This passerby is too calm

Chapter 167

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Monday, September 26.

This is a very ordinary day. If there is anything special, it is the result of the midterm test.Students from various colleges are busy checking their grades and rankings on the official website.

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There are many models of human bodies and organs piled up in the dormitories of medical students, but they are cleaned up very quietly. At first glance, they are almost spotless.But there is only one corner exception.There is only a lot of dust in this corner of the clean dormitory, it seems that people deliberately avoided this place when cleaning.Large and small boxes are piled up on the desks and cabinets, and the corners and corners of the small stand are covered with dust.It seems to be isolated by this clean dormitory, out of place.

Because there were too many things piled up, some trash cans near the aisle were knocked to the ground by Xiaoyu passing by at this time. Fragments of paper balls and food garbage fell on the ground, accompanied by a pungent smell Son.

Xiaoyu covered his nose, scolded, and looked at the tightly drawn black curtains in disgust.

Jumped away, shaking the shoes.

After watching him finish speaking, the people in the curtain did not respond, and the expression on Xiaoyu's face became even more disgusted.

How can there be such an annoying person, petty theft is fine, bad character, bad temper, not hygienic, and gloomy to make people feel uncomfortable.When they talked about him before, this person still knew how to be cheeky and would reply a few words, but now he just pretended not to hear it.

what!Why would he share a dormitory with this kind of person!
"Xiaoyu, let's go, didn't you say go to eat?" The roommate who was walking with Xiaoyu also turned his head to look at the tightly drawn curtains, leaned into Xiaoyu's ear and whispered: "Tell him What, don't be angry, let's go, let's go."

"Understood." Xiaoyu said, glanced at Xu Zhipeng's bed, curled his lips, "The difference between people is really big..." Xiaoyu muttered, and went out with his roommate.

He didn't care that there was someone else in the dormitory, so he turned off the light, and after closing the door, he could still hear the conversation between the two through the crack of the door.

"Xiao Ke, I really can't stand him anymore, I'm really desperate. God, how can there be such a blind person! How many times have I told him not to put the trash can on the side of the aisle? , He still let it go, what do they mean? Deliberately targeting me?! How can there be such a disgusting person? He is so unpopular, doesn’t he know why? If I become like this and be hated so much, I'll just die, so as not to dirty other people's eyes..."

"Hey, it's not the first day he's like this, don't be angry. But I seem to have lost my earphone yesterday, I couldn't find it after searching for a long time, I suspect..."

"It's him, right?"

"I just suspect that other people won't take my things. I want to take a look at him, but I don't dare to touch his table. Every time I touch it, he loses his temper like crazy."

"Don't spoil him, I'll accompany you to ask him tonight. It's reasonable for him to steal things!"

As the two gradually walked away in the corridor, the voice from the crack in the door gradually became smaller and blurred, and gradually became inaudible.

The dormitory, where the curtains were drawn, became even darker when the lights were turned off. In the darkness, in the gaps in the curtains, a pair of indifferent eyes stared at the door that was not tightly closed for a long, long time.

Those eyes were bloodshot, but they were extraordinarily calm, but that calmness was like the eyes of a poisonous snake, which made people feel cold all over, and the hatred and rationality in the pupils were tearing apart crazily.

Xu Zhipeng's bed moved, he sat up from the bed, and turned on the bedside lamp.The warm light from the bedside lamp could not penetrate into his cold heart.

Holding the mouse tightly, the strength seemed to crush the mouse.

"Fourth?"

"Professional fourth."

"fourth."

"fourth."

Xu Zhipeng read the ranking number over and over again.

"boom!"

Everything was peaceful, and suddenly Xu Zhipeng beat the wall with his right hand, making a loud noise.His hand was dripping with blood from being rubbed against the plaster of the wall, but he didn't feel any pain at all.

"You did well in the exam."

Looking at his own results displayed on the computer screen, Xu Zhipeng's eyes were red, as if his eyeballs were going to explode.There are 32 majors displayed on the above, and there are 36 people in their majors.

