. There is nothing to escape. Sometimes people have to learn to accept reality." The pilgrim said softly He said, "What's more, rebirth is to give you another chance, maybe you will do better next time than this time?"

The tone of the other party did not contain the slightest bewitchment, but was giving a sincere suggestion.Cheng Mo raised his head again, and he stared at the pilgrims shrouded in holy light, as if he was estimating how deep the light was, just like measuring the depth of a well with his eyes.He pondered over and over in his heart, but the more he thought about it, the more he felt sad. The heart disease, which he hated the most, has become an indispensable weapon for him. Without it, he might be ineffective. This is really a ridiculous tragedy.

His hot face also cooled down, and he became expressionless again, "There will never be such an easy choice in life, Your Excellency Pilgrim. For most people, being different is lonely, sad, and more It's scary, but for me, it's the darkness I have to hold on to, the darkness I have to bear. My fate is destined to be like this, I have to see other people's suspicious eyes like a will-o'-the-wisp, I have to endure the cold night and fierce Sunshine, because I am the child of Cheng Yongze and Lin Yiqing, and the husband of Xie Minyun. Even if I do it a thousand times, ten thousand times, this is my unavoidable fate. Going back to the past is just a sweet trap, Pilgrim Your Excellency, you must know better than me."

The pilgrim looked down at him in the snowy plume of light, and kept silent for a long time.

Time passed in absolute silence.

Pilgrim sighed and said, "Do you know what you gave up?"

Cheng Mo didn't lower his head again this time, he stared at the light intently, as if he had never faced such a difficult multiple-choice question, compared to the choice given to him by the clown Sith, it was really weak, the clown Sith It's just creating difficulties, the monster is just trying to make you into a monster too.

But the pilgrim is different. The choice he gives you is to let you know which is the correct answer and which is the wrong answer, but you can't write the answer with a pen.

Cheng Mo originally thought that a person like himself who was so ruthless that he could not take his own life seriously had no loopholes in his heart, but in the end, his heart of stone was riddled with holes. When he first came up, he was still in his heart Laughing at the so-called "maze" was nothing more than that, even when he walked into this room, he firmly believed that it was impossible for him to break through the defense.Now, like an idiot, he explained a lot to people who wanted to see his jokes.

Yes!Yes!He's that big joke.The life that Mingming longs for day and night is right in front of him, as long as he says "I think" or "I do", he can have a chance to be reborn like the protagonists of countless novels.God!Even if he has to face more and greater difficulties in the future, it is better for his family to be tidy than to be alone now.He really wanted to hold his mother's hand again, thinking about it, the rose-colored sunset fell from the tops of the elms, and his mother and father sat on the long stone bench and watched him chasing the ball in the green lawn .When the meandering lights of the city came on, he went home holding hands with his mother and father. It would be such a happy thing. He had never experienced a brand new sense of happiness. Nothing could be given to him.

And Xie Minyun, she is such a radiant girl, and she doesn't know why she likes a boy with no merits like herself.A girl as proud as her really likes someone and is so vigorous, the red marriage cards hanging all over Yuelu Mountain will make him blush now.She was so brave, she took him to get a marriage certificate regardless of anything.She had done so many sweet things for him, but he seemed to have done nothing for her. Even in Paris, he stayed for her, and he still had a lot of complaints about her in his heart, thinking that she shouldn't do this.It wasn't until the end, on the Eiffel Tower, that he realized how much this girl loved the world and how much she loved him.At the moment of losing her, he really understood what love is.

At this moment, as long as he makes the wrong choice, his dream can come true.However, he knew in his heart that the "Chartres Cathedral Labyrinth" was just a path made up of tall walls, and this room was the real labyrinth, the labyrinth of the mind.If he chooses to "resurrect", then he will be trapped in this maze of false happiness forever.

Destiny is the shackles that look like Mobius rings, binding his fate.

He had no choice but to move forward.

"What the fuck is the Creator? Why would he want me to be smart enough to know that my choices are fucking bad no matter what I do? Yeah! Can I fucking not know? But I don't want to know!" He thought to himself Say.Filled with bitterness, he looked directly into the dazzling light and replied with a sigh, "I know." The soft light was like a sharp arrow piercing his heart, shooting him into a hedgehog.

"Are you sure you want to give up rebirth." The pilgrim asked solemnly.

"Do you really want to give up! Do you really want to give up? Are you sure you can win? How many terrible obstacles lie ahead of you, not to mention the star gate, maybe you can't even pass the level of Nebuchadnezzar before you. It’s better to be born again, at least you can live for another ten or twenty years, and enjoy the family happiness.”

He began to hesitate in the blink of an eye after making the decision just now, this is not the cold-blooded and decisive him at all.Mother's parting kiss was still warm, and the scent of jasmine was still lingering at the tip of her nose, like a bug that penetrated into the capillaries and went straight from the arteries to the heart.He felt convulsions, subconsciously clenched his fists tightly, his nails were about to pierce his palm.

"He who loves cannot die, because love is eternal life, no, it is God."

Cheng Mo finally couldn't help closing his sour eyes, but it seemed a bit late, he had already felt something fall into the corner of his lips, turning into an unbearable bitterness.

"Yes, I want to use the opportunity of 'rebirth' to make a deal with you." He made up his mind, clenched his teeth, and his face was expressionless, his tone was like a mature businessman.

Anyway, he has always been a cold-blooded person, willing to sacrifice anything in order to achieve his goals.

Everybody knows.

(End of this chapter)