Xiaosheng is not a nerd

Chapter 1782 I Recognized You

His heart began to beat wildly, and the blood in his body began to boil like boiling water. If Ye Hua were still alive, he would thank the heavens and the earth for pitying him for missing him day and night...

If Ye Hua were still alive...

I wanted to imagine Lu Yehua's beautiful appearance as charming as a white magnolia, but strangely, what emerged in my mind was Tong Ran Nuzhen's ugly face as ugly as a ghost, and her sad eyes.

Xie Fu realized it later, his mind suddenly exploded, he knew!

……

In the room, Tong Ran placed her hand on a piece of rough gravel and rubbed it gently. The surface of the gravel was covered with scabs that had been ground into powder and there was some blood. She was so impatient that she rubbed her hand's thin skin.

The door was pushed open without warning, and a person stood at the door, his vague outline appearing in the backlight.

The Tong Ran Jurchens turned a blind eye and continued to concentrate on their own work, as if nothing was more important than this.

The person walked quietly into the room, his deep breathing sounds were slow and long, blending with the rustling sound of grinding the scab, disrupting Tongran Nuzhen's rhythm, so much so that a blood streak appeared on her palm.

Tongran Jurchen looked up and glared angrily, but the moment she saw the person coming, she froze and her eyes changed from anger to surprise.

She is still alive!

Xie Fu's heart was pounding, and a feeling of extreme joy came over him. The corners of his mouth couldn't help but curl up into a smile, but tears were already streaming from his eyes.

He was so happy that Lu Yehua was still alive, but he was so sad that Lu Yehua became like this.

He moved his mouth and wanted to say something, but his throat seemed to be blocked. He only knew that tears flowed along his slightly moving lips and into his mouth, salty, sweet, sour and bitter.

When Xie Fu came in front of her, Tongran Nuzhen looked at the face in front of her. Tears had flooded his entire face. Tears welled up in the corners of his mouth, as if the tears were pouring out of his mouth. It was so strange, she had never seen it before.

The man came to his senses and covered his face, leaving only his eyes exposed. Was it because he was afraid of scaring him, or...

"What are you... doing here?"

Although Tongran Jurchen wanted to express calmness and indifference, as if they were strangers, the emotions revealed in her trembling voice had already betrayed her.

"you you you……"

Xie Fu's voice was so hoarse that he couldn't utter a single clear word, but he suddenly took off the gray cloth covering her head and face. The hairless scalp, which looked like it was covered with mud, and the face, which was as ugly as a ghost, came into view for the second time. Without any warning, Xie Fu howled and burst into tears.

Tong Ran Nuzhen Bangrong wanted to scold him, but was stunned by his crying. Then he saw Xie Fu burst into tears.

It is said that men don't shed tears easily. She never knew that a man could cry so heartbrokenly, but her heart was filled with warmth and she didn't feel sad at all.

He opened his mouth slightly, and the tears flowed down his cheeks into his mouth, making a croaking sound as he cried, and said something indistinctly.

Tong Ran Nuzhen listened for several sentences before she could vaguely hear the words "Ye Hua". It turned out that he was calling her name. When she saw him stretch out his hand, she took the initiative to hold him in her arms and said gently, "Nothing."

Xie Fu suddenly made a strange sound, like a wolf cub wailing, but crying even harder.

At this moment, Lu Yehua's numb heart finally felt a little distressed. She hugged Xie Fu tighter, letting him bury his face in her arms. She said lovingly, "It's okay. It doesn't hurt at all."

This sentence only added fuel to the fire. Xie Fu howled like thunder, which frightened Lu Yehua. He looked down and saw his weak and sorrowful appearance, which made him feel hurt and angry. He shouted coldly: "Why are you crying? Don't cry!"

Xie Fu suddenly stopped and took a deep breath to control his emotions, but because he had just cried so hard, every breath was accompanied by a sob.

Seeing that he was like a child without a mother, Lu Yehua's heart was moved, and tenderness and love appeared in his eyes. He gently stroked his hair.

Xie Fu lay in her arms, suddenly looked up at her, and happened to meet her eyes full of tenderness and love, staring at her in a daze.

The air suddenly became hot as they looked at each other, but Lu Yehua felt shy and guilty. Although she and Xie Fu loved each other, it was only in dreams. Once they came out of the dream, it would become a cruel reality - two people who could never be together.

At this moment, Lu Yehua wanted to avoid his gaze, but she couldn't help wanting to look at him a few more times. She hadn't seen him for a long time, a very long time, and wanted to see him carefully once.

Xie Fu suddenly buried his face in her bosom again and held her tightly with his arms. This time he wanted to feel the reality, not the dream, not the disappointment and sadness after the dream.

