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Chapter 993 Extra Story [-]: Lingxiu
Lingxiu has a younger sister named Yuxiu.

The two of them were sold into the Liu family's manor together.At that time, the two of them were seven years old and the other four years old. They were not called Lingxiu and Yuxiu before, but were given by the head of the Liu family.

Lingxiu no longer remembers what her parents looked like, nor what she and her sister were called. She only remembers that she was always hungry and cold, and that the world in the past was full of grayness.

Although this kind of memory is vague, it is very deep, as if engraved in the stock.

So when they entered the Liu's Manor, they felt very happy, and they were very grateful to the Liu's family, thinking that they saved themselves.

I heard that if they were upset, she would still be sold out. She was very afraid of being rejected and sold out, so she was very obedient, and she also taught her younger sister Yuxiu to be obedient, so that she could always have food and clothing.

Even if you have to grab food, it is much better than before.

She can grab it, can't she, she can even grab one for her younger sister, the food is right in front of her eyes, as long as she works hard enough.

It's better than being outside, where you can't even see a shadow of food.

Before the age of 16, they only met the head of the Liu family once.It was the day they bought it, the day they washed up and put on new clothes, they stood neatly in the yard, there were more than 30 children in total, and the oldest was no more than nine years old.

The master looked at their faces next to each other, nodded with satisfaction and left.

After she was 16 years old, she was called to perform at a banquet for the first time, and met the owner of the Liu Family Manor. At that time, there were many people at the banquet, and everyone was full of praise for her.

She was happy, felt safe, and finally didn't have to worry about being kicked out.

Then, the owner of the Liu family pointed to a table of food at the banquet, pointed to a 50-year-old man, and said:

"Serve this lord well, and do whatever you are asked to do. The dishes on this table are all yours."

It was leftovers from a feast.Although it was leftovers, those well-clothed and well-fed people didn't know they were hungry, and only moved less than half of it.

Lingxiu looked at the ruddy meat on the table, smelled the tempting aroma in her nose, and her eyes were shining, she swallowed her saliva and agreed.

At that time, she didn't understand anything, and her mind was full of the meat that was about to be eaten.Because of thinking about the meat, he was unusually obedient and didn't feel sad.

Because she didn't know what she lost at all.All I know is that the leftovers from that banquet are really delicious.

She even felt that she was rewarded for being obedient, and she was very happy.

She was hungry, hungry in her bones.

There were a few more such banquets. Once she stood in front of the guests, she heard the guests say regretfully to the master of the Liu family:
"The dancing skills and figure are really good, but the appearance is a little worse. It would be great if I could press her younger sister's appearance on her body."

"Hey, who's to say it's not! Yuxiu is growing gradually now, and the facial features, eyebrows and eyes, plus the childish flesh on that small face, don't mention how painful it is. It's a pity, not smart enough , there is no talent that can be used."

The guest said with a smile:

"If you're not smart enough, you can keep it for yourself. Give this away, and it's good to keep the good-looking ones for yourself?"

Upon hearing this, the master of the Liu family showed the same wretched smile, and said in agreement:
"That's true."

Lingxiu, who was listening on the sidelines, was shocked.She did not understand at the time the meaning of their words.

All she knew was that she was not beautiful enough, so she was about to be sold, and continued to live the days of hunger and cold.And her younger sister, Yuxiu, whom she has been taking care of, is about to be kept because she is prettier than her.

"Sister, push me." Yuxiu sat on the swing and said to her with an innocent smile.

Yuxiu is really good-looking, even she feels her heart beat when she smiles.

Lingxiu felt that she had been betrayed, and she was mad with hatred in her heart. Her outstretched hand moved from the rope of the swing to her back, and suddenly pushed her to the ground.

Yuxiu fell to the ground clumsily, her nose was cut and bled, she covered her mouth and cried miserably, not understanding why her sister was like this.

Lingxiu looked at her so coldly and said:
"Why don't you die?"

Later, she really died.

When Yuxiu was carried out covered with torn clothes, Lingxiu was in a daze, unable to believe it was real.

She jerked off the clothes covering her head and face, and saw that her childish face turned gray, and her naked body was covered with scars.

She was really dead, and no one threatened her chance to stay in Liu's house anymore, but she was not happy at all.

Not happy at all.

"At such a young age, you are so charming. You deserve to be played to death. I heard that there were many people that day..."

The women who lived in the same yard with them and robbed buns every day said so, gloating in their tone.

It turned out that they hated Yuxiu as much as she did.

It turns out that beauty is not necessarily a gift, it can be a curse.

The only difference is that they are very happy because of Yuxiu's death.

Lingxiu couldn't be happy, ever since her younger sister Yuxiu died, that scene often appeared in her mind:
That day Yuxiu was sitting on the swing, turned her head and smiled and asked her to push her... Yuxiu was pushed down by her, and she fell to the ground clumsily, clutching her bleeding nose, watching her cry in aggrieved panic.

For some reason, since then, the hunger in her bones has been cured suddenly.

