Chang Anqing

Chapter 32
As if the dusty heartstrings were gently tugged, Baoying looked at Hongying in front of her, the candle shadow swayed and cast mottled light and shadow on the girl's drooping side face, looking peaceful and beautiful, Baoying's lips were light in the silence. He moved slightly, and when the words came to his mouth, he finally fell silent until it was calm.

Now she doesn't even know the answer.

She only remembered that Hongying in the past would stick to her arms, like a child who would never grow up, pestering her to put paper kites, begging her to secretly take her out of the city to ride a horse, and she would put a bright smile in her ear again Calling my sister again and again.

But now that I think about it again, those memories have long been dusty, and there is a layer between them unconsciously, and even she has been with her since she was a child, and she can no longer see Hongying's heart.

"When I was a child, my mother was strict and my husband was old-fashioned. I remember that when we were sitting in the academy every day and were forced to practice calligraphy, read books, and learn the rules, I could always hear other sisters and maids from a distance through that window. The laughter of people fighting grass and putting paper kites, at that time I always thought, why do we have to live such a restrained life, without freedom, just because we are the daughters of A-Niang?"

In the silence, the girl's quiet voice finally sounded from inside the house, as if she was just talking about other people's stories, making people unable to hear a trace of emotion, like a stone being gently thrown into the deep pool under the night, pandemonium. Ripples a little.

"That's why I resisted. I deliberately got up late and hurried to the end of the female gentleman's class. I deliberately couldn't recite the etiquette articles left by A-Niang. Every time I made A-Niang angry, I watched the female gentlemen shaking their heads. I felt extremely happy. It wasn't until later that I learned from the servants in the house that just because I was young and refused to give in, A-Niang would put all her anger at me on you, A-jie--"

When the words fell, Baoying paused, and looked at Hongying in surprise, her face changed slightly, and those past events that she didn't want to be revealed again poured out from the bottom of her heart like a spring. She felt strangely heavy.

"If I couldn't memorize the chapters, my sister had to turn on the lamp and copy it for me several times. If I was late, I asked my sister to go to the academy at [-] o'clock every day in the cold winter, and ask the lady to teach and make rules."

"Outsiders all know that we are the daughters of aristocrats and were born with a golden spoon in their mouths, but who knows or understands our bitterness and suffering over the past few decades?"

Speaking of this, the girl's voice gradually became hurried, and her tone gradually became choked with a momentary pause. Until the end, Yang Hongying sneered and raised her head. It was obviously a charming and charming smile, but there was a little bit in her eyes. A little reddish, with a bit of hazy fog.

"It wasn't until that day that Aye's honest rebuke and resentment to A-Niang finally made me understand that we have been living like caged birds for decades, just because we are far away in Chang'an, our bloodline is noble, and we were born with The beloved Yongning County Master. Sister, do you remember what A-Niang said?"

In the silence, Baoying smiled disapprovingly when she saw Hongying, raised her hand stubbornly and wiped the tears from the corner of her eyes with her fingertips, and spat out those two words like a joke.

"useless."

"Since I heard those two words, I was relieved. As long as we can't compare with the Yongning County Lord, we can't satisfy Aye A-niang, and we will be useless people in their eyes for the rest of our lives. So I tried my best. I did it, and tried my best to force myself to learn everything to the extreme, and then I finally saw the praises in Aya's eyes. But when I came to Chang'an, I realized how ridiculous I was."

"Red Ying-"

Hearing the gradual sadness and sadness in Hongying's language, Baoying finally couldn't help but blurted out a cry, but saw Hongying smiling as if she had never heard of it, and her smile became more wanton and ironic.

"I watched and watched the little things that we have worked hard for decades to get, but Yongning County Master can get it at our fingertips. At that time, I was thinking, why? Why is she born to get everything? The identity of the County Master, Mrs. The love of my cousin, the love of my cousin, and the favor of the emperor, but we can’t ask for anything—”

Speaking of this moment, the girl in front of her seemed to be unable to bear it any longer. The sound of her clothes rubbing was accompanied by a cool gust of wind. Baoying felt a warm and soft body plunge into her arms as before, and she went down. For a moment, she could feel the person in her arms trembling slightly, and the warm wetness melted on her skirt little by little.

