honor me as god

(Two in one big chapter, today and tomorrow together)
Hearing Shangguan Xue's words, Nicole's consciousness seemed to be hit by something, her whole body trembled, even the table shook.

Nicole got up in a panic, grabbed Shangguan Xue's hand and said, "Let's go!"

Shangguan Xue raised her eyebrows: "Where are you going?"

Nicole said tremblingly: "I'll take you to Lord Kino, whoever wants to kill you, you tell him! He will definitely help you!"

Shangguan Xue grabbed Nicole with her backhand, her body trembling slightly, she was obviously holding back her laughter, and finally burst out laughing: "Hahahaha! They always say that you are as dumb as a rabbit, but I didn't expect it to be true."

Now it was Nicole's turn to be confused, she said angrily, "What do you mean? Are you making fun of me?"

Shangguanxue helped Nicole to sit down, took out a hanging plate from her arms, and said with a smile: "I'm not kidding you, but when I said I'm going to die, I don't mean someone is going to kill me, but the hanging plate—I gave it to you." Figure out a "dead hang" by yourself. "

Nicole didn't know much about things in the Far East, so she asked suspiciously, "What is dead hanging?"

Shangguan Xue shrugged: "It's a sign of great danger, implying that death is not far away."

Nicole suddenly became nervous again, and grabbed Shangguan Xue's hand with her backhand: "Isn't this scary? Hurry up, I'll take you to find the lord."

This appearance made Shangguan Xue laugh: "I never thought you would believe this? It's really superstitious."

An onmyoji who controls the power of Xuanming, said that others are superstitious, this scene has an indescribably funny feeling.

Nicole was confused, and finally asked cautiously: "Then are you going to die or not?"

Shangguan Xue held her fragrant chin and said lazily: "Life and death are determined by the heavens. How can mortals predict it? Maybe I can live to be a hundred years old, maybe I will choke to death tomorrow, who knows. "

Nicole couldn't help muttering: "Then why are you fortune-telling?"

Shangguanxue played with the hanging plate, and said lightly: "I have nothing to do, let's count and play. Of course, although fortune telling is a kind of superstition, I sometimes use it as a supplementary reference."

"For example, when I feel confused about the future and don't know what to make, I will let the hexagrams make the choices for me."

Nicole heard the meaning of the words, and asked in a low voice, "Then what choice did you make this time?"

Shangguan Xue stared at the death hanging on the hanging plate, and her tone became faint: "My choice is, maybe it's time to leave."

Nicole asked blankly, "Where are you going?"

Shangguan Xue smiled slightly: "Who knows, let's take a step and see. Maybe wandering around the world, making home all over the world. Maybe hiding in the wild and not caring about world affairs."

"All in all, the Far East Dynasty has long been unable to tolerate me, and Dogrand has become a place of right and wrong again. I don't want to be in the whirlpool anymore."

Nicole hesitated to speak, lowered her head and asked, "Should these things be kept in my heart? Why did you tell me?"

Shangguan Xue's eyes were slightly blurred, and she murmured: "Yeah. Why? I didn't intend to tell anyone, but seeing you sitting in the sunset today, I have an inexplicable urge to tell."

"Maybe I have hidden it once, and I know how uncomfortable it is to keep things in my heart. After all, people are social animals that need to talk."…

"Those people who came out of Twilight City together ten years ago are now dying and walking away. Only you can let me confide in my heart."

Nicole pursed her lips, her eyes became a little complicated: "Are you not afraid that I will tell others?"

Shangguanxue chuckled lightly: "You won't, you are too honest to do such a thing that would add insult to injury."

Nicole puffed up her cheeks and gave her a white look.

After a moment of silence, Nicole's eyes became lonely: "But... how are you doing? You won't feel sorry for Lord Kino?"

Shangguan Xue couldn't help smiling, and her expression became serious: "Why did you feel sorry for him? Back then when I defected to Dogorand, I used the intelligence from the inside as a bargaining chip.

"Besides, over the years, I have helped him do so many things and fought so many battles. Not to mention any great credit, at least I can say with a clear conscience-I have no regrets for him."

Nicole was speechless, because Shangguan Xue was right.

People like myself, Lugo, and Paladin didn't have much status or extraordinary ability at first, and they achieved their later achievements only thanks to Kino's support, no matter how they repay their favor, they should.

Shangguanxue was different, she fell from the forest, Kino didn't accept her, other nobles rushed to accept her, she could shine anywhere by herself.

At most, Qino provided Shangguan Xue with a choice about where to go. As long as she didn't stab her in the back, she would be doing her duty. What's more, she had made a lot of efforts along the way, which can be said to be her best.

