After the hero goes crazy

Chapter 273 Change of Mindset
Liu Shi first heard Yao Shouning say that it was not the first time for her and Shizi to go out, and she even felt a little funny in her heart: it seems that this mother is really negligent.

Recently, there are a lot of facts at home, and Liu's own soul has also suffered a lot.

Zhenmasi's visit, Liu Bingzhou's arrival, being blinded by evil spirits, Yao Wanning's brand of evil spirits, Su Miaozhen being possessed by monsters, etc., made her mentally exhausted and she had no time to take care of her little daughter.

It wasn't until Yao Shouning personally said that she and the eldest son went out of the city twice in the middle of the night that Liu Shi realized how much she had neglected her little daughter - she didn't even notice that her daughter left home at night.

If Zhenmensi hadn't come to the door with great fanfare this time, she might not have noticed.

"I thought I had done my duty, but it turns out that I still haven't done it properly." She turned her head to look at her husband and said with a smile.

But as soon as the words fell, the tears gushed out unprepared.

She even belatedly realized that Yao Shouning's going out was not only due to her negligence of duty, but what was even more frightening was that she went to Daiwang's underground palace, not to mention digging up the royal family's ancestral tomb, and encountered evil spirits!

"you……"

Liu's tears were drawn away, and she didn't know where to start for a while.

"How dare you do this, how dare you do such a thing!"

Yao Shouning bit his lower lip as she repeated these two sentences back and forth.

"I'm because—"

"You dared to break into the imperial mausoleum at night. You never thought about it. If someone finds out about this matter, it will be a disaster for everyone!"

This daughter has been eccentric since she was a child, and she is not a docile and obedient boudoir girl, but Liu Shi never dreamed that she would do such a thing.

"Even if the matter is unknown, but you also said that there are evil spirits in the underground palace of Daiwang—"

The more Liu spoke, the angrier she became, and her voice gradually became louder.

When Yao Shouning talked about encountering a demon, he said it in a few words.

She didn't witness the snake monster in Dai Wang's underground palace with her own eyes, but she saw the shadow of the monster snake emerging from Su Miaozhen's body that day, it was enough to scare people to death.

In the middle of the night, this pair of young people, ignorant and fearless, rushed in. When they met the snake demon, Yao Shouning was able to save his life, and Liu felt that he was lucky!
"You, you, you are trying to piss me off!" She gasped, feeling as if someone was tightening her heart, angry, anxious and worried:
"Have you ever thought that if something happened to you in Dai Wang's underground palace that day, it would be called heaven and earth!"

Liu Shi rebuked:

"If something happens to you, what should I do with your father, your elder brother, and your sister in the future!"

Yao Hui silently patted his wife on the back, feeling confused for a moment, not knowing where to start.

Everyone dared not speak out, Yao Ruoyun and Su Qingchun also stared wide-eyed.

Only Yao Wanning lowered her head and fiddled with the corner of her clothes. After a long time, when she slowly raised her head, there were tears in her eyes.

Yao Shouning's eyes were red from being reprimanded.

"Shou Ning." At this moment, Liu Bingzhou suddenly spoke and called her.

"Grandfather." Yao Shouning answered obediently, and Liu Bingzhou said softly:

"There must be a reason for you to go to the imperial mausoleum. Tell your mother about it."

"Father!" Liu yelled anxiously, feeling that her father seemed to be pampering the child.

She has an irritable temperament, and she speaks so fast that people can't even put their mouths in. At this time, her anger is rising again, and she can't help but complain:
"How do you say such a thing? No matter what the reason is, the imperial tomb should not be the place for her to go!"

Saying this, Liu couldn't help but think of when she was young, since she lost her mother, her sister took on the role of mother, and her father was a great Confucian, who only knew how to read and write every day, so he didn't pay more attention to the two children. In the end, after the two daughters became adults, they intervened in the marriage of the two daughters.

When she thought of this, old and new hatred suddenly rushed into her heart:
"You don't know how to raise children, so don't make trouble here!"

"Zhiyu!" Yao Hui yelled loudly, and immediately woke up Liu Shi.

