After getting married, a popular seiyuu suddenly moved to my house

【We are all lost souls, no salvation is pure and perfect, the important thing is that we are on our way. 】

It was night, I stayed alone in the bedroom, quietly reading Murakami's book, neither turned over the cards when the night came, nor did I have a so-called threesome or foursome.

My married life with my three wives is not much different from before.

After all, even the four words of married life are only in the cognition of us people, and no one will really admit it.

But I still realized that just such a simple ceremony, our relationship has indeed changed.

Saori and Yusa seem to have become as close as they were many years ago. Every time Rina comes back, she will say "I'm back", although she only comes to live two or three days a week.

Even if she never does that with me, and the closest touch is limited to kissing, I still feel happy enough.

Our lives are not different, but the connection between us must have definitely changed.

Waking up Yousha who doesn’t want to get up in the morning, insisting on carrying her downstairs and washing her face herself, she is willing to jump off me with a smile on her face, causing Saori to scold her and complain that I can’t always get used to it. There is sand.

I have hurt Yousha enough in the past, how can I not obey her even in these things.

And at night, when Yousha was taking a bath alone, Saori would shyly kiss me and say goodnight to each other softly.

Only when the other two female voice actors are not at home for the night, I will not sleep alone, and I can have a beautiful wife by my side, which seems to be an unspoken agreement between them.

Come to think of it, none of them would like to fall asleep alone, and let the man they like sleep with other women in the next room.

If anyone was going to sleep with me at night, the other two would have to spend the night somewhere else, usually in an apartment with sand.

I am not a person who can sit still, and this has been proven early on, so I said that the so-called wedding ceremony is just my self-comfort, which can make me enter their bodies with peace of mind, and it is not good until now Sophistry.

Except for cooking, Yousha and Saori both acquiesced to this behavior.

Although Li Cai didn't say it clearly, I can see that she still has a repulsive attitude towards that kind of thing.

I understand very well.

After all, I was a scumbag who turned against her the day after I slept with her, so there was nothing I could do about her leaving a shadow.

But even though she didn't want to do that, she still slept on the same bed with me, and was willing to chat with me in the dark bedroom and hold my hand tightly.

I have no thoughts other than gratitude and guilt for this.

This wonderful day was as unreal as a dream, and it almost made me forget the pain I had experienced.

Fortunately, as long as those two girls are there, I will never forget those days.

This is by no means something to be easily forgotten.

And I never imagined that when I saw the girl who was weak and shattered at the first touch, it would be like that.

In the afternoon when the wives of the three voice actors all went to participate in the recording work, I was alone in the room reading Murakami’s book, while conceiving a new work in my mind, I received a call from someone.

The call came so unexpectedly, I almost thought I had traveled back to the past, back to the time when we hadn't broken our faces.

I think she should be the person who hates me the most in this world.

I think she should be my favorite person in this world.

"...Moses, Moses, Caiyin?"

After a wordless silence, I heard her voice for the first time in a long time.

This voice lost the arrogance of the past, full of painful indifference and exhaustion.

"...Let's go and have a look at Zhongjiang."

"Eh?"

……

……

When I came to Lisha’s apartment where I lived alone, I pressed the doorbell of her house with trepidation. What came to my mind was the image of telling me not to visit her again when I met her for the last time.

She has been discharged from the hospital for a long time, I know this, but she is not currently working on voice acting, and she is probably still recuperating.

At a time like this, would she want to see me?

I was even prepared to be shut down, but it didn't take long for the door to open.

The girl who appeared in front of me was wearing loose home clothes, her beautiful hair was tied into a ponytail hanging on her right chest, and the happy smile on her face made me feel a little stunned for a moment. I forgot how long it was since I saw such a smile Splendid farming pear yarn too.

Could it be that seeing me would make her happy?

I almost had such an illusion.

What right do I have to have such an illusion?

"Ala... Long time no see, He-jun."

"Well... long time no see."

Her sun-like enthusiasm overwhelmed me, and I followed her into the house in a daze.

"Sorry, it's a bit messy at home, please don't mind He Jun."

She bent down to clean up in the living room, and I hurriedly waved my hands, panicking like a new teacher visiting a student's home for the first time.

Until I saw all kinds of messy medicine boxes on the coffee table, the white pills were scattered on the wooden coffee table, and a few fell on the carpet.

My body stiffened immediately, my scalp felt numb for a moment, and my throat was so dry that I couldn't make a sound.

Although I am not a doctor, I at least understand that this is not a medicine for throat.

And I am very familiar with this medicine. During the time when I was suffering from mental illness, I had to take this medicine every day and night.

"Pear, you..."

I immediately understood why Caiyin asked me to visit Lisha.

Looking at Lisha's warm smile, I just feel that I am in the dark winter, and my voice is stuck in my throat like a sharp fishbone.

There was a disappointed smile on her pale face, and I felt that that smile seemed to have no attachment to anything in this world, which made my heart tremble violently.

