blood plague

Chapter 222 Anchors

The reason why Iger's sanity suddenly collapsed was that his spirit was hit hard by multiple blows.

In addition to discovering the abnormality of his body, just now, Iger finally understood the meaning of his existence.

As a time traveler, the whole purpose of appearing in this world is to consume that tube of serum.

If the tube of serum is not used on him, maybe it will end up in the hands of an organization with scientific research capabilities, and then be researched, copied, and finally produced thousands of anti-virus drugs.

Although it can't save the infected human beings in the end, it can end this blood plague.

The appearance of Iger is not accidental. He is a key investment at a key node, with the smallest variable, changing the future direction of the entire world.

The most ironic thing is that he used to take saving mankind as his highest goal, but he didn't know that his appearance ruined this possibility.

In fact, salvation is meaningless, and neither is death. Everything is meaningless.

When the world can no longer run, the power that created this world only needs to click "restart", and everything will return to the day when the blood plague broke out, and then continue to the next round of new experiments.

More absurd world.

What a ridiculous fate.

What a pathetic self.

Amidst the frantic crying, Iger's mind rapidly diminished, and just when he was about to fall into true madness, Joanna pulled his heart back.

After hearing what Joanna said, Iger slowly stopped crying.

am i real

Iger stretched out his hand, put it next to his mouth and bit it hard, until he tasted salty, until blood flowed from the corner of his mouth, until he saw that his life value was slowly decreasing.

"This damn world, since you are so real, why can't you be more real! Why can't you be more real!!" Iger pushed Joanna away and let out a heart-piercing roar.

Under Joanna's horrified eyes, Iger, who had already calmed down, suddenly became violent. When he was about to growl again, he felt a pain in his jaw, and he passed out when his eyes went dark.

……

Jixi Town.

Dr. Heidemi has never encountered such a situation. She is only an emergency specialist, not a psychiatrist. Now everyone is staring at her, and she has to come up with a way if she has no other way.

"I speculate that Iger was suddenly subjected to extremely strong mental stimulation. Generally speaking, the patient is asked to disconnect the source of stimulation, and he will be relieved after decompression. As for his situation, it is very strange. I can't think of the stimulation he received at all. What is the source."

Dr. Heidemi said to the people in the room, "I have prepared a sedative here. After Iger wakes up, if he continues to lose control of his emotions, in order to prevent him from burning his brain out, I suggest injecting him with a sedative. "

"Thank you, Dr. Heidemi," said Father Locke.

"Also." Dr. Heidemi said to Father Locke: "After such a strong mental fluctuation, Iger's mind may be temporarily reduced. I don't know how much it will recover in the future."

Hearing Dr. Heidemi's words, everyone fell silent.

It happened so suddenly.

Nicholas said that Iger's face suddenly became ugly, and he asked himself: "Did you hear that?" No, he asked "Did you hear that" twice, and the last time he just finished speaking, he suddenly fell into a coma.

After waking up from a brief coma, Iger's behavior became a little strange. He walked towards Todo Town alone, and then his sanity collapsed as he walked.

Just as he was about to go berserk, Nicholas put an uppercut on Iger's jaw, knocking him out.

As a result, Iger fell into a coma for a long time, and the field team had returned to Jixi Town and hadn't woken up yet.

Things are already very clear, Iger should have suffered some kind of mental shock.This kind of mental shock is so intense and so directional that no one else can even perceive it except the person being attacked.

There is no need to guess, the answer is already there, and the one who launched the mental attack should be the heart of the blood plague.

Iger said that the heart of the blood plague is formed by the fusion of screamers. Hundreds of screamers melt and superimpose together, and it can burst out spiritual energy that makes people fall into madness in an instant.

All you can do now is to pray, pray that Iger can survive and recover soon.

……

I don't know how long he was in a coma, but Iger woke up slowly. The previous hysteria had subsided, and he only felt deeply tired.

Iger opened his eyes and looked at the ceiling for a while. By identifying the patterns and colors on it, he finally recognized that this was a ward.