She recovered, realized that she had said the wrong thing, and looked at her father again.

Several juniors in the family did not dare to say anything, Liu Bingzhou was silent for a while, and finally smiled freely, nodded and admitted:

"I'm not as careful as you in raising children and taking care of food, clothing, housing and transportation."

Logically speaking, since the mother passed away, the father and daughter should have been the closest people in the world, but over the years, the two have been separated, so that the two who should be related by blood have nothing to say for many years .

Liu Bingzhou's voice was as elegant and gentle as ever, but Liu raised her head to look at her father, only to find that he was much older than she thought.

Because he got up in the middle of the night, his hair was only half tied in a bun and half hanging behind him, and it was already gray.

His face didn't look old, but his eyes showed a clear and tolerant look. When he looked at his daughter who was nearly forty years old, it seemed that he was looking at a vexatious child.

Such eyes made Liu Shi a little awkward and strange, but the trace of resentment and hatred in his heart quietly disappeared under his father's gaze.

"You have a strong temperament, and you have the posture of your grandmother back then. When your mother passed away, you took good care of the inside and outside of the house, and took care of your younger sister. There was no mistake."

"..." Mrs. Liu felt a sense of grievance and sadness when she heard her father's praise.

"But Zhiyu," Liu Bingzhou sighed:
"Your character is too urgent and too strong."

Impatience and strength are her characteristics.

She is too responsible and can take care of the family in an orderly manner, but at the same time she has a strong desire to control. Many times, she imposes her will on others.

"As it is with your sister, so it is with your daughter."

Liu Bingzhou sighed, seeing Liu Shi raised his head, showing a puzzled expression.

"Sometimes taking care of children is not only about taking care of their food and drink, but also asking them what's on their minds."

Her personality enables her to bring up her younger sister single-handedly when she was young, and allows her to take good care of the whole family after she gets married and when Yao Hui is busy with official duties, but she only pays attention to making the children Neither cold nor hungry, but she never thought about paying attention to the thoughts of the people she cared about—maybe in Liu’s view, these are not so important, and she will definitely make proper arrangements for the children under her wing. Appropriate.

"I--"

Liu Shi vaguely understood what her father meant, but she felt a little dissatisfied.

Just when he was about to speak, Liu Bingzhou raised his hand:
"Do you think that even if you don't know what they think, I don't know, so you shouldn't say that?"

"Yes!" Liu nodded heavily:
"Father said that is unfair to me. You insisted on going your own way back then and caused Zhizhu to marry far away. You have seen the result now. Am I wrong?"

"..."

Yao Shouning could hear clearly from the side, but he didn't dare to make a sound.

She also didn't know why she came back late today and made Liu Shi angry, but in the end it was her mother who quarreled with her grandfather.

She secretly went to see Yao Hui, but her father winked at her and shook his head.

The father and daughter have had a heart knot for many years, especially the death of Xiao Liushi, which made the knot even tighter, and they must find a chance to untie it.

"Whether you are wrong or not, I don't know."

Liu Bingzhou said calmly:

"But Qingchun is here, and Zhizhu is his mother. Whether she has lived well these years, we don't care. Just ask him, and everything will be clear?"

He made a lot of sense.

Whether Xiao Liu's life is good or not, other people's opinions don't matter, Su Qingchun is her son, he has been with her day and night, so he naturally knows better than others.

Liu Shi should have asked Su Qingchun according to her father's words, but when the words came to her mouth, she suddenly felt fear in her heart, and it was difficult to open her mouth.

"..."

In the past, Liu Shi was very confident, thinking that she was only doing things for the good of others, so there could be no mistakes, and there should be no mistakes.

But Yao Wanning was still by her side, even though she was influenced by evil spirits, but Liu could not deny her own reasons.

She was a little afraid to look at her father's face, and subconsciously looked at her husband.

Yao Hui just looked at her calmly, with encouragement in his eyes - as if no matter what mistakes she made, her husband would be by her side unconditionally, supporting her, accompanying her, and becoming her most powerful backing.

