June is our farewell song

After leaving Teacher Shiyu's house, Gu Yuan didn't go directly to the school to find the cardboard box, but walked all the way to the hospital.

"Go and find out the story from her perspective." "I want to know the answer too." "When you find out the truth, let me know too."

—everyone says so.Did they really not know the truth, or did they deliberately hide something?

What happened that winter many years ago?As the investigation deepens, more and more suspects are investigated, but it seems that they are getting farther and farther away from the truth.No matter from anyone's point of view, Ye Qiuling's death looks like an incomprehensible accident, but is it really so?Under what circumstances does a person choose to commit suicide.Gu Yuan firmly believed that she must have some reason, even if she couldn't convince others, at least she must be able to convince herself.

"But, if it's really not someone else's problem, it's just her own..."

What if Ye Qiuling is not the person who truly loves everything around her as she assumes, if she is a twisted and dark person deep in her heart, but no one around her noticed it at the time?

If, everyone should more or less take some responsibility, everyone pushed her behind intentionally or unintentionally.Maybe they really have doubts and incomprehensions at this moment, but when they learn the truth, will their lives become better?Or will it get worse?

——If the truth will only make everyone feel sadder, is it necessary to reveal it?

The tide accumulated in the bottom of my heart really wanted to burst out, I couldn't take it anymore.

"..." The boy's expression was not the same as usual in the floating twilight. Qing Si looked at him and didn't speak, but pursed her lips slightly.

"If this goes on, it will cut your hands, right?"

"Ah?" Gu Yuan, who was fully awake from his contemplation, looked at the fruit knife and the half-peeled apple in his hand. The edge of the knife was already attached to the thumb of his left hand, and thin drops of blood ooze out.

He quickly took the fruit knife away, and there was a thin line of blood in the center of the thumb. Fortunately, he found it in time. The wound was very shallow, only a thin layer of skin was broken.

"There are medical cotton in the drawer." Qingsi's voice was very soft and soft. In the boy's sight, the girl was like a white porcelain sculpture, but the eyes of this sculpture-like person were shining brightly. It's tears that are about to ooze.

"Obviously I was the one who got hurt, why did you start to cry?" Gu Yuan didn't understand why he opened the drawer, took out a flower from a half-pack of medical cotton, and pressed it on the bleeding wound. Although the incision was shallow, it was painful. The feeling is still strong, and the fingers can't help trembling slightly.

"There's sand in the eyes, it's a little itchy." The girl slowly raised her hand to wipe the corners of her eyes, with a smile on the corner of her mouth, "Why are you so careless, what were you thinking just now?"

"It's nothing, it's still the things before." Gu Yuan looked into her eyes, sadness is invisible, hidden behind a smile, not only tears can express it, but he couldn't see where the sadness came from, "I went to look for it during the day Manager Jun Mo and teacher Shi Yu were just thinking about what they said, and their minds were distracted for a while."

"When Xiao Yu came last time, she also cut her hand, and it was also when she was peeling an apple." Qing Si turned her eyes to the blank wall in front of her, as if there was something there.

"Qi Yu...well, she too." Gu Yuan had a few thoughts in his mind, "When was the last time she came?"

"Two days ago, after she left, I slept for a whole day and night." Qing Si said with a helpless smile, "You all seem to be very troubled recently... It's a pity that I am like this, so I can't help you much.

"How can you think that way? We shouldn't bring our troubles to you." Gu Yuan looked up out of the window, "And you can help me. In fact, I came here today to hear your opinion. What to do next."

Looking out of the window, you can see the green Zhongshan Park across the street.There is a huge plum tree planted on the highest part of the hillside. There is not a single leaf on the tree. It is not yet the season of plum blossoms. The branches are bare and covered with dry yellow-brown, which makes people feel unhappy.

"really?"

"Of course it's true, of course."

"Then tell me, wait a minute." The girl sat up from the bed with great difficulty, pushed away the quilt, turned around, and sat in a correct posture facing him, "Okay, I Ready."

Gu Yuan told her what he was thinking about.

"That's it..." Qing Si nodded after listening, and gently tapped her chin with the index finger of her right hand. Gu Yuan hadn't seen her like this for a long time, her eyes and expression were full of vitality, as if it was a long, long time ago The girl who never leaves the book is sitting here, "It is indeed a difficult question to find the answer to, but it is also very important."

"Yeah, I don't know why she gave up her life. Judging from the information I have collected now, she has no reason to do so at all, so I kind of doubt whether she is from..."

"What is it that keeps us alive?" The girl suddenly interrupted him, "Gu Yuan, what is it that keeps us alive?"

"what?"

"I think that's the first question that needs to be answered."

"Really..." Although he didn't quite understand the girl's intentions, Gu Yuan still thought obediently, "Family affection? No, is it friendship? Or is it not right, love?... No, is it being needed?"

"Well... then let's consider the reverse problem first. Why do people not want to live?"

"Because I fell into despair that I couldn't extricate myself from. More specifically, I encountered unsolvable difficulties and setbacks, and encountered unbearable pain."

"You can't always meet some good things in life. There are painful memories. Besides, there is the kind of pain in the gut. But even so, I still try to live , I can still feel something warm guarding me. It has been guarding me and giving me strength constantly. When I am really in pain, I can always feel the support that exists in my heart Incredible power."

"This strength comes from the recognition of self-worth. I think it is meaningful for me to live. Whether it is betrayed by someone I trust, or falling into a trough in interpersonal relationships, or something more sad than this Anyway, these are indeed very sad things. But these alone are not enough to make a person give up his life, what can make a person give up his life is only to make him feel that living is meaningless.”

"In other words, if you don't feel this, then even a small thing may lose the motivation to live?"

"Well, so, she is the same."

"Ye Qiuling..."

"The thing that made her lose hope so quickly must have been the collapse of the things that had supported her all along, rather than the successive setbacks. If you work in this direction, you should be able to find the answer faster than before."

"I see." Gu Yuan grabbed his crossbody bag, the heating in the ward made him drowsy, although he was a little ashamed of the girl who was panting by the bed, but he had to go home, "I'll see you next time."

Just when I was planning to...

"You are actually hesitating whether to continue the investigation."

Qing Si lowered her head and said these words in a low voice. Some messy hair was hanging on both sides, and two slender legs were exposed in the blue and white striped hospital gown. Gu Yuan turned to look at her, and nodded.

"How did you know?"

"Guess." She raised her head and smiled playfully, "Because you are a very kind person, you are afraid of hurting others, right? That's why you hesitate."

"..."

Gu Yuan didn't answer, but just stared at Qing Si's eyes silently. Her long black hair was wet with sweat and glistened, her hot cheeks were the color of cherry blossoms, and those big eyes were full of life. sick.

"Don't think so much now."

"Ok?"

"Because it is you who are going to find out the truth, and you have always been the only one, so you will be the only one who knows the whole story at that time. As long as you want to know the truth, you can continue to investigate."

"As for what kind of story you want to tell others in the end, you can decide at that time. Don't rush to make a decision when you don't know anything." Qing Si put her legs back on the bed, covered the cup, and stared at her big eyes Looking at him intently, the corners of his mouth raised slightly, "Do you understand?"