June is our farewell song

Chapter 366 Qi Yu’s Broken Oath ()

The door handle is colder than expected.

Qi Yu knocked on the door subconsciously, and then quickly realized the absurdity of what he was doing, and he couldn't help but want to giggle. But she couldn't laugh. She pressed her fingertips against the cold electroplating, and her emotional palette was turned over in a daze. The day after the graduation ceremony, she was also standing here holding the door handle, but she was standing on another side. On one side, it was obviously summer at that time, but it felt just as cold.

Although the sadness that the farewell and no news brought her had faded away over a long period of time, Qi Yu could not help but recall the changes in her heart while revisiting her hometown again that day. Thousands of times, and the sadness of finally leaving alone.

At that time, she and Feng Ziqiu agreed to meet here after the exam, and the time was set at 11 o'clock in the morning after the graduation ceremony. After saying goodbye to Gu Yuan in the corridor of the auditorium, she took a deep breath and came to the library. She arranged her hair and collar in the bathroom on the first floor. When she saw the dark circles on her face due to insomnia last night, she specially patched them up. Covered up with makeup.

She closed the door and sat by the window looking at the empty playground. The warm breath rose from the plastic track under the sun, and the wind splashed it warmly on her face. She didn't know what she should say right now. She only knew that she wanted to see him very much, had a lot to say, and had many questions to ask. She slowly closed her eyes, and the world turned red. She sat there alone until the sun set in the west and the moon rose in the east.

There were footsteps approaching and going away, but in the end no one pushed open the closed door. She sat alone on the chair, with no intention of turning on the light despite the darkness. Regarding the memory of that night, she seemed to be missing a piece of her mind. She felt that she should have fallen asleep at that time, because she could clearly recall the bright sunshine the next morning. When she opened her eyes, she saw a golden world with a clear sky. summer.

In three years, she has not returned here once, nor has she contacted Feng Ziqiu. She remembered that it was his birthday in a few days.

There were many things she didn't understand, but leaving without saying goodbye that day was the clearest answer. Maybe life is like this. We will never know the truth of some stories. No matter how hard we try to find, we can only get a vague answer.

"Why don't you open the door?"

Gu Yuan's voice broke the atmosphere of memories. Qi Yu did not answer directly, but shook his head gently.

"It's okay, let's go in."

She pressed her hand slowly, and the door shaft was a little rusty. It made a harsh noise during the rotation, like a person's low sobbing. Qi Yu couldn't help but feel distressed. What hit his face was the smell of old dust, or... The set of white square tables and armchairs from a few years ago, and the bookshelf next to it are still in the same position as before, densely packed with many various books, some of which they bought themselves, but did not take away. Three years later, it's still there, just covered in dust.

The scene was exactly the same as when he left that day, and time in this room seemed to have stopped.

"Why is it so dirty and no one cleans it?"

"Of course not. Club activities were banned two years ago." Gu Yuan pinched the bridge of his nose and blinked hard.

"It's banned? Isn't there a literary club now?"

"It can't be said that they are banned. It's just that they no longer have independent activity rooms. I heard that now they want to have meetings and chat, but they do it in the playground or canteen. But at least it is still operating in name, and the school magazine is still published. , but the number of submissions is pitiful, and we can only rely on the members' manuscripts, but in fact, even they are unwilling to write. The frequency of school examinations is much higher than that of our time. "

Gu Yuan wiped his fingers on the dusty table: "So the newcomers we recruited have actually not been here a few times. It's a shame we didn't put in so much effort at that time."

"Yes, Sisi will definitely be sad if she finds out."

Gu Yuan, who was standing in front of the bookshelf, was stunned for a moment, then smiled softly, reached for a book and said, "Really? Then we have to find a way to let her know. I haven't seen her cry for a long time." ”

Qi Yu glanced at Gu Yuan. His eyes were fixed on the book in his hand, his seriousness was a bit fake.

"What are you looking at?" Qi Yu asked him, "I've never seen you so serious before."

"Nothing, just take a look." Gu Yuan put the book back calmly, "Suddenly I remembered that there was a novel that I had never finished. I kept thinking about what the ending would be like because I couldn't remember the book. I can’t find it online, so after all these years, I never know what the ending will be like.”

"So now you know?"

Gu Yuan glanced at her.

"How's the ending?" Qi Yu asked.

"It's okay, most of the foreshadowing has been recycled, but it's not the ending I like." Gu Yuan replied, his eyes moved downward unconsciously, with a slight smile on his lips, "Young and frivolous dreams have not been realized, and the people who love each other have also Without living a happy life together, there is no pride, no prosperity, all the high spirits, and the dust has settled and will never be restored."

