Reboot the heyday

Chapter 1598 Fatal Loss of Control (57100)

"The voice said, anyway, you have lived so hard, you might as well die. You are useless, don't live. You can jump off a building, you can take sleeping pills. So sometimes I also think in a trance, I How should I end myself. Or seriously think about which method I should use is more appropriate."

Su Wanzi looked at Wang Taika: "But I know, I can't die, I don't want to die. I really don't want to. I struggle between life and death every day, and ordinary people can't empathize with this feeling."

Wang Taika was speechless.

It's not that there is nothing to say, but that there is no need to say it.Because those self-righteous enlightenments are useless for depression, but make people feel more frustrated.People with depression need attention and companionship.Accompany to go for a walk, to travel to relax.What is most needed is a sense of security.

Wang Taika's bipolar disorder was worse than depression when he was ill.

If I were to describe that feeling, it would be in the dark, without direction, oppressive and lonely.In a dark room.Alone inside, can't find the exit.I have thought of various methods, but I still can only be trapped inside, stroking those cold and hard walls.

In this small space, I stumbled.Everything is blurred, everything is pitch black.Feel the darkness surrounding you and never find the light.I can't find the way forward, and I can't find my own value.

Trapped in suffocating darkness, no one can help him, not even himself.I can only get used to powerlessness and sadness, without any motivation and fighting spirit.And the self has become a piece of debris, unable to grasp its own power at all.All that's left is a heavy burden, embarrassment, helplessness, and deep sadness.

By the way, even the memory has become very pale.It is easy to fall into abstract thoughts, and let yourself become more and more exhausted and fuzzy in thinking.Concrete memories slowly become impoverished, and only dark tones can be remembered.This makes life less colorful.

It's like walking through ruins, with nothing alive around you.He could only curl up deeply, letting the barrenness surround him.

Depression may be a kind of self-protection, which is the life instinct produced by evolution.When vulnerable, sad and helpless, people try to hide themselves, save physical strength, energy and emotions, and put themselves in an undisturbed environment where they can recover slowly and naturally.

However, if it becomes a disease, it is a loss of control, permanently in this deep buried state, permanently feeling vulnerable, sad and helpless.

After Su Wanzi finished all this, he looked at Wang Taika again, and felt relieved when he saw that Wang Taika didn't show any evasion or impatience.

"Ouba, keep it a secret for me!"

"Well, not only will I help you keep the secret, but I will also cure you." Wang Taika said with a smile: "You just suffer from depression, not because you are really bad. In fact, you are very good, really."

Su Wanzi didn't believe it: "No, I feel terrible."

Wang Taika did not answer Su Wanzi's question, but said with a smile: "Listen to me, I will arrange a professional psychiatrist for you, accept the introduction and treatment, and you will get better."

Su Wanzi looked at Wang Taika: "Ouba, are you this good?"

Wang Taika shook his head: "I'm not healed yet."

Su Wanzi continued to ask: "Then Ouba thought about ending it?"

Wang Taika shook his head: "It hurts too much, I can't bear it."

"I think Ouba is lying to me." Su Wanzi didn't seem to believe it, but she immediately changed the question: "Ouba, why do you have bipolar disorder?"

Wang Taika picked out his ears and said, "Because of Song Xiangcai, um."

Su Wanzi shook his head: "I don't believe it, the hurt of a relationship, no matter how affectionate Oppa is, it will not reach this level."

Wang Taika smiled: "That's a faraway story, and it's dangerous, so you can't know it."

Su Wanzi looked at Wang Taika: "I want to know."

"It's not good for you." Wang Taika said with a smile, "What I have endured is beyond your imagination."

Su Wanzi pouted: "Are you pretending to be cool again?"

"Not much to say, go see a psychiatrist with me, this is my core purpose, otherwise you think I have nothing to do, so come out to relax!" Wang Taika smiled and touched Su Wanzi's skin Head, said: "I will not let you die, definitely!"

After paying the bill with Abin, Wang Taika took Su Wanzi to find a professional psychiatrist without stopping.

Since Dr. Bai's accident, Dr. Zhou Zijun has been there.After Wang Taika talked about the relevant matters, Dr. Zhou asked Su Wanzi some questions.

Preliminary inference, it is indeed depression, and it is not in the early stage, it is a bit mid-term.Although serious, it is not completely irreversible.

To be precise, bipolar disorder really depends on personal luck. If it is well controlled, even if it cannot be eradicated, it will not affect life.But if the control is not good, it is like a fast-moving train, just waiting for the end of destruction.

Although Wang Taika had a mediocre impression of Dr. Zhou, he did not expect that he really has two brushes.And prescribed some related medicines for Su Wanzi.

Wang Taika asked: "I take that medicine, and I think it works. Can she not take it?"

Dr. Zhou was very speechless: "Mr. Wang, I have seen your case. To be honest, the kind of medicine you take, most people can't take it, and only you have severe bipolar disorder, like jelly beans every day. Just for fun. But you can’t eat too much. In short, you are a special case and don’t belong to it.”

Wang Taika was speechless when he heard the words, this is discrimination!
However, what Dr. Zhou said next was finally reliable. He said to Su Wanzi: "You don't need to be alone in the room now, what you need is flow, not stagnation. What you need is longing, not hopelessness. The medication I give you can free you from the distractions of depression, but true recovery from depression requires you to develop a rich and resilient life. Life is alive, not dead, dexterous, not rigid .”

Su Wanzi didn't understand, and shook his head.

Dr. Zhou said: "I won't go into details, I just want you to know that you have to learn to express your emotions, to better regulate and deal with them. Emotions are a signal of life. Only by understanding and experiencing them can we Only in this way can we grasp the true meaning of life. This meaning may include the comprehension of relationship patterns and the understanding of self-concept. A little bit of self-control can make oneself change from rigidity to softness, from fragmentation to continuity. In the emotional Only in the flow can we find the existence of self, to truly correct and restore ourselves. Depression will also be cured!"

Su Wanzi felt a little enlightened when he heard it, but Wang Taika pouted: "It's still a psychiatrist who can fool you!"

(End of this chapter)