honor me as god

(Two in one big chapter, updated today and tomorrow)

The friend Solandelle, who was lying on the bed, came back to her senses and murmured, "Lorna."

Ma Ban said helplessly: "Her dragon keeps guarding outside the mansion every day, and her mood is very irritable. Every time the attendant enters and exits, it is dangerous. I heard that another person was injured today. This is not the way to go. You should find time to visit her." Come on, let her stand up early."

After listening to Ma Ban's words, Solandelle couldn't help closing her eyes, feeling a strong sense of self-blame in her heart.

After the war, Lorna was so shocked by Denisa's death that she cried in front of the grave until she vomited blood and died, and she is still paralyzed on the bed.

It's not that Solandelle didn't want to visit Lorna in the past, but after she came to power, the ministers pressed her every step of the way, the New Deal was repeatedly blocked, and endless problems were overwhelming. She had no choice but to focus all her energy on business and forgot The grief of a friend.

Solandelle slept for a whole day, and she was overwhelmed by the things at hand, but she didn't care about it now, and temporarily handed over the official duties to Ma Ban, and then boarded the carriage and rushed to Lorna's mansion.

As soon as Solandelle arrived at the mansion, she saw the attendants whispering outside, and there was a man whose clothes were covered in blood, and the doctor was helping him bandage his injured arm.

Seeing Solandelle, the attendants greeted one after another: "Your Majesty."

Solandelle asked the injured with concern: "Are you all right?"

The injured hurriedly replied: "Your Majesty, I'm fine, just a little flesh injury."

Solandelle nodded, told him to rest, and then walked into the courtyard.

In the courtyard, a huge red dragon was tied with a thick iron chain. It was Lorna's Fei Ye.

I haven't seen you for a few months, and Fei Ye is dead

Thin as a stick, he fell to the ground dying, his half-closed and half-open eyes kept blinking, as if they would close completely at any moment, but his throat continued to make a threatening sound to those who came, not allowing anyone to approach.

An attendant sighed and said: "This dragon is guarding here every day, not allowing people to enter, and not giving food. The palace veterinarian can only knock it down with large doses of sedatives repeatedly every day, and then inject it with nutrient solution. "

"But this is a dragon after all. How can we survive without eating? But we have no other choice but to watch it lose weight day by day."

Just as Solandelle was about to step forward, the guard stopped her: "Your Majesty, it's dangerous."

"It's okay." Solandelle signaled the guards to back off. She knew that Fei Ye just didn't know those outsiders and felt that they wanted to hurt the master, so she didn't let them approach.

Solandelle played with Lorna since they were young, and she was also the first group of people who knew Fei Ye, and she was very familiar with its temperament and temper. She walked forward cautiously and said softly: "Fei Ye, it's me, I'll go in and visit Nana, sleep well, I'm here."

Fei Ye had been injected with a large amount of sedatives before, and he was holding on to not fall down. Now that he saw a familiar person, he couldn't help but relax a little. Finally, he closed his eyes completely and let out even breathing sounds.

Solandelle entered the mansion and came to the room where Lorna was.

She thought she was ready, but seeing Lorna's current situation with her own eyes, her heart was instantly shattered.

The last time Solandelle saw Lorna was at Denisa's funeral. At that time, she was crying with grief until she vomited blood, but her face was fine anyway.

...

Human appearance is gone.

I saw Lorna lying on her back on the bed with her eyes half-closed and numb. No matter how Solandelle called, she just looked at the ceiling without moving.

Because she had been lying down for too long, and her attendants sometimes couldn't turn over in time, Lorna's body was covered with bedsores, large areas of ulceration, muscles atrophied due to lack of exercise, and her limbs were severely edematous.

Although she was awake, she was completely unconscious. She didn't know how to eat when the food was brought to her mouth, and didn't know how to swallow when the water dripped into her mouth. She didn't chew for a long time, causing her cheeks to collapse and she was as thin as a skeleton.

In order to keep her alive, the doctor could only inject her with nutrient solution. The blood vessels on her arms were pierced countless times, and they were all deflated and covered with dense needle holes. They were connected with the festered skin, as if she was dead. I do not know how long the body.

Denisa's death dealt a huge blow to Lorna.

To be honest, although Lorna always talked about her mother in the past, the impression of Sura's biological mother in her heart is actually very weak.

After all, she was too young when the two parted forever, and she couldn't even remember her mother's face clearly, and could only recall some memory fragments.

In many cases, the "mother" that Lorna misses is just a spiritual symbol, supporting her to keep running on the road of life.

