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Chapter 1199 1199: Yes, I am narcissistic [asking for monthly ticket]

Tan Ting: [……]

This was the first time in his life that someone had told him with certainty that he had always been normal and perfect!

It’s not his fault that he is different, it’s the “masses” who are wrong.

At a certain moment, Tan Ting's heart wrinkled slightly.

Those eyes were like ice and snow melting into a pool of spring water. He heard himself say: [Mr. Shen, there are few people of the same path in the world. I can’t find them anywhere, and my heart is in a state of confusion. What should I do?]

Shen Tang did not notice his mood changes, but just said in a broad-minded way: [What should I do? That's simple. In my opinion, everything in this world can be summed up in two sentences - the wind suddenly rises, rippling the spring water? What does it have to do with you? What does it have to do with me? ]

[The word "gregarious" is wrong in the first place.]

【Why is it normal to be sociable? 】

【Mediocre people need to be sociable.】

[When you firmly believe that you are normal, you look up at the men and women in this world, and they are all imperfect.] Shen Tang didn't know how many years Tan Ting had been struggling with the problem. As an outsider and bystander, she felt relaxed and relaxed, [seeing the nature and heart, and taking a glimpse of the true self.]

If you are firm in your original intention, you will naturally be able to wait for like-minded people to come to you, rather than hoping to keep pace with them and draw strength from their firm intention.

[My true self? I can’t see it because I’m so blind.]

Tan Ting shook his head slightly.

He thought that his state of mind was not strong, but not weak either, after all these years of spiritual cultivation. He had not been shy about this strange body for many years, and could even talk about it with Shen Tang when they first met. But after a conversation with Shen Tang, he found that his heart was wavering, and he was more confused than before.

Shen Tang said: [It must be spring silkworms. ]

Tan Ting looked up in confusion: [Spring silkworm? ]

On the surface, Shen Tang appeared calm and confident of victory, but he was actually panicking and wanted to scratch his face, secretly irritated at himself for not keeping his mouth shut - if he said less, Tan Ting wouldn't be confused again.

The focus of Wenxin literati is on "heart".

The mind is trapped, the thoughts are clouded, as the saying goes, it is like being stuck in a dead end. It is good to be able to think it through, but if you can't think it through, it will even lead to stagnation in cultivation, which is a great sin. Shen Tang should also untie the ball of wool that she messed up herself.

Shen Tang organized his words and considered them carefully.

[Spring silkworms weave cocoons, entangle themselves and bind themselves. ]

Tan Ting's eyes gradually turned dark: [Trapping oneself in a cocoon? ]

Shen Tang asked Tan Ting: [How are you not tying yourself up in knots? You were born this way. In your eyes, everyone in the world is half missing, and in the eyes of the world, you are half more. But is there a possibility that the world is not missing, and you are not more? You are actually complete existences, just like mountains, rivers, sun, moon, spring, summer, autumn and winter, which are the most common existences. Since it is normal, why do you resist? ]

From Qishan's description, Tan Ting has always been bound by his body. He believes that he should be a woman and hates male characteristics. However, the secular world believes that he is a man because he has male characteristics, and denies the female part. Tan Ting is resisting the existence of men, but at the same time, the secular world's recognition of his male existence allows him to practice. In troubled times, he needs this power to protect himself, and even do more. The part of him that pursues women is denied by the secular world, and he needs it to resist the male part...

The two are too contradictory and cannot be reconciled.

Isn't this kind of entanglement and resistance like a silkworm spinning silk in spring?

Tan Ting has been cultivating his mind for many years. He seems to be frank with Shen Tang about his true self, but in fact, his words are all denying the male part that has always existed in him. How can you see your true self if you resist yourself? Therefore, he is a spring silkworm.

A spring silkworm that has been spinning silk for many years is trapped in a cocoon.

Tan Ting raised his hand and looked at his palm, with a lot of struggle in his eyes.

[Mr. Shen, but——]

[No buts!] Shen Tang looks easygoing, but he is actually a tyrannical person. [A scholar of literary mind who dares not even identify himself is a bit cowardly. Meng Yuan, don't you think you are too contradictory? When you think that your body has some extra male characteristics, which is not what it should be, it means that you think you are a heretic from the bottom of your heart. If you are a heretic, how can you find people who share the same path? Resisting it, but needing it, how can you not be a fuss and a trap for yourself? What does Tan Gun think?]

[Yuanliang told me before that you practice in the wild. The heaven and earth are natural, yin and yang are natural, all things are natural, and you are also part of nature. Therefore, there is neither more nor less.]

The male is he, the female is she, and He is also He.

Tan Ting raised his head and covered his forehead, suppressing his inner excitement.

[If Mr. Shen were a commoner, would he also think this way? ]

Shen Tang thought about it seriously.

[There is no real empathy in this world, but - if I were you, I probably wouldn't be bothered by this problem. I am the sky, I am the earth, I am all things in the world, I am me. Who would resist themselves? If you don't even like yourself, don't admit yourself, how lonely would this life be? Shouldn't the first person you are looking for be yourself? ]

Tan Ting seemed to hear something shattering softly.