The middle-aged man's sanity collapses only in an instant.But before this moment, there were countless times of accumulation of mental pressure and countless times of wandering on the verge of collapse.

On the first day Iger came to this world, he walked repeatedly between survival and destruction several times.

This world makes Iger have no desire to survive, and the fear of death makes him instinctively survive.In this torment of living and dying, Father Locke saved him for the second time.Father Locke gave Iger the confidence and hope to live.

Iger kept Father Locke's kindness to him firmly in his heart, which was the anchor of his existence in this world.

In the days that followed, Iger lived a particularly dedicated life, but he was not the kind of person who was very adaptable, so he also lived a very painful and twisted life at the same time.

Iger's real pain, no second person can understand.

What Iger needs is not material, women, power, or glory. What he wants is just to give himself enough motivation to live.

Whenever Iger tried to offset the sense of intellectual emptiness with a sense of emotional substitution and immersion, the icons and numbers in his vision would taunt him coldly, tearing his mind apart bit by bit. crack.

Iger knew that one day, he would either go crazy or become a ruthless "player".

In the doomsday world, the scariest people are not those hysterical anti-human lunatics. In fact, any person with feelings, even anyone who can still be "crazy" is not the scariest.

The scariest thing is the player.

Players are not a profession, nor a character. In fact, it is a state of mind, and that state of mind is called "who cares".

Creatures with this mentality are the scariest creatures. No logic, reason, or emotion can be applied to predict their behavior.

The most common situations are usually "Oh, my hand slipped", "I just wanted to try it out", "It can still be operated like this".

What Iger wants is to live, to live a real life, not to live like a lunatic or a monster.

With the continuous investment of emotion and self-hypnosis, Iger gradually dispelled the sense of emptiness.

Even Avella and Lily, even if they often make Iger angry, sad and sad, they are actually helping Iger and making him feel that he is living in a real world.

Sweet, sour, bitter, spicy and salty make up our sense of taste.

Joy, sorrow, and pain make up our lives.

These feelings are the anchors Iger needs most.

In addition to these, Iger has always had an illusion. He felt that since he was sent here by an irresistible force, he must have a unique mission.

Iger told everyone about his ambitions, partly because of his personality, and partly because he thought he shouldered the responsibility of changing the destiny of the world.

It wasn't until today that Iger discovered that the mission of his own existence had already been completed.

At the moment when the illusory sense of destiny was shattered, Iger's long-suppressed emotions finally broke down. He couldn't hold back anymore, so he lost control on the spot.

Lying down and looking at the ceiling for a long time, Iger's sanity gradually recovered. He lay on the bed and emptied his mind in a daze.

The illusion that I used to deceive myself has been punctured, how should I live in the future.

Is the world meaningless to me?
In the void, that figure appeared in Iger's mind.

In his previous life, Iger missed many good girls. He mustered up the courage to confess to Joanna, thinking that in this life, he would not leave any emotional regrets for himself.

I really like Joanna.

This is real.

No matter what this fucking world is like, if someone cares about me, and I care about her, maybe that's enough.

Just like what Joanna said, no matter whether the world is nothingness or not, you are real to me, that's enough.

I want to live with Joanna.

I want Joanna to live happily ever after.

Yes, I am desperate.

Thinking of this, Iger felt that he shouldn't lie down like this, and he still had many imminent things to do.

Iger wanted to get up, but he just struggled to get up halfway and fell down again. Now his body doesn't obey the command at all, as weak as if he had a serious illness.

After giving up struggling, Iger opened his character column for self-examination.

Physical Condition: Restricted Health.

Morale: -70, hopeless.

Iger stared at the blood-red word "Despair", and several rows of small characters appeared next to it:
Trust of all: +30
Joanna's Dependency: +50
The truth of this world: -150
"Fuck you, you actually deducted so much from me." Iger was so angry that he cursed directly.

