After the hero goes crazy

"You, you...you want to be..."

Yao Shouning stammered, and Chen Taiwei continued her unspoken words:

"I want to become a god. I don't know if there is a god in this world, so I want to become a god. I want to see what a real god looks like."

He thought of the past, his expression gradually became 'soft', but Yao Shouning was very close to him, looking closely at his eyes, he could see black 'threads' swarming like bugs in his eyes.

But these 'black worms' were restrained in his eyes, no matter how they struggled, they were firmly restrained in the eye sockets, unable to break through the encirclement.

Yao Shouning knew in his heart that the so-called 'black worm' should be the resentment on his body. Although he didn't know why Chen Taiwei's body was so heavy, but with the presence of evil, no matter how kind and gentle this person pretended to be, Always just illusory.

As he himself said, he has cut off his emotions and ego, and what is left is only a body that maintains the appearance of a 'human', and a body that retains the memories of the past. What is the difference between it and the walking dead?
His 'softness' at this time is more like an appearance made by an imitation of human 'emotion'.

Thinking of this, Yao Shouning couldn't help feeling chills in his heart, and his understanding of Chen Taiwei deepened.

"But, National Teacher, you kill people like hemp..." She hesitated for a moment, but still honestly said what she felt in her heart:

"You've already lost your emotions. Don't talk about what happened to Qingfengguan back then. Over the years, you have single-handedly led many things to happen. There are countless people who died indirectly because of you."

Chen Taiwei is uncertain and cruel, so it is actually not a good thing to provoke him under such circumstances.

But Yao Shouning had no way to disobey his will because he was greedy for life and afraid of death, and said words against his will:
"Don't talk about the far ones, just look at the near ones. You colluded with the monster clan and caused the 'River God' to destroy the world. How many lives were killed in the floods and blood mosquitoes at the beginning of the year?" She looked at Chen Taiwei with disapproving eyes, serious road:

"I have never seen a god, and I don't know what a god is like, but shouldn't the gods love the world and protect the believers?"

She didn't directly criticize, but Chen Taiwei could hear the disapproval in her words.

But he didn't get angry, he just looked at Yao Shouning with a smile, and after she finished speaking, his lips moved slightly, and he scolded:
"madness."

"..." Yao Shouning was taken aback by his scolding.

"Confucianism produces sour and rotten people. Your grandfather is so smart that he couldn't avoid vulgarity. I see that you are so young, but why are you entangled in these vulgar views?"

He hated iron, so he stretched out his right hand, made a fist with four fingers, and lightly tapped Yao Shouning's forehead with his index finger, pushing her head back, trying to pat the back of his hand bitterly, but the part that touched his palm In an instant, his palm turned into an illusory image and slowly dispersed.

Yao Shouning blanked out, feeling a little regretful, and rubbed his forehead in dissatisfaction:
"Where am I stupid?"

"Everyone in the world is stupid. They are short-sighted. They don't think about saving themselves in everything. When encountering difficulties, they only hope to pray to God and Buddha, and they covet the blessings of others."

When he said this, strange black lines appeared on his face:
"Such a person is like a walking corpse alive, right and wrong, and gods will not save such a person."

Yao Shouning shook his head and said:

"Ability can vary in size. Some people will do nothing all their lives and are timid and afraid of death. Some people have outstanding talents, so they can naturally protect everyone. My grandfather said that the greater the ability, the more responsibility..."

"Confused!"

Chen Taiwei shouted sharply and interrupted her:
"Your grandfather was deeply poisoned by Confucianism, why should you be influenced by him?"

It would be fine if he only scolded himself, but at this time he had to blame Liu Bingzhou, Yao Shouning couldn't bear it immediately:

"Senior, how can you say that? You also said that you and Taizu were sworn brothers back then. You should understand the meaning of my grandfather's words better."

