long night walk

Chapter 905

She is not afraid of waiting for no return, she is not afraid of being in the underworld, she is afraid that she will miss the whole life if she loses her body in a hurry when she is young.

"I'm sorry." Time and space seemed to be silent for a moment, and Yin Baishuang suddenly spoke quietly.

Bai Lian froze for a moment, as if he understood what she meant, he smiled wryly and said, "I am the one who should say I'm sorry, for causing you to wait for me for 200 years in vain."

Yin Baishuang's fingers on his waist trembled slightly, his forehead rested on his back, his eyes were slightly red: "If I hadn't gone to Nanze Mountain to tell you what I said back then, you wouldn't have..."

"Xiao Shuang." Bai Lian interrupted her gently and gently, and said seriously: "This is not your fault, it all stems from my cowardice and unbearable."

Yin Baishuang pursed his lips, and then asked softly: "If you knew back then, I would have waited for you for 200 years, and you would have waited until 200 years. Would you still make that choice?"

Baili was silent for a moment, then said, "No."

Yin Baishuang smiled sadly, and his eyes suddenly felt a little dry: "You seem to have not realized how much I like you."

Bailian: "..."

Yin Baishuang's fingertips resting on his waist pressed slightly into his skin, and his body finally trembled uncontrollably.

"Just now you asked me what I was thinking when I was about to jump off the abyss, and I said I was thinking of you.

But Xiaoan, I don't understand. When you killed yourself with your sword on Nanze Mountain 200 years ago, did you think of me? "

She asked softly, her smile becoming more bitter: "You don't seem to have thought from the beginning that after you die, I can wait for a person for hundreds of years, or even a lifetime.

Maybe you just think that I am the young lady of the Xian family from Cangwu Palace, with golden branches and jade leaves, and that brief encounter when I was young was just the beginning of love and the sprouting of youth.

You think you have passed by my heart, but you just passed by. After all, affection is easy to fall in love at first sight, and it is rare to be a long-term company in the future.

Presumably the moment you died, you were thinking, one day in the future, compared to the crying when I couldn’t get it at the beginning, I gradually became peaceful and began to accept the cuteness in life and not getting it, right? ? "

Bailian didn't speak.

Yin Baishuang's apricot eyes that were once as bright as Shunhua were covered with water vapor, and the crystal liquid rolled down like beads, sliding down from between the cheeks that were as beautiful as misty rain.

"But you don't know that you are so important in my heart that you have become the only knot in my life that cannot be untied.

I knew about the surprise meeting at the age of 16... I thought carefully, if I didn't take the initiative to express my heart and force you to speak, maybe even you yourself didn't know that you liked me.

But I also know that your liking is different from mine, right? "

Hearing this, Bai Lian's eyes flashed twice, and he held the hand on his waist, wrapping her little hand tightly under his gently but forcefully.

He said softly: "When I was very young, I heard many people say that I was born with the high hopes of all living beings. It is a symbol of the long-term peace between Zhongyou and Tianxi. I can't find a second person with a more noble and noble status than me.

Everyone in the world said that I should inherit my father's footsteps and carry forward the Tianxi Sword Art. Hundreds of immortal sects envy me, and people of the same generation envy me.

Until later, they found out that I was just a mediocre person, and these envy and jealousy doubled into ridicule and gloating, and everyone secretly wanted to step on it.

My father wanted me to be successful, so he trapped me in a small courtyard with bamboo fences in the name of love, and left me in the desert.

My mother hoped that I would be safe and happy, but he said that a loving mother often fails, and even limited the number of times my mother could visit me.

In my memory, my childhood was filled with boring books all day long.

I can't show too much love for other things, because then my father is sure that I will play with things and destroy the things I love without threat.

Before I went down the mountain at the age of 15, I never had a moment of indulgence, and my whole life seemed to be deeply trapped in a cage.

Looking through my previous lives, in my memory, I can’t remember whether my father smiled at me, let alone when I got used to being alone, and gradually no longer needed him.

And in my father's eyes, I also gradually no longer see any warmth. He needs a perfect son to inherit his kendo career, but I am obviously not perfect, even mediocre and useless, which is disappointing.

So slowly, when he looked at me, he no longer looked at his own child, but as if he was looking at an object, a poor stone that exhausted all his patience but had to continue to polish.

Whatever shape he wants me to be, I should grow myself into that shape according to his will.

As long as there is a little bit different from what he expected, I will use a file to cut off the 'crooked' part of myself before he finds out, and restore the neat appearance in his mind. "

"I thought this was what I deserved in my life, but I didn't realize that there is another way to live in this world until I met you later.