Qi Yu's eyes fell on his face. Gu Yuan's eyes made her feel unpredictable. She had been with the boy in front of her day and night for three years, so that the details about him had become a habit. But the three years of separation easily defeated those years. This was not the first time that she felt strange from Gu Yuan.

"Is there something on my face that you like? You are staring at me like this."

"Stop putting gold on your face." Qi Yu pursed his lips, "If you could rearrange your facial features, I might still be interested, but this face now, I'm sorry, it's torture to look at it even more ”

"You are the only one in the world who would say that." Gu Yuan raised his eyebrows, "By the way, how is your emotional state now?"

"What?" Qi Yu glanced at him, "Why do you ask this so suddenly."

"I'm just curious." Gu Yuan looked away again, "There are a lot of people chasing you, right?"

"Who did you listen to?"

"I was just guessing." Gu Yuan smiled, "So, are there any?" "Well... there have been a few. But none of them have succeeded." The shadows of several people flashed in Qi Yu's mind, " Are you still alone?"

"Of course, I'm not a person, how can I still be a dog?"

What a cold joke, but Qi Yu couldn't help laughing.

"honestly."

"Yeah." Gu Yuan nodded, "It's still the same as before."

What does "the same as before" mean? Was it three years ago or five years ago? Qi Yu looked at Gu Yuan. His appearance was the same as before. He was leaning on the metal bookshelf with his hands and a smile on his lips.

Except for his eyes, his eyes used to feel clear and lazy, just like the Baotu Spring in elementary school textbooks. But now it is like a deep and quiet pool, with no fluctuations to be seen.

Much like Chen Ge.

Looking at the whiteboard with a cold light behind the boy, Qi Yu suddenly remembered a past event.

Near the end of the second semester of her sophomore year of high school, she didn't want to go back to the dormitory directly after class one night, so she wandered around the campus. She found that the lights were on in the activity room, and she saw Liu Qingsi inside through the window, also standing in this position. There are words written on the whiteboard with pens of various colors. Because she was so absorbed, Liu Qingsi never noticed her.

Qi Yu didn't make a sound, just stood under the dark sky, quietly looking at Liu Qingsi on the other side of the window. What is written on the whiteboard is her future plan, both about herself and the literary club. It is written word for word. Among them were the picnic at the amusement park during the summer vacation, the Mid-Autumn Moon Festival that was completely inconsistent with the plan, and the art festival literary exhibition that was completely unrealized. There were circles after team activities and crosses after those about her own plans.

In fact, Qing Si's handwriting was very small, line by line coded together so densely that Qi Yu didn't know how he could remember it so clearly. That night she stood outside the window for a long time, until the girls in the room turned off the lights and were about to leave, then she hurriedly ran along the path. The brown stuffed bear that had been hanging on the shoulder strap of her schoolbag was also hung up by a branch and could not be found again. Not here.

Suddenly they felt a little sore in their noses. They had survived the most painful days, but the person who was full of sunshine did not.

The world is really unfair.

When he came back to his senses, Gu Yuan seemed to notice her gaze and turned to look at the whiteboard.

"Remember what?" He smiled at the girl. "No matter what was written on it before, it has been wiped clean now." Qi Yu nodded.

"I have never used this board. You have used it the most before."

Qi Yu shook his head and denied: "I'm not the one who uses it the most."

"Huh? Isn't it you?" Gu Yuan was a little surprised, "I remember that every time I came here, you girls would stand here, talking and laughing in front of a whiteboard full of things written on them. I thought they were all It was written by you."

"It's Sisi." Qi Yu said, "It's always been her."

Gu Yuan's eyes froze, and his expression looked sad for a few seconds. After a while, he seemed to suddenly remember something, and took out something from the inner pocket of his coat.

"By the way, someone asked me to return this to you."

Qi Yu looked at the brown stuffed bear he was holding in his hand. He didn't say anything for a long time, just stared at it, which made Gu Yuan tremble.

"What's wrong? I remember it was yours. It was often hung on my schoolbag at that time."

"Why are you here?" Qi Yu stared at him, "Are you..."

"What is it? Hey, I just got this recently. As I said, someone, someone asked me to return it to you."

"Who?"

"It's Chen Ge." Gu Yuan met her turbulent eyes, "He said he found it in the storage room over there when he was cleaning up here. I told him last time that I would take you to the activity room to have a look. , then he remembered to give it to me and let me bring it to you. "

"it's here?"

Gu Yuan watched the girl slowly lower her head, not knowing whether it was because of fatigue or some other reason.

"Well, I found it here."

Qi Yu touched the long-lost puppet and found a row of fine sutures on the bear's butt. The silk thread was the same brown color as the puppet itself. It was easy to miss it if you didn't look carefully.

She cried all of a sudden and couldn't say a word.