imperial psychologist

Chapter 512 You Are Really Reckless

Bo Ling didn't answer right away, she thought for a while before continuing,
"Jiuyan should have met my father many times...do you think he is good?"

"Okay, people as selfless as him are rare now." Zeng Jiuyan said softly.

Bai Ling blinked, "I have discussed with Bai Yi many times, and we think he is the most selfish one in the family."

"Selfish..." Zeng Jiuyan was a little inexplicable again, "This... how do you say it?"

Bai Ling smiled, "Because he only cares about his own happiness."

Zeng Jiuyan frowned, "No, Imperial Physician Bai clearly—"

"He has, why doesn't he?" Bai Ling laughed softly, "He is happy when he is cured of the patient; he is also happy when he helps others in real terms... As for how Bai Yi and I can be happier, he will Very little thought, at least not as much as he does his manuscript."

Zeng Jiuyan was taken aback by this logic.

This seems to be saying that Bai Shijun's selflessness is his selfishness, and his dedication and sacrifice are not dedication and sacrifice, but the pleasure of his greed.

"...That's true." Zeng Jiuyan nodded, "Doctor Bai is kind to outsiders, but being his son and daughter is probably a different feeling."

"Yeah, Bai Yi can't stand his behavior, but most of the time, I think it's good."

Zeng Jiuyan frowned, "You think it's good?"

"Okay, of course." Bai Ling said softly, "My father has one thing that no one else can compare to—for me and Bai Yi, although he puts less effort into it, he also restricts it less.

"It's like Bai Yi didn't want to study medicine with him at the beginning, he would rather be a carpenter or a cook. He couldn't accept it, but he didn't stop it.

"He always puts what he wants to pursue first, and it is the same for Bai Yi and me. He has given us all the food and clothing that should be given in life, and the rest is up to us.

"His logic has always been consistent like this - others can't force him, and he doesn't force others."

Zeng Jiuyan silently turned the cup in his hand. After a long time, he said softly, "...Not everyone can have a father like you."

"Yes." Bo Ling said softly, "It's also a unique way of living."

Zeng Jiuyan felt a bit stuck in his throat.

He wanted to hear Bo Ling talk about the phrase "Who are you punishing?", but Bo Ling seemed to switch the topic to another place.

Zeng Jiuyan lowered his head slightly, "What exactly do you want to say, just say it directly, don't make so many detours with me."

"I didn't go around the corner," Bai Ling raised the cup again, "I think Jiuyan...don't have to suffer so much."

The movement of Zeng Jiuyan's hands stopped there, and after a while, he couldn't help but laugh, "Do you think I'm suffering from myself?"

"Isn't it bitter?" Bo Ling stared at him intently.

Zeng Jiuyan clenched his sleeves slightly.

"Berling...does he want to persuade me to drive more?"

Burling shook his head.

"Maybe Jiuyan is just like me... trapped by everything in front of me."

In fact, whether you go north to join the army, or stay with your parents to be a filial piety... no matter which one you choose, you will lose and gain.

But the person in front of him seems to have neither of them—he was reluctant to make the old Hou Ye sad, so he forced himself to stay in Pingjing; but he couldn't let go of his desire to go north, so he couldn't live here peacefully, he wanted to live in Baihuaya. The ridiculous days of singing and singing all night.

Zeng Jiuyan lowered his eyes slightly, "You are the first one who thinks so."

"yes."

"If staying in a gold-selling cave like Baihuaya is considered bitter, then there is probably nothing in the world that is not bitter." Zeng Jiuyan smiled softly, "...sometimes I also find it boring, but doing other things , it's even more boring, I can't make them change their minds, but it's impossible for me to just be obedient."

"...But why do you have to agree to the old master?" Bai Ling said softly, "Just leave like this, is it okay?"

The room suddenly became quiet, and Zeng Jiuyan froze for a moment.

"... just leave?"

"Yeah." Bo Ling nodded, "During the founding of the Great Zhou Dynasty, didn't two princesses leave Beijing directly to join the army... Hasn't Jiuyan thought about this road?"

Zeng Jiuyan suddenly laughed. He was about to answer, when he suddenly remembered the situation where his parents threatened each other with death, he couldn't help sighing again, and frowned.

"You don't understand, Burling. They'll, in every way possible—"

"Then Jiuyan can also think of a way?" Bai Ling said softly, "I think the best way is not to give them a chance to object. Think about my father, be more chic, there are always trade-offs in life."

Zeng Jiuyan's expression became serious.

It's not that he hasn't thought about this road, but it's really too nonsense-the son of the Hou family ran away from home?
At that time, I am afraid that the official documents for finding someone will not be posted from south to north, from west to east...

And at that time, how his father would sigh and how his mother would cry, Zeng Jiuyan almost didn't need to think about it deliberately, he had already seen what it was like.

He suddenly felt a little sad again.

"Then, I really have to let them down."

"...But who didn't grow up like this?" Bai Ling whispered, "If you always think that you can't let others down, you can only let yourself down."

Speaking of this, Bo Ling paused for a while, "However, I think the most troublesome thing here is not this..."

"what?"

"Has Jiu Yan ever been on the battlefield?" Bo Ling asked.

Zeng Jiuyan shook his head.

Bo Ling hummed lightly, and then said after a while, "Although it is a place where you can become famous, it is also a place where you have a narrow escape... Serving as the head of the army is certainly romantic, are you really ready?"

"I..." Zeng Jiuyan frowned, not knowing how to answer for a while, "How do you count as being ready?"

"I don't know." Bo Ling said softly, "You have to ask yourself?"

Zeng Jiuyan felt his heart warm up slowly.

"Anyway, internal friction is the most tiring." Bai Ling said softly, "Whether something will work or not, you have to start preparing and try it out. People have to perfect themselves...don't they?"

Zeng Jiuyan didn't answer the call for a long time.

He really didn't expect that the topic of tonight would involve himself - he obviously wanted to ask if there was any other needs in Bai Ling's life. He is now a half-benefactor and can help her get what she wants stuff up.

"Bai Ling, you really..." Zeng Jiuyan thought for a long time, but couldn't find any good words to describe it, and said after a while, "...you are really reckless."

Bo Ling laughed, "To each other."

"But what will you do if I leave?" Zeng Jiuyan asked, "Have you thought about this question?"

"Think about it," Bo Ling said softly, "This is also one of the things I want to tell you tonight. I have already discussed it with the bustard... Wu Yue Ya Xing, you won't redeem me."

(End of this chapter)