It is useless to escape, even though the truth would be hard for her to accept, but Liu is not a cowardly person who dare not take responsibility.

If she didn't tell the truth and prove that she was wrong, the death of Mrs. Xiao Liu might become a knot in her heart for the rest of her life, which would be difficult to get rid of.

"Qingchun!" Thinking of this, Liu Shi suddenly took a deep breath and asked:

"You also heard the conversation between your grandfather and your aunt. Do you think your mother will be happy after marrying your father?"

Everyone's eyes fell on Su Qingchun, with a look of panic on his face, he instinctively turned to look at Yao Ruoyun:
"cousin……"

He is cowardly and introverted, usually like an invisible person in the Yao family, rarely speaks, and tries his best to restrain himself, trying not to cause trouble to his family.

It's just that he saw what Yao Hui and his wife had done for him. Today, knowing that Yao Shouning was missing, he mustered up the courage to come here, wanting to confirm the safety of this cousin.

"Qingchun, you say so."

Yao Wanning showed him a soothing expression, and said gently:
"Although my mother has a quick temper, she will not be unreasonable."

"That's right." Yao Ruoyun also nodded, and was very loyal:

"If my mother scolds you, I will definitely intercede for you."

"Qingchun boldly said that your aunt would want to know the truth about some things." Yao Hui also nodded encouragingly to him.

Liu Bingzhou smiled and said nothing, but even if he didn't make a sound, sitting there gave people great courage.

Here is his family!

Even though he hadn't seen it for more than ten years before this, and only learned a little bit from the letters his mother received, the eyes and words of everyone at this moment made him feel a completely different atmosphere from when his parents were there—— — Peace of mind and comfort.

His blood surged, and he spoke impulsively:

"My mother, my mother is doing well, she doesn't regret marrying my father."

As soon as he said this, Liu Shi was startled.

"My mother said that although my father was poor, he had no success in his life, and his temperament was indecisive, but he had a deep affection for her, and she was the only one in his eyes and heart."

He respects Xiao Liushi, and puts her first in everything, "If you see something novel and interesting outside, if you can't buy it, then don't keep it for a moment, go home immediately, and tell my mother vividly."

The two live in poverty, but they often go out together to visit friends and outings.

One of the couple is romantic by nature, and the other is full of tolerance and love. Although life is poor, they have never blushed or quarreled.

Even though the children have reached the age where they can talk about their relationship, the couple still love each other very much. When they go out, they always hold hands and whisper endlessly.

When Liu Shi heard this, her face turned pale, and Su Qingchun said in a low voice:
"My mother also said that if I had listened to my aunt, I might have married someone richer, more powerful, and more prestigious than my father."

The young man's voice was in a period of changing voice, a little sharp, piercing Liu's heart:

"Perhaps her life will be very stable and won't wander, but she can't see the beautiful scenery that she has seen, can't walk out of the one-acre land of the house, and can't see the rivers and mountains of Daqing. She is no different from many women in this world. "

This world is always stricter for women. When they are unmarried, they live in their natal family. After they get married, they circle around their husbands and children, as if they have lost themselves.

"She said——in this life, if you can't travel all over these great rivers and mountains, you will have both children and children, which is meaningless. If you die on the tablet, you can only remember the Sumen Liu family."

After Su Qingchun finished speaking, seeing Liu Shi's complexion was already very ugly, he didn't have the heart to say any more.

Xiaoliu also said that she cannot change the fate of a woman, but she can decide her own life.

Even though she still couldn't get rid of the vulgar, when she was still alive, she clearly knew that she was not living for her family and children, but for herself.

Liu's body trembled, Su Qingchun's courage gradually faded, and he whispered:
"My mother said she was selfish, and I'm sorry for you. She knows that you are doing it for her own good, but she still doesn't want to spend her life for others."

It's just that before she died, she entrusted her two children to Liu's very willfully, because she knew Liu's character, she was the most serious and responsible, and she would definitely take good care of her two children.

When she was alive, she was dominated by her husband, with only love in her heart, and neglected her children. Because she has been living in no fixed place, the eldest daughter is sensitive and extreme, and the younger son is cowardly and reserved.

