Confessions of a Salesman

Chapter 1857
At four o'clock in the morning, I stood in front of my father's hospital bed and watched all the doctors busy doing the final rescue. Then they covered him with a white cloth, announced the time of death, and the family members signed to confirm, and everyone was pushed out.

My mother didn't shed a single tear during the whole process, she just watched everyone crying silently, like a lively bystander. When people were pushed away, she stood up, lifted the white cloth and looked at my father, mouthing He muttered: "Old Chen, please rest, I will find you soon!"

After returning to my sister's house, I asked my mother to go back to her room to rest, and then began to discuss my father's funeral arrangements.

I just asked: "Dad, what is his disease? How did it go away so quickly?"

It's okay not to ask, but when I asked, everyone was angry at me. Yaoyang was the first to fire: "Why do you have the nerve to ask? You are his biological son. What kind of disease does he have? You shouldn't be the worst." Did you know it first and tell us?"

I knew he was angry with me, but I didn't explain, I just asked lightly: "Isn't he always in good health?"

My sister said: "What's good? Since you had an accident in Zhuhai, they have come back to the Northeast. The climate in the Northeast is not suitable for them to live at all. Dad has arthritis, high blood pressure and diabetes, and he has been hiding it from us all these years. , after hearing the news about you escaping from the country, he became bedridden and became hemiplegic! But Dad is strong-willed. Even though he was like this, after treatment for a period of time, he was still able to go to the ground on his own and continued to exercise every day. He said he didn’t want to wait for you to come back and see him like this.”

I asked angrily: "Why aren't you sent abroad for treatment?"

This sentence aroused my sister's anger: "Why don't you go? What are we going to do? If something happens to you, our whole family will be affected! We don't dare to go out for fear that someone will catch us. Threatening you and asking you to do something harmful! Dad said, let's get over it, and when you take care of the outside affairs, we can be the same as before! He has always been full of confidence in you, saying that you do things in a measured way, no He's going to do this nonsense! The rumors outside must be false! Let us not trouble you, so we won't trouble you! He won't let me go to you, won't let me talk to you, let me not disturb you, and said he'll wait for you After handling their own affairs, they will come to us, and we will just wait and wait..."

Yaoyang said with a tearful voice: "Look at this house. It's a 60-square-meter house. There are five people living there and one child. This house belongs to my ex-brother-in-law. It's cold in winter and hot in summer. Dad's health is so bad and he's so young." When I get older, I have to climb the 5th floor every day. I use my retirement salary to buy medicine. How can I have money to go abroad for treatment? You have money, I have money, it’s useless! I even treat my own father’s disease. No, no one is worthy of being a son!" After saying that, he slapped himself in the face.

His face was swollen from his own beating. My sister couldn't bear it, so she came over and took his hand, hugged him and cried with him.

The brother-in-law walked over and comforted him and said, "Don't do this. If mom hears it, she will be even more sad!"

I just sat quietly, my mind went blank, and then I began to imagine how my dad walked downstairs with difficulty, step by step, and when he came up, looking at the medicine box in the room, I knew that he They must have tried their best to recover and not cause me any trouble. In such a difficult environment, they actually didn’t even contact me once. This was all for me!

A child wants to be raised but cannot be loved by others. This sentence is the most suitable for me!

As long as I can use a little bit of the care I have to deal with my friends on them, my dad will not have to help me bear so much suffering in his later years when he should be enjoying life.

With tears in my eyes, I looked at the black and white photos on the wall. He was smiling and looking at me. He was still so amiable and he didn't mean to blame me at all!
In the next few days, Lu Ping, Anzi and others came over one after another, and everything was going on in an orderly manner.

Yaoyang wanted to make things grand and would not listen to anyone's advice. Finally, my mother spoke up and said that my father didn't like extravagance and waste, so Yaoyang listened.

But on the day of the memorial service, I still didn’t expect that so many people would come to pay their respects. Many of them were our former colleagues, friends, superiors and subordinates. Maybe it was because Yaoyang published an obituary in the newspaper!

