Why it never ends

Chapter 52 I Should Hold My Spear

Tears washed away her anger like a torrential rain.In the extinguished embers, Hesta saw for the first time the heavy shackles on his body.

These shackles, which were as heavy as a boulder, pressed on her back, day and night, but she didn't realize it.

Because there are always new things to do in front of her eyes, and new people appearing and leaving around her constantly. After encounters and partings, fate always leaves more entanglements and sharp cores waiting for her to resolve.

She muddle along and accept everything.

Now Chiba gave this feeling a name, she tried to understand, but she cried more and more, and the distress in her heart became heavier and heavier. At the end of crying, Hesta even became a little dazed, she didn't remember and didn't care what she was doing And crying, I just feel that every drop of tears is solidly soaked in pain.

Qianye didn't say anything, she stood aside, neither stopping nor comforting.

After a long time, Hesta's last bit of strength was exhausted, her eyes were red and swollen, and she was so weak that she seemed about to faint at any time.

Qianye approached, "Are you done crying? Do you feel better?"

Hesta shook her head, she frowned and looked at Chiba: "Miss Chiba, what are you doing here today...?"

Chiba raised her right hand, and a silver key ring twirled gently at her fingertips, like a magic trick.

"Qiangqiang."

There was a small key hanging on the key ring, exactly the same as the one that was snatched by Sean.

In an instant, Hesta felt his eyes heat up again.

"It's just a key, don't worry about it." Qianye said calmly, "As long as the person is still there, you can have as many keys as you want."

She put the key in Hesta's hand, "I'm here today to tell you that anger is very important."

"Anger...is very important." Hesta murmured in a low voice.

"Yes, anger is important. It is the only spear a man has in this world. Because it is rough and sharp, so when you are threatened, weakened, and humiliated, it doesn't care about any worldly rules of etiquette, It's going to jump out of nowhere, to protect you, to make you rebel...everyone should hold their spears."

Hesta caught her breath, and she looked at the ceiling, tears welling in her eyes.

I should... hold my spear.

"Do you know why I came here to emphasize this to you?" Chiba asked with her head tilted.

Hesta choked up and shook his head.

Chiba smiled, "The weaker the situation you are in, the easier it is for you to be deprived of the power of anger - because this kind of emotion is ugly, primitive, and quite destructive. Anger repels you even more. The base is a place with a strong emphasis on order, don't be fooled by the atmosphere here. Especially don't self-loathing because of your anger."

Qianye nodded her head, "When you are angry, it is often when you are the most powerful - learn to control it."

Hesta listened intently, and her tears dried up unconsciously. She endured the pain in her upper limbs and thought about every word of Chiba carefully. A storm surged in her heart, as if a mountain rain was about to come.

"I asked the doctor, and they said that you will be discharged from the hospital in about a week or two." Chiba folded her hands in her arms, "Have you figured out what to do after you go out?"

Hesta nodded without saying a word.

"Tell me?"

Chiba leaned over to Hesta, and after listening for a while, she couldn't help frowning.

During the discussion between the two, the visiting time passed quickly.

Before leaving that day, Qianye took off the thin windbreaker she had hung on the hanger.

"Have a good rest, Jane." She stood at the end of the bed holding the tablet, smiled and waved to the immobile girl, "Don't let me down."

……

At night, Turan stood at the door of Liz's room.

"Liz, Liz, can you open the door?"

No one inside the door responded.

Turan leaned her head against the door, and her brows were wrinkled together, "Liz, can you talk to me? Don't lock yourself in here... please."

Inside the door, the lights in the room were dimmed.

Liz was lying on the floor, on her side with her knees curled up.

There was a wooden photo frame by her hand, and inside the photo frame was a faded black and white family photo. With her eyes closed, Liz lightly touched the glass surface of the photo frame with her fingertips.

Turan waited outside the door for a long time, but there was no answer for a long time inside. She walked to a corner of the living room and called Valenti on the landline.

Although it was past nine o'clock at night, the phone number in Valenti's office was connected with just one dial.

"Hello?" Valenti picked up the phone, "Turan is it, uh, you said... um, um, I understand, um. Yes, yes... don't worry...you go to bed early tonight , Liz also needs some time to digest alone, I will talk to her tomorrow, um, you are welcome, goodbye~"

At the door of the office, Qianye leaned against the door, "Jane and their dormitory?"

"Well, Liz was a little depressed tonight, so Turan called to talk about it." Valenti picked up her bag, "I can go now."

The two went down the stairs side by side, and soon followed the elevator into the underground part of the base.

"This is the first time I have received such an instruction from Ms. Morley..." Valenti said while entering the password, "In the past, she never allowed me to take anyone directly into the file room of the base newbie. "

"I'm not 'anyone'." Chiba stood behind Valenti and said with a smile, "Besides, Ms. Morley has always been supportive of my work, very reasonable—"

Valenti rolled her eyes, and she turned around, "...are you serious?"

Chiba raised her eyebrows, and pointed to a light panel that suddenly brightened in front of Valenti, "I'm going to sweep your irises."

Valenti laughed and aimed his eyes at the corresponding area.

Soon, after Chiba also left his biological information, the two officially entered the archive room of the underground base.

This is an underground warehouse with a floor height of about 9 meters. As the two entered, thousands of cold light lights on the top floor and file racks gradually lit up, like a wave of light extending into the distance.

While chatting, the two walked towards the file area of ​​the F-sequence. Chiba put her hands in her pockets and followed the rows of characters hanging on the display racks.

Chiba walked fast, and Valenti trotted behind: "Whose file are you looking for this time, brother Gringoire's?"

"No, I'm looking for Liz Fletcher."

"Liz...?" Valenti looked puzzled, "I should have given you her personal data last time along with Sean's."

"No battle data," Chiba replied, "I want to see more of her personal background."

"Why?" Valenti became curious, "Apart from Jane, are you interested in other people in the base?"

"Of course I'm interested." Chiba replied with a frown, "I met Jane this afternoon and asked her if she wanted to have some serious sex with Sean, and she said no, because 'if you do it, Liz will be sad'.

Qianye's expression was a little irritable, "Jane has been in the base for less than two months, right? What is Liz's origin, and she led her into the ditch so soon?"

Valenti stopped on the spot - the "zheng" in Chiba's mouth is absolutely different from the "zheng" in ordinary context.

"Let's make it clear first, what's the real thing? What do you want to instigate Jane to do?"

"What can I do?" Qianye also stopped, she turned around, "My little girl has been bullied, why don't you let me teach her how to fight back?"

(End of this chapter)