June is our farewell song

Although it has been ridiculed as an "iceberg", the room did not become warmer after Lu Siyao left. On the contrary, Tangerine, who had lost the cushion, lay on the cold ground and meowed in dissatisfaction, and the puppy Mario wagged his tail Standing in front of the bed, staring at the closed door without saying a word.Gu Yuan stared blankly at the wooden door in a daze, the last sentence left by the girl just now reminded him of the last sentence on the letter.The images of the two overlapped for a moment in my mind, as if the power supply had been short-circuited, causing a tingling pain in my heart.

Gu Yuan shook his head and looked out the window. His head was still heavy, as if it was full of water, and his nose was almost a decoration, but he still sucked hard to try to make it work again.

There are picture books and diaries on the bedside table, and the letter is placed on the desk. It's already dark outside,

"Hey, hey, it's really bad luck recently." Gu Yuan, who almost rolled down and sat on the bed, said to Ju Zi, who was lying on the ground, "I don't know where the big Buddha, Yang Hao, was offended, and he deliberately wanted to To cause trouble, my body is in such a bad state again, the conflict with Qi Yu has not been resolved, and Ziqiu is inexplicably abnormal again. And today Qingsi still..."

Tangerine tilted his head and opened his eyes wide, with two round pupils like grapes, intending to listen to him carefully, but Gu Yuan stared blankly at it and became dazed.

Mario finally stopped guarding the door and ran over to bark at his master.

"Is that so..."

Gu Yuan's eyes widened, and he continued in a murmur:
"Qingsi, she is no longer here..."

Although several hours have passed, in fact, I have not accepted this fact.

"She left me a bunch of things, and I don't know if I can keep reading." Gu Yuan turned his head and looked at the diary and picture album on the bedside table, with tears in his eyes, "Just like she said, all Trivial fragments of life, not great moments of brilliance, but these trivial moments, but shining, and it is very uncomfortable."

Both Tangerine and Mario wagged their tails lightly. Although they seemed to be listening carefully, they actually didn't understand at all.Gu Yuan didn't know why he said this to them. He thought it would make him feel better if he said it, but when he saw the ignorant and clear eyes of the two little animals, he felt even more uncomfortable in his heart.

Probably because of the high fever, the whole body is sore and limp. Even at the head of the bed, it is very difficult for Gu Yuan to raise his arms to get the picture album, so that climbing back to the bed has become a complete failure. , and finally had to give up and continue to sit on the ground.

Open the album again, starting from the fifth page.The pictures in the next ten or so pages are nothing extraordinary. They are nothing more than the lazy daily conversations in the activity room, the stargazing activities on the lawn of the observatory, the playground with no one in the sky under the morning glow, and the red rope wooden sign at dusk and sunset. The swaying wishing tree, the bell tower under the bright moon hanging under the shadow of the tree, the pavilion under the heavy rain, or the boulevard after school in the afternoon, people in twos and threes walking idly on the road, arms linked together, the shadow of the tree on the ground and the The figures are intertwined, and it is hard to tell who is whose.

Every corresponding memory has its own shadow, always doing the same thing together, closing your eyes and recalling those scenes, and you can't even tell who is in certain details.

"Obviously she is the president of the literature club, a recognized talented literary girl, why did she keep a picture album..." Gu Yuan smiled wryly, and then remembered the sentence in the letter, "It must be recorded with a pen... Why did you write this book down?" Leave this kind of thing to me...you don't know how bad the things I wrote are."

[Then it's an agreement, don't go back on your word! 】

"Don't make your own promises for me..."

【The dragon should hide in the clouds】

Although he felt that he remembered clearly, Gu Yuan turned on his phone and went online to check, the next sentence was indeed:

【You should keep it in your heart】

"It's really..." Gu Yuan put the album back on the bedside table with complicated emotions, and took the diary.

"preface"

"Although it is said to be a preface, it is actually written at the end. I have always felt very strange why the text that was written after the end was written as a preface. Hmm... I don't know if you will start with In what order should I read the things I left behind? It would be embarrassing if the diary was read first, but the letter should be read first, then the picture album, and finally the diary. Based on my understanding of Gu Yuan, it should be like this Do it. Because you're a shy person, you always start with the small stuff, and it's always been like that, right?"

"Yeah." The boy nodded.

"However, some things cannot be simplified or circumvented."

Gu Yuan remembered the tarot card she gave him in the morning.

He touched the pocket of his trousers, fortunately, the card was still there.

A lonely tower.

Life is made up of countless choices. Every time we make a choice, we will take a small step in life. Every change is due to our own choice.