He worked so hard to reach this level, but in the end it was such a result.They go out to play and fight every day, but in the end they get better grades than him, who sleeps in the library almost every day, so much better.

right,

Last year he was the fourth major, and he had fought hard before.Then he was reported by several people in the dormitory for misconduct, and now Wang Yu, the person who took the lead in reporting and isolating him, got fourth in the exam.

"Jingle Bell!"

A shrill bell rang in the silent dormitory.

The father's name was clearly marked on the display of the mobile phone. It was obviously a warm and warm call for ordinary people, but seeing this call at this time made Xu Zhipeng's face even more gloomy, with messy and unkempt hair The entire face was covered, and the facial features could not be seen clearly, only a gloomy coldness.

"Hello, Dad."

"What did you call me just now?"

"Abba... I, I have no living expenses, can you give me some more..."

"No, no! I don't have any! How can there be so much money for you!"

Xu Zhipeng's emotions have been suppressed, and the fists beside him are clenched tightly.

"Abba, I... just give me another 100 yuan, 100 yuan is fine."

The living expenses of 600 yuan are indescribably stretched in this city A.

"100 yuan is easy for you to say, do you know how long I have to carry wood to get 100 yuan! No! I think it's because big cities have developed your stinky habit of spending money like this. I raised you so much, Don’t you know how grateful you are? You know that you need money. You see, the big Qiangzi next door can help his dad with work. What am I raising you for? I spent so much money for your education. Now that you’ve grown up, I haven't enjoyed your blessing for a day, you are just a leech, you know how to lie on other people to suck blood!"

"I do not have!"

"If you don't have it, you can make money yourself! Pair? I want it, come for two! Don't you? Three belts and two, ten Dinggoupi, I have no cards, I won, come, give me money, give me money!"

On the other side of the phone, there was first a man shouting impatiently, and then there was a loud noise of playing cards.

"I want to study. If you give me a few more years, I will come out. I can come out..." The knotted hair covered his eyebrows and eyes, and he kept poking his eyes. He didn't care, clenched fists His veins were exposed, and his tone of voice already contained some begging.

It's not that he doesn't want to be clean, he has no money in his student card, and he can't even take a shower for several days.It's not that he doesn't want to be tidy. Things thrown away by others will always have a smell after being in the garbage dump. He picked them up and used them, and he has carefully wiped off the dust on them with an eraser.It's not that he doesn't want to clean up, he doesn't dare to throw away many things, he can't afford to throw them away.

"Say it, no! Are you annoying? You didn't listen to me when I told you to go to the teacher's training class and the military academy! You didn't believe me when I said that our family couldn't afford it! Because you went to college, your younger brother still has no money to study. Now If you run out of money, tell me, I told you in advance! Six hundred a month, is there more!"

"Father, please..."

"Don't beg me! It's useless for you to kneel down to me! Find a way to make money yourself, teach other people's dolls, wash dishes for others, you can make money no matter what! Didn't you say you can get it last semester? What kind of scholarship did you get? It turned out that I didn’t get the scholarship, and I was called home by my teacher. People have learned to lie.

Come come come!Never mind...it's nothing, it's my eldest son...yes, that is, he doesn't live up to it at all, he comes to my house like a debt collector. I didn't make any money, and asked me for money every day.Don't talk anymore, let's start another game..."

The nails that haven't been trimmed for a long time are already too long. At this time, because they are deeply embedded in the flesh with force, he behaves like a hawk and claws on the outside, no matter how vicious, he still has subconscious expectations in front of his father.But expectations are one thing, reality is another.It's like a mussel opening its hard shell and aiming the soft meat at the person who raised it, but what it got was a sharp knife, which was inserted into the meat over and over again, stirring to see if there were any pearls, without any distress .

He knows that there are several children in the family, he is only one of them, and he takes up most of the resources.

But he was really out of breath.