Her warm bosom burned his face, and its softness was just like her gentle heart. Everything was so real. The lover he missed so much was back.

The haze that had accumulated for many years seemed to be washed away, and my heart became clear and bright. My unrealistic heart also fell to the ground and read out her name: "Ye Hua."

Lu Yehua was suddenly startled and pushed Xie Fu away from her arms.

Xie Fu fell to the ground, was stunned for a moment and then stood up again. Before he could do anything, Lu Yehua stopped him: "Alright!"

Xie Fu looked at her cold eyes, confused for a moment, but soon smiled and said, "Ye Hua, what's wrong with you?"

"How dare you! You are not allowed to call me by my name."

Xie Fu knew in his heart that she was still alive, but did not come to see him, but hid to the ends of the earth, just because of her that she became like this, but Xie Fu wanted to let her know that he didn't care at all, he loved her heart, not her beautiful appearance.

He said nonchalantly: "Xiao Ye, I called out to you, so why can't Ye Hua call out too!"

"That's...that's..." Lu Yehua couldn't explain it clearly, so he just said coldly: "Anyway, you are not allowed to scream!"

"I'm going to scream!"

Seeing that his face was still covered with tears but with a rogue expression, Lu Yehua was amused and angry at the same time, and raised his hand: "You..." But his eyes remained gentle.

"Lu Yehua, I'm telling you, I've given it my all. I want to love you." Xie Fu was very glad that he could say it to her in reality during his lifetime, instead of in that dark space.

Lu Yehua was stunned, and a sweet happiness rose in his heart, but soon there was an indescribable sadness. He gently took off the gray cloth covering his head and face: "I have become like this, do you still love me?"

Xie Fu stared at it. This was the third time he had seen this face. For some reason, he felt that it was not ugly at all. At this moment, his aesthetic taste changed: "Not only do I want to love you, but I also want to marry you and make you my wife!"

These words were undoubtedly a bolt of lightning that struck Lu Yehua. To love her secretly was already too much to be tolerated by the world, and he actually wanted to marry her. Inexplicable fear quickly permeated Lu Yehua's body, and he trembled and said, "Don't you understand? I became like this because it is God's punishment for me."

Xie Fu was about to say something when Lu Yehua interrupted him: "The issue between you and me really bothers me. When I returned to Huizhou, I thought about dying, but when I thought about how you saved me..."

At this point, Lu Yehua glanced at Xie Fu, his eyes full of bitterness and helplessness: "How can I let you down for trying so hard to save me."

Xie Fu said softly: "Ye Hua, it's all my fault. I hurt you. I really wish I were an ugly monster so that you would feel sick when you see me. Then I won't hurt you." Lu Ye Hua smiled: "Xie Fu, you still have the mood to say these funny things at this time."

"I am happy. I am very happy."

Lu Yehua lowered her eyes, avoiding looking at him, and said softly: "I can't forget you. I thought about you every day and every night in Huizhou. Every day felt like a year. Living was a torment, but I couldn't die. I had no way out. Becoming like this today was God's punishment for me, but it also gave me a way to live."

Xie Fu angrily rebuked: "Nonsense, my sin is greater than yours, why doesn't God punish me, why does he bully you?"

Lu Yehua asked back: "Aren't you in pain?"

Xie Fu remained silent, but he conceded that he was of course in pain.

Lu Yehua said softly: "You know, this is your punishment."

Xie Fu smiled gently: "If falling in love with you means enduring all this pain, I am willing to do so. Ye Hua, from beginning to end, you have done nothing wrong. You are just an ordinary woman who is gentle, kind, loyal, and tenacious."

"Shut up, I'm a shameless woman."

Xie Fu said coldly: "Who said you are a shameless woman? Who is qualified to accuse you of such a crime?"

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Lu Yehua stared at him in silence. Xie Fu pointed to the sky and said, "Is it God or those so-called saints who set the moral principles? They don't live for more than a hundred years. What they have experienced is just a tiny fraction of the countless grains of sand in the world. They can't set a fart."

Lu Yehua replied softly: "I convicted myself of this crime."

Although the sound was soft, it was deafening and Xie Fu was stunned for a moment.

Lu Yehua said softly: "In the past three years, I have also awakened and let it go. Xie Fu, I no longer love you. I became like this, which saved me and also saved you."

When Xie Fu heard that she no longer loved him, he was stunned again. When he heard the second half of her sentence, he immediately understood and said with a smile: "God has no right to save you, nor does he have the right to save me. Only I can save you, and only you can save me. Ye Hua, if you think that I will dislike you if you become like this, then you have misjudged me."

Hearing such tender words, Lu Yehua's heart was moved, but she was not a three-year-old child. No man would like such an ugly girl, not to mention that he was surrounded by so many beautiful women.

