June is our farewell song

The pungent smell of disinfectant water was accompanied by a gust of cold wind, and unreasonable anxiety eroded the people who came here.The moment Gu Yuan stepped into the gate, he recalled the reason why he hated this place.There were people coming and going in the corridors of the hospital. The doctors and nurses were busy at work, with the sound of messy footsteps and deliberately quiet conversations. The faces of people passing by were either embarrassed or anxious.

Although too many people have passed away here, and although this is the place that produces the most despair in this city, you can rarely see the look of despair on many people here at the same time.Because for most people, hope is fading little by little, and it is a long process from embracing hope to despair.

Doctors and nurses also understand this truth very well. They usually don't say dead words, but use ambiguous tones to convey vague meanings.They know that if it's a big bowl of tragedy, it's best to feed it slowly, spoon by spoon. Few patients ask to eat it all in one sitting, and most take time to digest.

The moment Gu Yuan pushed open the door of the ward, Gu Yuan felt the rising warm air. The temperature of the air conditioner in the room was very high, so hot that Gu Yuan would sweat even if he only wore a shirt.The girl sat quietly on the white hospital bed, wearing a blue and white striped long-sleeved shirt. The line of her neck seemed to be drawn with a pencil, her eyes were lazy, and there was a gentle smile on the corner of her mouth. She looked light and fluffy, not like a patient.

In any case, the boy who was immersed in the oppressive and lonely atmosphere of the hospital just a second ago felt a burst of warmth when he walked into this ward.

"You're here, it's almost dark." Qing Si turned her head to look at the setting sun outside the window and said, "The setting sun is beautiful."

"Ah, yes. I just came over from Senior Jun Mo, and he said some strange things to me, which delayed me a bit." Gu Yuan walked over, stood beside her hospital bed, and held up the white food in his hand. Bag, "Do you want to eat it? Their family has recently started making pineapple buns, but I think it's a bit too sweet."

"Let me taste it." The girl smiled and took it, and took a deep breath deliberately exaggerated when she opened it, "It smells so good! Is it still hot?"

"Of course, I wrapped it in my clothes and brought it here. You don't even look at the weather outside. It's very windy. If you hold it in your hand, it might freeze into lumps of ice."

"Hey, then I'm not welcome." She took a bite of the fluffy pineapple bun, and the two round blushes on her face shook, "Well, I think it's just right, this level of sweetness."

"Are you all so good at eating sweet things... This is so sweet that you lose your teeth. Hey, speaking of your body, is it okay to eat these?" Gu Yuan looked at her with some concern, "The one I said last time Doctor, did you say anything later?"

"Oh, you said that the doctor who came back from abroad had a full-body examination a few days ago. It seems to be evaluating the difficulty of the operation. It will take a little time." Probably because of several bites in a row, the girl had to He stopped, took a few breaths slowly while holding the bread, "Hey, you just said something strange? What did he say to you?"

It feels like I haven't talked to him for a long time, so I have a strong desire to talk.

Feeling that there was no need to hide it, Gu Yuan didn't hesitate, and directly revealed the recent incident of spirit exploration. Ever since Chi Yu broke contact with him, Qing Si was probably the only one who could make him feel free from any pressure and burden during the chat. There is no one else except her, even Qi Yu can't do it.

Originally, she thought she would express some insight after listening to it, but Liu Qingsi tilted her head and smiled, and just said:
"As soon as you hear it, you know what you will encounter."

"Why... I have to encounter these outrageous things?"

"Well... almost, because you are such a person, that's why you have something to do with such a thing."

"Hey...others are selling their old age by selling their old age. Are you selling your sickness by selling your sickness?"

"Pfft." The girl covered her mouth with a smile, with a slight cough at the end of her voice.Gu Yuan quickly stepped forward and patted her on the back, and she was relieved until her breathing returned to normal after a few seconds, but her worry did not diminish because of this:

"Are you uncomfortable?"

Qing Si shook her head.

"It often happens like this... so you have to control your emotions and don't get too excited~",

"Then you still laugh so loudly..." Gu Yuan glanced at her half-blaming and half-worried, and suddenly saw a book wrapped in white paper under the girl's hands crossed on the quilt, with a book written in black on it. The four big characters written in the signature pen are very eye-catching.

"Sunny and rainy? What is this?"

"It's nothing, a novel." Seemingly a little shy, the girl stuffed the book into the quilt under her chest, "It's just an ordinary book."

