Dong Qiangqiang's Story of Leaving Germany

Chapter 853

"How is it?" Lao Bai seemed to have not heard Dong Qiangqiang's words at all, "I mean, class."

Lao Bai didn't immediately explain the reason for the quarrel between the two, which made Dong Qiangqiang have a bad feeling: Lao Bai had just experienced a marriage and knew better how to deal with the opposite sex. Besides, today is Christmas Eve, so beautiful and romantic Why do the two still quarrel at night?Could it be that what Lao Bai just reminded himself was not groundless?

Although Dong Qiangqiang didn't want to admit it, but for a moment, his curiosity outweighed his worry, but he also knew very well that he couldn't get to the bottom of it and ask further questions, even if it's a buddy, you still need to have a sense of distance and sense of proportion. , If Lao Bai wanted to share it with him, Lao Bai would take the initiative to say it.Since the other party changed the subject, he could only go down the slope.However, Dong Qiangqiang originally planned to talk to Lao Bai about his current confusion. Lao Bai asked this way to save him the long-winded foreshadowing like Xianglin's sister-in-law.

"It's not the same as what I thought, and many don't understand it."

"When are the final exams? Is the time out?"

"The specific time has not yet been announced, but the class will end in mid-January. I estimate that it is possible in February and March. After all, the summer semester will start at the end of March."

"Are you afraid?" Lao Bai asked sarcastically.

"I'm not afraid, but I don't know when I will graduate. You know what? Now I'm starting to envy you, Lele, and Duanmu from the bottom of my heart."

"Last call you said that Trier made you feel 'hopeful and cruel', is that still the same feeling?"

"It's a little better than before, and there is still pessimism."

"What pessimism?" Lao Bai restrained his smile.

"Confused and anxious." Dong Qiangqiang admitted honestly with his pointed fingers, "It's mainly these two. Zheng Chunhua thinks that I may be mildly depressed."

"You were only mildly depressed in the primary stage, but not severe in the advanced stage?" Lao Bai looked in disbelief, "And you were full of fantastic ideas every day when you were in Hanover. Something happened, I didn't see that you were depressed at that time."

"Maybe I was exactly what you said over there," Dong Qiangqiang shook his head and smiled bitterly, "but since I came here, everything seems to have changed, and everything you said seems to have disappeared at once."

"You are already an adult, and you should have the basic ability to analyze and change unfavorable situations." Old Bai said sternly, "Do you still expect others to analyze and change for you?"

"I'm not counting on others, it's just that I'm not sure my analysis of myself is correct."

"Just remember this: No one can be sure what's right for you except yourself, not even your parents, only you, so you have to believe in yourself, even if your analysis looks wrong in retrospect, At that time, you must also believe in and persevere." Lao Bai added firmly, "Just like when you thought it was the right thing to save me, you are the only one who believes in this, isn't it? Is it because you got others? Can my support or certainty save me?"

Dong Qiangqiang touched Lao Bai's words with a thoughtful expression on his face.

"Actually, your confusion and anxiety are just one sentence: no one told you how to study, so you are confused and don't know what to do." Lao Bai said quietly.

These words hit Dong Qiangqiang's face like a whip. He didn't expect Lao Bai to point it out so mercilessly.

He tried to defend himself, but after searching his stomach, only a few words filled with powerlessness popped up: "You are so cruel."

"But the truth."

"You were like this before? Are others like this?"

"Although I study music, unlike your liberal arts, it's not easier than you, and art exams are sometimes even more difficult than yours, because there are many unquantifiable knowledge points. For example, they all play Beethoven's works, Even if I have a good tone, my German classmates and even Austrian and Polish classmates have higher grades than me. The question is that my understanding of music works is not in place. What do you do when you encounter this? Is it useful to be anxious and confused?”

"I'll go..." Dong Qiangqiang was amazed, "Then how did you end up?"

"How else can I survive? I will fight to the death in every way I can think of."

"Fight to the death in every way he can think of..." Dong Qiangqiang recalled what Lao Bai said, secretly guessing that perhaps Lao Bai's hair was all white at that time.

After a long time, Lao Bai suddenly spoke again: "Ask you, tell the truth. Have you thought about giving up?"

"You mean I don't read anymore and go back to China?"

Old Bai nodded.

"Then I didn't think about it. After all, I have suffered a lot to get to where I am today. How could I give up so easily? Impossible." Dong Qiangqiang categorically denied.

