Confessions of a Salesman

Early the next morning, Yaoyang opened the door and walked in. He put the flowers in the vase. Seeing that I was already awake, he blamed me: "You had a hard night yesterday, why didn't you get more sleep?"

I smiled and asked, "Have you found Xiaowai?"

Yaoyang sighed and said: "No, I really can't control this child now. His grandfather passed away and he didn't come back. You are so sick now and he doesn't even come to see you, you bastard!"

I hurriedly tried to persuade him: "Stop talking nonsense, what kind of scoundrel!? This title cannot be given to him casually! It has not been easy for him these years. We are all busy with our own affairs and no one cares about him. He has grown up now. If he has his own ideas, let him go, as long as he doesn't break the law!"

Yaoyang sighed and said, "Don't talk about him anymore, it's annoying to talk about him! How do you feel?"

I smiled and said, "I'm fine! Maybe I can be discharged from the hospital in a few days!"

Yaoyang was stunned for a moment, then nodded and said, "Well, I'll be discharged from the hospital in a few days! I..."

He hesitated for a moment, but finally said it: "I went to see Shengnan, but I didn't tell her about your situation. She is currently under review. Once she has been reviewed, I will take her to see you!"

I screamed and said in surprise: "Censorship? Why is she being censored? To bear the humiliation and make meritorious service to the country? Are you crazy?"

Yaoyang explained: "When I first heard the news, I was also very angry. But Shenghua explained to me that everyone involved in the operation must be examined. This is a rule! She is closest to Political Commissar Ma, She also went undercover for plastic surgery under the orders of Political Commissar Ma. She must explain the whole story clearly!"

I snorted and said, "What's the whole story? Doesn't that mean asking her to recall her painful experience again? This is too cruel to her!"

Yaoyang also said with great distress: "That's why I didn't tell her about your current situation!"

I hummed and said, "It's best if I didn't say anything! There's nothing serious about me. I'll be discharged from the hospital in a few days!"

Yaoyang couldn't hide his inner sadness. It could be seen that he was having a hard time enduring it. He sat next to me and said, "We will be discharged from the hospital in a few days. What do you want to do most? Where do you want to go most?"

I heard that this seemed like my best wish, and I replied calmly: "What I most want to do is drink tea on the rooftop of our house, bask in the sun, play chess with my dad, and listen to him talk about national affairs. , teach us brothers!"

Yaoyang could no longer hold back the tears in his eyes and said tremblingly: "Okay, I'll buy it back right away!"

I smiled and said, "What are you buying? That's someone else's house! You can't do whatever you want if you have money!"

Yaoyang hummed and said, "I know! Tell me, why do good people suffer so much? We offend whomever we do, and all we do are good deeds with a clear conscience!"

I comforted him and said: "A person's life is determined by how much he eats and spends! When you open a door, you have to close a window! Don't think too much, isn't this good? Everyone Be happy and safe, and you won’t have to mess around anymore!”

The doctor came over to inspect the bed in the morning. When he saw Yaoyang, he blamed him: "Why are you still here? Didn't I tell you last night? Don't affect the patient's rest!"

Yaoyang's resentment was directed at the doctor and said: "How could I affect the patient's rest? I don't care about him more than you do. He is my brother, my brother! Didn't I tell you to monitor him 24 hours a day? I Didn’t I give you money? Why didn’t I see your nurse or doctor here? What time is it before you came to check him out!”

The doctor didn't give in at all and said: "This is all monitored in real time. Don't make unreasonable troubles here. We don't let you stay here for our reasons. He should have gone to the sterile ward, but he is still trying." The medication stage cannot be passed for the time being. You have so many visitors and coming here every day will bring a lot of bacteria to him. Once he is infected again and lowers his own resistance, his condition will be aggravated!"

Yaoyang knew that he had ignored him, so he could only lower his head and said: "Okay, okay, I'll go out right now. I'm just worried. Come and see him!"

The doctor rolled his eyes at him and said: "You can see it outside! I've explained it to you countless times. We care more about the patient's condition than you do, and we will be responsible for every patient! We don't care whether you have money or not. We all have the same treatment!”