When Nicole was silent, Shangguanxue looked at the dark red sky outside the courtyard, and said quietly: "I will not become a traitor like Baisa, but I also don't want to be a fool like Lugo, and I don't even want to become a Paladin In that way, the agency is too clever to calculate, and finally ends up lingering."

"I just want to live a good life with my brother."

Nicole lowered her head and sighed: "I understand your difficulties, and I respect your choice. But... I beg you, can you leave a few days later?"

Shangguan Xue shrugged: "It is possible, but is there any special reason?"

Nicole lowered her eyes, her expression was very lonely: "As you said, everyone is going to die, let's go, except for your brother, you and me are the only ones left by Kino's side."

"Although I'm not sure if I can help anything, but one more person is more protection for him, at least don't let him find that no one is available when he wants to employ people."

After hearing this, Shangguan Xue couldn't help laughing, and pinched Nicole's face with her hand: "You still take yourself seriously, with Kino's current strength, do you think there is any situation where you and I must be used?"

Nicole faltered and said with a blushing face, "Didn't I just say in case."

Shangguan Xue really had nothing to do with this straight-minded, silly girl, so she lazily said, "Okay~ I promise you, I'll stay for another month, that's fine."

"Yeah." Nicole showed gratitude, but soon she became sad again, "Tell me, what's going on recently, I can't understand more and more, how did the two of them become what they are today?"

Shangguan Xue sighed, fetched a teapot and boiled some water, said while making tea: "It's just an inevitable result, I've seen a long time ago that they will come to this point."…

"It's not who became 'what they are today', but they are who they used to be from the beginning to the end."

"In the beginning, the reason why the two of them were able to walk side by side was because they were walking on the same road."

"Kino needs the status of the orthodox heir of Solandelle, to step up to the summit openly, and control everything."

"Solandelle needs Kino's power to seize her own throne and realize her ideals and aspirations."

"They need each other on the same road and have the same enemies, so they can advance and retreat together."

"But when they reach a fork in the road, the two go in different directions towards their respective goals, and it is inevitable that they will gradually drift apart."

"Obviously, Solandelle saw this clearly, so she was able to strike hard. On the contrary, Kino, who has always seen everything, was blinded by the illusion of walking side by side."

Nicole opened her eyes wide and asked, "You mean he hasn't reacted yet?"

Shangguan Xue nodded: "The sound of the piano says everything."

Nicole muttered: "I can't understand his piano sound. Everyone can't understand you, do you understand?"

Shangguanxue lifted the lid of the pot, scraped off the tea foam floating on the water with it, and said with a smile: "Of course, the imperial court is very strict in the selection of onmyoji. In addition to the skills of yin and yang and five elements, we also have to practice piano, chess, calligraphy, painting, poetry and wine." scented tea."

Nicole hurriedly asked: "Then what did you hear?"

"I heard it—" Shangguan Xue poured the tea into the cup, stared at the clear liquid, and slowly said two words, "Crash."

"Crash?!" Nicole was astonished, but felt a little funny. She really couldn't imagine that these two words would have anything to do with Kino, and she thought Shangguan Xue was talking nonsense.

"Yes, a breakdown. Of course, I'm talking about an 'ideal' breakdown, not an 'emotional' breakdown. Shangguanxue put a cup of tea in front of Nicole and asked silently, "Do you know math?" "

Nicole nodded: "I have learned a little bit."

Shangguan Xue dipped some tea with her fingertips, and wrote arithmetic formulas on the table: "Imagine this situation, you are solving an arithmetic problem, your initial conditions are correct, the formula is correct, and the calculation process is also correct. , what will be the result?”

Nicole said without thinking, "Of course it is the correct result."

"That's right, if all the preconditions are absolutely correct, you will definitely get the absolutely correct result. This is mathematics. Mathematics can't lie." When Shangguanxue said this, her eyes became deep, "But, Kino Now there's another situation—"

"The initial conditions are correct, the formula is correct, the calculation process is correct, and finally the wrong result is calculated."

"I don't know what kind of past Chino has, but I can feel from his methods that he knows how to control people's hearts."

"Kino's governing rule is actually very simple-acquainted with the other party when he was young, give care and compassion when he is most helpless, give everything he wants, slowly occupy all of life, let the other party regard him as the only one in his life Light, absolutely obey in the end.”

"My original master, Ye Lingchen, used this method, but his level was much lower than that of Kino. I believe that Kino used the same method to dominate many people, and all of them succeeded without exception. This is what belongs to him." "math". "...

"But now, an accident has appeared, and that is Solandelle."

"Kino used the same method on Solandelle, but there was the current result—a person who was supposed to be absolutely obedient ended up running counter to himself."