He is a tutor and has been doing it all the time, but studying medicine is really tiring, and the academic pressure is really great. He has classes almost every day and is busy every day.He couldn't balance tutoring and academics at all, but during his freshman year, he kept forcing himself to keep up with the progress of his studies, and used the money earned from tutoring to learn related things.

He once boasted that he was a very smart person, and thought that he would be able to achieve great things in the future, break free from the shackles of his original family, and help his younger siblings in turn, but later he found that he was too naive. Like a joke.There are too many people who are smarter than him in University A. Hard work here is the most insignificant ability, because everyone is working hard, but the brains of people and people are really far behind.

The sophomore class became more and more, and he didn't even have time to spare time for tutoring.The pressure of study, the pressure of life, the pressure of the original family, the exclusion of roommates, he studied hard this semester, but he couldn't maintain his grades, the eyes of others, and the teacher's strange eyes, because he speaks a dialect, it is easy to be anxious , He couldn't explain it clearly to others.

All in all, after the exam that day, he had some expectations for today's results, but he still had some expectations, maybe?Maybe God will give him a good result for the sake of him working so hard to survive.

result,

not at all.

Today was the first time Xu Zhipeng skipped class in the morning, and he didn't go to class all morning.No one comforted him, and no one knew about his collapse at the moment. He just looked at the curtained ceiling for a long time, and kept looking at it like this.

He knew that life was difficult, but he didn't know that it would be so difficult...

He felt like he was tightly locked in a cage. It was getting tighter and tighter. It was so tight that he couldn't breathe. No one rescued him, and everyone was watching his jokes outside the cage. .

They laughed wantonly, laughing so happily.

His efforts are compared to a joke, an overreaching struggle.

He seemed to be walking in a black and white silent painting, the little white man curled up hugging his knees, the black shadow behind him spread, spread to the whole side of him, stole all his light, and there were countless magnified figures around him There are countless times of black villains, and all kinds of malicious expressions are shown on their faces.Wanton ridicule tore at the little figure curled up in the middle.

All the faces were distorted and turned into hideous ghosts. He thought of the rainy night when he saw his mother's mutilated corpse in the ditch. There was no blood but coldness. The world was distorted and there were ghosts all around. They were all teasing and teasing him wantonly.

He is most afraid of ghosts... He wants to kill them, smash them one by one with a hammer, smash them one by one, so that they can't be entangled with him, he wants to smash them all, beat them to pieces, let them go again Laugh at him!

He has been living very hard with the burden of life, and wants to get better, why not give him this chance.

He can bear the neglect of his family, the isolation of his classmates, the strange stares and exclusion from everyone.Because he used to think that his studies were okay, this was his last fig leaf, the last straw, and now the straw has fallen.

There was a string called human nature in his mind, and it seemed that with the collapse of the straw, it broke completely with a "pop!".

Life is like a piece of shit, dirty and smelly and disgusting.He can hardly breathe...

Then drag everyone into his hell.

He doesn't want others to bully him anymore!

His mind was very chaotic, and his mind fragmentedly remembered a lot of childhood memories that he had deliberately forgotten, in that closed mountain village.Inside the wooden house, the father beat the mother again and again, and the mother squatted on the ground with her head in her arms, with blood sliding down her head.When he was a child, his mother hugged him and said that he wanted him to study hard in the future, and the words that he passed the exam and leave here... The women in the village who wanted to escape, were dragged back by the village uncles and aunts, and the mother complained about divorcing the father. A scared expression holding a burden.Father's sandbag fist, wine bottle, playing cards, mahjong, cigarette butts...

It's great that his mother is still alive... She will definitely teach him to live a good life and how to get along with others.

Everything could be different.

But all these are assumptions, his mother... Thinking of the picture he saw in the stinking ditch when he was in junior high school, he felt chills all over his body. For a moment he felt that he had become a mother lying there, and for a moment he felt that he was Turned into a father, violently and frantically wielding the hammer.

(End of this chapter)