Mrs. Xiaoliu believes that the two children will be able to get the comfort, stability, and meticulous care and love from their elders when they are with Mrs. Liu.

"My mother said she doesn't regret it."

As soon as the words were finished, everyone fell silent.

Yao Shouning was still young and didn't understand the love between men and women, but Yao Wanning felt thoughtful after hearing these words.

Liu Shi was greatly stimulated.

She has always believed that her younger sister's actions are just capricious and reckless, maybe because she was young and lacked concentration, she was coaxed by Su Wenfang's sweet words, and wandered the world with him, but she did not expect that she thought this kind of life was very difficult, but Xiao Liushi enjoyed it.

"Dad—Dad—"

Liu called her father repeatedly, she was a little scared, a little regretful, a little ignorant, and aggrieved.

"I don't understand, am I wrong?"

"Which woman in the world doesn't live like this?"

Find a good husband, assist the husband to become a marquis and court minister, and the woman will have children, take care of the family, and reduce the husband's worries-"Am I wrong?"

"You're not wrong." Liu Bingzhou shook his head, looking at this always strong daughter with a rare uneasy expression:
"It's just that everyone's ideas are different. You enjoy being at home and having children around you, but Zhizhu is willing to have someone with one heart and never leave her forever."

Although they are sisters of the same mother, their pursuits are diametrically opposed.

A strong appearance, but traditional, seeking stability;
One looks cowardly and thin, but has a heart that pursues freedom and unrestraint.

"You can't force others with your own ideas."

"I don't understand, Father, I don't understand—"

Liu's heart was in a mess, everything that happened tonight seemed to break through her previous cognition.

She still couldn't understand Xiaoliu's thoughts and actions, but for some reason, from the tone and demeanor of Su Qingchun when he said those words, she could imagine her sister's expression—even for some reason, she felt a faint jealousy.

It was as if she was living in the capital of the gods, and her life was carefree. Her husband was the commander of the sixth-rank soldier and horse commander. He was a little powerful, but he couldn't compare with the comfort of Xiaoliu's heart who lived by selling his dowry.

"I don't know either."

Yao Shouning always felt that the conversation tonight was very weird. He was obviously asking about her whereabouts at first, but in the end Xiaoliu was mentioned.

From her cousin's words, she vaguely seemed to have an epiphany, but this understanding is not deep enough, and she needs someone to remind her.

"Grandfather, teach me."

She looked at Liu Bingzhou with confusion in her eyes:

"Do you think your aunt is living like this, happy?"

She had never really seen Mrs. Xiaoliu, only in the illusion, she had 'seen' this aunt before she died.

But from Su Qingchun's words, she seemed to be able to piece together the appearance and demeanor of this aunt.

"What is happiness?" Liu Bingzhou was very patient with her, and when he heard her question, he said with a smile:

"Happiness is called having sons and daughters, and happiness is also called happiness when one's wishes come true. Being rich and powerful—a man who is a king and worships a minister, wakes up and takes power, and lies on the knees of a beautiful woman when drunk is happiness, and a woman is also a happiness when she is a wife and wears a beaded crown and a diorama. .”

"Do you think your mother is happy?" Liu Bingzhou asked.

If it was before that, Yao Shouning would naturally answer this question without hesitation.

But now when she heard her grandfather ask, she hesitated for a moment:
"Happy—"

Her father loved his wife, family and children very much. He worked diligently every day on errands, and all the money he got was handed over to the family for distribution by the Liu family.

Although he is small and powerful, he never messes with others outside. He has been married to Liu Shi for many years, and he has endless conversations with her.

As for the three children in the family, except that he is a little rebellious, the eldest brother has a stable temperament and can read, which is Liu's pride.

The older sister, Yao Wanning, has a gentle and docile temperament, and is the heart of the Liu family.

The population of the family is simple, there is no intrigue, and the servants are also harmonious, like a close family.

What's wrong with such a family?
Everyone agreed with Yao Shouning's words and just nodded. Even Liu Shi felt it was very reasonable, endured the feelings in his heart, and nodded.

