Reboot the heyday

It's time to explain what happened.

This year, I was just playing it down, with almost no updates. I actually saw the comments scolding me in the book review section, but I didn't feel angry for a second, only shame in my heart.

I'm not in good shape this year, this is an obvious fact. It's not just the writing that's affected, my main job is also completely bad this year, I'm absent from work almost every day.

Today I don’t want to be pitiful, I just want to talk about what happened to me. It is said that the collapse of adults is a matter of moments, but mine lasted for more than half a year.

I won’t mention what happened, but I suddenly lost all confidence in life, the future, and my dreams. I didn’t want to die, but all of a sudden, I became a shell of myself. I lay flat, living day by day, sometimes depressed, sometimes extremely excited. Although I didn’t become emotional, my lucidity began to become fragmented. At first, I suffered from insomnia and anxiety, and then I became numb and lay flat.

I think it's a sign of depression. So I posted a single chapter many times, saying I would start updating the next day. Because at that time I was in a state of "excitement" and felt that I was already well. But the next day, my state was ruined and I broke my promise.

How much do I lie down? In the past six months, I have gained 40 pounds. Most of the time, I spend 18 hours a day in bed at home, and the rest of the time is spent eating out or going to work. Thanks to a colleague who has a good relationship with me, he has helped me take on a lot of work. But I haven't punched in properly on the time clock for more than half a year.

Too abstract, really.

I completely shut myself off from the world and didn't even read any messages from friends. I have to thank Ah Chun, Ah Qiao, Tai Zi, Tuniu, Ah Ming, Chang Gong, Deng Niu Zi, Gou Ruyi, Ning Py and other people who either invited me out for a stroll or made jokes to cheer me up every day, making me feel that there was still hope for my life and that I wasn't so lonely that I could disappear.

A lot of things did happen, but I have never liked complaining. It always seems hypocritical to tell others about my own affairs.

But this time I think I have really gotten over it and am fine. Now that it is over, I can talk about the bad things that happened in the past openly. Moreover, I have to explain that many readers have been following this book for seven or eight years, and I can't be so heartless.

As you can see, after a year of rest, I feel ready. So next, I need to update, write, lose weight, and go out for a walk.

Finally I became a normal person again.

Back to the update, I really can’t finish the bad work before October. But I said before that I would update once every October, so as of now, I owe 14 chapters.

If I can update normally tomorrow, it means I am fine and recovered. If not, please don't give up on me. I will try to adjust as soon as possible.

  Thank you. (End of this chapter)