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Chapter 47 Lucky or Unfortunate?

Both Guan Yifei and Xie Yuan looked at him, but Shen Liuzhen just held his sleeves and looked at the sky, without any sad expression on his face... Xie Yuan and Guan Yifei didn't know what to say for a while.

Sensing the silence of the people around him, Shen Liuzhen turned his head to look at them, and instantly understood what they were thinking, so he said frankly:
"Look at me doing what?...Because I haven't seen it before, and I don't have anything to recall, why should I be sad?"

Guan Yifei was a little moved when he heard it, and looked up at the sky like him, as if he was remembering something, and said after a while:
"According to what you say, I can't tell whether I am lucky or unlucky for a while."

He paused and said, "...I'm a bastard."

Both Xie Yuan and Shen Liuzhen looked a little unnatural, Xie Yuan hesitated and said, "...Isn't that what those people scolded you that day? Why do you say that about yourself?"

"...It's a curse word, but it's also true. My mother is from Beiyi, and her parents were Hu people who moved south following the policies of the Jin Dynasty. According to her, the Central Plains is rich, and the Hu people who migrated from the north at that time Most of the people are slaves to the Han people, so the Hu people are inherently inferior in the eyes of the Han people.

Intermarriage between Han people and Hu people is almost impossible, although there is no law prohibiting it.The best treatment for a Hu woman is to be a dancer or concubine to a Han man. "

As he spoke, a proud smile appeared on his face, and he recalled:
"But my father and my mother really love each other. I heard from my mother that my father is a very kind-hearted person. He doesn't treat others differently because they are barbarians. He treats everyone equally politely.

One day, my mother and my grandfather pulled a cart of black charcoal. When walking on the road, the cart overturned and lost half of it.At that time, the pedestrians on the street didn't know whether they disliked the dirty charcoal or the humbleness of the barbarians, but no one helped.Only my father, passing by, righted the half-turned car and helped pick up the scattered charcoal.

He left after picking it up, but my mother remembered him. Whenever she was free, she would stand by the side of the street and wait for that day, hoping to see if she could run into him again.

Later, after making her wait for a year, she finally saw him walking down the street that day again.My mother said that she was so excited that she was dumbfounded, and her heart was beating so hard that she couldn't breathe, so she just stood there and stared at my dad stupidly.My father looked inexplicably.

So my dad walked over and asked her with a smile, what are you doing looking at me like that?
My mother waited for a long time, and naturally thought about it countless times in her heart, if we meet again, what should I say.I've thought about it a lot, but I just say a word, thank you for helping us lift the car and pick up the charcoal that day, you are so kind.

But she was dumbfounded with excitement at that time, for fear that he would leave and never see him again next time.

For some reason, I blurted out, Mr. Lang, I have been waiting for you for a year.

...My father was stunned at the time. "

Xie Yuan and Shen Liuzhen listened, unconsciously smiling, Xie Yuan said with a smile:
"Your mother still tells you this? It's good. My parents never told me about the things between them, but maybe there is nothing to talk about. They were ordered by their parents and married by a matchmaker. I haven't met before, not as good as your parents... um..."

Her eyeballs turned to one side, but she just couldn't think of any good adjectives.

Shen Liuzhen accepted the words with a smile, and said, "...so warm."

"Yes, yes, yes... Xie Yuan quickly agreed, and turned his head to give Shen Liuzhen a rather fond smile.

Shen Liuzhen suddenly felt a little embarrassed: A Yuan often disliked him more, and this was the first time that he looked up to him because of his advantages.

He was secretly happy here, but Xie Yuan's mind and eyes had already returned to Guan Yifei, and asked:
"and after?"

Guan Yifei smiled wryly, and said: "Then it was natural to get married. My father had no father or mother at that time. Fortunately, he didn't have to worry about filial piety. He just married my mother against the eyes of the world.

In fact, when my father was alive, they never told me about the things between them, but later, when my father died, she often thought about him, so she always told me these things..."

Speaking of this, Guan Yifei had a nostalgic smile on his face, and tears flickered in his eyes:
"When she told me about him, she always had a smile on her face, and she told me how good my father was over and over again, how they looked when they first met, and how she felt when she waited for that year. Tell me how handsome my father was when he walked towards her..."

When tears were about to burst out of his eyes, Guan Yifei sucked his nose and swallowed all the tears in his eyes.Then he lowered his head, concealed the sadness on his face, picked up a stone, and began to draw on the ground, saying while drawing:

"Hey, it's a pity that good people are not rewarded. Later, it seems that a barbarian general rebelled against the Han people, and started fighting and killing people everywhere. Barbarian people kill Han people, and Han people kill barbarian people. It's like fire and water are incompatible.

One of my parents is Han and the other is Hu.Usually, I get the supercilious looks from both sides of Hu Han.When a war breaks out, there will be no way out.

When the barbarians attacked the city, they used horses to drag my father to death in front of my mother.When the Han people came back, they vented their anger and killed my mother... At that time, I was young and my face was painted, so I couldn't tell which side I was from, so I escaped by chance. "

Xie Yuan frowned, and suddenly felt a tingle in his eyelids...

Although Guan Yifei said the ending in such plain words, it was hard to accept.

Obviously the moment before was so warm and beautiful, why is it like this?

Shen Liuzhen was also shocked... He had seen this period of history in history books, and it was an extremely tragic period of history.However, no matter how tragic the words in the history books describe, he also felt that it was far away, and he didn't have any real feeling.

Even after seeing the waves that didn't cause him any disturbance, he left them behind.

But now after listening to Guan Yifei's words, I realize...

The so-called "casualties are more than a million"... Those who died were all living people with stories, families...

In particular, Guan Yifei's parents are kind and ordinary people, but they died in the long-standing hatred between the Hu and Han clans...

It shouldn't be.

Guan Yifei turned his face away, seeing their pained and shocked expressions, suddenly smiled and said:

"You two are good. You didn't bully me because of my looks. You are a kind-hearted Han Chinese like my father. There are not many people like this."

He paused, then said:
"In fact, sometimes I also resent them. If only they were all Han or Hu people, I don't have to bear the identity of a bastard and get looked down upon everywhere, so that Hu people and Han people don't want to see me. In that case, They might still be alive..."

Shen Liuzhen knew that when the two sides fought back and forth, so many people were killed and injured, and no one on either side would feel better...

Thinking of this, he looked up to the north... For the first time, he had a different feeling about the war—some disgusting feeling.

(End of this chapter)