This passerby is too calm

Chapter 367 366. Never Forgive
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Seeing the incoming remittance displayed in the mobile bank card, the two wanted to cry for some reason.

They are a freshman and a sophomore, but it is actually very difficult for them to follow this project. Compared with those recruited later because of Chen Mo, the juniors, seniors, and even graduate students, their foundation is pretty weak.

In order not to be left behind, in order to convey Chen Mo's meaning to the greatest extent, they are also doing things when others are doing things, and learning when others are resting.They really read a lot of books and made up a lot of materials after class.

Of course, they also knew that Chen Mo put them in this position to train them.

They are really grateful to Chen Mo, they have really learned a lot in the past semester.

Really a lot.

Sun Qing is still a freshman, it is not clear that he has just been promoted from high school.As a freshman, Xu Zhipeng really worked hard for a year, and almost got a scholarship in the early years.He always thought that he was working hard, that he had worked hard enough and deserved better.

That's why he was so broken when he was reported and lost his quota.

He always thought that he worked hard enough and his study habits were good, until he saw Chen Mo, until this time, he followed Chen Mo, during this period of exercising to the limit, he really learned a lot.Especially when the first three people followed Chen Mo day and night, like a lunatic, but when I learned to the limit, I really felt the slowness of being abused that Sun Qing said.

During that time, I seemed to be living a dream. Every day was very tiring, but it was also really empty.

It's really slow to regress with the old and young, and I can feel the growth of my various skills that are visible to the naked eye every day.The most important thing is that the old and the young seem to be like a continuous deep pool. He knows my bottom line and where my limit is.

I remember that when eight people were working on the first and seventh stages of the project, the eight of them stayed up all night in the laboratory together. Whenever I felt that I was living slowly and was dying of exhaustion, I turned my head to look at the old and the young, and I was still Analyzing and calculating fiercely and quietly.It seems that every time I am slow to the limit, look at me, I will always be tight or fast.

Always working, always maintaining a calm and stable mood, sitting here is like a her medicine, which can soothe my emotions at all times.

I used to think that my own desperation and limit were nothing compared to the young and old.

During this period of time, I really gained very little in the laboratory during this period. It was only under the ability, but not under the spirit, so it came out.It's just that my mood and patience have improved very little before this period of time.

It seems that when facing something that I can solve by myself, when I collapse to the extreme, thinking of this figure, I will calm down during this period of time.

It seems that there is no such benchmark here.

Xu Zhipeng really felt that his temper had improved very little.

I feel that if I am the current self and encounter the original situation, I may fall into this hopeless and collapsed situation again, and I will choose the hysterical way to deal with it.

If there is no way to break the situation, I will try my best to break it, and pull people to die with me.

Only those who are weak will be hysterical. When facing a desperate situation, those who can think rationally and calmly, and those with a weak heart will not be able to finally break the situation.

Desperate meltdowns and hysterical solutions are the solution to any problem.

I really feel that I have changed. This kind of most collapsed and most desperate emotion, when it is revealed at this time, will also stir up any thoughts in me. I can feel that my heart is really weak.

Even I myself dare to suspect that half a year later, I will still be a person who is ready to kill and step into the ranks of crimes, and almost get it back forever.

Xu Zhipeng is really grateful for that year, and for the hand Sun Qing stretched out to me. I felt like a dream several times.

I feel like I've changed very little from the inside out.

It is too much to wash away all the lead and be reborn.

Before this day, there was a period of time when I dreamed several times that I fled to the airport before committing crimes on this day, and was taken away by the police and sentenced to death a few days ago.I wake up from nightmares again and again, but maybe it’s because I’ve been by my side all the time, my cerebellum is filled with things in the laboratory every day, and I also have time to be anxious and fearful.

Since there is a law, I have nightmares, and I will die every time I dream, and I have been executed as the ending. Every time I wake up, I will tell myself that every day I live now is picked up, and I earn a day by living less.