And since living with Denisa, this symbol is no longer unforgettable, because it has been replaced by another more important person. She took over the responsibility from her friend and took care of the one who lacked love since childhood instead of Sura. Child.

But now... nothing.

The person you love the most dies for yourself, and the person you love the most dies by your own hands. Luo

Na's heart completely collapsed, and her whole life was completely destroyed.

In this world, everyone will have a home, but she no longer has a home.

Looking at Lorna, who was neither human nor ghost, Solandelle's vision became blurred. These tragic images grabbed her heart like claws, tearing out bloody scars.

"Chi Chi." In front of the attendants, Solandelle wanted to maintain her image and tried not to cry, but soon she choked due to depression, which almost made her suffocate, so that she coughed, and the sound of crying came out of her throat. Tears rinsing down.

It is said that it is difficult to have both the family and the country.

When Solandelle was young, Perseus didn’t go home all day, and she cried because she missed her father, and her mother told her this truth—the king’s heart is the world, and the world is his home.

At that time, she was just ignorant and didn't have a deep understanding of this sentence.

She didn't really understand what it meant until she became queen.

I don't know from which day, her mind is full of new policies, new policies, new policies, those people who are suffering from hunger and cold, the people who can't rely on, other things seem to fade away.

Friends who used to be inseparable and accompanied day and night suddenly lost contact.

Thinking back to the past, every time I was in a bad mood, Lorna would come all the way to accompany me. Even when I grew up, I had conflicts of interest. In the face of grievances that spanned more than 500 years, she still abandoned her family mission, put everything down, and resolutely Stand behind yourself.

But what did I do to her?
Maybe it's because of getting along for too long, getting used to it, and taking the other person's kindness for granted, and I never put my concern for Lorna first.

...

So that she suffered such a big blow in life
He had been paralyzed on the bed in grief and despair for several months, and he was still buried in his official duties, and he hadn't seen her for so long.

For a moment, Solandelle even had the urge—not to be a queen anymore!Abdicate directly, take Lorna back to hermitage, and spend the rest of her life with her.

But after all, this is just an unrealistic impulse. If she really does this, she will betray herself and others, especially Lorna who has paid the most for her on this road, and I am afraid that she will be the most disappointed one.

Solandelle wiped away her tears, stepped forward and put Lorna's shoulders on her shoulders and kept shaking: "Nana, get up, I'll take you out for a walk."

Lorna didn't respond, her eyes didn't even have any look, and she let herself shake like a puppet.

Lorna's lifeless appearance formed an extreme contrast with the previous liveliness, and Solandelle burst into tears again: "You have been lying down for several months, how long are you going to lie down? Get up!"

Solandelle dragged Lorna with all her strength, trying to drag her out of bed, but unexpectedly, it was effortless, because Lorna had been bedridden for a long time, and her weight was more than half of her original weight.

However, even though she was dragged out of the bed, Lorna remained motionless, her head accidentally smashed on the edge of the bed, half of her face was bloody, and she didn't respond, just slumped on the ground lifelessly.

Solandelle knew that the huge blow made Lorna close her heart and escape from reality in order to fight her grief. If she couldn't wake her up from this numbness, she would keep avoiding it until the day she died.

Solandelle wiped away her tears. In order to reawaken Lorna's concerns about reality, she made up her mind and deliberately emphasized her tone: "

Well, if you want to be paralyzed, then paralyze, and I won’t care about you until you die!But can you care about Fei Ye? ! "

Fei Ye, the giant dragon partner who swore a blood oath with Lorna in the dragon house and walked through countless lonely years together, finally made her react.

Lorna's out-of-focus pupils narrowed slightly. Although she was still dazed, she blinked faster than before, and mumbled vague words in her mouth: "Fei Ye Fei Ye"

Seeing that Lorna finally responded, Solandelle continued to choke up and said, "You have been paralyzed on the bed for the past few months, and Fei Ye has been guarding outside, waiting for you every day and every night."

"Because it couldn't see you, it was so anxious that it couldn't eat meat or drink water. The attendants could only use anesthesia needles to stun it every day, and then inject nutrient solution. Its body was almost unable to hold on, and it didn't want to eat any more. going to die!"

"Aren't you its owner?! Isn't it your partner who made a blood oath?! You just leave your partner alone, lie here and collapse, escape, and let it be tortured outside?!"

Lorna's eyes finally came alive, and they were quietly covered with water mist. Her limbs trembled, and the amplitude became more and more obvious, trying to struggle to stand up.

However, she hadn't moved for several months, and her muscles had shrunk so badly that she couldn't stand upright, so she could only crawl out on the ground.