Destiny is made up of one's own choices and the choices of others. People have no absolute decision-making power over their own lives, only the right of veto.In other words, people can only choose "don't live like that", but they cannot choose the life they like.

The views of Qing Si and Qi Yu came to his mind at the same time.

Gu Yuan couldn't tell which one was correct.

By the way, at that time Qingsi also mentioned the secret of that tree.

Tree... Gu Yuan picked up the album again, and turned to the page with the wishing tree.

Under the dark sky at dusk, the ancient banyan trees cast mottled shadows on the ground, covering the swinging swing in the shadow.

Wait, swing?
I remember, there is a bench under the big tree in the school?Swing...then where did this swing appear...

Some clues are perceived belatedly, and there is no awareness of epiphany, and complicated things are like tangled threads, and the eyes, nose, ears, and all senses are caught in thinking.Countless fragments in the memories were covered with light, flying over one by one, trying to piece together, the eyes were stung by the light.

That's right, that's why.

Gu Yuan leaned against the bed and closed his eyes. The darkness was gradually covered by the rays of the setting sun. He walked on the gravel path from the teaching building to the playground and then through the pool in the dim light of the street lamps that had not yet been fully lit. In the cold and deserted campus, a huge wishing tree appeared in Gu Yuan's vision, and under the tree was not only a lonely swing, but also a girl sitting on the swing.

The angle of view in memory and the angle of view on drawing paper are interlaced and combined to form a complete space.

No wonder this scene seemed familiar, it turned out to be a scene from a dream.

No, maybe it shouldn't be called a dream anymore.

The dusk and the composition of the paint are not the key to the problem. What really matters is the tree, and only that tree.

Gu Yuan couldn't help but sigh when he thought of the useless work he had been doing before.

Qingsi actually discovered this secret a long time ago, but she never told anyone, including him.

Gu Yuan slowly got up, rummaged on the desk for a while, and found Ye Qiuling's photo.

She should be about the same size as Qing Si, with a high black ponytail and Qi bangs falling down to cover her eyelids when she lowered her head, just like the person she saw in that dream.Compared with the cold photos, the people in the dream gave Gu Yuan a feeling of familiarity and strangeness.

Although I had investigated her affairs for a long time before that, I knew her stressful family environment, learned about the violin she wanted to lose but could not, figured out the whole story of the campus relocation, and found out that maybe it was because of helping her. Chen Lin who had an accident.One by one, he found a foothold in his memory, and the always curious person found so many fragments in different places, but when put together, they did not look like the person in front of him at that time.

Whether it's Chen Ge, the store manager Junmo, or Teacher Shiyu, I learned from them that Ye Qiuling should be like this. Even if she doesn't look outstanding, even if many people don't understand her, she can still make people feel sunny. Type, not optimistic or not optimistic can be done.It was the unique charm of Ye Qiuling.

But that day, in the dream, the girl standing in front of him alive was the type that made people feel gloomy at first sight.

These three people are the person Qiu Ling likes, the person who likes Qiu Ling, and Qiu Ling's best friend. Normally speaking, they should be the people who know Qiu Ling best.

But Gu Yuan somehow felt that the one he saw was the real Ye Qiuling.

Thinking of this, his head was dizzy again, and Gu Yuan remembered that he hadn't eaten anything other than two mouthfuls of sweet cake in the evening.Dying to crawl from the bedroom to the kitchen, the refrigerator was also empty, leaning on the refrigerator, reaching out and groping on the kitchen counter for a while, only to find a green onion and two cloves of garlic, then glanced at the long distance from the kitchen to the bedroom, closed the When closing his eyes, Gu Yuan murmured:
"Ah... I will die if this continues."

This sentence emerged very clearly when I woke up the next day.

Patting Mario and Tangerine who were still licking their hands, Gu Yuan cheered up and got up, his temples were aching. Looking at the desolate kitchen, he decided to go out to buy some food to replenish his energy before it was too late. The school participated in the [-]-day swearing-in meeting.

Going to the supermarket to choose some freshly baked food, Gu Yuan gnawed on the buns while walking downstairs with his pockets in his pocket.

When we got to the school gate, a girl came to meet me.

She has a high black ponytail and is shorter than herself. Qi Liuhai slid down to cover her ears when she raised her head. The moment she passed by, she cast a glance and saw those glazed brown eyes.

It was exactly the same as Ye Qiuling in the photo.

"Ye Qiuling?" The name couldn't help blurting out.

The moment the girl looked back in a daze, Gu Yuan turned around quickly, and Qiu Ling, who mistakenly thought she was hallucinating, continued to walk forward.

My heart was about to jump out of my chest, and my temples were throbbing with pain.

You can't be wrong, it's her.

But...how is this possible? !