He just felt guilty and blamed himself. He was a man of affection and righteousness, but all of this was too heavy and it was too painful for him to bear it.

Lu Yehua smiled slightly: "Look carefully at me now, do you still love me?" She would never believe it since she couldn't even witness it herself.

Xie Fu smiled: "Who said I don't love you? I love you so much and will love you forever." Then he kissed her face gently.

His kiss was so gentle and delicate that Lu Yehua's heart fell at once. But when Xie Fu kissed her lips, fear came over her again. She woke up as if from a dream and slapped Xie Fu on the spot.

Snapped!
Looking at her cold and inviolable eyes, Xie Fu smiled: "You are still so chaste and chaste, and you only want to be in that dark space. This is how I kiss you in real life, so it's understandable that you are a little resistant and unaccustomed to it."

Lu Yehua said coldly: "Shut up!"

"Then I'll shut up."

Xie Fu smiled as he looked at her eyes, her nose, her mouth, and her ears, as if every part of her face was so beautiful and worthy of careful appreciation.

Lu Yehua was a little scared, afraid that he really didn't care, afraid that this man would go down a path of no return for her, that his wife and children would be separated because of her ugly face, and that he would have no place in the world.

She loved him so much, how could she let him suffer this again? He had finally managed to get through the past three years, and now all his efforts were wasted.

It became meaningless for her to hide in the ends of the earth for more than three years.

Under Xie Fu's gentle gaze, Lu Yehua suddenly lifted up the hem of his robe, revealing two equally ugly legs that were not evenly level: "Look carefully, not only my face, my whole body is like this."

Xie Fu immediately recalled the scene of her wailing in the flames. His heart ached, but he smiled and said, "Good job! That's exactly what I meant. I've been thinking about your legs since I first met you."

Seeing Xie Fu's frivolous and lustful look, Lu Yehua was unable to react for a moment, but Xie Fu suddenly leaned down and kissed her ankle.

Lu Yehua was so scared that he shrank his legs, but his feet were caught by Xie Fu, who raised his head and looked at her with a wicked smile. This glance made Lu Yehua feel weak all over.

Lu Yehua wanted to glare back fiercely, but facing the smile in his eyes, he felt that any sternness would be accepted by him.

Before she knew it, Xie Fu had taken off her Taoist shoes and her silk stockings. A sour smell made Lu Yehua feel extremely embarrassed. Ever since she was burned by the fire, if she didn't take a bath for a day, her body would emit this sour and unpleasant odor, especially her feet hidden in the soles of her shoes and socks.

In my heart I wanted to explain that she was not like that and it was all because of the fire.

Xie Fu kissed the back of her feet gently, as if he loved her as the most precious treasure in the world.

Shock, touched, distressed, reluctant...all kinds of emotions were churning in Lu Yehua's heart. She stared at Xie Fu fiercely, trying to find a flaw in him. He was restraining himself and pretending, but what she saw was that there was no flaw at all.

At this time, he had kissed her knees and was resting on her thighs that had never been touched by anyone. However, this place was no longer the pure and spotless holy land on the top of the snow, but had become an ugly and rotten place.

Lu Yehua shook his hands and shouted in his heart, "If you want to kiss, kiss my hand. My hands are prettier."

She slowly stretched out her blood-red hand towards Xie Fu, but Xie Fu seemed to have no idea. He was expressing that love requires concentration and does not allow distraction.

Xie Fu looked up at her and smiled. Lu Yehua understood what he meant from his eyes. He wanted to break that indestructible barrier and let her be mentally prepared. In that dark space, he did just that.

Fear quickly spread throughout his body, stronger than any time before, and Lu Yehua blurted out in shock: "No!"

However, Xie Fu had already reached the city gate, and fear broke out instantly. Lu Yehua swung his palms like a madman and slapped Xie Fu.

Xie Fu was hit several times and fell to the ground. Lu Yehua finally had a trace of rationality. He withdrew the palm force that was enough to kill him and cursed indignantly: "You beast, do you know what you are doing?"

Lu Yehua's expression was so gloomy that his ugly face became even more terrifying. His cold eyes emitted a bone-chilling chill, and that icy aura could freeze a person to death.

Xie Fu stood up, patted his chest, and looked at the face with a smile: "So light, are you flirting?"

Lu Yehua slowly raised his hand, his blood-red hand glowing red, and the aura of the gods and ghosts was full of warnings, but he finally pointed to the door: "Get out of here."

Xie Fu could understand him very well. He was an experienced person and he knew the kind of tangled and conflicting feelings. When encountering such things, people are not allowed to make choices. No matter what choice they make, it will be wrong.

The best way to solve a problem is to have no choice.

What Xie Fu has to do now is to leave Lu Yehua with no choice but to resign himself to fate.