Liu Bingzhou laughed softly:
"You're right." He looked at Yao Shouning with soft eyes, approvingly:

"Your mother's life is just the life of many women in the world, of course it is true." He paused, and then continued:

"But you said that your mother's happiness is because your father is loyal, lives a clean life, and you brothers and sisters are well-behaved and obedient, making her feel at ease in everything."

"...Yes." Yao Shouning always felt that there was something strange about what her grandfather said, but she couldn't tell what was wrong, so she nodded in agreement.

"But the conditions you mentioned are all based on your father's own good character."

Liu Bingzhou said lightly:

"Your mother's life is not turbulent, like many people in the world, because she met the right person."

Although everything she currently owns is related to her self-management of the family, but more is controlled by others.

"If your mother met something inhumane, with her character, of course she wouldn't be devastated by it, but it wouldn't be as easy as it is now."

"But your aunt is different." Liu Bingzhou said again:

"What she wants is to take the initiative to ask for it. She is not attached to Daoyuan (Su Wenfang's word), but is tied to your uncle's heart."

She seems weak, but in fact she has taken the initiative in the relationship between husband and wife. Xiao Liu took the initiative to give Su Wenfang love, and controlled her life in a disguised form. Su Wenfang couldn't do without her.

The Liu family is firmly tied to the family, seemingly strong, but in fact, her happiness, like many women in the Daqing Dynasty, depends on the love of her husband and the filial piety of her children. From Liu Bingzhou's point of view, she actually has it in her heart. Not as strong as Koyanagi.

One is strong on the outside and weak on the inside, and the other is weak on the outside but strong on the inside. The two sisters have completely opposite personalities.

Both of them lived for dozens of years. Before Xiao Liu's death, he found the happiness he wanted, so he died without regrets, but Liu was still a little ignorant and couldn't understand the reason.

"I seem to understand a little, but I still don't understand—" Yao Shouning's heart was greatly shocked. She seemed to understand what Liu Bingzhou said, but she still couldn't fully understand it.

Having been disciplined and influenced by the Liu family for 16 years, she still couldn't fully comprehend the intention of her grandfather's words for a while, but what happened tonight seemed to open a door to a whole new world for Yao Shouning.

"You don't need to understand now, Shou Ning'er, grandfather hopes that you will grow up faster, grow faster, and you will understand some things."

Liu Bingzhou's words were filled with expectations.

He hoped that this girl born with a different bloodline could grow up quickly, accept the inheritance of Mr. Kongshan, and be able to step out of the capital of the gods, step out of the influence of the dynasty, see broader things, and grow into a more mature and stable person——

"What do you want at that time, you ask your heart, you will understand."

After he said this, Liu's heart was in a mess, and he always felt that his previous cognition had been severely impacted.

At this time, the complexity in her heart was far better than when she learned that there were evil spirits in this world.

But she heard what her father said, and then thought of what his father said. Although she was still stubborn and unwilling to believe that she was wrong, she remained silent for a long time before asking Yao Shouning in a low voice:
"Shouning, why did you go to the imperial tomb with the son and dig the tomb of the king?"

Liu Shi originally thought it was very difficult to ask such words, but when the truth came to his lips, he said it very smoothly.

The father taught me the right lesson. She has a self-willed personality. When she is angry, she can't listen to other people's voices at all. She regards her children as her own private property and insists on imposing her will on herself.

She only knew that Xiaoliu refused to listen to her and insisted on marrying Su Wenfang, so she stubbornly believed that she was not doing well, and blamed her father and sister ever since.

When she heard that Yao Shouning went to Dai Wang's tomb and encountered a demon, she became furious, thinking that she was young and self-willed, she didn't listen to her own words, and didn't think about the consequences.

——But she never asked Yao Shouning why he went to Dai Wang's Tomb.

"Because, I checked with the prince, and the 'river god' who branded my sister is very likely to be from the royal family. After death, the body may have been tainted by evil spirits, so it became a ghost."

As soon as she said the reason, Liu Shi's eyes suddenly filled with water.

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Three more in one, 6K words~!

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