Why it never ends

Chapter 86
"Why?" Liz asked.

"what why?"

"Before in the underground base, you dared to turn back in such a dangerous situation...why are you still unwilling to be an 'Excellent Mercury Needle'?"

Seeing that Liz seems to be very concerned about the answer to this question, Hesta also put away her joking tone and began to think about this question seriously.

"It's not that I can't do it, it's just that... I prefer to live here." Hesta stretched his waist, "When Ms. Chiba took me to the old city's 'White Ship' for the first time, I met a Girls..."

When Hesta spoke, Liz turned to look at her.

In the dark, Hesta was lying a few centimeters away from her. When she let out a long sigh or a long sound, Liz could feel some warm wind blowing towards her face.

This scene suddenly reminded Liz of lying and whispering with her family in the past, and almost caused her to shudder.

Hesta, still basking in her memories, recounts the mother and daughter walking into the White Steamship in the rain—the girl in bright red-brown brogues, the mother with a leather violin case slung from her shoulders , Just by seeing its texture, Hesta can imagine how it feels to the touch.

The girl's complaints - her old violin teacher, new topics that friends can't get involved in, and her father who violated the agreement and didn't take her to see the New Year's drama...all of them are full of novelty to Hesta.

And that day, when the girl left, more than half of the fruit tart her mother had bought for her was left, and none of them thought of packing it away, so they just left it on the guest table.

The more he recalled, the more details emerged in Hesta's mind.She didn't think about why she was so impressed by this pair of mother and daughter who met by chance, but just told Liz in detail about the pictures that she found interesting.

"Can you play the violin, Liz?" Hesta asked suddenly, "Liz?"

Liz woke up like a dream, "...Me? Oh, I won't."

"Is the violin difficult to learn?"

"Difficult," replied Liz positively. "My mother could play, and she taught me to play for a while when I was a child, but it was so boring... I was too young and impatient. Do you want to learn the violin, Jane? "

"Yeah." Hesta nodded, "When I got out of the 'White Ship' that day, I asked Miss Chiba if it was possible for Mercury Needle to return to normal life...she said no."

Hesta looked at Liz, "You said, really not?"

Liz laughed, "I don't know."

"What are you laughing at?"

"You know, Jane, when I was a kid, people asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up, and I would always answer, 'mercury needle'."

Hesta held his breath.

"why?"

"Because at that time, I thought mercury injection was the perfect career."

Hesta rubbed his ears, and repeated in a more puzzled voice, "...where is it perfect?"

Liz snapped her fingers and spoke softly.

"First of all, the salary during Mercury's tenure is very good, and you will never lose your job. You never have to worry about being out of food for a year or two in a row, or being fired after a certain age. I worked in Aspen Kea had seen several elderly mercury needles who were no longer directly involved in the fight against chelation, but were still active in their own way in other areas related to chelation.

"Even if you were unlucky and died before the age of 25, the pension from AHgAs is enough to keep your family safe for the rest of your life.

"Secondly, the purpose of the Mercury needles in their lives is very clear - to eliminate chelation and make chelation disease disappear from this world. This is a... grand ideal.

"I have seen many heroes in Askia, and I have also seen many drunken bastards. More than heroes and bastards, they are nameless people living in the wasteland. Nameless does not mean that they have no names, but their The name will not be handed down, and it will be forgotten after a few generations at most.

"There are many tombs in the East Cemetery in Askia, some of which you can see were once prominent, but now they are covered with decaying grass, eroded by wind and rain, and even the words and ages on the tombstones are unclear.

"History is obviously created by countless unknown people, and the world we live in is also formed by them as a solid foundation, but these people are often the first to be thrown out during the turmoil, and the fastest to be forgotten after the pacification. Whenever I think that I, too, will follow in their footsteps, I get a strong urge to grab hold of something...Have you ever felt that way, Jane?"

Hesta shook his head.

"In short, in my opinion at the time, the only shortcoming of Mercury Needles was that they were not openly recruited, and no one knew how the Mercury Needles were selected."

Liz smiled, "I briefly talked about these thoughts with my grandmother. At that time, she was surprised that I insisted on being a mercury needle. After hearing my reasons, she laughed and said to me. said a word."

"What?" Hesta asked.

"She said that at the southernmost tip of the Vilyuchinsky Wasteland, there is a garrison war monument with an inscription on it, which seems to be very famous in the fourteenth district."

Liz paused, and said softly: "'The noblest person accepts the cruelest trials, the purest ideals are always realized at the heaviest price'.

"...her old man asked me this sentence, 'Lilia, are you ready?'"

Hesta heard Liz's slight tremor at the end of her voice, and she hugged Liz quietly without saying anything.

Liz's tears wet Hesta's shoulders, and Hesta patted her on the back lightly.

Although Hesta didn't fully understand the meaning of Liz's words at this moment, she did feel that something majestic and heavy seemed to be whistling from a dark corner, pressing on her heart, pressing on her heart. It made her breathless.

"Is there any other way? A way to go to the front line." Hesta asked in a low voice, "Your bullets last long enough, so there should be some leeway?"

Liz shook her head, "It won't work, the problem with this matter is nothing but me."

Hesta looked at Liz, she really wanted to say something at this moment, but she really didn't know what to say.

Liz wiped away her tears and laughed again.

"If you ask me, a true hero, no matter what position she is in, will show her own brilliance." Liz whispered, "Whether it is in the combat troops or in the rear, I will not let myself be buried Yes...you are right, Jane, the livable place is also very good, I will go to Wulian first, if you come over later, then we can work and live together again. "

(End of this chapter)