Later, Iger found that his character column had changed.

living human
Age: 11 years old

Personality label:
1. A person who sees the truth of the world

Explanation: You got it, you got it, you got it!
2. Teenager

Explanation: You have entered puberty, do you feel it?

3. Blood Plague Survivor

Explanation: Although the blood plague was cured, it changed your body (you get the idea).

Stamina is permanently reduced by 20 points.

Life is permanently reduced by 15 points.

Blood plague resistance increased by 100%.

4. Marksman
Explanation: Genius is 99% talent + 1% hard work.

It's really a malicious statement, and Iger really wants to know if this world is only for himself, or for everyone.

Then there is the attribute bar, Constitution: 6, Dexterity: 6, Mind: 3, Combat: 1, Shooting: 7
Special Ability: Know-it-all

All skills must be at least level 1.

Although the morale is a little low, but the mind still has 3 points, which is stronger than when I first came here.

Middle-aged people recover faster than young people after a nervous breakdown.

In fact, there is no secret, nothing more than getting used to it.

After resting for a while, Iger accumulated some strength, and he slowly sat up from the bed.Just as he was about to go to the ground, the door opened and Joanna came in.

As soon as Joanna saw Iger woke up, she hurried over in two steps. She squatted in front of the bed and said to Iger, "You're awake. How do you feel?"

"Not very good." Iger said to Joanna, "I almost went crazy this time, but fortunately you and Nicholas saved my life."

"We all know the matter. You were affected by the mental impact of the blood plague heart." Joanna put the canned fruit in her hand on the table. In addition to eating meat, Iger also likes sweets. For example, this A very common apple in syrup.

Ok?
Hearing Joanna's words, Iger froze for a moment. What kind of reasoning is this?
However, Iger quickly changed his mind. It is not a bad thing to explain his insanity in this way, and it better paves the way for his future action plan.

"I want to get out of bed to see Father Locke, but I can't get up all the energy." After Iger sat on the bed for a while, he decided to continue lying flat, and he said to Joanna: "You can get Father Locke, by the way, Did Nicholas also call over? I have something important to report to them."

Joanna put Iger down, then put two pillows on his back, and then hurried out.

The impact on morale is really great. Now Iger can't move his body or mind except being forced to lie flat.

No, I have to get out of this state, or I can use some medicine to help.

After a while, the ward was full of people.

First of all, Dr. Heidemi was next to Iger, and she was checking Iger's physical condition.

"The blood pressure is low, and the heartbeat is strong, but the heart rate is a little slow. Have you ever had a heart attack?" Dr. Heidemi asked Iger after putting down his stethoscope.

"No. Uh, probably not." Iger said to Dr. Heidemi.

"Okay, you can have a conversation that is not too complicated, not more than 10 minutes, and the patient needs to rest." Dr. Heidemi turned around and said to the people behind him.

After Dr. Heidemi left, Iger said to Father Locke: "Godfather, I'm in a very bad state and can't think continuously. The energy drink I sent someone to hand over last time, I'm now applying for a bottle."

After hearing Iger's words, Father Locke hesitated for a moment, but Iger said very firmly: "Don't worry, this is a safe dose. I need it very much now, so that I can rearrange my thinking."

"Son, don't push yourself too hard." Father Locke refused.

"Wait a minute." Iger called out to Father Locke, who was about to turn around and move away. He said to Father Locke, "If possible, I also hope to lie on the bed and rest like this. But we have no time to waste."

After Father Locke stared at Iger for a while, he turned his head and gave instructions to Sister Maria.

A few minutes later, Sister Maria brought a plastic vial and handed it to Iger.

Iger picked it up and saw that the number on it was "3". He unscrewed the bottle cap and drank the drink inside.

After a while, it was like a gust of wind blowing away the fog in the brain in an instant, and Iger became extremely sober all of a sudden. With the awakening of consciousness, his thinking started to turn like an engine that was fully refueled.

Iger sat up straight at once, and he said solemnly to Father Locke and others: "I've 'connected' to the blood plague heart just now, it can sense me, and I can sense it too."

(End of this chapter)