It was as if a gust of wind blew from somewhere, drifting deep into my heart, reaching the dark corners that no one had cared about before.

He raised his hand to cover his chest and was stunned for a long time.

Shen Tang looked at him like this and wondered whether he should try a different set of words. After all, he was a friend endorsed by Qi Yuanliang himself, and it would be hard to explain if he fooled him.

Tan Ting said: [Does Mr. Shen like me this much? ]

Shen Tang: [Are you asking me if I am narcissistic? ]

Is not this nonsensical?

  If people are not narcissistic, what are they narcissistic about?

Look at her face that has swept the capital, look at the kingdom she has built over the past decade, she has money, cars, houses, and a strong sense of career! Ask yourself honestly, with so many attributes superimposed on one person, how can this not impress people? Not enough to charm thousands of people?

Shen Tang didn't believe it!

She nodded firmly and admitted: "Yes, I am narcissistic."

  Narcissism has kept her mental state stable for decades!

Tan Ting tightly closed his eyes, which were filled with spring water and sparkling. The turbidity that had been pent up in his heart for many years seemed to be completely vented at this moment. When he opened his eyes again, Tan Ting bowed deeply to Shen Tang: [Thanks to Mr. Shen's enlightenment, I have already gained some enlightenment in my heart. I am afraid I need to retreat for a few months. Can worldly affairs wait until I come out of retreat? ]

In simple terms, it means that he cannot start work now. He needs to go for further studies for a few months first, and then he can start working after completing his studies.

Shen Tang asked: [Retreat?]

Tan Ting said seriously: [Learn how to be narcissistic. ]

Shen Tang almost choked on his own saliva.

Putting aside how shocking this statement is, do I need to learn narcissism?

  Isn't narcissism something that is innate?

Do you need a reason to love yourself?

Need to learn?

Qi Shan in the side hall also held his forehead helplessly. Tan Mengyuan was led into a ditch by the master! However, no matter how strange this ditch was, it was wider than the small puddle where Tan Ting had squatted before, which was not a bad thing after all. At the same time, he felt a little relieved.

Given Tan Mengyuan's personality, he should be less obsessed with himself.

At least, maybe, should...

You wouldn't want to sterilize him at every turn...right?

Qishan has no confidence in this.

Tan Ting still needs to be on guard. He should keep his two eyes on guard at night and not drink alcohol on weekdays. He must not give this guy a chance to take advantage of him! Qi Shan secretly prepared himself mentally.

Tan Ting said he was in seclusion, but in fact he was still hanging out outside.

Because I had no place to live, I could only seek help from my friends.

Qishanren was numb: […No, why? ]

Tan Ting lowered his eyes and said: [You can transform into a woman, but others can't. Qi Yuanliang, you don't want me to stay with your other colleagues? It's not convenient for your colleagues to be male or female.]

Qi Shan's mouth twitched slightly.

Tan Ting smiled lightly, and that smile was enough to shake the color of heaven and earth.

Qi Shan didn't buy it at all: [It's convenient for me? ]

Tan Ting restrained his smile and attacked: [More suitable than them. ]

Qi Shan placed one hand on the hilt of the sword, his face darkening as he imagined the sterilization surgery scene in his mind: [Kangguo is so big, with its borders spanning the entire northwest. There are many places for you to live. You can be settled anywhere, not necessarily under the same roof! ]

Tan Ting's eyes are rolling, her eyebrows are like moon and her eyes are like stars, and her gaze is full of light.

[We need Dharma protectors even in critical moments.] He sighed softly. He had always thought that he had cultivated his mind to perfection. The reason why he had not broken through to a new level was that he lacked the opportunity for enlightenment. Today, after a conversation with Shen Jun, he realized that he had taken the wrong path. [The sea accommodates all rivers, and greatness comes from tolerance.] He should have realized this earlier.

So many years have been wasted.

Tan Ting looked at Qi Shan with a hint of resentment in his eyes. Qi Shan's scalp tingled and he wanted to pick up his sword and run away.

【Why do you blame me? 】

[If you hadn't run away, I might have realized this. Before Shen Jun, you were the most unrestrained person I've ever seen in my life towards men and women.] Tan Ting's words were quite unreasonable, but that was his personality, and Qi Shan didn't want to argue with him.

Qi Shan said: [If I don’t run, I will be disabled. ]

All his friends are sick.

Everyone wanted to take his life while he was ill, and if they didn't want his life, they would at least get some parts from him. In comparison, enemies could bring more warmth. Thinking of this, Qishan couldn't help but sigh that it had not been easy for him over the years.

Tan Ting sighed: [I just want someone who shares the same ideals as me.]

A companion who can understand him.

But now I'm not alone.

Pray for good: [……]

He had wanted to suggest that Tan Ting go get his brain checked out back then, but he never expected that Tan Ting's long-standing illness would be cured by the master's trick.

