Reboot the heyday

Chapter 3293: Calm Cruelty

Ulaanbaatar is a city on the desert grassland.

If you drive straight ahead, you will soon leave the city and be surrounded by endless desert.

It was originally a grassland, but Mongolia has never known what "sustainable development" is, and has never controlled sheep grazing, resulting in desertification of the entire country.

Every spring, the north of China, including the capital, is hit by sandstorms. In fact, these sandstorms are blown from Mongolia. Even with the Three North Shelterbelts in Inner Mongolia, they cannot stop the sandstorms.

But this lonely scenery gave Xu Fanfan more time to think or daydream during this period.

I don't know what's going on, I've been feeling anxious lately.

It was as if a nightmare buried deep in my heart was awakened, and I could feel it approaching step by step.

But Xu Fanfan just felt that she was making a fuss out of nothing. She had been planning for a long time, so there must be no loopholes.

Although Xu Fanfan finally chose to resist, his inner confidence changed from full of confidence at the beginning to doubtful now.

Because the shadow Wang Taika left on her was too big.

As a person whose self-esteem has been taken away, Xu Fanfan sometimes feels dazed when he thinks back on the past, wondering if he was really tamed by Wang Taika at some point?

Maybe, otherwise Wang Taika would not be fooled.

At least during that most depressed period, Xu Fanfan was really trying to please Wang Taika wholeheartedly, and regarded this kind of flattery as a kind of happiness and justification.

Even now when I think about it, I still feel ashamed.

But at the same time, I really couldn't help but feel excited and even wet.

It's not even Stockholm syndrome. It's just that I have suppressed my nature for too long, and my heart actually desires these things.

  Otherwise? Do you really think that there has ever been an honest girl who studies every day in this world? Or that the honest girl who has ever existed can be described as having low emotional intelligence, right?

People's character settings should not be taken seriously, but Xu Fanfan felt like she was possessed, and that was how she was liked. So she spent almost half her life pretending to be a good girl.

But how come such a good girl chose a university course specially prepared for idols? It's simply because she really couldn't pass the entrance exam.

Sometimes now, Xu Fanfan still dreams about the days when he was with Wang Taika.

But what made Xu Fanfan ashamed and angry was that these dreams were not nightmares for her. She could not deceive herself with her sense of reality!

At least in the dream, I was not frightened, but more immersed in it. After waking up, I was not frightened, but worried about gains and losses.

I clearly regard all of this as a stain in my life, a shame that I dare not talk about, a scar that will never heal, and a nightmare that will bleed forever.

  but!

But everything in the dream was exactly the opposite. The self in the dream missed and enjoyed that kind of life so much.

Xu Fanfan felt ashamed and thought she had been brainwashed. But even if she told herself the truth countless times, she would still have such dreams. It was even like a rebellious psychology. The more she warned herself not to think like that, the more such dreams she had.

So was he really brainwashed by Wang Taika, or did Xu Fanfan really like that kind of life in his heart?

This may really be an unsolved mystery. Just like Schrödinger's cat, Xu Fanfan can no longer go back to the beginning.

The current situation is that Xu Fanfan tries not to sleep in order to stop dreaming. When he is very sleepy and goes to bed, he doesn't even have the energy to dream.

But after a few times of this, Xu Fanfan felt that his mental state was getting worse.

The biggest scar that Wang Taika left on Xu Fanfan was precisely Wang Taika's softness towards her. From the beginning to the end, Wang Taika only managed Xu Fanfan according to the rules, but did not take advantage of Xu Fanfan.

Given Wang Taika's control over Xu Fanfan at the time, even if he did something to her, she couldn't resist. But Wang Taika didn't do that. Although he made Xu Fanfan do many shameful actions and say many shameful words, he didn't really take advantage of her. It was more like flirting. Not to mention that nothing really happened, there wasn't even a kiss. Maybe this was one of the reasons why Xu Fanfan let down her guard at the time.

Because although Wang Taika bullied her, he did not force her to hurt her. Wang Taika was like a sulky child who only liked to order her to do trivial things, and never did anything dirty.

Thinking of this, Xu Fanfan became even more confused.

Seeing the sun about to set in the distance, Xu Fanfan felt that it was almost time. She started the car and prepared to go back to the hotel.

Xu Fanfan was not alone. She had been preparing for a long time, so there were some SM company staff here to help her solve the problems of food, clothing, housing and transportation. Xu Fanfan explained that it was a private schedule and she only contacted people she trusted.

So although Xu Fanfan is paying for everything out of his own pocket now, the car he drives is from the company and the hotel he stays in is also arranged by the company.

But there was no one around to talk to.

Xu Fanfan once thought about telling her teammates about this, but then she gave up the idea. Because she was still thinking about protecting herself and didn't dare to completely anger Wang Taika, so she didn't dare to do so.

People are like this, always trying to protect themselves too much, but they don't know that this kind of thinking will make them weak.

  Didn't Wang Taika start to become hedonistic and even weak because he had too many close female friends and too many concerns?

After Xu Fanfan returned, she rearranged the room. For safety reasons, she changed hotels every few days.

The place we stayed today was more like a homestay. But it was nice to have such a place in Ulaanbaatar, and Xu Fanfan didn't want to be picky.

In the evening, after having a dinner that was completely unfamiliar to him in Mongolia, Xu Fanfan washed up and went to bed.

I had the same dream again this time. I dreamed that Wang Taika appeared and I couldn’t control myself and wanted to go to him. I called him “Master” and helped him get his clothes. I was obedient.

Maybe it's really a bit like the idea of ​​the goldfish. The reason why Xu Fanfan misses such a past may also be that it is really too tiring to think about everything by himself.

If you can have someone you can trust and rely on, then as long as you are obedient and be a good girlfriend, everything can be solved.

Not to mention women, even men, who hasn't thought about living off a gigolo? After all, it's really tiring to face the whole world alone. Laziness is human nature.

So when will this kind of days end? How should I face everything?

Xu Fanfan was half asleep and half awake, and she felt a little blinded, and then she found that the light in the room was still on. But she remembered that she had turned off the light before going to bed.

Suddenly, she shuddered all over, because there was a chair at the door, with a man sitting on it. He seemed to be smiling, but not smiling, with a crazy look.

  Wang Taika!

"Someone! Help! Help!" Xu Fanfan started shouting, but Wang Taika did not stop her and let her shout.

Xu Fanfan understood instantly. No wonder he had changed his residence from a hotel to a B&B like this. All of this was premeditated, and he had no way to escape.

I never expected that Wang Taika would be so powerful that he could solve the problem so quickly and find me. In this case, what else can I do?

After Xu Fanfan understood all this, despair did not appear before he began to feel depressed. Instead, he began to feel a negative mood of "I'm tired, I wish the world would be destroyed."

I have been so nervous for a long time and I am really tired. If I can sleep well, everything will be normal. I just don't know how Wang Taika, this damn pervert, this beast, will take revenge on me.

"Do you know the correct translation of my name? It's not Xuxian, or Zhuxian. It's Xu, Zhu, Xuan! The real meaning is the sky." Xu Fanfan sneered: "Haha, Wang Taika, don't expect me to surrender to you. There will never be that day."

But what made Xu Fanfan uneasy was that Wang Taika had no expression or reaction at this time. There was no anger, ridicule, teasing or contempt.

There was only one way that made her realize that the nature of this matter was completely different.

  It was a quiet cruelty.
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(This paragraph is free: The timeline of the next chapter should be one month later. Because the plot after this chapter is the real training. It will be reported if it is posted, so it can only be put in the hentai.)

(End of this chapter)