"There are people who are ordinary all their lives. Not everyone can be like you, with outstanding talent, and lucky enough to be adopted by Yang Mingzi's ancestors, to practice Taoism, and to achieve great success in the future." She raised her volume and argued loudly:
"Taizu was born in a farming family, but he was born extraordinary and blessed with luck. Later, he got a fairy dream and taught him the "Purple Sun Secret Art". Only after he has succeeded in practicing can he kill evil spirits, build a dynasty, and protect the people."

Chen Taiwei was taken aback, Yao Shouning said again:
"Ordinary people are humble and ordinary, so they are naturally incomparable to the pride of heaven like you, but after the establishment of the dynasty, they became the people under the rule of the dynasty, guarding themselves and paying tribute to the royal family."

"In the past 700 years, the royal family has not had a faint king, but the people are docile and well-behaved, and endure exorbitant taxes."

Yao Shouning started to feel aggrieved, but seeing that after he said a few words, Chen Taiwei remained silent. Thinking of his uncertain character, he argued with him, and felt a little guilty. Convinced:

"The emperor you think is the supreme emperor in the world is also worshiped by the people... I don't mean to refute your words, but in this world, ordinary and ordinary people are the majority, and outstanding people are a small number after all—" She pursed her lips and said again:
"Besides, who doesn't want to be an outstanding person?"

She lowered her head and muttered softly:
"I see that since the disaster, many people have lost their homes and relatives, and have become refugees. They have no food to eat and no clothes to wear. What is noble at this time? Selfishness? Besides, who is not selfish? Don't you also want to become a god? And regard the lives of ordinary people as worthless..."

Speaking of this, she saw Chen Taiwei raised her hand out of the corner of her eye, and immediately hugged her head vigilantly:
"You, what do you want to-"

"..." Chen Taiwei laughed angrily at her, let out a 'hum', stretched out his hand angrily and pressed Fuchen, turned around not to look at her, and cursed:

"Stupid, useless pity, fool!"

You are.

Yao Shouning's lips moved, but he was afraid that Chen Taiwei would turn his face, so he didn't dare to say this out loud.

"It's useless for your grandfather to always tell you these great principles. Sooner or later, he will harm you." He said coldly:
"When you become an adult in the future, you will always find that human nature is selfish and indifferent."

Seeing that he didn't seem to be about to make a move, Yao Shouning slowly withdrew his hand covering his head without making a sound.

The two were silent for a while, Chen Taiwei rolled his eyes, took the initiative to break the strange calm, and asked with a smile:
"Shouning, do you know how my master died?"

Mentioning this topic, Yao Shouning felt a little heavy in his heart.

Chen Taiwei kept saying that he had abandoned his emotions and even forgot his master's face, but what he did was contrary to what he said, which was extremely contradictory.

She sensed that Chen Taiwei was very serious in raising this question at this time, so she suppressed the anger in her heart from arguing with him, and obediently replied:
"I heard from my grandfather that he was possessed by evil spirits and died."

"Yes." He also seemed to suppress all his anger in an instant, smiled, and said:
"There is a village near our Taoist temple called Huanggang Village—"

During the period when evil spirits were rampant, in order to prevent the whole village from being slaughtered by evil spirits, the villagers worshiped evil spirits as gods and sacrificed boys and girls in the village to protect themselves from evil spirits. Hate it to the bone.

"After the Taizu established the country, he did not blame the past, but he, Zhu Shizhen, was able to forget the past history, but the nearby villagers who had suffered from it could not forget it. This Huanggang Village was retaliated by people, and everyone shouted and beat them."

They fell from the sky to the mud pit for a while, dissatisfied, and finally took the risk, and secretly made offerings to the evil spirits again in order to murder other people's lives.

What Chen Taiwei said was clearly seen by Liu Bingzhou through the illusion created by the Fox King in the palace that day, but it is definitely not as detailed as what he himself told.

He keeps saying that he has forgotten the past, but he firmly engraves these memories in his bones - he longs to become a god, but he has a wish to fulfill, and he can't get out of it because of cause and effect.

