Confessions of a Salesman

Looking at the new graves one after another, I do feel a little guilty. Thinking back to the negotiations that day, if, if there was a if, would there really be a ceasefire and no war?
Won't!The answer in my mind is no!

They simply gave us a chance to negotiate, and the conditions proposed were impossible for Essen to agree to!

It's just that I should have thought in advance that if I told them to evacuate here, I must tell them not to resist and leave as soon as possible!
For the first time, I felt the cruelty of the flames of war. We were born and raised in a peaceful age, a stable country, and most people have no chance to experience these life and death!It was a fresh life one moment, and it turned into a cold corpse the next moment. Even if you are not your relatives or friends, you will feel that life is so fragile here.

It is not difficult to understand why they are so indifferent to life, and it is normal for a few people to die.

I saw the hostility and hatred towards me from Brother Hua's eyes. I can understand him, and I don't blame him. If I find someone who can resent me, I will be the only one in front of me. I didn't explain too much. I don't think that's necessary. Although this war was not started, I always feel that it has something to do with me.

I walked towards Zhou Papi's cave, wanting to see if the Nangong family is still there?

The labyrinth of the rockery has not been destroyed, which means that no one has been here, and the door opened automatically. I became vigilant, which means that there are still people inside. Didn’t Nangong and the others leave?Could it be Lao Zai?I didn't see him in the big camp. If he hadn't left, then he was the only one still in here.

To my surprise, a group of children and old people ran out, and then I saw the smiling faces of Nangong and Laozai.

People who were still busy digging graves and burying corpses, when they saw their relatives, put down their things and ran over to hug them. I believe they will cherish each other even more for the rest of their lives.

I asked Nangong angrily, "Why didn't you leave?"

Nangong smiled and said: "You haven't left yet, I'm afraid you won't keep your promise, so I'm waiting for you to leave together!"

I smiled and said: "Aren't you still planning to borrow seeds from you? You're not dead!"

Then I remembered that Lao Zai was still there, and it was really not appropriate to make such a joke on such an occasion.

Nangong said indifferently: "As long as you are willing, there is no deadline!"

I waved my hand and said, "Let's forget it! Your family has nothing to lose, right?"

Lao Zai sighed and said: "12 elites died, and most of them withdrew! This battle was really tragic! However, what I didn't expect was that the people in Xizhai are so bloody, as long as they have hands People, go out and fight!"

Nangong continued: "We were going to leave, but there are too many children and old people, it's too late, and the car can't hold so many people, so we have no choice but to hide them here. It’s really good, it’s too concealed, they didn’t find out at all!”

I asked angrily: "But if this is the case, isn't your base also exposed!"

Nangong said with a faint smile: "It's all like this, what base is there! This is no longer our home, and it will soon become a ruin! So many people have died, the government will definitely find a way Cover up the facts, find a reason, and bulldoze this place, I think, these cemeteries will also disappear!"…

I said helplessly: "But now we can only bury them! They can't even go back to their hometown! You should make plans early! When will you leave?"

Nangong replied: "Tomorrow! We still have something to do!"

Looking at her resolute eyes, I was a little worried and said, "You don't want to assassinate Xin Sai'er, do you?"

Nangong didn't answer my question, Laozai smiled at me and said, "Don't worry, we will meet in your ancient town!"

Without thinking about it, I left them my contact information, and said goodbye to them: "Then we will have a date later! If we are still alive!"

Nangong pulled me back, kissed me on the cheek and said: "We will all survive!"

After a short rest, I called Brother Hua and Ganba. Brother Hua sat down reluctantly. I looked at his resentful eyes and didn't mind. Instead, I asked, "What are your plans next?"

Ganba hesitated and said: "We don't know what to do? We have nowhere to go!"

Brother Hua said angrily: "We're not going anywhere, we're just here to fight them to the last moment!"

I shook my head and said patiently: "Do you still have the ability to fight? Are you really going to fight until the last person? What about those children and the elderly? As long as people are still alive, there is hope! This place is not worth your nostalgia! Nangong said, there will be a big cleansing operation here soon, this is your last chance, hurry up and leave!"

Brother Hua said in frustration: "Let's go? Where are we going? Wherever I go, I am a wanted criminal. I have no passport and no identity! This is our home!"

I sighed and said, "Where there are people, there will be a home! I will help you think about it. You can cross the border of Laos first, and then find a way after you settle down!"

Brother Hua complained: "Think of a way again? Can you help us find a way? What can you do? Build us another casino, and come out with a West Village?"

Ganba heard Brother Hua's words of resentment, and explained: "Why do you spread your resentment on him? Do you think everything that happened here has something to do with him? Is it his responsibility? He has already helped us A lot! Without him, we are still nobody, we might have died on the battlefield long ago! If you have nowhere to vent your grievances, go to those who killed your fellow countrymen, not to those who help you! "

Brother Hua was furious. Just as he was about to refute, he probably felt that he was being unreasonable. He lowered his head and cried, "They're all dead, everyone closest to me is dead! I have nothing left! All these years of hard work are in vain!"

I said bluntly: "I told you from that day on, everything you run is unrealistic and won't last long! You are dealing drugs! It cannot be legal in any country." Sooner or later, this land will be leveled, it’s just a matter of time, for the sake of the children, for the next generation, as their leader, you should have already planned for their future, don’t wait for them to grow up and go like you Drug trafficking!? Isn’t this an opportunity? Take your people and go!”

Seeing that Brother Hua stopped talking, he looked at Ganba again and asked, "What are you planning?"...

Ganba said with resolute eyes: "I'm going to take my people home! After this baptism, we have become extremely united and strong. After returning to our hometown, we will find our own way of survival. As long as we are united , with one mind, there is nothing impossible!"

