human suffering

Chapter 43 What a bumpy road to a scholar

Cai Gen understood Tian Lingling's statement a little, and asked

"Oda, did you commit suicide because you were afraid of spending money at home?"

Obviously Cai Gen guessed wrong, Tian Lingling shook her head,

"I know it's not easy for my parents, I work very hard, my academic performance has been improving, and I don't want my parents to spend money in vain.

I also naively thought that when I was admitted to university, I could return the money to my parents.

In the first half of the first year of high school, I was admitted to the top 500, in the first half of the second year of high school, I was admitted to the top 100, and in the first half of the third year of high school, I was ranked No.1 in all high schools.

I thought it would be fine and my mother would be relieved, but I was wrong. "

If they are No.1 in the city's high school all-year group, they should not have to worry about the national key universities. Isn't this couple's wish to make their children prosperous?This kid is already very promising, what else is there to be dissatisfied with?

"Mom talks every day about how much debt I owe to support me in school, and how will I live? If I go to college in the future, it will be a lot of money, and then I will endlessly scold Dad, saying that Dad is incapable and useless. , Incapable, useless, like a spell, has been swirling in my ears.

Dad has worked very hard. He has been working in the mine before, and has no other craftsmanship, so he can only deliver food.

In order to take more orders every day, at six o'clock in the morning, I go out, my father goes out, and at twelve o'clock in the evening, I come back, and my father comes back.

He spends 18 hours a day sleeping outside and sleeping outside. In this big winter, my father's face is covered in frostbite, but he never complains. No matter what his mother says about him, he will never refute a word. "

Cai Gen knows how hard it is to deliver food. After the employees were fired one after another, Cai Gen did the same job every day, the front office, the back kitchen, and the takeaway, all by one person.

The worse the weather, the more work, and the more difficult it is to deliver. The customer's face is considered the lightest difficulty. Those who are riders will be fined. A few minutes late, a bad review will be fined one or two hundred, one day. White dry.

Cai Gen listened to the little girl saying this, combined with Xie An's job introduction yesterday, she felt that she had gone far more than this miserable family. She didn't think this was the reason why the little girl committed suicide, or she was too fragile. Treasure, how many lonely souls and wild spirits in the underworld dare not go to the wheel of life, and spend hundreds of years not daring to reincarnate.

"Suddenly one day, my father came back very late, his face was full of wounds, and he bought a roast chicken, not the cheap kind, but the very expensive kind of roast chicken with more than 70 pieces. Mom was angry when she saw it. Now, is it time to buy such an expensive roast chicken? Just now I was about to quarrel with my father, and my father took out a pile of money and handed it to my mother, saying that he was hit by a car today, and they paid him 2000 yuan. He didn't go to the hospital. I went straight to buy roast chicken and said that this is the best roast chicken, and I want my wife and daughter to try it."

Well, that roast chicken is really delicious, 38 yuan per pound, more than 70 yuan per chicken, cooked with secret spices, the chicken skin is crispy, the chicken is very tasty and chewy, especially the chicken head and chicken feet, Cai Gen once A pair of chicken feet and 3 bottles of beer. When I think about it now, Cai Gen is greedy, and he has not been willing to buy it for a long time.

"Later, Dad often came home with injuries, and he often bought that roast chicken to eat. Mom rarely complained about Dad anymore."

Speaking of this, Tian Lingling showed a disgusted expression, as if those roast chickens were disgusting, and she seemed to be disgusted by saying such things.

"I didn't perform well in this exam. From No.1 to No.3, my mother broke down again and started telling me how much money the family spent to support me. I am so unmotivated and my academic performance has dropped. I'm sorry." Dad, I'm sorry Mom. She has a hard life, and when will she be counted.

This is a trivial matter, and my mother always said that I didn’t take it too seriously. I didn’t play well this time, so I’ll take the test next time. I’m also 17 years old, and I have a certain ability to bear it in my heart, but this matter Just the beginning.

We have a male classmate whose family is rich. He writes love letters to me. He always writes love letters to me. I refuse many times. Both my mother and the male classmate's mother called the school and started indiscriminate attacks, saying that we had brought a bad atmosphere, and the college entrance examination was about to be taken, so they should be strictly disciplined.

That day, my mother was like crazy. In the corridor of the school, she started yelling at me, venting all the grievances in her heart, the pressures of life, the burdens she has endured over the years, I am a sinner, I'm sorry parents, I'm very sad.

Not because of that sentence, why didn't he write love letters to others?

It's not because of that sentence, I raised you in vain, you are a white-eyed wolf.

Is it because it's so hard to live well?

I am only 17 years old, I am only 17 years old, I have been alive for 17 years, and there is not a single day of real happiness. Since the age of 6, I have started to study hard, make up lessons, study, make up lessons, study, I am tired, I have lived enough.

But I didn't think about dying, just keep it up. After the college entrance examination, I will go to college and then I can go to work. I want to return all my mother's money to them. I want them to live a good life. I will definitely work hard. Yes, I don't think I'm destined to be mediocre in my life. "

Looking at the perseverance in Tian Lingling's eyes, she revealed a domineering air of a scholarly tyrant, which deeply infected Cai Gen who was sitting. It seemed that she saw the little girl who was admitted to a good university, found a good job, and was powerful in the workplace. Walking on the peak of life, returning home in fine clothes, facing the proud eyes of parents, wandering in deep happiness.

As she jumped, that happiness was no longer possible, everything had settled down, and the girl's determined eyes became icy cold, as if the temperature of the room had dropped a lot.

Cai Gen was surprised, is Ling all so emotional?By the way, that male classmate should have come to Wang Si today. Seeing that this girl has a very clear logical thinking and a very good ability to withstand pressure, what did this little calf do?Let such a young girl commit suicide?

"It is often a light straw that crushes a camel, but it is indeed a big tree that crushes me, and I am not as strong as a camel.

That male classmate was beaten by his father when he came home. He was beaten very hard. When he went back to school, he always looked at me resentfully, and then said among his classmates, that my father touched porcelain and that I depended on my father to go to school. For the money he made by touching porcelain, he said that his uncle had been touched by porcelain by my father. "

Could it be that because her parents did dishonorable things, the little girl felt that her dignity had been hit, so she committed suicide because she resented her parents?

Cai Gen was very confused at this time. If she really committed suicide in order to avenge her parents, then her life was really as worthless as she thought, and she died when she died.

(End of this chapter)