Yao Shouning already had some calculations in his heart, but he didn't speak. Chen Taiwei pressed his waist to help Chen, and turned around:

"In the end, the demons became infested, and the evil spirits lost control and slaughtered most of the nearby villages. The survivors escaped from the local area and asked for help from Qingfeng Temple."

The handsome Taoist said with a smile:
"Qingfeng Temple was famous all over the world because of my influence at that time. At that time, the government stipulated that all Taoist temples were enshrined by the country and the people, but they also had the responsibility to feed back to the people—" He frowned with long brows, and gave a 'chi' laugh :
"Zhu Shizhen's idea is similar to what you said before. You really deserve to be a 'family'."

Yao Shouning felt that he was acting strangely, curled his lips, but did not refute, Chen Taiwei continued:

"My master is naturally duty-bound, and he cherishes the reputation of Qingfeng Temple very much."

He has a honest and honest personality, and he values ​​love and righteousness. When he joined Qingfeng Temple, he regarded Qingfeng Temple as his responsibility.

After raising Meng Songyun, Qingfeng Guan became famous all over the world because of Meng Songyun, and worried that he would lose his reputation as an apprentice, so he has been working hard, and he is not talented enough to work diligently. Meng Songyun persuaded him to rest and recuperate several times, but he refused to agree .

"Shouning, if it were you, what would you do?" Chen Taiwei asked.

"..." Yao Shouning's red lips moved, feeling a little embarrassed for a moment.

She has already imagined the ending of the story, and feels very sad for Yang Mingzi:
"I……"

"Shouning, don't worry about my master's choice, if it were you, would you go to save him?" Mrs. Chen asked with a smile:

"You have awakened the power of the Bianji clan. As you said, you are a person with great power. You know that you will die for one thing, and it is meaningless to do it. Will you go?" He added:

"You have parents who love you, you have a son who shares your heart, you have people who care about you and you care about, are you willing to die for innocent people?"

He smiled, but his eyes reminded him coldly:

"You have to answer me clearly. You are the heir of the Bianji clan. You will control time in the future and have a bright future. If you talk about the chance to become a god, you may have more chances than me in the future—"

Following his question, Yao Shouning fell into deep thought.

Seeing her thinking seriously, Chen Taiwei didn't rush her, but just waited quietly.

Time has lost its meaning to a 'dead' person. Most of the time he is used to waiting quietly, watching the sunrise and sunset, watching the changes in the vicissitudes of life. Yao Shouning's silent time should not be mentioned to him.

But for some reason, after Chen Taiwei lost his heart, he seemed to suddenly feel uneasy in his already dead chest, he seemed a little anxious.

"I might still do it."

"You..." Chen Taiwei was about to speak when Yao Shouning said in a low voice:
"National teacher, don't interrupt me, I know you think such behavior is stupid and meaningless."

"If I were senior Ming Yangzi, then I would definitely do it knowingly." The girl's voice was clear and gentle, but it made Chen Taiwei extremely anxious.

His palms held and loosened on Fuchen's handle, and he loosened and held again. Since he practiced the path of unfeeling, he has rarely lost control of his emotions like this, and most of them just acted as he wanted.

"Senior Mingyangzi has a good-natured temperament. It is precisely because he values ​​love and righteousness and is kind-hearted by nature. That's why when he went to the village that was slaughtered by evil spirits and saw you who lost your parents when you were young, he softened his heart and gave you A family that will support you as an adult."

Hearing this, Chen Taiwei froze violently.

"He loves you deeply, so after the incident in Huanggang Village, he didn't even think about running away, because he didn't want to live in vain, tarnish the name of the disciple of the world-famous Taoist leader, and he was kind-hearted, and he didn't want to see someone He died from the harm of evil spirits. So he knew that he couldn't do it, so he did it."

"..." Mrs. Chen blinked slightly.

