my stealth fighter

Jiang Chanji looked at Aurora and understood her inner pain a little bit, but he couldn't understand it 100%. After all, their personalities and experiences were very different, so he could only try to figure out her mental journey—even though there are countless broad roads covered with flowers She can choose in front of her, but what she wants to take more is a rough and bumpy road full of challenges that no one has traveled. For her, this is the goal and joy of life, rather than following the path blazed by her predecessors. Go down the road of life and spend a lifetime in a plain way.

Some people may think that she is hypocritical, why should she give up those opportunities and choices that others would not envy, it is probably because of the pressure and anxiety lurking in her heart, and she may also be rebellious like her cousin Leila, eager to She wanted to prove herself and put in an unattainable effort for this goal, but it was a pity that she suddenly found that what she worked hard for had disappeared. At this time, she would feel a huge sense of loss, immersed in the pain that only she could experience, Temporarily lost the purpose of life.

"After that night, when I came to the top of the tower again, when I recalled the scene at that time, I regretted it very much." She clenched her hands and buried her head in her knees, "Actually, I had a chance to enter the 'passage', but when things came to an end I hesitated, I was terrified by fear, and when I mustered up my courage, the 'passage' had disappeared. I watched you and the dean disappear together, feeling extremely regretful and relieved, and hated my despicable thoughts! "

"Despicable thoughts?" Jiang Chanji was taken aback.

"At that time, I thought that you would probably disappear like the others and never hear from anyone. I even felt that I was secretly looking forward to it, because only in this way would I have the next chance..." She ruthlessly Opening his heart, his whole body was trembling with pain.

Jiang Chanji finally understood that Aurora's pain was not only caused by the collapse of her life goals, but also because she realized that she had dark thoughts about her friends and teachers. She hated this kind of herself, as if she was cursing Friends and teachers seem to die.

"However, you sent back the message and survived tenaciously in that world. While I forced myself to smile and celebrate with others, my heart was full of holes-I really envy you, every night I was dreaming, I dreamed of rushing into the 'passage' without hesitation like you, I hate myself for being cowardly when things came to an end, and now I can only live in endless pain and regret..."

Her pain flooded in like an invisible tide, infected Jiang Chanji, and he found it difficult to breathe, especially thinking that this matter was strongly related to him, which made him even more embarrassed.

"Senior Aurora, I dare not say that I can understand your feelings, but... please don't use the standards of saints to demand yourself, we are all normal people, it is normal to have dark thoughts occasionally, and you have already surpassed Others are too strong, even if they have dark thoughts, they will not speak out, and they will not blame themselves so much, don't be too sad." He comforted.

She nodded, "I know, I just feel that I am too selfish, instead of trying my best to win success, I secretly hope that others will fail, even if the consequences of failure are unimaginable."

Jiang Chanji thought about it silently, and said: "Actually, at that time, I didn't even think about entering the 'passage'. Yes, your so-called hesitation at that time seemed to me to be a correct and calm judgment, rushing in rashly is almost a death sentence, we can’t rely on results, if the process of solving a problem is wrong, but happens to get the right result, isn’t it so? Can it be used as an example?"

Aurora raised her head from her knees in surprise, and looked at him with tears in her eyes, "You were impulsive then?"

"Yes, just 1 minute ago, I made up my mind never to go in. I just saw that the dean was about to be involved in the 'passage', and my blood surged, so I didn't think about anything. I just felt that I couldn't do it anyway. Let the head of the academy go on an adventure by himself, and if he has someone to accompany him, the chances of surviving will be higher. Of course, this is all an afterthought. At that time, I really didn’t think about anything. The different choices between us are because of our different personalities. , and you don’t have motivation, even if you see the headmaster is in danger, you won’t be able to arrive in time like me.” He explained seriously.

His explanation can be accepted by her, which is indeed in line with her impression of him. He is not a particularly adventurous person, but when he has to take risks, he will not hesitate.

"Well, maybe what you said makes sense." She wiped her tears and felt a little better, because what he said was not an empty consolation, but the truth. There is also the urge to temporarily put all fear behind her, but it is too late. If she overcomes her fear earlier, she may be able to catch up.

"However, you still managed to do something that no one has ever done before. Maybe this is fate. I didn't believe it before, but now I believe it. Luisa also said that although their chiefs have never seen you, even I don't know your name, but I secretly made a correct prediction to you, so... congratulations." She smiled, her congratulations were sincere, but at the same time, she was secretly sad.

"Fate..." Jiang Chanji scratched his head, quite dumbfounded. Things like fate cannot be proved or falsified. If you look at it in hindsight, his fate is indeed certain. skin and emptiness, but he believes that his experience is by no means the worst, and there are still many people who have gone through these tortures in vain but did not wait for the great responsibility to come, so where is the reasoning for this?
"I don't know exactly what Luisa and their chiefs predicted, but I don't really believe in fate. All the things that happened to me, all my experiences, seem bizarre and lucky, but in fact..." He He hesitated to speak.

"Actually what?" She looked at him curiously.

"Actually, they are all linked together. The cause determines the result. If there is a destiny, then the destiny is not some illusory metaphysics. It is just created by some power above us." He said.

Aurora's sadness and remorse were temporarily diluted by his words, she couldn't understand what he said, it wasn't even like the usual him, she wondered if there was any change in him.

Jiang Chanji was fighting fiercely in his heart, but he also knew very well that once he started facing Senior Sister Aurora, it would be difficult to perfunctorily end it.