I smiled and explained to the doctor: "Concern leads to chaos. Don't blame him. He is just a rough man. Get out as soon as possible!"

Yaoyang had no choice but to walk out dejectedly and looked at me through the glass.

As soon as the doctor left, Hu Chu broke in again regardless of the nurse's obstruction.

When he saw me, I didn't give him a good look and asked, "What's going on with the censorship of Shengnan? What mistake did she make? Why are you even censoring her?"

Hu Chu sighed and said: "Don't talk about her, I have to be examined. When you recover, you have to write down everything in detail! Also, what happened to Anu's injury?" What's going on?"

I curled my lips and said, "Ask me, who am I asking? I don't even know how I got into the hospital!?"

Hu Chu snorted and said, "Your people carried you in! What's strange is that Anu refused to say who hurt him!"

I didn’t want to know this, but asked: “Did Secretary Wang catch him?”

Hu Chu made a sound and said, "I'm just here to ask you, do you have any clues? Can you think of where else he could be hiding? We have searched all the places where he can go, and we have access to all parts of the river mouth." The docks, harbors, national highways and expressways, and even train stations and airports were all under control. It was like he disappeared from the earth, leaving us with nothing! This shouldn't be the case! Where did he go?"

I thought for a while and said: "If there is no one to help him, he will not be able to leave Guangdong. You have blocked Jiangkou, so he will definitely not go! You don't need to control it! Now that he has no money, he must want to Find a way to get money, think about it, where else can he get money?"

Hu Chu said in confusion: "Where can I get the money? His family is not in the country, and you have defrauded them all of their money! Everyone who has contact with him has either been arrested or has severed ties with him early. Does anyone know? The news has been informed to us a long time ago! I really can’t imagine where else he could go?”

It suddenly occurred to me to say: "Where is his brother? Have you found his brother?"

Hu Chu was stunned and asked: "His younger brother? Does he have a younger brother? I haven't heard of him!"

I sighed and said, "That's the lawyer who came to see me that day! Don't you think they look alike?"

Hu Chu slapped his thigh and said, "Why didn't you tell me earlier?"

I curled my lips and said, "You are not following such an important clue, and you still want me to tell you? Go find it quickly!"

Hu Chu opened the door and went out, made a phone call, walked in again, looked at me and asked, "How is your health?"

I replied helplessly: "That's it. I don't know. He shouldn't die so soon, right?"

Hu Chu's face darkened and he said: "Good people will not live long, and disasters will last for thousands of years! You should not die so soon! You must die after me no matter what! I have already reported this matter to the superiors. You have the greatest credit, and I will wait for you to receive the credit when you recover. Take good care of your health!"

I chuckled and said, "How much bonus can I give?" Hu Chuyi curled his lips and said, "Why do you only have money left in your eyes? Where's the honor? Where's the faith?"

I cut my throat and said, "Are you telling me this? Am I the kind of person who loves vanity? Let's be practical!"

Hu Chu smiled and said: "That's not necessarily true, but I will definitely pay you back every penny of your money! Also, let me think about it, didn't you find some money yourself?"

I rolled my eyes and said, "How is that possible? I've lost a lot, you have to make up for it all!"

At this time, the doctor opened the door and walked in, scolding dissatisfiedly: "What's going on with you people? Do you want the patient to get better? The nurses are blocking you, why are you still going in?"

Hu Chu said with some embarrassment: "Isn't this caring about your comrades? Just come in and take a look!"

The doctor snorted and said, "Are you concerned about him? You are harming him! Don't you know what his current condition is?"

Hu Chu said in confusion: "Isn't this very energetic? Will he be discharged from the hospital in two days? I still have some very important things for him to do!"

The doctor was so angry that he didn't say anything. I suddenly felt dizzy, then my internal organs ached, my body went hot and cold, and I soon lost consciousness.

After three days and three nights of rescue efforts, I was brought back from the brink of death.

On the ICU bed, when I slowly opened my eyes, a person wearing protective clothing and unable to even see his eyes stood in front of me and touched my face with his hands. Although they were cold gloves, I can still feel the warmth in my gloves.

I saw the eyes in the blindfold were crying. I wanted to speak, but found that I still had a tube in my throat.

