human suffering

Chapter 1905 Desire to Survive and Destroy

Cai Gen nodded, Cha Cha made it clear that he was with him.

Immediately, the brain began to twitch, wanting to explore the deeper starting point of the chatter.

"why?

Isn't Guantata your real father?
Why don't you stand by your own father's side?

What your father said makes sense.

After I die, let him flood the sky.

Live this life well, only care about the present, and live a stable life to the fullest, isn't it? "

Cha Cha didn't understand why Cai Gen wanted to get to the bottom of it, but since he asked, if he didn't answer, he would definitely keep asking.

"Oh, of course my father thinks well.

However, I feel that life is so troublesome.

Looking back, I will live for decades, do you think it is annoying? "

What is the reason for this?
Cai Gen was even more curious.

Is there really such a world-weary person?
It seems that Chacha is not very old.

"No, Cha Cha, how old are you, why are you so anxious to die?"

Chacha for the first time, his expression was a little downcast, as if Cai Gen had hit something on his mind.

"Cai Gen, it has nothing to do with how old you are.

It has something to do with our family genes.

Let me tell you a little secret.

People in our family have been passed down for so many generations, and those who can live to 50 years old are considered birthday stars.

Most of them were in the right age, died in their 30s, and died in their best years. "

Cai Gen's thoughts went awry at once, and he began to think from the most common angle.

"Ah, why?

Do you have any genetic diseases in your family? "

Chacha shook his head first, then nodded.

"Is mental illness a genetic disease?"

Cai Gen thought it should be counted, and was shocked instantly.

"I rely on, people from your family.

Couldn't they all commit suicide when they were in their prime of life? "

"It should be considered suicide, but it's not the same as the kind of suicide you think."

Chacha looked at the volcano in the distance, and said softly.

"The responsibilities that shamanism places on our family make it difficult for us to live through our prime.

It may be that the family members are used to dying early.

So psychologically, I slowly felt that people should stop abruptly after they have passed their prime, which is considered a natural law.

After all, after the age of thirty, all the functions of the body began to decline.

I don't know that it is because of objective facts that we suffer from mental illness.

Or mental illness, which allows us to contribute to objective facts.

Anyway, very few people in our family lived past the prime of life. "

What he said was a bit confusing, and Cai Gen didn't quite understand it.

But in summary, it should be because of the responsibility entrusted to their family by the God of Suffering, so they don't live long.

"No, isn't your grandfather over 100?

Why isn't he dead yet?

And your father, probably in his late [-]s, right?
Why isn't he dead yet? "

If there is no preface and afterword, Cai Gen's words are hard to listen to.

But with the foreshadowing of chattering, it's not so ugly.

"It's not because of my dad.

If it wasn't for my father, who suddenly became a monster and borrowed external force.

My grandpa is long dead.

The next wave of Dana has no successor yet, so he dare not close his eyes. "

Speaking of this, Cha Cha also felt that it was a bit weird to say that.

Changed the subject directly.

"Forget about my grandpa and my dad.

Let's just talk about me.

Seeing me getting older and older, the impulsiveness lurking in my genes.

Makes me irritable every day.

I just wanted to survive until my 30s and die straight away.

However, according to my father's arrangement, I will definitely not die.

Can you understand my troubles? "

Want to die, but can't die easily?

Cai Gen seems to understand the troubles of Cha Cha.

This idea is really weird, and Cai Gen didn't know what to say for a while.

"I choose to stand on the side of my ancestors, which is to bow my head to the thoughts engraved in my bones.

Since you are on this trip, you are close to death.

No, I'm dead, just to fulfill myself.

However, even though this opportunity is rare, I have developed a fear of death.

Can you understand my ambivalence? "

This gets complicated.

It's all instinct.

One is the inheritance of genetic blood.

One is the desire to survive as a human being.

The two instincts are entangled in Cha Cha's heart, and Cai Gen feels uncomfortable just thinking about it.

"Although I don't understand, Duan Tudou can definitely understand.

When you find time, let her give you a psychological counseling.

Seeing that you are worrying all day long, you are almost an old man.

Is every member of your family who has not died at a damned age worried as much as you are?

Then shouldn't they deal with it collectively, your father who brings trouble to them? "

Cha Cha shook his head helplessly.

"Other clansmen are fine, who wants to die if they can live?

The desire to survive can easily get the upper hand.

But I am different.

I am the eldest son and grandson.

The next generation of Shaman Da Na.

The desire for self-destruction in my genes is much stronger than that of ordinary people.

Maybe it was my grandfather who brainwashed me since I was a child. "

Ouch, what a poor child.

Cai Gen imagined a picture.

Guan Shanle told an infant child all the time that he had to be brave, or not afraid of sacrifice, and to bloom his own life to maintain the burden of the shamanism that had been steadfast for thousands of years.

It's really heartbreaking, that's my grandson.

Cai Gen patted Chacha on the shoulder to express his sympathy.

"Don't think too extreme, it might be better to change the environment.

If it goes well this time, you can stay at my house for a while.

There are many friends in our family who are patients like you.

Although neither is a disease, at least we can communicate more. "

Cha Cha rolled his eyes, why did Cai Gen make himself a patient?
Just as I was about to reply, the helicopter came back.

He stopped talking to Cai Gen and walked to the plane first.

Well, the plane can still come back, and there is no trace of fighting, Shi Huozhu and the others should be safe.

Cai Gen relaxed, grabbed Xiao Sun's hand, and boarded the plane.

Feeling the strength in Cai Gen's hand, Xiao Sun was very surprised.

"Third Uncle, what's wrong with you, why are your hands so cold?"

Cai Gen frowned, fastened his seat belt first, and then tightly closed his eyes.

"It's okay, I didn't sleep well yesterday, call me when you get there."

This is completely an excuse.

Cai Gen's face became pale and pale due to nervousness, so he was sleepy.

If you look closely, Cai Gen's legs are shaking all the time.

Although he tried his best to control it, he failed very badly.

"Ah, third uncle, I almost forgot, are you afraid of heights?

No, the last time you were in Badaohao, didn't you come by helicopter?
This is the second time, are you still not used to it? "

Cai Gen gritted his teeth, closed his eyes and shook his head.

I don't know if I'm denying my fear of heights, or I can't get used to it.

"Smelly monkey, you seem stupid.

Didn't the owner die the last time he was on a plane?
He is dead, can you get used to a fart?
Master, if you are really afraid.

If it doesn't work, just die again. "

After Xiaotianmao made a suggestion, the teddy bear chimed in.

"Boss Cai, you really have enough to say.

Not afraid of death, but afraid of heights.

If you live in heaven every day like us, wouldn't you?"

Cai Genqiang maintained his composure, and tried his best to open one eyelid, revealing a little fierce light.

The threat is obvious, if you talk nonsense again, I will throw it down for you.

The teddy bear was too scared to say another word.

(End of this chapter)