I didn't expect that my father would have so many friends. The wreaths had been placed all over the mourning hall. But later, they had no choice but to place them in the lobby outside. Lu Ping and the others didn't buy these, but were sent by others on their own initiative!

After three days of busy work, the matter was finally settled. I was completely numb, and I didn’t have any sad emotions. Instead, I was greeted and sent off. More importantly, I was a little curious. I never knew that my father was still there. Being so loved by others, I can see that people who have been through this are not just going through the motions and have no agenda. After all, my dad has been retired for so many years.

Inadvertently, I also overheard a conversation between two people. They were probably lamenting that Mr. Chen was such a nice person and left so early.

What I didn't expect was that almost on the third day, when all the memorial activities were about to end, a mysterious car came. First it found Lu Ping, and then Lu Ping came to me and whispered: " Someone just informed me that a leader has come to pay homage to your father and to see your mother. However, I am afraid of the inconvenience due to the large number of people, so I want you to go there first!"

I said reluctantly: "What kind of occasion is this? What time of year is it? The deceased is the most important, don't they know? Are you making it special at this time? Isn't it a bit too much?"

Lu Ping explained: "No, they are afraid of causing inconvenience to us, so they specially want to see you first!"

I yelled, "Then let's go and have a look. Where is it?"

Lu Ping pointed in the direction of the parking lot and said, "That minibus in the back!"

I nodded and walked to the parking lot. In front of the minibus, there were two people in plain clothes standing in front of the minibus. I could tell at a glance that they had practiced.

They were very polite, and one of them asked: "Are you Chen Fei?"

I nodded.

They said with some embarrassment: "Excuse me!"

It looked like it was a body search. Although I was a little dissatisfied, I still raised my hand and let them finish the search. Then they knocked on the car door. The door opened and I walked up.

The moment I saw the person sitting in the car, I was shocked. I never dreamed that I would see such a big official in my life, and face to face. He said politely: "Comrade Chen Fei" , Sorry to trouble you. I am also a student of Mr. Chen. My master’s thesis was completed with the help of Mr. Chen. When you were young, I lived in your house! At that time, my family was out of town. Thanks to Teacher Chen and Mrs. Chen’s care! If it weren’t for them..."

Then he said with some sadness on his face: "I really don't know Teacher Chen's situation, otherwise... ugh..."

I said helplessly: "How can I blame you? My son has done this! Otherwise, you go..." He shook his head and said: "I won't go in, I want to take a look Master, I don’t know if it’s okay?”

I was stunned for a moment, thought about it and said, "How about I call her over?"

He was a little embarrassed and said: "I really caused trouble to you. It's really not convenient for me to see you..."

I nodded hurriedly and said: "I understand, I understand, please wait for me!"

After getting out of the car, I found my mother. She has been very calm these past few days. She just sits quietly and greets people who come and go. She seems to be in good spirits. There is nothing strange about her. It seems that everything has already happened. After accepting this fact, I actually admired my mother's strength. I always thought that in my impression, my mother was an ordinary housewife who could not be more ordinary. She had always relied on my father to survive and selflessly served the whole family.

After talking to my mother about the general situation, my mother was stunned for a moment, and then walked to the parking lot before I could say anything. After getting in the car, I vaguely heard crying.

I stood not far from the car, afraid that my mother might do something bad!

After a while, the car door opened, and my mother got out, regaining her previous expression, and then said to me: "Go up, he has something to tell you!"

I looked at my mother suspiciously, then walked into the car.

He seemed to have just cried in the car and was very sad. But when he saw me coming up, he quickly calmed down. After letting me sit down, he said seriously: "I probably know everything about me. You are a shrewd person." A businessman is also a businessman who can make money, but he is not a good entrepreneur. A good entrepreneur must have a sense of social responsibility and the awareness of abiding by laws and regulations, rather than going to the edge of the gray area. Do whatever it takes and use whatever means necessary to gain legalization for the greatest benefit!”