It's like I walked a long, long night road to see you walking towards you, just like a beautiful process from darkness to light.

Xiaoshuang, you are right. My liking is different from yours. My feelings are far less pure, simple and direct than yours. "

"Perhaps while I like you, I also regard you as a driftwood in my life, a warm straw.

I am nostalgic for you, and regard this nostalgic feeling as a kind of support and parasitism, so that even I have never discovered it myself.

In this relationship, I am cowardly and incompetent, and I even hope that you can come and save me. "

Yin Baishuang lowered his eyes for a moment, and when he raised his eyes again, the mist in his eyes had not dissipated, but his face was clear and clear, and his bright eyes seemed to contain a layer of light.

She said: "I'm probably terminally ill, when I watched your Wan Ming Dan flare up in that small temple back then, I felt that I couldn't let you go.

From that moment on, I wanted to grasp the vastness of this life, and I must give you a sky full of sparks.So whenever you need me to save you, I will definitely come. "

"You don't know how much I like you, I don't blame you, but I want to tell you now..."

Yin Baishuang put his chin between his shoulders and neck, leaned close to him, pressed his chest against Bai Lian's back, shyly squeezed it against him.

Across his chest, there was a clear beating and vibrating sound from a calm and fiery heart.

Every stroke seems to wish to melt into his blood, making him know the pain and coldness deep in his soul.

"This heart cannot be easily provoked, because once this heart is handed over, it will no longer belong to me.

I can afford it, but I can't take it back. If you give up, I can only hold on to this feeling sadly. My heart is not big. For a lifetime, I can only love one person. "

"200 years ago, my encounter with you was destined to be an endless firework, fleeting, but what I want to say is that thanks to your appearance, I have been happy for many years."

It was as if that year had come again.

The running water brushes the clothes, and the shadows are still.

The world is vast and the sentient beings are boundless. In this big world of nine burns, a girl said that she would give her eyes full of stars.

What Bai Lian said was right, she was a warm straw and a burning torch.

In the boundless darkness, he illuminated a path for him, which he will never forget.

After a thrilling confession, Yin Baishuang didn't feel relieved, but became more and more aggrieved.

"I always firmly believe that if we can meet each other before the mountain, we will meet again behind the mountain.

It's true that you like me, but it's also true that you don't understand me.I am happy that you are true, but I don't know that you are also true.

The time of our acquaintance is too short, really counted, the days of our acquaintance have not exceeded seven days.

But you have been with that lunatic Su Jing day and night for two full years.

So you see, 200 years later, your appearance has changed so much that I can't even recognize you, but she can recognize you at a glance, and keeps me in the dark, bullying me so badly! "

Bai Lian laughed out loud, and couldn't help rubbing her forehead with his cheek: "Speaking of which, when we met for the first time in Kongcang Mountain, you stabbed me with a sword?"

He joked: "Could it be that this skin really doesn't appeal to you, and you prefer the original one?"

Yin Baishuang said: "It's not that you have a look that I like, but that I like all of your looks. However, after being troubled by Ying Xiu for 200 years, your handsome eyebrows and eyes are really not that big when I think about it now." I miss it so much.

When I stabbed you in Kongcang Mountain, thinking about it now, it really makes me feel very uncomfortable.

Later, I tried my best to be wary of you, begging for everything for fear that you would take Shou away from me. I was really stupid. Shou is yours in the first place, and it is so close to you, why didn’t I think of it. "

Baili listened to her quietly, and then said softly, "It's not that I couldn't think of it, but I didn't dare to think about it. I'm afraid that I will be happy, and I'm afraid that the old man's heart will be overwhelmed, and it will be nothing in a blink of an eye."

But in fact, the old man was overwhelmed, and the two crossed the ark.

The mist in Yin Baishuang's eyes is like a wrinkled clear lake.

She laughed, the end of her eyes slowly curled up, and her whole body became energetic again, just like the beautiful appearance when they met at the beginning of the year.

The girl with the same eyebrows and eyes, and the same beauty as before, said to him: "It's the first time we met, let's get to know each other, Cangwu Palace, Yin Baishuang, I will only tell the name I recognize to my friends. Lang Jun was born so handsome and pleasing, the little girl saw joy in her heart, You can just call me Xiaoshuang."

Seeing her smile, Bai Li'an also laughed along with her unconsciously: "I met Qing Chu, and Bai Li'an in the Xiazhongyou Dynasty has a word hidden sword. It is a blessing in my life to be able to meet the girl and become a friend. The qin, together with music and exquisite. I have a special wine, with the heart of a guest of Yanle."