Who would want to castrate someone when making friends or pursuing a partner?

Looking at Qi Yuanliang, who was alert as if he was a cat with its hair standing on end, Tan Ting smiled and waved at him, signaling him to come closer. Qi Shan refused to do so, but the cat that came to the house to look for food obeyed and rolled around in enjoyment: [Don't be so nervous. I was obsessed back then, but times have changed. You, Qi Yuanliang, have changed. Why would I stand there and hesitate? ]

Since it's a misunderstanding, just clear it up.

He wanted to sterilize Qishan just because he was unwilling to do so.

The essence of a bad friend lies in the word "bad" isn't it?

Qi Shan curled his lips: [How have I changed? ]

He didn't like to hear this!

No matter how the world changes, he Qi Yuanliang remains consistent.

Tan Ting said: [What hasn’t changed? Everything has changed. ]

Qi Yuanliang was so heartless back then. He kicked people into the abyss with the most innocent attitude and then smiled at them from the edge of the pit.

If he wasn't mentally strong, he would have developed a mental illness.

What is Qi Yuanliang like now?

Tan Ting secretly shook his head.

Not only was this face different from the ones he had seen before, but his mentality had also changed dramatically. Tan Ting asked a crucial question: [Yuan Liang has not gotten into debt in recent years, right?]

Pray for good: [……]

He looked a little unnatural: [Not really.]

Upon hearing this, Tan Ting wanted to throw the cat at Qi Shan's face.

[Heh, the dignified Minister of the Central Secretariat of Kang State, Qi Zhongshu who was granted the title of Grand Master, actually has the time to harm innocent people in his busy schedule? ]

Qishan said: [Good time management! ]

Tan Ting: [……]

Qishan didn't like to hear this: [How can this be called a disaster? ]

Tan Qu, gender male/female, likes master and cats.

As long as it is not the master, betrayal is betrayal;

As long as it's not a cat, just abandon it.

To him, it's as natural as breathing.

Tan Ting: [……]

The beautiful woman with long hair was in a state of turmoil. She reached to her waist and took out a short knife. With her other hand, she made a spell and spoke a word. The face of the great goddess Nuwa Bishe showed a ferocious expression for a moment: [Qi Yuanliang, come and die! ]

The sudden burst of literary energy hit Qishan like a tidal wave.

The noise was so loud that all the nearby neighbors were alarmed.

When he saw the direction was Qishan's temporary residence, he left the mat and sat back down. The literary aura was very aggressive, but there was no murderous intent, so no one would die. Considering Qi Zhongshu's popularity, this was normal.

Pray for good: [……]

Tan Ting usurped Qishan's position, leaving him homeless.

He had to run to Qian Yong's side.

Qian Yong grinned: [What wind brought Qi Zhongshu here? ]

He obviously knew that half of Qishan's temporary residence had been demolished, and he also knew that Qishan had a friend staying at his home. He just didn't know that Qishan, as the host, would be kicked out by such a bad guest.

Qi Shan'e glared at him fiercely.

With so many captives, why did he send Tan Ting to him?

【Qian Shuhe, you really hurt people a lot! 】

Since it was Qian Yong who caused the incident, he should be held responsible.

Qian Yong: [……]

Because he had never been narcissistic in a serious way, Tan Ting was a little confused about how to be narcissistic, so he could only ask Shen Tang for advice. Shen Tang stared for a long time, then silently took out the mirror and shared: [What do you see? ]

Tan Ting held the mirror in both hands and looked carefully, frowning slightly, and answered seriously: [Seeing the face of the common people. ]

[The first lesson of narcissism: look in the mirror and appreciate yourself. ]

Tan Ting murmured: […admiring…myself?]

  Are you just admiring your own face?

Or should you appreciate your own body?

Tan Ting began to draw inferences in his mind.

Shen Tang continued: [Second lesson of narcissism, buy, buy, and dress yourself up! Eat what you want to eat, drink what you want to drink, and play what you want to play... The key is to rather put others in a difficult position than put yourself in a difficult position! Everything from the inside out is perfect! ]

Tan Ting felt a little strange, but couldn't tell what was wrong.

Satisfying human desires in terms of food, clothing, housing and transportation is indeed the simplest and most direct way to express love. Tan Ting expressed his willingness to learn.

He asked: [Do you want to dress up nicely?]

【The standard should not be good-looking, but your comfort. 】

One can comment on one's appearance, and others can comment on it, but comfort is something that only oneself can experience. As long as one is comfortable, it doesn't matter whether one wears men's or women's clothing, clothes or no clothes. Shen Tang prefers simple and capable clothes for daily wear, and the style is not limited to men or women, it all depends on her mood. She is the queen, so even if she wears a sack, outsiders will agree that it is suitable.

Shen Tang gave Tan Ting a lot of patience.

Tan Ting also gave enough rewards.

  |ω`)

The widow has no emotional line, except for the cat