under the spotlight

Chapter 151 My Teacher
Tonight, there is no contemporaneous work that requires overtime listening, and no manuscripts that need to be rushed out, so I feel relaxed.

Lu Beicen took a bath and finished watching a documentary. It was still early and he could still read books. He remembered the books he bought at the bookstore last time, but he didn't have time to read them. Instead, he bought those copybooks for Jiang Zhongze. When he was at home, he would He often came to her house to occupy her desk and write there. He said that he could ask her for advice at any time.

The idiom copybook has been written for less than half. Lu Beicen remembered how he was when he was writing. He was focused and serious. It was obviously a very boring thing, but it was pleasing to the eye.

I opened it casually, and three autumns a day came into view. There was only a simple explanation on the copybook, which said it was used to describe the relationship very well. We only parted for one day, as if we hadn't seen each other for a long time.

After Jiang Zhongze finished writing this part, he asked Lu Beicen to tell him the source of this idiom. He already knew that the so-called idiom must have a source or source, and he would definitely ask for an explanation when he met someone who was interested.

Not all of Lu Beicen’s idioms can clearly explain the origin or source, but the word is still known, from "The Book of Songs. If you pick Xiao Xiao, if you don’t see them for a day, it’s like three autumns; when you pick wormwood, if you don’t see them for a day, it’s like three years old.”

Lu Beicen recited this paragraph, and then smiled and said: "Ge, Xiao, and Ai are all a kind of weeds, and the rest should not be difficult to understand. Love, this article is supposed to express a man's longing for a woman, but now this word is not limited to relationship, but to whether the relationship is deep or not, it can be used between lovers, friends, and relatives... ..."

"Then why did it end up being three autumns a day instead of three years a day or three months a day?"

"Autumn itself contains a certain emotional color. When it is used in missing, it always has the meaning of parting. If it is used in other places, it also means some other emotional color, such as Chunhua Qiushi, you can feel it. The golden sense of harvest, and if you put these three words together and think about it, is it better, more beautiful, and more in line with this context? So, Chinese characters are very beautiful. Sometimes a simple word can be Contains a lot of emotional color..."

At that time, Jiang Zhongze just looked at her talking, his eyes were focused and serious, and seemed to have some other different colors. Lu Beicen had never been a teacher, so I don't know if it was when students looked at the teacher, they would burst out I just felt that I was getting a little hot all over. Fortunately, the word is very simple and the poem is easy to memorize. I can probably remember it just by looking at it.

Of course, Lu Beicen also remembered the words that Jiang Zhongze said with a faint gaze at that time: "Such inseparable feelings, I really want to experience it."

Lu Beicen also remembered that he laughed at that time, and remembered a sentence he had read in some book, so he asked him: "I read a book that said that people may be young when they are young. Such a primitive, pure and passionate love can be produced, but when it is really a little mature, for example, after the age of thirteen or fourteen, it will become socialized, and it is difficult to produce such a deep and lingering love..."

Jiang Zhongze looked at her saying this, and smiled without saying a word, as if he meant something, and immediately asked in a leisurely manner: "You mean, I am already old, or we are all old, it is impossible Have you ever experienced such pure emotion again?"

"Uh..." Lu Beicen was like a teacher or parent who was poorly asked why by a hundred thousand people, so he could only choose to change the subject: "You should continue to write, today's homework is not finished yet."

In fact, Lu Beicen really didn't know how to answer this question, but she definitely knew that she no longer had the courage to jump into the flames. Last time, when she faced her heartbeat, her heart was not peaceful.

In the big environment, Lu Beicen was actually under a lot of pressure and was very entangled in the past, but he chose to ignore all external situations and pretend that he was an ignorant novice. The most reckless thing he did, but it ended in such a mess.

Lu Beicen has never been a pure and confident person. She has always struggled between inferiority complex and self-confidence in her heart. Using excellent grades and [-]% hard work to overcome the deepest inferiority complex in her heart is actually what she has been doing all the time.

Lu Beicen really doesn't believe in love for no reason, or a person like her who grew up tremblingly, who is always examining herself, finds it hard to believe that anything in this world will happen for no reason, those so-called love I don't know where it started, and it went deeper and deeper. In her opinion, they are all beautiful literary works. In real life, it is almost impossible to exist.

Lu Beicen remembered that a professor once told a few love stories of masters. The students of the Chinese Department were more or less romantic in their bones. At that time, everyone looked yearning and full of envy.

But not long after, the love stories of every master told by the professor turned into the scene of a large-scale car accident. The students solved the mystery one by one, just like solving a case. The life stories of the masters often have biographies. They are all assembled or disassembled. What's more, they are in two parallel combinations, each of which is right, and then reassembled. Some of them don't even conform to the three views of normal people.

Later in class, some students took these and asked the professor again. The professor said that we must not lose our yearning for love, life, and beautiful things.Even if the beginning, process or ending is not beautiful, it cannot be denied that at a certain moment, they really love each other.

As one of the most silent students, although Lu Beicen didn't say a word, what he thought in his heart was whether they really had that moment, or what kind of moment that moment was, not to mention the people today who are dozens or hundreds of years later. , it was themselves at the time, maybe they couldn't figure it out.

Thinking back to when I was studying in the past, it seemed that it was only two or three years ago, but it was as long as many years, and I felt like a world away.

Lu Beicen shook his head somewhat self-deprecatingly, probably life is like a roller coaster, especially in the recent period, every incident and every interviewee has a life story with ups and downs, and most of them are tragedies end.

From the perspective of a bystander, I would think that if he (she) hadn't done this or that, maybe he (she) would not have ended like this.However, in their own lives, every person who has experienced it has gradually come to the present state ignorantly, so all the thoughts at the beginning have become a joke. Isn't everyone because of their own unique thinking structure that they will Are you living your life the way you are?