His heart was empty, his eyes had long been used to the presence of evil spirits, and there were no more tears, but Yao Shouning's words touched the hidden memory deep in his heart, causing him to purse his lips tightly.

"If he escapes, then he is not him, and he cannot be the honest elder in your memory."

Yao Shouning's extraordinary empathy ability was brought into full play at this time. After she finished speaking, she looked at Chen Taiwei's figure in bewilderment:

"National teacher, I don't understand. Do you know what kind of person you admire, like, and admire? If you understand him, you should understand his choice. Just because you know he will do this, so You'll have a deep affection for him, and resent the world for his death."

"If he is not such a person, he is not worthy of your concern. You will not be enchanted by him, let alone you who are still obsessed with you 700 years later."

She shook her head:
"National teacher, you want to go back to the past, isn't it because you are still not reconciled to the death of his old man? Although you claim to be Wuxin, you have cultivated the way of ruthlessness, and cut off your own entanglements, but in my opinion, what you are after The way of the 'immortal' clearly wants you to recover your emotions to complete yourself."

Chen Taiwei stood for a long time.

He was motionless, and the early morning breeze blew his Taoist robe 'squeaking'. He stood there with a straight back, like a long sword drawn out of its sheath, sharp and lonely, making people afraid to get close.

After a long time, Yao Shouning stood with weak legs, and Chen Taiwei said coldly: "I didn't ask you to analyze my master's thoughts, I know him better than you, I just want to ask, if it were you, would you do this?" about?"

Yao Shouning paused secretly beating his legs, and said firmly after hearing the words:
"I can."

"I know you will say it's meaningless, but there are some things that many people try their best to maintain. I respect them, I love them, and I am willing to do my best without thinking about the gains and losses you said."

She said seriously:

"Thanks to you, at Yingtian Bookstore more than 30 years ago, I returned to the 'past' and brought back news of the future."

"Mr. Zhang Raozhi, a great Confucian, knew that he would die soon, and he passed away calmly when his reputation was in full swing; Mrs. Sun, a well-known family in the river, knew that her beloved daughter would have a rough life in the future, and she died alone in a small courtyard. The husband and wife were separated, and she lived a miserable life, but in the face of the inevitable situation, she did not change the history without authorization, but endured the pain, and finally passed away early."

The same goes for the late Emperor:
"When the late emperor was around, he had already guessed the future outcome of Daqing, but he did not use his foreknowledge to seek personal gain, but followed the track of history, leaving a back road in the small courtyard, guiding me and my son into the underground dragon vein. "

"My grandfather studied hard when he was young, and he wanted to become an official. He wanted to make the name of Nanzhao Liu's family flourish and plead for the people of the world. But when he was young, he already knew everything that happened later. Since then He kept his name Nanzhao incognito, abided by the direction of history all his life, and dared not make mistakes."

Chen Taiwei's face moved, and Yao Shouning sighed.

Everyone works together for the common people in the world, for that one hope.

"I guess, this is what Zhang Zuzu said at the beginning, the power of harmony between people." Knowing that it can't be done, this so-called stupid thing in Chen Taiwei's eyes will create the astonishing ending of "man will conquer nature".

"may be."

Chen Taiwei said softly, with a low voice:
"Your words seem to have given me a new idea."

As he said this, he turned around.

Yao Shouning originally thought that what he said touched his past, might touch his heart, and make his face mutate.

But this person is indeed worthy of beheading a Taoist priest who practiced the ruthless way. He looked calm and said with great interest:
"Although I understand these reasons, I don't like to listen to other people's long-winded speeches. You and I are involved in cause and effect. I think what you say may be beneficial to me."

"I don't remember my wish anymore, maybe following your train of thought, I can find my knot in my heart and end the cause and effect."

He said:
"My master did exactly what you said, and made the decision to eliminate demons..."

He motioned Yao Shouning to go forward while telling her about the past.