I've seen the same smile in the mirror when I was bored with myself and the world.

If it wasn't for Saori who dragged me back, I don't think I would have existed in this world long ago.

The current Nantian Lisha is smiling like this.

I knew exactly what caused that smile, and I felt an unprecedented fear because of it.

It was me who made that strong girl who was already suffering from illness and stood up again and again become so fragile.

"It's okay. Compared with the throat disease, it's nothing at all."

The more she smiled so brightly, the more panicked I felt.

"The doctor said, just ask me to think more about happy things...

"Caiyin will always be by my side and chat with me, but you know, she is a popular voice actress and she is so busy, how can she spend so much time on me.

"The more she was with me, the sadder I became.

"A few days ago, she still hugged me and wept quietly.

"She didn't cry even on the day you held the ceremony with them."

I was surprised how they learned about that, but as long as I think about it a little bit, I can understand that it was probably informed by one of the three people, or maybe it was a decision made by them after discussing it together.

After saying these words, she suddenly stopped smiling, and her eyes suddenly became dazed, like an air conditioner that was unplugged, the fan blades didn't even have time to close, and the dullness came unexpectedly.

The smile just now seemed to be my illusion, and the abruptness made me panic.

"Why, He Jun wants to visit me?

"Because I'm abnormal, because I'm broken, and because I've made you sympathize, so you're all here, aren't you?"

I closed my eyes and couldn't help but shed tears.

Without her, I can still immerse myself in the happiness that other girls give me, but she is only accompanied by illness and loneliness.

I realized that I couldn't let go of this girl no matter what. She was so similar to me in some parts, and it was easy to fall into the abyss of isolation if I was not careful, and I could only hear the echo of my own moaning.

"Pear Sha..."

"I won't die...now."

I didn't even have the courage to look directly into her eyes. When I thought that I was the culprit who turned her into this state, the suppressed emotions suddenly overflowed my chest.

She sighed softly: "You'd better go back."

go back?Can't do it.

How can I let her go, I know very well that I am the source of her pain, and it is because of my existence that she suffers from painful diseases.

But even so, I couldn't let her see my back at this moment.

I wanted to touch her hand, but when I saw her calm and empty eyes, I felt a sense of heartache and fear.

"Lisha, come with me."

"Go? Where are you going?"

"Come to my house, I will always take care of you."

"Is this asking me to share what you mean with those people?"

"It means that I will love you as much as I love them."

She shook her head: "I don't like this answer."

I love her, and I love everyone else, each of them suffering because of me, pain is pain, there is no distinction between high and low.

But I left her here, allowing her to become farther and farther away from the once farming Lisha.

If only I could have been tougher then.

"Hejun, what are you worried about? Are you worried that I will find a boyfriend who is a hundred times better than you in the future? Are you worried that I will make your true face of a scumbag known to the public? Or... are you worried that one day I will disappear from this world without saying a word? superior?"

"Do not say such things."

I reached out in fear and squeezed her hand on my lap.

"Hejun's hands are shaking so badly, are you so scared?"

"Umm...scared, terribly scared.

"Please! Please Risa, come with me...or I really...please, please."

I spoke incoherently, but her expression did not change in any way.

Perhaps, I came too late.

"I don't ask you for anything, and I'm not forcing you to compromise on this. It's okay to hate me, it's okay to find a boyfriend, it's okay to ask me to do anything.

"I just hope that you can be where I can see you. Don't leave yourself alone."

I kept fearing, fearing that she would be like me at that time, wishful thinking that she didn't need anything, and I knew very well how terrible that state was.

"I won't find a boyfriend."

She looked at me calmly, with a gentle tone.

"I have long been unable to fall in love with anyone other than He-kun, but...why.

"When I think about you, I feel like I have nothing and I don't want anything.

Why can't I just forget about you like Caiyin did, that would be great. "

"Lisha is Lisha, you don't need to be anyone."

"But I want to forget you. As long as I forget you, my illness will be cured."

"I can't forget it, I did such a terrible thing to Lisha, you will definitely hate me for the rest of your life."

My hands held her left hand tightly, and she slowly raised her right arm, flicking away the tears overflowing from the corners of my eyes with her fingers.

"I can't really hate you."

I immediately clenched her right hand, letting her palm press against my cheek, fortunately, she did not refuse.

"Hejun...can you cure me?"

I looked at her eyes, those dark eyes, seemed to be hoping for some kind of color, which could turn her gray world back into colorful colors.

"I don't know. If it can't be cured, let me get sick together. Anyway, I won't leave you alone."

She just looked at me for a short while, but I felt that this short moment was so long, as if even the beating of my heart stopped with time.

She said quietly: "...take me away."

I didn't hesitate and hugged her tightly. She showed neither great joy nor inexplicable sadness. She just looked at an insignificant place in the room in a daze.

"it is good."

We are all lost souls and no salvation is pure and perfect.

I may not be able to save her, just as she cannot save me.

But none of this matters.

What matters is that we hit the road.