Solandelle quickly grabbed Lorna's arms around her shoulders, propped her up, and helped her out of the room.

In the courtyard of the mansion, Fei Ye had already fallen asleep under the influence of the sedative, but perhaps sensing the approach of its master, it struggled to open its eyes and woke up.

...

Fei Ye was obviously very weak, but after seeing
At Lorna's moment, the tail that had been hanging for several months suddenly stood up, waving happily in the air left and right, it struggled to move this way, and kept moaning and chirping from its throat, like a coquettish puppy .

Seeing Fei Ye's skinny appearance, and thinking about how it has been guarding outside in the past few months, Lorna couldn't help but shed tears.

With the help of Solandelle, she threw herself into Fei Ye's arms and hugged its neck tightly: "What are you doing? You don't eat anything. I just slept a little longer. Why are you so stupid? "

Fei Ye huffed and rubbed against Lorna's head, flicked her tail left and right, grinning like a silly child laughing.

Finally, the stone in Solandelle's heart fell to the ground, and she wiped away her tears and asked with concern: "Nana, I haven't eaten for so long, what do you want to eat? I'll ask someone to make it for you."

Lorna whimpered, "I want to eat whole roast beef."

"Okay, okay, no problem." As soon as Lorna directly ordered the name of the dish, Solandelle hurriedly said to the guard, "Quickly, tell the chef to cook a whole roasted cow."

The guard said with some embarrassment: "Your Majesty, Curry only has chopped beef. Where can I get a whole roasted cow?"

Solandelle pushed him: "If you don't have one, go buy one and bring it back! Let her eat it no matter what, and all expenses will be charged to my personal expenses."

The court’s work was very efficient. The caravan rushed to buy a beef cattle raised by farmers in the city, slaughtered it, bled it, removed its internal organs, brought it back, put spices on it, and set up a grill to roast it until it was charred on the outside and tender on the inside, and oiled everywhere.

If you want to change to an ordinary person, you can only live on nutrient solution for a few months, and your stomach will lose weight.

It has shrunk so badly for a long time, and the diet can only be restored slowly, and it is difficult to eat.

Fortunately, Dragon Knight has a special physique. Lorna ate while crying. She ate a bite for herself and fed Fei Ye a bite. After eating for a whole afternoon, she insisted on eating a big beef cow until only its skeleton remained.

Lorna was sitting there in a daze after eating the whole roasted ox. Solandelle squatted beside her and said softly, "Nana, let's go to Fengxue Lane."

It was evening when the two arrived at Fengxue Lane, the old house was still there, but there was no more laughter from the children in the past, only the wind whispered lonely, caressing the tombstone commemorating the deceased.

There is no name on this tombstone, because there are too many names that need to be written, and it cannot be written at all. All the children who died at No. 24 Fengxue Lane, as well as Denisa, are all buried here.

At dusk, the setting sun spread over the small courtyard, and Lorna stood blankly in front of the tomb. Tears had already flowed all over her face but she didn't know it. She said hoarsely, "Why did she do that?"

"She clearly knows that she is the most important person to me, why did she leave me, why did she leave me?"

Solandelle stood beside Lorna, silently watching the tombstone: "Because she can't go on."

This is a broken body, with very little life left, and it is meaningless to die early or late.

What's more, the moment I drew my sword and stood beside the tyrant, no matter what the reason was, there was no longer any place for me in Dogolande.

Lorna's fists were clenched tightly, and her voice was distorted by sobbing: "Then why did she die by my hands? Why did you lie to me to do it, and let me bear the pain of killing her with my own hands?"

Solan
Del looked up at Lorna's profile, and said deeply, "Because she wants you to keep going."

A child who was brought up by a traitor will be condemned forever if he cannot kill the traitor himself.

Then use my remnant body to turn into a raging fire, and burn away the dirt for you.

Lorna closed her eyes, and the tears reflected the setting sun across her face, like drops of scarlet blood, falling on the drenched skirt.

Suddenly, a breeze blew by, and Lorna felt that Solandelle handed over something

She opened her eyes and looked over, it was a blade-shaped badge - the "King's Blade" badge that once belonged to her mother White Dragon Sura, was inherited by Denisa, and was finally handed to her.

The evening wind wafts the smell of the neighbor’s meals, and time seems to have returned to the past, and returned to the days when the children in Fengxue Lane hugged Denisa and frolicked in the kitchen.

Finally, the last trace of confusion in Lorna's eyes dissipated. Facing the fading sun, she stretched out her hand and firmly grasped the relic belonging to the deceased into her palm.