I love every day I live now more and more.

I feel that every day I live less, and I live a better day, is earned.

Xu Zhipeng thought with a smile.

If you really get along with people with low energy, you will gradually become a person with low energy.

I know it's because I think less like that, and I know that this kind of nightmare will never reappear from that day onwards.

Xu Zhipeng loves himself very much now, and is willing to take out his remaining energy to love others from the bottom of his heart.

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The two of them were in a very different mood that day. Before they saw the money in the bank card, they both went out to call home by agreement.

Because Chen Mo was typing at the window in the corridor, Zhi Shanfeng had nowhere to go, so he found a stairwell where he went up and down the stairs, and called his sister.

It was a few months ago, yes, maybe since I was in primary school, maybe earlier, from the time my grandma fell into the ditch and passed away in junior high school until now, I wanted to contact my younger siblings so much, or dared to contact my younger siblings.

I have always known what my brothers and sisters did for me outside the family, gave up the opportunity to study, and also endured the beating and scolding from my father for me.

Sometimes I also feel that I am cruel and selfish. How can I let the two older children bear all that for me and take the opportunity we gave up.I dare to contact, but very rarely I can do nothing. Changing is the guilt of the status quo, and I have the face to face us.

Listening to the ringing of the phone, and there is no call page, I have never been so looking forward to the call here.

Say this to your siblings:
"A-mei, brother, you can afford to support them now."

He can pat his chest and say to us: "My brother can earn very little money now. They use it to pay for your schooling. They are at home after school. They use it to go out of the trench every day to fish for shrimps and sell money. They use it for Xiaowan. The next string of beads is sold for money, and I used to walk a few kilometers away to the county town to sell gardenias, and I used to save money to send it to me...My brother has no money."

Even if I just think that way, my nose is already sour. I really waited for a day for too long.

I finally did it.

Now I finally have no right for her to choose her own life. The bullying I have suffered before is worthwhile and fair. I just want my younger brothers and sisters to suffer again.

I want both younger siblings to be out of school.

The younger brother is needless to say, this eldest son is just like me, his brain turns slowly, and he can read.I am already very guilty for delaying me for so long and making me enter school two or eight years later than my peers.

The younger sister is even more so, and I am even more right that it is actually the younger sister.

My younger sister is older than me and calls me brother, but you rarely play the role of an older sister. You hate cooking for me, worry about me, and take care of me. City A is so far away from Province S. How much do you want? Send me food.

You think of me everywhere, but I didn’t have any cash in those years, except for the pair of sneakers that I asked my brother to help bring back some time later, and I never gave you anything else.

My brother is really very competent.

Zhi Shanfeng has experienced it personally, and is very vague about the difference between reading and reading, and what reading can change.

Even if my younger sister is really too young to read now, you really want to read without any embarrassment or shyness.But I still want my sister to go to school.

No matter how young you are now, whether you are an adult or not, counting the learning time from big to young, that is 17 years, as long as you are willing to study, you will have a long way to go in life. Compared with the hardships you have to suffer in life, 17 years is nothing, it is always worthless. of.Even if you are an adult, there is no adult low entrance exam.As long as you can learn, it is always too late.

I will let my sister read books no matter what.

Even if my younger sister always says that she is stupid, it is because she is reading material, and that you want to study, but I know these are all false.My sister has hated watching me write since she was a child. You want to leave school, and you have thought about it very early since you were supposed to leave school.

It's just that for the family at that time, and for the younger sister, it was a reality, let alone talking to my father, it was a luxury to think about.

So my sister has never said that you want to leave school.He always said that he was quick at work and had a headache when he saw words, so he was suitable for reading.

You have always been sensible and made my brother feel ashamed.

The younger sister wants to go to school, but she knows that her family is poor, and she wants to save some money for the already surplus family, and give me and my younger brother fewer opportunities, so you are always fighting to come in and out.

I am out of money now.

