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Chapter 240 Phoenix Finale

I'm afraid to go home and don't know where I should go?
Especially my mother, who has lost her husband, I still dare not go to see her.How should she face the daughter who indirectly killed her husband?
Xu Shi had already felt desperate for an unfilial daughter like me. When I returned to Xi's house, she didn't even look at me.

Ta Weng is also sick, very sick, because of my stupid descendant.

The second uncle and the third uncle hate me to the core.

There is no place for me in the Xi family.

I can only wander around the clan in the dark all day long, like a corpse.

The 100 years that passed unknowingly did not change anything, it was still those birds, those things, and that kind of landscape.

But some things still can't be changed...

Although I am no longer Bai Zi, the bird walking on the street still points at her, how is it different from before?What is the use of a false identity in exchange for my father's life and 100 years of freedom?

I could hear them laugh at my stupidity, talk about the downfall of the Xi family, and even talk casually about my father's sacrifice.

I could hear the fury in my heart, roaring, I wish I could rush to tear up those hateful guys, but I can't, I have to be patient.

Don't add unnecessary trouble to the Xi family.

In order to avoid the pointing of those idle birds, I can only try to shrink in those dark corners, like a mouse to pick up some leftovers to live.

I tried my best to avoid the Xijia birds who came out to search, I didn't want to be found by them.

I have no face to see them.

This kind of life makes me sick, ah no, or it makes me more sick to live like this.

Hiding in a dark place like a mouse, cowardly avoiding the gazes of all my clansmen, like a pervert, I treated myself madly as far as I could, praying for a little comfort.

Crazy emotions and guilt mixed with thoughts kept tearing my nerves, causing me to sink into that endless hell all day long.

Why am I still alive?Guys like me shouldn't be alive.

But I can't die easily right now, and I'm not qualified to die at will.

At least...at least wait...not yet.

After all, the Xi family couldn't really let their daughter-in-law wander outside like this.Even though I had been careful to hide, I was pulled out one day.

I was tossed with servants like a dead thing, washed clean, put on high-quality silk that I hadn't touched in a long time, and was led to the long-lost hall.

Above sits Taiweng, who has not seen him for a long time.Compared with a hundred years ago, he was much more haggard, and white strands appeared in his dark hair that had not changed over the years.

There was still a deep sharp light in his eyes, but he was more tired and fragile, but the unchanging softness still grabbed my heart and broke the barrier that I thought was well hidden.

I don't even know what position I took to cry in front of this old man, who was obviously the most innocent of him.

Because of the capriciousness of the younger generation, he lost his proud grandson. Seeing the decline of the family, he was helpless.

As the culprit behind all this, I didn't even have the face to come and see this elder.

But the bird in front of me, his eyes, his movements, all told me that he still accepted me, still regarded me as the child who was in his arms many years ago, and never changed, even if the times changed.

Maybe he still hates me, but his thoughts about the child at the moment still overwhelm those illusory emotions, prompting him to squeeze the child who has not returned home for many years into his arms.

"My poor child..." The elderly man held me tremblingly and lamented, not knowing whether he was bemoaning his grandson who died in battle or the child with a difficult life in front of him.

I ended up staying in this place that gave me everything and was burdened by me.

My mother was very ill and refused to see me all the time.I didn't dare to sway in front of her, for fear of adding a few more cracks to her broken heart.

I had to kneel in front of the yard every day to say hello, and then hide in my remote courtyard, daring not to come out.

The third uncle and the second uncle are like me being invisible, and have never set foot in my small courtyard.

I didn't want to come out to get in their way, and I carefully avoided every bird in this house, just like the days when I was still wandering on the street, I lived in a panic.

Coming out of that dark cage, I have never felt at home until now.

A hundred years have passed, and the Xi family is still the same Xi family. Nothing in the house has changed, but I have changed. I have become unrecognizable and disgusting.

I am so unbearable and the Xi family is so unfamiliar and out of tune.I feel almost painfully that I'm sullying everything here.

A guy like me... such a mean guy...

"I'll go."

There was silence in the room for a moment, and no bird spoke.

The battle situation became more and more tense, and the guys from the Dragon Clan unhurriedly dispatched the vanguard to bomb the barrier from time to time. This situation has been going on for more than fifty years.Bird casualties guarding the edge every day.

Xi Yong died in that relatively large-scale vanguard battle 50 years ago.

He didn't have to die. For the sake of his family and his children, he fought desperately to gain precious time for the reinforcements, and also opened a way to survive for his daughter and the Xi family, but the price was his own life.

As a result, this fresh phoenix never came back from the battlefield.

Now that there is a lack of combat power in the front, it is necessary to recruit the young men in the rear to defend against other places. This is a responsibility that the Phoenix people cannot shirk, even if they are as noble as the Xi Family Phoenix.

This is their consciousness and their responsibility.

But how rare are the direct blood relatives of the Xi family, they have already lost Xi Yong, will it be Xi Yun and Tai Weng's turn next...

Any one of them is an indispensable link of the Xi family, and any accident may make the newly-prosperous Xi family decline again, which is what they don't want to see.

So the transfer order was delayed again and again, and finally the deadline came, and they had to make a decision.

But when that child, the child who made them both love and hate and was in an extremely complicated mood, said those words, there was a despicable feeling of joy and relief in their hearts, as well as a hint of secret pleasure.

They were so despicable that they let this child go to ruin.It was not until they really lost her that they understood what they had done—

The day I left Xi's house, everyone came, including the second uncle and the third uncle, as well as sideline relatives whom I hadn't seen for many years.

My mother still didn't show up, she must have hated my unfilial daughter very much.

Well, if I die, she won't be so sad.

The worry in everyone's eyes dilutes my fear and sadness, and the heart that has been dead for many years suddenly rises with infinite courage.

This is my home, I want to guard my home.

My third uncle, who hated me so much, gave me an unprecedented hug and cried.

He viciously threatened in my ear, saying that I still owe the Xi family, and I want to stay here to atone for my sins. If I die, he will never let me enter the family cemetery.

I nodded with a smile.

A filthy guy like me shouldn't go back to the family cemetery even if he dies.I want to come to the battlefield with the blue sky and the sun rising with the wind, which is the best end for me.

Farewell to my family, I set out towards my inevitable end, towards that irreversible fate.

　There are children's boots that say it's messy, well, it's actually messy.However, you can also capture the slightly crazy mental state of "I" from a few words. When I wrote it, I replaced her state, and it must be incoherent, because "I" is extremely unstable and has been blaming myself. Deprecation, in general, is insane.So everyone just make do with it, hhhhh
　　
　
(End of this chapter)