"Sister, I lost, and since you left that day, I feel that I have lost. I just wanted to hear Aya's praise, and to see them love us like the parents next to us, dote on us. We, but I never thought that I would become what I am now, and I never thought that I would see my sister turn and leave me like that. What should I do if I marry a place without you and my mother-"

The girl's choked confession resounded in her arms, Baoying only felt tears rolling down her eyes, as if her heart was being held tightly. It was obviously a cold night, but she felt a strong sense of suffocation. Wrapping her tightly, she could hardly breathe, and Hongying's cry made her feel a bit bitter.

"Second lady, since you entered the palace, the lady has nightmares almost every night. Whenever she wakes up, she will always call you. The servants see pain in their eyes. The lady is really wrong. I beg Er lady. Forgive the lady-"

At this moment, Qiu Lan and Qiu Zhi, who were standing silently by the side, both knelt down, and both lowered their heads while speaking, daring to let her see the stained tears dripping on the floor tiles.

The night wind outside the window was gradually patting gently with the rustling light rain. The leaves outside the house were projected on the small window through the candlelight. Listening to the sound of the wind and rain, Baoying stretched out her hand and gently patted the girl's back. In a moment, he gently embraced the person in his arms.

"Sister has never blamed you, Hongying, you are my sister at all times, and elder sister will protect you and cherish you at all times, you are never alone, no matter what the road ahead is, elder sister Always be ahead of you."

After that, Baoying also gently leaned on Hongying's shoulder and silently shed a few tears.

The long-lost warmth climbed up in the house little by little, until after a long time, the candles placed on the high table suddenly "crack--" the lights burst out, and the two sisters were shocked to follow the sound and saw the red candle. The candle tears accumulated on the candle flowed down the candle body little by little. Hui Rong, who was on the side, wiped away the tears and said with a smile: "The lights are bursting, the joy is here, this is a good sign for the lady and the third lady."

When Baoying heard the words, she let go of Hongying's body, and the two smiled at each other, as if everything was the same as before.

"Okay, it's all adults, why are you still so childish-"

While speaking, Baoying gently wiped the tears from her cheeks for Hongying, and said, "Since I haven't been sleeping well these few days, can you teach the doctor to watch?"

"Look, but after taking a few medicines, it's already better."

After saying that, the girl took Baoying's hand clingingly and leaned on her shoulder and said, "Today I want to sleep with my sister, okay-"

Baoying felt this long-lost and familiar atmosphere, and couldn't help but smile: "Okay."

"I heard from the sisters in the mansion a few days ago that the ancient lotus in the Yuqing Temple outside the city has bloomed, and one of them is rare, and there is a lotus. Numaid, look at the rare good weather these few days, it is better for the lady to go with the second lady. Look at it, just relax."

Hearing Qiu Lan on the side join in the fun, Qiu Zhi on the side poked her with a smile and said, "I see, it's clear that you want to go."

Seeing the two little girls in front of them joking with each other, Baoying smiled and glanced at Hongying beside her and said, "We have never been out in Chang'an these days. Yuqingguan take a walk."

After speaking, Hongying smiled brightly in her eyes: "It's better to hit the sun if you choose a day, sister, shall we go there early tomorrow? I'm afraid that in a few days, the lotus in the pond will be lost and hope for nothing. on."

Baoying hesitated for a moment when she heard the words. Originally, she was invited by Li Sui tomorrow to go to Wuzhuyuan to teach her to be a girl, but at this moment, it was rare to see the little face that Hongying was looking forward to, so she couldn't say no. If she did, she had to turn her head to Hui Rong who was beside her and said, "You will go to Wuzhu Garden and tell the county master right now, and I'll go find her when I come back tomorrow."

When Hui Rong heard the words, she immediately wanted to leave, and Hong Ying, who was beside her, saw it and said, "Sister, don't look at the time, Hui Rong is going to go now, I'm afraid it will disturb the princess's sleep, and it's not too late to go tomorrow. ."

Hearing Hongying's reminder, Baoying looked at the sky outside, and it was indeed getting late, so she nodded and said, "Then let's wait until tomorrow."

(End of this chapter)