My brother can fully afford it now, they are saving it for you, and wronging themselves for you.

After that, they will provide for you, but before, it was my elder brother who raised them.

……

Chen Mo was calling outside the house. In the past, it was my father who answered the phone, but that time it was my mother who answered the phone.

"Mom~ my father?"

"I~ I have something to do, I'm working, I'm working~"

Listening to the phone, my mother faltered for a long time and said that she was speaking, and the strings in Zhishan's mind tightened as soon as she got on the phone.

"Mom, don't lie, what does Little Winter do? Maybe something happened, they don't hide it from you!"

"Bah, bah, bah! What is that kid thinking, wait a minute, bah, his kid is stupid in reading, don't talk nonsense, I'm going to work for others!"

"What work?"

"Leave him alone, that kid is really asking questions. Oh, okay, don't guess, I'm just going outside the county town to stick bricks with people."

"When did I learn to lay bricks?"

"Is that because the busy season is over? There's nothing to do in that little winter. His father saw people laying tiles, making cement and so on. After watching, he thought he could do it, so he learned from others for two days, and it was really good. It’s shapeless. Now I’m going to work with other construction teams outside the city. Don’t tell him how much money he might make in a day outside the city~”

"That little winter, there was no heating at home, I froze to death, and my hands had frostbite..."

"Hey, his father and I are doing very well now, don't worry about me. Next time I go to city A, I will go to his school to see him, and say that the prices here are very expensive, more expensive than ours. Twice is enough. He said he was afraid that he would have enough money to spend. I asked, and the living expenses of their classmates were at most two to eight thousand.

I just wanted to earn less living expenses for him.

His kid is brainless and knows how to save money.He asked us for hundreds of dollars a month, which is not enough for him.Do the math on this price, he can even eat enough for him.His kid is short of money and knows to tell us, so he knows how to save.We are saying that if we give him less good, we can make him worse than others...

Don't feel sorry for us, we are the age when we should be busy.He just studies hard, and you can help him with other things. Don't be too lazy, he should go out to eat with his classmates, he still needs to eat, and he should have a good relationship with his classmates, and don't be too stiff.He is a baby and everything is fine, but he is too lonely..."

Chen Mo listened to my mother babbling and cursing, his eyes and nose knew when it was red.

Nose and eye sockets are hot.

Maybe it was because the wind was too weak, and the tears rolled outside the eye sockets, making the eyes hurt.

"Mom, you hang up first, and you call my father. Don't be too tired, don't go to the lake to wash clothes in winter, his hands are cracked, don't be too tired, don't rest Rest. Mom, you will be back in two days, and then tell them the good news. "

"What good news? I'll be back in two days? Does he mean that he's coming back this winter vacation, so he needs to stay at school if he has nothing to do?"

"I have something to do now. I will be back in two days. I am staying in school."

"Okay, okay, let him call his father first. Knowing that he is coming back, I must be very happy. I am still showing off to my co-workers, that is to say, none of my sons passed the exam. He will call me now When the phone call passed, I must be very depressed."

"it is good……"

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When Chen Mo called my father, my father was still laying bricks.

Old push button phones are very loud.

When the phone rang, there were many people working on the decoration, and everyone looked over.

"Father, you heard from your mother that he has learned how to put tiles?"

"Yeah! Hey, that damn little mouth, you can tell him everything... You are sticking to it now, and you can even build the chimney now. He doesn't care how long you have been doing it, because many people praise it. You are skilled."

"His son?"

The people nearby saw Chen Mo's dad's wrinkled face and asked with a smile.

"Ah."

Chen Mo's father smiled shyly and nodded.

The signal is not good at all, so I stood up a little, walked to the place by the window to make a phone call.

"Son, he will be back in those two days. He wants to buy a ticket. Does he have enough money? You transfer some money to him, and he buys a ticket... Oh yes! Look, you forgot, he said he will Maybe I’m coming back from the winter vacation, right?”

(End of this chapter)