Sighing, Lu Beicen decided to put away his messy thoughts, picked up the phone, and dialed Ah Hao.

"Drip...drip...drip"

The other side answered the phone, but another mellow male voice came out: "Aren't you busy today? Remember to call?"

Lu Beicen blinked, why did he hear a trace of sadness from inside?That person is Jiang Zhongze. No matter what he said, it sounded a little ambiguous, and reminded her of those poems about complaining women for no reason.

Shaking his head, Lu Beicen smiled and said: "It seems that you are busier, Ah Hao hasn't even called me, what about others? Don't you drink too much?"

Jiang Zhongze glanced at Ah Hao who was sleeping with a baby-like smile, and shook his shoulders, as if he wanted to disperse the sweat all over his body. He helped a drunk young man back to the room by himself. certain.The matter of drinking at dinner parties is actually quite a headache, but some dinner parties have to go, and he can take care of it all the time when he goes, so Ah Hao naturally becomes the focus of firepower.

"Well, I'm already asleep." Jiang Zhongze couldn't find any better excuse for a while, so he could only answer truthfully.

Lu Beicen was very puzzled: "Isn't your current situation logically the state of Party A? How to eat food and drink wine should be what you say. How can you drink like this? "

"You're right. I'll educate him tomorrow, and I won't drink it in the future. I'm careless today." Jiang Zhongze had a good attitude, but when he finally got the call, he definitely didn't want to just discuss this matter, so he quickly found a topic: " Have you been on a business trip for the past few days?"

Although Lu Beicen felt that something was wrong, but thinking about it, he was not his younger brother, so he couldn't say much, so he could only answer casually: "No, I'm shooting a show in the city."

"What program did you film, is there anything special?"

"It must be something special that can be made into a program, but are you sure you will be interested in these things?"

"You will find something special, of course I am interested."

Lu Beicen thought for a while, and asked Jiang Zhongze the question he originally wanted to ask the psychologist who often recorded programs for the TV station: "I met a girl today, because she witnessed her mother's accidental death, she was very natural. She made a mess of her good life, and I feel that she is a little bit nervous, and she is very stubborn. I really want her to see a psychiatrist, but I don’t know how to say it. , do you think she has post-traumatic stress disorder?"

"PTSD? Can you explain the situation in a little more detail?" Jiang Zhongze took out a clean towel from the bathroom and wiped off the sweat he hadn't taken away.

Lu Beicen briefly talked about Zhu Wenya's situation, and Jiang Zhongze thought about it before saying, "Although I have read a few books on this topic, they are not very professional, and I personally feel that her current condition should be fine. "

"There are at least two things that have diverted her attention. One is the transfer of self-blame. She will change from blaming herself to blaming her ex-husband. It is also a disguised emotional outlet. The other is the accountability of that woman, although She is a bit stubborn, but if she does not have this obsession to support her, the situation may be even worse."

"But my personal suggestion is that no matter whether you find this woman or not, you should let her see a psychiatrist. If you don't find it for a longer time, your mentality will easily collapse. If you find it, this matter is over, and it may also be her psychological problem. A period of turbulence in the world, that is, once a person suddenly completes a thing that he has been obsessed with for a long time, he will feel a sense of emptiness after being excited. I say this, can you understand? I said it very unprofessionally, but I still think there is necessary."

From Lu Beicen's point of view, Zhu Wenya's psychological problems were hidden worries, but she also thought about it a lot at the time. After all, the first time the two of them met, although it was a private matter for Zhu Wenya, it was a matter for Lu Beicen. It is obviously unwise to pay too much attention to the personal affairs of the interviewee.

In the past, when making a show, psychologists may be introduced to comment, mostly because it involves the motive of committing the crime and the psychological changes of the parties involved, but in this case, it seems a bit inappropriate to introduce psychologists to comment, because her The marital issue has become a digression in this case, more like privacy, and it may have a certain impact on her life, so Lu Beicen is very hesitant.

Hearing what Jiang Zhongze said now, Lu Beicen's heart still sank, and he was silent for a while before saying: "I don't seem to know what to do, after all, she made her life so bad, doesn't she feel that?" Yes, if I don't say it, I will appear very cold-blooded, if I say it, I don't know if it will be suspected of over-intervention..."

Jiang Zhongze didn't understand: "Your interviewee should be young and well-educated, right?"

"Well, it's about the same age as me, and she also graduated from W University." Lu Beicen replied.

"It shouldn't be difficult to understand the saying that everyone has more or less psychological problems, and her life has undergone major changes. Seeing a psychiatrist will be of great help to me."

"But our social environment is still relatively backward. When I heard about seeing a psychiatrist, it seemed like I had some mental problem. I haven't talked to her about this problem, so I don't know what she will think."

Jiang Zhongze's mind was spinning quickly, and he started to make another move: "If you feel uncomfortable, you can take some roundabout ways. I remember watching your program before. You should have a cooperative psychologist. During the interview, we will chat together. Talking, isn't it also a way?"

Lu Beicen's eyes lit up: "This seems to be a solution, but I have to find a psychologist who is enthusiastic about public welfare."

Jiang Zhongze imagined the way Lu Beicen's eyes were shining, he couldn't help laughing, and casually changed the topic to other places: "Are you eating at home these days? Have you finished eating everything in the refrigerator? Freezer There's a chicken in it that's been cleaned, do you see that?"

Lu Beicen laughed a little: "Why do you know more about my refrigerator than I do?"

"This is the self-consciousness that Cengfan people should have. Your teacher taught you so well. I have a deep memory and practice it."

"It doesn't seem appropriate to use it personally here!"

"Then what should I use?"

"..."

(End of this chapter)