I was relieved: "People who have experienced life and death are really reborn! If there is anything that I need to do, feel free to bring it up!"

Ganba shook his head and said: "You have helped us a lot! I still say that, you will always be our clansman!"

I looked at the ring on his hand, and I was wearing mine, and hummed: "I will always be your clansman!"

At night, Xiao Hei and I sat in front of the cemetery, looked at the large tombstones, and said: "If this was the case before, I would have been scared to death! But look at me now, I am so courageous, I just sit on the grave and calm down." Looking at the entire cemetery without a trace of fear!"

Xiao Hei hummed and said: "People are afraid of the ghost in their hearts! When the ghosts in their hearts are gone, they will be fearless! When I first participated in the anti-drug operation, the first time I killed someone, I didn't shoot. , my comrade-in-arms had to sacrifice, but even if I found such a good reason for myself, it still made me feel guilty for more than a year. It wasn't until I killed the second person that I realized that killing one saves one, killing one Saving ten people by one person is the same as saving one person by killing ten people! There is no difference in quantity, but whether you should do it, whether you want to do it, no one will judge you, no one will Put you on a scale to measure! Everything depends on your own thinking!"

I let out a cry, and suddenly saw a tall figure and a low figure, I blew a whistle, and the two Huya brothers came towards us.

I asked with concern: "Are you two brothers not injured?"

The two shook their heads.

I hummed, and asked again: "I can't live here anymore, there is no one left! What are your plans?"

The two shook their heads again.

I asked with some embarrassment: "Can you still go back to your hometown?"

The two shook their heads again.

I sighed and said, "What nationality are you? Do you have legal status?"

My brother took out two passports from his body and handed them to me.

I took a look, it was from India, and asked, "Do you two have blood eucalyptus?"

The two shook their heads hastily.

I thought for a while and said: "There is still 40 kilometers away from the Laos border. Let's cross the Laos border together tomorrow and settle down there first. Then I will find a way to help you get a passport to go to China. Are you willing to go?"

The elder brother finally said, "We want to follow you!"

I was a little embarrassed: "Follow me, it's a little difficult! Follow me back to the country, and two such strong foreigners beside you will attract people's attention wherever you go! Just follow me first, and I will find a way to settle you!"

The two of them wanted to bow to me, so I hurriedly stood up and said, "Hurry up! There's no need! I'll do what I can as soon as possible!"

After the two of them left, Xiao Hei asked, "Shouldn't we go back directly?"

I shook my head and said: "I can't go back for the time being! Anzi and the others sent a message saying that martial law has begun on the border, and so many people ran past at once, it's hard to imagine that that road will not work! We are now in Laos, Let’s go back from Laos! The matter here is so big, how could the country not know about it? Let’s go back like this, it’s also troublesome! Let’s see the situation first!”…

Xiao Hei hesitated and said, "We won't all be on the blacklist, will we? It won't be true that we won't be able to go back, will we?"

I comforted me: "That's not so bad! But don't forget, we robbed Essen of those trucks, but it was in his hands again. What do you think it means?"

Xiao Hei understood as soon as he heard it: "There is a ghost inside!"

I grunted and said, "I never doubted Team Zhang before, he was the one who saved my life! But the facts are right in front of me, I can't help but believe it! There must be something wrong with him, but I just don't know if it's because of being arrested." Forced, or he voluntarily!"

Xiao Hei smiled and said: "We can still take care of him, let's ask for blessings first!" Then he looked into the distance, and a person came running over. After seeing the person coming, Xiao Hei relaxed his vigilance.

This person is one of Ganba's subordinates. He bowed to me first, and then said politely: "Someone came in to send a message. We will leave before 12 o'clock tomorrow noon. They are going to start the second cleaning. Maybe there is no time left." There will be plane bombing!"

I nodded and the man left.

I said to Xiao Hei: "This is going to kill them all! Do you think they know that we are also here? If Xin Sai'er knows that Eisen's partner is still there, will they want to catch them alive? ?”

Xiao Hei shook his head and said: "They don't want to cooperate with Eisen at all now. They can't find any benefit from Eisen. This place will be destroyed by them. What's the use of arresting you?"

The news went on, now, whoever wants to leave, has to leave.

The 40-kilometer journey is not easy for the elderly and children. If they don’t go now, they will be in trouble when the planes come to bomb them.

The children are fine, listen to the adults, but some old people feel that they are old and don't want to make trouble anymore, and they want to die here. If the old people don't leave, many filial children don't want to leave. It was delayed again.

Ganba began to mobilize his people, and if he really didn't want to leave, he just carried them away.

Brother Hua is very troublesome. He doesn't want to leave, let alone persuade others. He is starting to think about how to resist.

I walked among them and yelled loudly: "What are you thinking? Are you planning to fight against aircraft and cannons? What are you doing? Just relying on the few guns in your hands? Don't say that there are aircraft and cannons, just don't have them, you guys Do you think you can beat the regular army? The dry people are gone, do you really want to be buried in this land? Then you will really become lonely ghosts!"

An elderly Hong Kong man said angrily to me: "Then what can we do? We are not welcome wherever we go! I heard that when we arrive in Laos, we will go directly to a refugee camp, and then we don't know, we will be arranged to Where? It’s like being sold to San Francisco back then, being sold as a piglet! Then I might as well die here! Our grandparents have lived here for 40 years. I’m not leaving, just go outside I can’t get used to life either! I’ve thought about it, when their army comes, I’ll stand at the gate of Xizhai, waiting for their tanks to pass me by! I want to see if they dare!”