human suffering

Chapter 949 Eat Me
In the old things market on the outskirts of the city, a low and dark one-story house.

The door was wide open, and the stove in the room was not working well, and it was full of soot.

Zhang Mouse squatted on the threshold, rolling a dry cigarette.

After rolling it for a long time, I sniffed it several times under the nose, but finally I was not willing to touch it and caught it on my ear.

"Mice Zhang, you're such a wimp, why don't you die for a good person?"

A rough female voice came out from the room. Hearing this voice, resentment filled the sky.

Zhang Mouse turned his head and shouted into the room.

"What's the matter? Why don't you calm down when it's Chinese New Year's Eve?"

Zhang Mouse dared to reply, and the woman in the room turned up the volume again, like a rooster crowing.

"You still dare to mention Chinese New Year? You still know Chinese New Year? Are you trying to starve me to death?
If you don't want to serve me, just get out, get away, don't let me see you. "

Zhang Mouse didn't reply right away this time. He walked into the kitchen and poked the smoking stove.

"Hey, the firewood is damp, and the south wind is blowing today, so the stove is not easy to burn.

I'll cook for you when the fire comes on. "

As he said that, he scraped out half a bowl of rice porridge from the rice cooker with a spoon, brought it cold and cold, and brought it to the house.

In order to keep warm, several layers of plastic were nailed to the windows in the house, so the light was very dark.

There was a double bed against the wall, and a middle-aged woman with unkempt hair was sitting on it.

Skinny, with a sickly sallow complexion that could be seen in the weak light.

I don't know how the loud voice just now came out of this sickly body.

Looking at the woman, Zhang Mouse felt a pang of sadness in his heart.

The spiritual energy in the world is exhausted, and all the lost spiritual energy cannot be replenished.

The life wheel of the Three Realms does not turn, and the blessings and wishes that should have been received are also unacceptable because of the chaos.

The trauma on the soul has not healed, and after the body is overdrawn, the vitality is exhausted.

Under the ebb and flow, the body will become weaker and weaker.

He walked to the bed and handed the cold porridge to the woman.

"Sichen, you can set the bar first, and I will cook as soon as the fire comes up."

Sichen took the rice bowl, took a sip, felt the coldness of the rice porridge, and was furious.

He slammed the rice bowl against the wall, the cold rice porridge was like a slug, it covered the wall, and the bowl shattered into pieces.

"You just give this cold porridge to my old lady?
Do you give cold porridge to your old lady during the Chinese New Year?
When I see you, I feel discouraged, don't be old lady Fang anymore.

Get out, get out, I won't have to drink slop every day. "

Zhang Mouse looked at Sichen throwing the bowl, he could stop it, but he didn't, just watched her vent.

"We don't have many bowls, why bother?"

"Why should I?
That mouse, let's talk about it, why do you bother?

You just let me die, okay?
Why do you still make me suffer?

I don't want to live a day.

I can't take it anymore, I really can't take it anymore.

I beg you, let me die. "

The more Sichen talked, the more excited he became, and he began to cry heartbreakingly.

Zhang Shuzi stood by the bed with a numb expression, as if he was completely numb to today's incident, and he didn't know how many times he had experienced it.

"I don't care, you can't die in front of me, I don't agree."

When Sichen heard this, he suddenly stopped crying and looked straight at Zhang Mouse.

"OK, then you promise me that you won't go tonight, okay?"

Zhang Mouse looked at the Mickey doll in the corner of the house and whispered.

"It's 50 yuan a day. If we don't have money, what can we eat? We still have to go."

Sichen's calm mood just now exploded again.

"Mice Zhang, don't do this with me, you know that's not what I'm talking about."

"As long as you are alive, you have to go. That is our mission."

Hearing the word "mission", Sichen went crazy, and stretched out his hand to beat Zhang Shuzi's thin body continuously.

"It's been three years, and it will be three years after you go, so you have a mission?
As long as you take your mission seriously, you are the only one who is great?

Who cares about you?Who ever cared about you?Who thanked you? "

Following Sichen's beating, Zhang Mouse's body kept shaking, neither dodging nor stopping, and his eyes were extremely firm.

"This is my fate, I have to admit it, and don't need others to feel sorry for me."

"I feel bad, I really feel bad."

Hearing this, Zhang Mouse was moved and thought of many things.

From high spirits, to drawing lots to fill the life wheel, to all the hardships in this world.

Every picture is like a knife, a blunt knife cuts flesh, it really hurts.

"Sichen, it's okay, I can still bear it.

After a while, I will get off work, pay two days' wages in advance, and buy a piece of meat. You wait for me.

Let's eat something good today, it's Chinese New Year after all. "

Sichen stopped beating Zhang Mouse, but tugged at his clothes.

"Brother, let me die, I really can't drag you down anymore.

I'm dead, your life can be easier, don't have to suffer like this. "

Big brother, how long has it been since Sichen called him big brother?
Zhang Mouse couldn't control his emotions when he heard the word "big brother".

In the past few years, all the money earned has been used to make up for Sichen. Without her, I can indeed live better.

But, no, I'm the big brother, so I can't let him go.

It is too difficult and exhausting for him to grasp Sichen with one hand and the mission with the other hand.

"You still know that I am your elder brother, so stop making trouble. You understand my temper."

Sichen let go of his hand weakly, and failed again this time.

In the final struggle, Sichen didn't want to give up, so she whispered.

"Brother, your mission is also my mission.

Not everything is done by you alone.

Please, eat me up.

Let me do my last bit, or you won't be able to come back today. "

Zhang Shuzi looked at Sichen in horror, what he saw on that sallow face was not a joke.

Sichen is serious, she really wants to eat her by herself.

That's right, it's been three years since I carried it by myself, and new wounds have been added before the old wounds have healed.

With this body, it is difficult to complete the mission comprehensively.

If you eat Sichen's soul, your wounds will heal, right?
Do you have the ability to come back completely?
Grasping with both hands seems unrealistic now.

So in order to grasp the mission, should we let go of Sichen?
Sichen holds a lot of weight in Zhang Shuzi's heart, otherwise he wouldn't have lived through these years.

However, the mission is the meaning of Zhang Mouse's existence, isn't it more important?

At this moment, after Sichen made this suggestion, Zhang Mouse was vague.

Wiping his face quickly, he didn't give an answer, but left a sentence.

"I'm going to work first, and when I come back, let's have meat and New Year's Eve dinner together."

After finishing speaking, he picked up the plush toy and ran out the door as if fleeing.

Sichen looked at the window that was blocked most of the light, but couldn't see any light.

As it is now, it's dark.

I hope my brother will think about it.

If he could really help him in the end, his death would not be in vain, Sichen smiled inadvertently.

It's just this smile, it's bitter.

(End of this chapter)