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Chapter 32 How come it has nothing to do with me?
"You will be like your mother in the future, staying in the back house, taking care of your husband and raising your children." Father Shen said dejectedly.

"What if I don't? What if I want to be a boy and go to battle to kill the enemy?!" Xie Yuan questioned in a childlike voice.

Xie Yuan's stubborn and unyielding gaze hurt Father Shen's heart.Father Shen finally looked at her and said, "Then you will have to suffer a lot, and you will not be tolerated by the world. Can you succeed?"

Xie Yuan burst into tears suddenly, the tears fell patter, and he raised his face and said:
"Master... I am not afraid of suffering, I am only afraid that others will regard me as a waste. I am not a waste, I can do anything."

As she spoke, she raised her hand to wipe away the tears on her face, her eyes full of prayers.

I pray that others will value her and not ignore her...

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Xie Yuan stood beside her mother, Mrs. Xie, and looked at the usually talkative maid kneeling on the ground, crying with gratitude:

"Thank you, Madam, for your love. This servant knows the pain in Madam's heart. If I am lucky in the future, I will have a son and a half of Xie's family in my stomach. Naturally, they will still be Madam's children. I will call Madam my mother, and this servant will be Madam's for the rest of my life." No matter the time, the servant girl will serve Madam wholeheartedly."

As he spoke, he solemnly kowtowed several times towards Mrs. Xie, the tears on his face raised up between the gaps were blurred, and his forehead was flushed.

But she doesn't feel miserable at all, Xie Yuan can feel lucky from her "miserable" appearance, the kind of luck that she finally made it through her whole life.

Mrs. Xie had a haggard, pale face, and her lips without makeup looked even more pale and lifeless.

Her sitting posture is still luxurious, just like the nobleman in the picture of the house dress, but she looks fragile and lost her soul, she slightly pursed her lips and said:

"Go." The tone was flat, the voice was low, and there was no other words.

The maid timidly raised her eyes to look at Mrs. Xie, then turned around obediently.

The people left, and there was no one else in the room. Madam Xie, who was sitting, tilted her head slightly, and leaned on the shoulder of Xie Yuan who was standing next to her.

Xie Yuan was originally leaning on her side, but now it was like a mother leaning on her, which made Xie Yuan feel a strange emotion in his heart.

While being frightened and sentimental for mother's fragility, at the same time, I felt that I had grown up and needed to be more reliable, so I tried my best to stand firm and asked:
"Mother, what's wrong with you?"

Mrs. Xie straightened up, looked at her and said, "Mother is fine."

But he said it was fine, but the tears flowed out like a collapsed river.Silent, but crying so urgently.

"Mother..." Xie Yuan called her out in panic, and at a loss, he went to wipe the tears off Mrs. Xie's face.

Madam Xie burst into tears as she cried, reached out and touched her face, and said, "...We, A Yuan, are so nice. We are tall and straight, and our ambition and temperament are not inferior to men..."

As she talked, the smile on her face could no longer be squeezed out, and she cried bitterly, "...but why did God make you a girl?"

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Xie Yuan didn't understand, she didn't feel that there was anything pathetic about herself, and she didn't feel that she was any worse than others, but her mother was sad because she was not a man, which made her very sad.

I'm very reconciled... Is there something great embedded in these adults' minds, they insist on looking down on her, because she has so many troubles.

Xie Yuan, who ran wildly all the way, finally found his father Xie Yun in Xie's library.

At that time, her father was standing in front of the bookshelf, covering a repaired bamboo slip with a cloth suit, while Shen Liuzhen was on the table beside him, copying ancient books stroke by stroke with a pen.

The ancient books were made of silk, and they were already brittle and turned yellow. They were usually things that his father treasured so much that she never dared to let her touch them.

"A Yuan...why did you come here?" Father Xie glanced at her and asked very normally.

Xie Yuan's hand rested on the hilt of the sword at his waist, and Dan Feng glanced at Shen Liuzhen who was laughing at her, then took it back expressionlessly, and asked:

"Father... why do you want to take a concubine? Mother is not happy if you take a concubine."

Father Xie was about to put down the bamboo slips when he heard it, and froze there for a long time, then put it down lightly again, and said:
"If dad doesn't take concubines, your mother won't be happy either. There's nothing you can do about it."

Father Xie turned around, glanced at her again, walked towards the table next to Shen Liuzhen, sighed helplessly and said:
"Kids don't care about adults' affairs, these have nothing to do with you."

Xie Yuan watched angrily as his father lifted the sleeves of his Confucian shirt and sat down.He said coldly: "...how come it has nothing to do with me? Father, I am also from the Xie family, and I can also carry on the family line for the Xie family."

Father Xie raised his eyelids and glanced at her, thinking: This silly girl really doesn't know which muscle is wrong, how can she not understand after explaining to her so many times?
"How can it be the same? You are going to marry in the future. The Xie family's son is going to marry a wife. After marrying a wife, the child will be named Xie. Do you understand?" Father Xie patiently explained to her .

Xie Yuan frowned, his thick and dark eyebrows were knotted, and said angrily: "... Then I can marry a wife in the future, and the child I give birth can also be named Xie!"

Father Xie almost spit out a mouthful of tea.Putting down the teacup and rubbing the skirt of his clothes twice, he looked at his silly girl with a wry smile, and was speechless for a long while.

He turned his head and glanced at his little son-in-law, Shen Liuzhen, feeling guilty for a moment, and finally he could only wave his hand at Xie Yuan, and said impatiently, "Hurry up! I can't tell you clearly."

Xie Yuan stood for a while and thought, if his father couldn't say anything, and if he couldn't make sense, it meant that she was right, but his father didn't want to accept it, so he left.

"A Yuan..." Shen Liuzhen called her.

Xie Yuan stood on the arch bridge, turned half of his body and looked at him indifferently.

Shen Liuzhen was frightened by Xie Yuan's ruthless expression. He walked over cautiously and quickly, looked into her eyes, and asked, "A Yuan...are you angry with me? Why?"

Xie Yuan just stared at him unkindly with a pair of red and phoenix eyes, without speaking.

Shen Liuzhen was a little flustered, and said again: "...you can't blame me for being angry with the teacher, and I didn't provoke you."

After a long while, Xie Yuan looked away, turned around and left, saying, "Stay away from me in the future, and you will get angry when you see such a pretentious villain!"

Shen Liuzhen was choked and staggered... He admitted that he was quite contrived a lot, but recently he didn't hurt Xie Yuan.Where did the great injustice come from?

"I didn't do anything recently..."

"You pretend to be obedient every day to please my father. Now my father doesn't even bother to hit me with a board. He finds me annoying after just a few words. Isn't it because of you?!"

Shen Liuzhen froze for a moment, staring blankly at Xie Yuanyang going away...

(End of this chapter)