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Chapter 63 What are you worried about?
The life-and-death crisis of the Xie family is gone for the time being, but no one is taking it easy.

Xie Yun blamed himself and worried because he didn't protect Shen Liuzhen and left him behind.Shen Liuzhen was uneasy because of his fate of going to the Wei Palace alone.

Mrs. Xie was anxious because Xie Yuan had heard those obscenities, so she pulled Xie Yuan to speak bad things about Hu Ji. She was despised by others because of her low status and low moral character.Even if you hear something from her, you can't take it to your heart. That kind of woman will dirty people's eyes when they see it.

It seems that he is trying his best to erase Xie Yuan's memory of today.

Xie Yuan listened expressionlessly. At such a young age, his heart was ashamed and his mind was lost.

How could she forget what happened today?Have you forgotten that your long-standing goal and long-standing ambition are all a joke, a vain thing?

"A Yuan, did you hear what mother told you?" Mrs. Xie couldn't understand what she was thinking, so she became more worried, only thinking that her good child was ruined by an orchid's words, so she finally Couldn't help urging her.

Xie Yuan didn't come to his senses completely, but just glanced at her sleepily, and replied:
"I heard mother."

Mrs. Xie observed her expression and fell silent for a while.Asked again:

"What did you hear?"

"Hu Ji is a bad woman. Her words are obscene and cannot be listened to." Xie Yuan answered obediently with his eyes lowered.

Mrs. Xie breathed a sigh of relief and was relieved.

Turning to other things:

"A Yuan, you are not young anymore. You are going to get married in the future. Although you and Liu Zhen have grown up and have a good relationship. But when the child is a child, it will be different when you grow up and get married. Which man? I don't like marrying a gentle and considerate woman. You should change your temper and behavior. After all, getting married is the biggest event in a woman's life. Whether you live well or not depends entirely on whether the husband and wife are harmonious..."

Xie Yuan frowned, and the regretful and meaningful smile of the red-clothed orchid appeared in front of her eyes again, and she said:

"Girls are born like this, they are too fierce, they won't please men..."

It was not good to be born like this, and Mother also said that it was not good to be born like this.

So what is good?Gentle?
That orchid in red is obviously gentler than anyone else. She always smiles when she speaks. She doesn't even seem angry when she is angry. She looks coquettish. When her eyebrows move, she always speculates about people's expressions, as if she is ready to go at any time. Like to please.

Such a gentle and considerate woman, but Ke Niang repeatedly emphasized that her character is inferior, and she is the most despised.

Xie Yuan frowned, and felt a deeper disgust for the identity of a woman in his heart.

It's so hard to be a woman, what's the point?

She wanted to be a man, and when she was a man, no one would say that she had a bad birth.

...But she can't be, she is born with one thing missing.

Thinking of this, Xie Yuan felt deep despair and couldn't cheer up.

"... From tomorrow onwards, you will start wearing skirts, you know? Wearing skirts will make it difficult for you to run and jump, and it will also suppress your restless temperament. After a long time, you will get used to it." Mrs. Xie was still saying, Turning his head, Xie Yuan let out a listless "hmm" with lowered eyebrows.

She has always been lively and energetic, when did she ever look like this.

So Mrs. Xie felt a little distressed in her heart, touched her head, and said guiltily:

"My A Yuan is scared, isn't she?"

Xie Yuan sat beside her with his eyes downcast, not saying a word.

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11-year-old Xie Yuan obediently changed into women's clothes for the first time in my memory, threw away her saber, and was as dull as if she had lost her soul. Let her eat, let her eat, and let her do what she does.

But there were so many things for her to do, so she spent most of her time sitting under the corridor, looking at the sky and the eaves in a daze, wondering what she was thinking.

Shen Liuzhen is leaving tomorrow, he doesn't know what will happen in the future, the teacher has no choice but to tell him to have a sense of monarch and subject, to be vigilant and respectful at all times, and not to stab the heart of the superior and lose his own life .

Others, the teacher can do nothing.

Shen Liuzhen was very scared in his heart. At night, he kept dreaming about various ways of death... Died in front of the two armies, under the horseshoes of the rebellious army, died on the arrows shot by, and died under the sword of the Emperor Wei. , or die in the hands of the emperor's grandson who is about the same age as him and has not met yet.

He was very scared, and naturally thought of Xie Yuan.But Xie Yuan seemed to be a different person.

"A Yuan, why are you suddenly willing to be a girl?" Shen Liuzhen asked curiously when she saw her leaning on the railing, wearing a brightly colored dress with a different kind of cool beauty.

But she ignored him.

Shen Liuzhen followed her gaze to the empty swallow's nest on the eaves, and thought of the time when Xie Yuan brought him here before dawn, so he came here to watch the chirping young swallows.

I still remember that she was holding the fallen chick carefully with both hands at that time, I remember the scene where she climbed up to the roof handsomely, and seeing her so quiet now, I suddenly felt a little uncomfortable.

So he sat down next to her and asked, "What's wrong with you? Is it because you are worried about me?"

When Xie Yuan heard about it, he finally turned his head to look at Shen Liuzhen, and said very coldly:

"What are you worried about?"

Shen Liuzhen frowned anxiously, and said, "I'm leaving. From now on, I don't know how long I can live alone, and my father is still fighting with them."

In Xie Yuan's cold tone, with jealousy and unwillingness, he said:
"Didn't you say in the past that you wanted to read a lot of books and become a celebrity who will last forever? Now that the opportunity comes to your door, there is nothing to be afraid of....It's ridiculous that I don't even have the opportunity to be an official. Why should I worry about you?"

I don't know why, as soon as Xie Yuan's words came out, the fear in Shen Liuzhen's heart disappeared inexplicably, and a sentence emerged from his mind instead:

"Heaven will send a great mission to the people of Sri Lanka, and they must first suffer from their will, exhaust their muscles and bones, starve their skin and skin, empty their bodies, and disturb their actions."

Since he is on the way to fulfill his ambition, what is there to be afraid of some dangers and difficulties?
Shen Liuzhen was instantly happy, turned his head to look at Xie Yuan who was still depressed, thought for a while and said:
"You can be an official if you want. I think you can be a general."

Xie Yuan's face was pale, his eyes were dull, and he had serious self-loathing, he gritted his teeth and said:

"I'm a girl, and I have no chance in my life."

"Didn't you say that you want to be a man and prove it to everyone? People said you were a girl before, and you never compromised. What's going on now?" Shen Liuzhen was very confused.

Xie Yuan turned his head to look at Shen Liuzhen.

(End of this chapter)