"Fiction? What's it about?"

"Stories of high school students."

"Does it look good?" Gu Yuan raised his eyebrows, "Who wrote it, why doesn't it even have a cover."

"I don't know if it's good-looking or not, but I quite like it." Qing Si said, rubbing the cover of the book lightly with her right hand, her eyes sparkling, "Although I feel sad, I always want to Go on, I just finished the first half of this book, I haven't read the rest, I don't know if I can finish it in time."

"Sure...you can finish it." Gu Yuan sat on the edge of the hospital bed, tilted his head, feeling that he should divert the topic away from the book, and when he said this, he seemed to feel a bulge in his heart , in order to show confidence, he turned to stare at Qingsi's eyes, ignoring the thumping sound in his chest.

But Liu Qingsi didn't seem to hear his answer at all. Her eyes drifted out of the window, watching the last halo of the setting sun disappear into the sky, watching the sky turn from a tired flush to a bewildered dark blue, the tip of her right index finger Still tapping the title on the white paper cover again and again.

"If I can't finish it, can you finish it for me?" Liu Qingsi said.

Many years later, when Gu Yuan recalled Qing Si's calm tone and gloomy expression when he said this, he always felt his eye sockets swell.In fact, it was so painful in my heart, but I pretended to be indifferent, pretending to hide all the melancholy and sadness in my heart, and refused to express it.

But at that time, Gu Yuan was undoubtedly unable to understand this, and could only sit there in a daze, filled with inexplicable emotions.

"Stupid, how can anyone read books for others? You can only read the books you want to read by yourself."

In the end, I can only say this sentence to end.

"Haha, it seems to be the same, let's talk about it then." The girl just smiled, and then dismissed the topic lightly, "How about the results of the final exam...?"

Speaking of this, the boy's face immediately collapsed: "It's not good."

"very bad?"

"I don't know why, those things are obvious, even in the exam, I think I know it, but I always make outrageous low-level mistakes, as if the answers have been changed by others, but I clearly remember myself It was indeed written like this at the time. Not only mathematics, but also Chinese and English have the same situation, just like the butterfly effect, the scope of the avalanche is gradually expanding." The boy turned his face to the other side where there was no one, " Chen Ge also said that he didn't know what was going on, that this kind of situation is usually a mentality problem, but he thinks my mentality is fine."

"nothing."

Gu Yuan suddenly felt a clear and sweet spring pouring into his heart.

"it does not matter."

Qing Si hugged him tightly from behind, and pressed her face to the right on his back.

"The bad luck always dissipates and everything will be fine."

Immediately afterwards, there was a flurry of jingling bells, and when he came back to his senses, the boy had already stood up in a hurry.

"Qingsi."

"Um……"

"I'll come see you again in a few days, and today I'm leaving first."

The girl watched the boy's back disappear at the door of the ward, and the smile that was always on the corner of her mouth was slowly swallowed by bitterness.

Running all the way to the courtyard outside the inpatient building, Gu Yuan panted heavily, propped his knees with his hands, and was too tired to speak.

In the weather where white mist could be exhaled in one breath, he was actually sweating profusely. The bean-sized beads of sweat rolled down drop by drop on the frozen, rock-hard soil, splashing small hazes one after another.

What's going on, what is she doing?I... What am I doing again?
Gu Yuan stood up straight, raised his head and looked at the sky, he couldn't see any sunlight left, he could only see the night sky polluted by neon lights, a sky without stars and only the moon.

The thick night covers the sky of the city, and the muddy neon is struggling to push up the darkness in small groups from all directions. In the sight, the lights of the hospital building are like small creamy yellow squares closely arranged one after another, The boy panted heavily and looked up.In December, the boy who ran out of the fully heated ward was wearing only a single shirt. When he came into contact with the cold, he alternated between hot and cold. From a distance, he seemed to have steam on his body.

His eyes fixed on the corner of the upper floor, behind the blurred one-way glass, he could feel her gaze.

Always felt.

— very lonely.

"He's already gone. Didn't he stay long? Did he bring you these pineapple buns?" Mother opened the door and came in, sat down by the bed, and couldn't help asking.

"Yeah." Qing Si replied very straightforwardly.

"Is that so..." I couldn't find anything else to say.

Treating the same thing in a different context, people will really show a different side.

The girl gently stroked the book in her hand.

"Mom, can I ask you something?"

"what?"

"..."