Of course I understood what he meant, and I didn’t want to argue, so I nodded and said, “I understand, I know it’s all my fault! I will correct it!”

He hummed and said: "Your father has passed away, and you don't want him to know anything about it. You are still a despicable businessman who is only interested in profit and has no laws, right? What I said is a bit harsh, but you should also Be alert, so many things have happened, you should have realized your problem a long time ago! You can't go on like this!"

I bowed my head and remained silent.

He continued: "I am not talking to you as a leader, but as an elder, a student of your father, an elder who does not want you to go astray! You have made you If your father is like this, you can't let your mother follow you and harm her! It's not that difficult to abide by the law, right? You are very smart, you should know what to do and what not to do! Don't always think that others are forcing you, You have many choices, but it is often a way to choose impulsiveness! A mature person should look mature!"

I hummed and said, "I understand, don't worry, I won't make the people around me sad and worry about me anymore!"

He nodded and said, "You must believe in the party and the people's public security agencies at all times!"

I nod again.

He seemed a little tired and said: "Spend more time with your mother! You don't have to worry about other things. It's not your business to be clean. No one can frame you! Go back and spend time with your family!" If you need anything, you can contact my secretary Xiao Zhang and ask him to leave a phone number for you later!"

I nodded quickly and thanked you.

I got out of the car and watched the car drive away.

I returned to my mother and asked curiously: "When I was young, he lived in our house. Why don't I remember? I have never heard my father talk about it in these years."

My mother sighed and said: "You were only 4 years old at that time, how could you remember! He is your dad's most valued student, but because of his status, he can't come to see your dad often, but they always have Contacted by letter!”

I exclaimed, "I didn't expect that my dad would be so famous all over the world!"

My mother said with a sad expression: "Your father has the same virtue as you, and he will always treat outsiders better than his own people!"

After my father's funeral was done, we moved out of my sister's house. My mother didn't want to go back to the south anymore, so I gave her an apartment in Jingyuetan, a two-story villa. I originally thought that my sister would move here too. Yes, but she refused to say anything. She would rather huddle in a small house with her ex-brother-in-law, saying it was lively and full of fireworks.

Since my dad left, my mom has become taciturn and always stays alone. When I want to talk to her, she always smiles and goes back to her room.

Lu Ping and Anzi refused to move in with us, saying that this was our home and they didn't want to disturb my mother. If anything happened, I could just call them and they could come over. Yaoyang and I were the only ones left at home. They don't like each other, so they look at each other with big eyes and small eyes!

My mother usually stays in the room except for eating. There is nothing in the room except a bed and a photo of my father. Yaoyang and I are worried about one thing, that is, we will be lovesick, and in the end we can’t think about it anymore and have to go see him. My dad took turns staring at the door, always listening for movement. As long as there was no movement inside for more than 2 hours, we would knock on the door immediately. Until my mother made some noise or said something, we would knock on the door. Willing to give up.

Until my mother really couldn't stand it anymore. After eating, for the first time, she didn't go directly into the room. Instead, she asked the two of us to sit down and said, "Do you think I will do something stupid?"

Yaoyang and I hurriedly lowered our heads and refused to answer.

My mother smiled and continued: "I have expected this day for a long time, and I also know that your father will go before me. A few days ago, I still couldn't accept the fact that he left, and I was also thinking about the rest. How should I live in a few years? I have figured it out in the past two days. When he left, he told me to live for a few more years. I will see that you all have children and grandchildren before I leave, and I must still be healthy. Let four generations live under the same roof, five generations live under one roof, and live forever! In the past, I always heard your father say, the more you live, the more you will see. The world is changing so fast, and there are many new things happening every day. You said, if I hadn’t lived until now, how could I have witnessed cars running all over the streets, trains rushing to catch up with planes, and people appearing inside when I made a phone call?”

(End of this chapter)