Yin Baishuang hugged him lightly: "This time, we got to know each other again. I don't blame you if you don't understand me. I have always been very patient, and I will teach you slowly."

It only takes a moment to like someone, but it is not easy to fully understand someone's heart.

Just like how could Bai Lian know, the stubborn and bright girl who used to be so hot.

One day, he will become drunk all day long, living and dying in dreams.

If it weren't for the arrangement of the years, how would Yin Baishuang know that such a docile and unrevealing young man in her memory could deeply carry out her determination to die rather than be destroyed.

The raging flames filled the sky, and those dusty and long-lasting memories seemed to be at this very moment, and the two tacitly cherished them carefully.

Hearing the past again is like passing the wind in my heart, suddenly open-minded and indifferent.

Just because both of them know each other well, they are not as young as they were before, and we can't help each other.

Fate comes and goes, and fate is entangled into chaos, which has long been unclear.

The floating life is blown into snow, and the taste of the world is boiled into tea. The chest is broad, and the ability is not lingering in the bosom.

Wildfires raged across the sky, raging fires burned the river, and the remnant palace of Moqi was crumbling like a storm, and there was nothing that could turn the fire away at any time.

Although Bai Lian didn't have any countermeasures in mind, at this moment, his heart was unprecedentedly light.

It has nothing to do with life and death, and has nothing to do with the way home, only to respect this life and never lose our heart.

"Xiao Shuang, I have a gift for you."

Spiritual power poured into the pocket of the universe around his waist, and amidst the flickering light, Bai Li'an took a simple silver-carved long sword with a black sheath into his palm, and held it lightly in his arm.

Yin Baishuang cried out in a low voice, with the unstoppable surprise and joy in his eyes, he shook Bai Lian's arm: "Mo Yang Sword?!"

Before Bai Lian could speak, her ears were pinched by her jade-like little hands the next moment, and Yin Baishuang raised her brows upside down: "Well, little An, it turned out that when I dropped the sword, you quietly picked it up , didn't you remember who I am at that time, and you are still playing with me like being deaf and dumb?"

She pretended to be angry, but there was an unstoppable smile in her eyes.

Bai Lian held the sword, as if letting her do whatever she wanted.

"How dare, how dare, if I recovered my memory at that time, how could I have allowed Xiaoshuang to throw this sword into the lake and discard it."

Only then did Yin Baishuang withdrew his hand, and said again: "That's right, if you recovered your memory at that time, how could you get along with Su Jing, that dead-faced villain, defending her everywhere, saving her life, and behaving so intimately?" .”

The tone of these words was a bit tasteful, and Bai Lian wanted to defend himself, but what Yin Baishuang said was true, so he had no choice but to smile wryly.

Bai Lian didn't know the truth at the beginning, even though he met Su Jing with swords, he treated her with reverence and friendship.

But later on, let alone the intimate contact in the cold pool, let alone the night of drunkenness, if Ning Feiyan, the wild cat, hadn't gotten in the way and made himself the most cocooned, he might not be able to explain clearly to Su Jing for the rest of his life.

But even so, he didn't do any real things with Su Jing, but in his sporadic memory, he was lured to have some skin-to-skin kisses with Su Jing that surpassed men and women.

Although he was ignorant at that time, for some reason Su Jing, who was indifferent to everyone in the world, would be too tolerant to him alone.

Now that I think about it carefully, I am afraid that this woman has already harbored a hundred evil ideas in her heart.

Seeing his silence, Yin Baishuang snorted coldly, quite complaining:

"Even if you don't say it, I can imagine how Su Jing, a stuffy guy, will be able to settle down when he sees you. It's like a hungry wolf who sees fresh meat and delicious food. He wants to jump on you with all his heart, and he can't wait to bite you. Pick up the back of your neck and bring it to your nest.

I was at a disadvantage, and I was at a disadvantage. During those two years, you lived on Nanze Mountain, and I heard you send a message saying that you ate and slept with her day and night, and they were inseparable. You fished in the river naked, and she had nothing to lose. taboo.

At that time we all thought he was the son of Taixuan, but we didn't know that she was a woman, so we didn't think so.

That Su Guanhai is also a black heart. When you and I went up the mountain, he clearly knew about the affairs between you and me, but he deliberately placed his black and thin girl who was so indistinguishable from male and female by your side.

The majestic master of a sect doesn't care if he doesn't teach his daughter the principles of propriety, righteousness, honesty and shame that men and women need to guard against each other, but he even sits coldly watching you hang out with her day and night.

Day and night, as things go on like this, she can clearly see your life habits, every move, if not, how can she take the lead and recognize you. "

(End of this chapter)