What happened later was just like the historical records. Ming Yangzi bound his body to get rid of the ghosts in his body. In the end, in order to completely eliminate the ghosts and prevent himself from getting out of control and implicating innocent people, he made his disciples kill him when he was conscious. Dissipate together.

When Meng Songyun heard the bad news, he rushed back to Qingfengguan, slaughtered his brother Manguan, and also the corresponding nearby villages.

"My master was very diligent and honest when he was alive. When he followed his master, he was not very talented, but he never cheated when he was reading Taoism, and he never stopped doing homework every morning and evening."

Chen Taiwei has actually lost his emotions. When talking about the past, it can be seen from his eyes that his emotions are calm and unwavering, but he still smiles very 'appropriately', as if he is remembering the past with a good friend.

This weird contrast made Yao Shouning shudder, always feeling that there was an emotionless, lifeless 'zombie' beside him.

"Later, he inherited Qingfeng Temple, and he still had morning and evening classes every day, cold and hot. I asked him when he was young, why is he so diligent?"

The living conditions in the early days of Qingfeng Temple were difficult, and many people found it difficult to persevere in the practice of the morning and evening classes, especially after Ming Yangzi's master passed away, there was no one to supervise him, and he should have relaxed himself.

But he never steals, rapes and plays tricks, and he never misses what he should do every day.

When Meng Qingsong was a child, seeing his master was suffering, sometimes he felt distressed and asked him.

他 说:

"There is a god when you raise your head three feet up."

"People are doing it, and the sky is watching. Taoism's homework is not for others to see. Even if his master is gone, the gods can still sense his sincerity."

Mrs. Chen smiled:

"My master always said that, I just want to become a fairy and a god."

"Shouning, I want to become a god. After I become a god, I want to see my master, I want to see him do his homework, and I want to see him express his sincerity to the god."

"..." Yao Shouning didn't expect that his obsession with becoming a god would be like this. His words were direct and calm, but the shock he brought to her caused waves in her heart and touched her endlessly.

"600 years ago, I finally found the way to become a god, and I have been pursuing the road to become a god." He looked at Yao Shouning:
"I already know the other conditions, but I still have an obsession back then. If this obsession does not disappear, I will fall into the devil's realm, and maybe I will be burned to death by the barrier of evil and resentment. You and I have cause and effect Combined, you will naturally not survive."

His words made Yao Shouning's face turn pale, and Mrs. Chen smiled more happily:
"I originally wanted to kill you and take your power for my use."

If he could obtain the power of the Bianji clan and the ability to control time, he would naturally be able to go wherever he wanted without asking for help.

But as he said, Taoism has very powerful karma, and if he wants to become a god, of course it depends on the seriousness of the situation.

"Of course, karma may not completely restrain me, and this is not the reason for not killing you." He smiled:

"The main reason is that I have lost my heart. 700 years are enough to wear away a lot of my original things. You are kind by nature and quick-witted. I just talked to you, and your thoughts and conversations are in line with my expectations."

She was afraid of death, but not so afraid of death.

In the cemetery, she and Lu Zhi were trapped in a cycle of nightmares, but they were astute and knew how to use the power of his brand to ask him for help.

When you see him appearing, ask him for help first, let him save you, this is the selfish side of human nature.

But she quickly realized that she begged him to save the son first, which meant that she restrained her own desires and made her emotions dominate her instincts.

Afterwards, she knew that she had to pay back the cause and effect, persuaded Lu Zhi, and was willing to leave with her. Knowing that the future was bleak, she dared to bear the consequences as a little girl. She was responsible and courageous. I don't lose my mind.

This is a very cute girl, Chen Taiwei couldn't imagine that when she met her for the first time, she was still fighting with the prince, and when he saw her, she cowered and hid behind the prince, not daring to say a word.

"I thought later, instead of killing you, it's better to use your thoughts to guess what my wish is. Shouning, you must think clearly, don't make mistakes, if you make mistakes, we will die together."

He said with a smile.

Yao Shouning was thinking in his heart: This lunatic!