"You look back."

Dong Qiangqiang looked back and saw a brightly lit Christmas market not far behind him. The bustling light and shadows didn't look like they were in Germany, but more like a prosperous street in China.

"Look ahead." Old Bai said again.

Dong Qiangqiang turned his head. Although the end of the alley was not as bright as the Christmas market behind him, he could vaguely see gorgeous lights.

Only the place where he was standing was dark and dark.

"If one day in the future you really can't continue reading and want to give up, remember that your future and retreat are bright, no matter whether you grit your teeth and persevere or give up happily, there is no problem. Graduation is not the only thing in life. Come out, as long as you think you are worthy of yourself, other people's opinions don't matter. The only thing that matters is that before you give up, you must ask yourself if you have used all means to overcome difficulties, if not, then You'll definitely regret it later. I hope you'd rather hate it than regret it."

After Lao Bai finished speaking, he continued to walk forward. Dong Qiangqiang turned his head to look back again. It seemed that a flame had risen in his heart. Although the flame was not large, it was extremely bright.

Unconsciously, the two of them walked to a fork in the alley, and before the two of them passed completely, someone in the shadow on the other side of the fork suddenly said, "Merry Christmas! Gentlemen!"

Although Dong Qiangqiang didn't stay in Trier for a long time, his daily chat with the landlord made him instantly hear the other party's standard Trier accent.

Through the dim yellow light, Dong Qiangqiang saw a sloppy young man sitting and half-reclining lazily with his back against the red brick wall.The collar of the gray-green coat stood proudly, whether it was frozen in the sky or hardened after a long time, the trousers were patched, and the front of one shoe was open, revealing the toes inside.His personal belongings such as rice bowls, guitars and sleeping bags are piled up in a mess, and without exception, it gives a dirty feeling.There was a large dog with smooth hair curled around his legs. When Dong Qiangqiang and Lao Bai approached, not only did they not growl, they didn't even raise their heads, they looked very well-behaved.

There are many homeless people in Germany, and Dong Qiangqiang has long seen it, but this homeless person in front of him surprised him, because although the other party begged, his face was ruddy, his apple muscles were plump and his skin was tight. Judging from his age, he did not seem to be much older than Dong Qiangqiang. Usually, the homeless people he sees are mostly elderly people.

"God bless you all smoothly until next year!" The homeless man said auspicious words and pushed a dark money jar with only a few steel shovels in it towards Dong Qiangqiang and Lao Bai.The money jar slid across the ground, making a harsh metallic sound that sounded bleak in the middle of the night.

"Why is he begging here?" Dong Qiangqiang felt puzzled.If the homeless person was an elderly person or a disabled person, he would throw three melons and two dates, but seeing the other party so young and able-bodied, he felt contempt in his heart.

"Many homeless people in Germany do not stray because they are poor." Bai ignored the homeless and dragged Dong Qiangqiang forward.

"Because I'm lazy?"

"Because of different life philosophy."

"Lazy is lazy, can it still be related to 'different life philosophy'?" Dong Qiangqiang was a little speechless, "They have so many job opportunities, even if they don't like sitting in the office, they still have a lot of hourly workers of 400 euros per month. Besides, he has Arms and legs, and looks like Germans, can't find a job like us, can it? Why is it better than begging."

"You think it's very hard for him to live in the street and be homeless. Maybe he can get hundreds of euros or more for a month, and he is no poorer than you and me."

"Doing nothing for a month, sitting and eating and waiting to die for so much money? To say that capitalist countries are evil, I also think that doing nothing a month will cost you hundreds of euros." Dong Qiangqiang has come a long way. He couldn't help but turn his head and glanced in the direction of the homeless man, "I still think that people who don't work can't eat, but what he thinks so young is to get something for nothing and nothing to do."

"He thinks it's his business to beg meaningful, and his life doesn't need your approval." Lao Bai corrected, "Just like you think your education is useful, I run around for money all day, just because these are what we think is meaningful. It has nothing to do with what other people think. How to live your life meaningfully is the most important thing, and you should pay less attention to other people’s affairs.”

It was only then that Dong Qiangqiang heard Lao Bai beating himself around the corner. He closed his voice, followed behind Lao Bai, and walked silently towards the bank ahead.

The wind in the alley was blowing harder and harder, and Dong Qiangqiang felt that the snow might really be falling.

(End of this chapter)