"It's like when you do a math problem, the same problem is correct 1000 times. When you do it 1001 times, the algorithm doesn't change, but the answer is wrong."

"You can't believe it. You double-check and find that all the conditions and all the processes are fine, but the answer is wrong. You don't know where it's wrong, and you don't know why it's wrong."

"It's the same with Kino. He can't understand how a little girl who has been under his control since she was 12 years old can betray a person who has been with her for 14 years for the sake of the so-called people."

"This unreasonable and impossible mistake caused Kino's concept to completely collapse, because a mistake here means that his "mathematics" is not the truth, and the same mistake will appear again in the future. "

"It's even possible that the mistake had already been made before, but he didn't notice it at all."

Nicole felt that Shangguan Xue's statement was too illusory, and wanted to refute something, but the previous images flashed in her mind.

Everything Chino did to her seemed to match what Shang Guan Xue said.

Those memories that were left in the past made her feel as if she had passed away.

Nicole tugged at the corner of her mouth and forced a wry smile: "Then do you think I am right or wrong in his "mathematics"?"

Shangguan Xue shook her head: "I can't answer this. Whether it is correct or not is up to him. For you, the answer lies in your own heart."

Nicole closed her eyes, in the silent evening there was only the setting sun, withered vines, and the fragrance of tea.

After an unknown amount of time, Nicole opened her eyes again, and there was only clarity in her eyes: "Whether it's right or wrong, I only know that everything I have is given by him, and I will never leave him."

Shangguan Xue showed a faint smile: "I said, the answer lies in your own heart, just be sure and believe it."

Nicole let out a long breath, stretched out her hand to Shangguan Xue and said, "In short, let's persevere together, especially when he is in danger."

"He's in danger?" Shangguanxue shook hands with Nicole, but her expression was puzzled, "What do you mean?"

Nicole said directly: "That's it now! Solandelle's sudden attack and eradicating his influence bit by bit, isn't this considered a crisis?"

Shangguan Xue didn't speak for a long time, she suddenly stretched out her hands to hold Nicole's face, kneaded it into various shapes, and muttered solemnly: "Aren't you really a rabbit? You're too dumb."

"What are you doing! You are the rabbit." Nicole shook her head left and right to shake off Shangguan Xue's hand.

Shangguan Xue held his chin, raised his eyebrows and said, "I said, you don't really think that Chino is in trouble now, do you?"

Nicole asked back: "Isn't it? He was at a loss and could only play the piano at home every day. Many people even said he was crazy."

"At a loss. You. Haha you. You really want to kill me with laughter." Shangguanxue covered her mouth and twitched, almost unable to hold back her laughter. After a long time, she said seriously: "The time you follow him I’ve been waiting for a long time, let me ask you, when has he ever sat and waited to die?”…

Nicole recalled Kino's past. First of all, there were very few situations that could be called "in distress".

The worst one, that is, the fourth space invasion that year, was made insane by a mysterious visitor from space.

However, even though he was suppressed by the other party throughout the whole process, Chino has always seen his tricks, and did not sit still.

Not at all other times, and any form of provocation will be met with the most ruthless response.

Only then did Nicole's blank head realize that Kino's recent behavior was extremely abnormal.

Solandelle attacked his power crazily. He played the piano all day long, and he was cut and slaughtered without any countermeasures. This is completely different from the original him.

Shangguanxue smiled meaningfully: "Have you realized it? If it were the same as before, whoever did this kind of thing to him would not survive the next day."

"Do you really think that Solandelle's security measures are well done? If Chino really wanted to kill her, she might not even know how she died."

"The reason why he plays the piano all day without any response is not because he is crazy or scared, but because he wanted to do it."

"Qino acquiesced in Solandelle's behavior and asked her to take revenge and make her make trouble. It was also in this way to convey his heart that he didn't know how to express—maybe there was something wrong with me in the previous thing, let's make trouble, enough trouble Let's stop and let's go back to the past."

"Can you believe it? Kino actually made concessions on the issue of principled interests." Shangguanxue looked at the courtyard under the setting sun, her misty eyes seemed to be smiling but not smiling.

"Our Lord Reaper, maybe he really has some feelings that he didn't realize himself."

Nicole asked blankly: "Then what will happen next?"

Shangguan Xue narrowed her eyes slightly, and her gaze became dark again: "Now, Chino is giving Solandelle a chance, a chance to turn around."

"If Solandelle can accept this intention and let go of her grievances after the quarrel is over, then everything can go back to the way it was before, and nothing will change."

"But if, she chooses to push Kino away completely, turn around and leave without looking back."

"Then she'd lose everything, everything."