She rubbed her hands back and forth on my face, and then said to me: "You will definitely be able to get through it. You have escaped death so many times, and you will definitely survive this time!"

I nodded slightly, wondering if she could see it.

I couldn't see her expression, so I just heard her continue: "Do you have a lot of questions? Want to know why I divorced you? Want to know where I have been these years? Want to know what I have done? Wait. You're better, I'll tell you slowly! You just need to cultivate yourself well and just know a little bit, I will always love you!"

After saying that, she lowered her head and wanted to kiss me, but the protective clothing blocked her face, and she realized that she could only touch my cheek again.

I wanted to pull out the tube, but my hands couldn't control my movements and my whole body couldn't move. I could only listen to her words silently and look at her.

A voice suddenly came from the room: "You can come out now to visit the patient's family. Don't delay the patient's condition!"

Looking at her reluctant back, I screamed in my heart, but no sound came out of my mouth.

I didn't know that this was the last time we met. I didn't even see her last face!

Three months later, I was finally pushed out of the ICU. I could sit up slowly. My body was very weak. I relied on nutrient solution to maintain my life for three months. Looking at myself in the mirror, I was already as skinny as a dry corpse. , my cheeks sunk deeply into it, my eyes popped out, and I could no longer recognize myself.

Yaoyang walked in from outside with a haggard face, followed by Lu Ping and Xiao Hei.

Yaoyang forced a smile and said: "You really escaped death this time, just a little bit, and you went to see the King of Hell!"

There was no trace of joy in surviving the disaster on my face, but I asked, "Where's Katsuo?"

The only smile on Yaoyang's face could no longer be squeezed out. He took a deep breath and replied: "She...she's gone!"

I suppressed the sadness in my heart, tried to calm myself down and asked, "How did we leave?"

Yaoyang refused to answer my question, but turned his head aside. I looked at Lu Ping again. She was crying silently and refused to speak.

Xiao Hei's face, which had always been calm, became a little distorted in order to suppress the pain in his heart. He said slowly: "She exchanged blood with you. She lost too much blood during the operation..."

I held my own hands, tears flowed down unknowingly, and said tremblingly: "Blood transfusion? She did it for me? She left first?"

Seeing that the others were unwilling to speak, Xiao Hei took a deep breath and explained very sadly: "After you became critically ill, we found everyone to match your blood type, platelets and other data, and only Katsuo's matched! The toxins entered your Without blood transfusion in the body, you have no chance of survival. The risk of this kind of surgery is too high. It is very likely that both of you will die at the same time. We all don't agree. Ke Shengnan insists on doing this, and there is nothing we can do. Can’t stop it!”

I roared: "Then you just let her die for me. Do you know that even if I survive, I am dead! I am already dead! Dead!"

Yaoyang wanted to come over and comfort me, but I knocked away the hand he extended and shouted, "Get out, get out of here!"

Yaoyang opened his mouth, but couldn't say anything, and turned around silently to go out.

Xiao Hei shook his head and walked over.

Lu Ping looked at me and said patiently: "Don't blame Yaoyang, he is suffering more than anyone else! Isn't Shengnan his relative? If you let him choose, how can he choose?"

I have lost my mind and just want to know where is Katsuo?He asked tremblingly: "Where is Katsuo? I want to see her!"

Lu Ping was stunned for a moment, and then replied sadly: "She...she had a spark the day before yesterday!"

My mind went blank, and I fell on the bed and cried: "You didn't even wait for me to take one last look at her, you are so cruel!"

I was alone in the dark, cold ward, staring straight at the ceiling, thinking about everything I had with Shengnan, her voice and smile, our past happy life, and all the memories I could think of. , but it becomes so distant and blurry!
I recalled that when we were leaving in Hunan, I asked her: "Can we be friends?" She answered me: "We are friends, and we can also become good friends!"

I will always remember the speeches we gave at our wedding, the promise I made to her at his dad’s funeral!
But now?She is gone because of me, but I still have to live in this world. What shame do I have to live in this world?I have done all this, but Shengnan has to pay for me. How can I face Shenghua, how can I face my eldest brother Sun Shengguo, how can I face the old man?

This really made me realize for the first time what life is worse than death!