The Liu family put the best food in front of her, as long as she thought of Yuxiu in her mind, she would be full...

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Later, when she avenged herself and stepped over the corpses of those people in Liu's Manor, it was a lie that she didn't panic.

She didn't know where to go, how to live in the future, and even felt that she was going to die soon.

Especially when those people went back and forth, she almost thought that she would die in the same way as Yuxiu.

At this time, Xie Yuan appeared.

When she met Xie Yuan's eyes for the first time, she knew that she was different from the men she knew, and she felt that she had a place to go.

But at the same time, she is no longer the child who didn't understand anything, and she will never be grateful to others just because of a meal.

She knows that there is no free charity in the world, if there is, it must be something coveted from her.

She thought that the pity in Xie Yuan's eyes needed a woman.So try your best to seduce her.

But when she knew that Xie Yuan was a girl, she was stunned for a moment.

Yes, no one in the world will be nice to her for no reason, there must be a plan.But if you don't ask for it, it means you don't need her.

She has nowhere to go anymore, she needs to stay by Xie Yuan's side.

The hungry, cold, and gray world in her memory still made her feel terrified.

Before avenging Yuxiu and herself, she didn't think much about the consequences, but after she avenged herself, that fear seemed to return...

She must make Xie Yuan need her, but she doesn't know how to make a woman like Xie Yuan need her.

Since she was a child, she has been trained to please men.

She could have turned to please Shen Liuzhen.But whenever she met Shen Liuzhen's eyes, she would feel a chill from the bottom of her heart.

She needs Xie Yuan, and only Xie Yuan is what she needs.

But Xie Yuan doesn't need her.

It made her panic.Fear of being abandoned, banished into that hungry and cold world.

After all, she was left alone now, and there was no sister who accompanied her to suffer from cold and starvation.

She knew that her eating habits were ugly, and the way she clung to Xie Yuan smugly was annoying, but she couldn't control it.

At that time, she would often think of the days when she was grabbing buns with other girls in Liu's Manor.

She hated herself for being so stupid, so humble, living like a dog, and she couldn't bear to give up the good life she gained.

She wanted dignity on the one hand, and food on the other.But she was destined to choose only one.

Shen Liuzhen was right, she wanted too much.

So, she chose to give up her dignity and choose food.If you just need a meal of buns, then you don't have to work hard to win Xie Yuan's attention.

Because she knew that when Xie Yuan saved her, he didn't mean to plot against her, but just saved her.There is still free charity in the world.

Although Xie Yuan didn't need her, she would still provide a full meal and a warm house.

But later, when she was squatting on the ground grabbing something to eat in the courtyard of Shiyu Caizhuang in full view of everyone, she finally found that... food could not satisfy her inner hunger.She needs dignity more than food.

Dignity means no longer being used at will, no longer being despised by others.

So she chose to be in full view of everyone, even the face of the Emperor Wei, and stabbed down with a hairpin, killing the person who wanted to use her.

At that moment, she felt that it was not just one person who stabbed her, but all the nobles who bullied her and looked down on her, and the nightmare of hunger and cold that had been controlling her all this time...

That feeling is so refreshing.

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"You said, it's really strange. When I choose to be dignified, there is food. Why?"

Lingxiu leaned on the couch, and asked with the confusion of memories in her eyes.

She is now helping Zhang Qing run a brothel song shop, and has become a procuress who can dance freely without being wronged to accompany customers.Secretly, of course, he also helped Zhang Qing collect official information and find out secrets.

Zhang Qing looked at her and smiled, and replied:
"Because there are many people who want food, but few people who want dignity. As the saying goes, rare things are more expensive. A girl has gained her dignity with her integrity. Zhang is willing to treat her a little bit better."

Zhang Qing put down his wine glass and added another sentence, "Of course, there are also entrustments from Xie Yuan and Shen Liuzhen. Tell me... is Xie Yuan doing well there?"

Lingxiu sneered, mocking Zhang Qing's worry, and said:

"Of course it goes well. With the disaster of Shen Liuzhen, General Xie can't suffer. He can't even stand me using General Xie as a shield."

Zhang Qing was silent for a moment, then sighed and said:

"...It is estimated that with Shen Liuzhen helping her, she should not be as difficult as before. You are too, why do you have to use the person he puts on top of his heart as a shield? Xie Yuan doesn't care, he certainly doesn't So magnanimous, you almost lost your life..."

Lingxiu turned her eyes and said disdainfully:
"That's my choice. If I don't want to, I will go back when General Xie comes to pick me up. What can he do with me?"

Zhang Qing touched his nose, hesitated for a moment and said:
"That's not necessarily... If you really followed back that day, and then used Xie Yuan as a shield..."

Lingxiu let out a sigh of relief, her eyes flashed with memories, and said with emotion:
"I know, I know...I know now. No matter how pitiful the weak are, it would be hateful to do something to block others. What's more, General Xie is his beloved..."

(End of this chapter)