System, help me be an empress

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Extra episode ([-]) Xu Shengshi
Since I left Shangjing that year, I never returned home.

——Xu Shengshi
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When I was three years old, I had a younger sister.

I especially like my younger sister, second only to my mother's queen.

The younger sister is soft and has a pleasant milky smell when held. No matter what bad things she does, her eyes always have the innocence unique to human cubs. No one can bear to blame her.

I know that no matter the father or mother, the most important thing for them is each other.In the past, every time I was forgotten by the two of them, I would feel very lonely, but now it is different, I have a younger sister to accompany me.

So, in the second year after my sister was born, my favorite person changed from my mother to my sister.

This may be what the mother always said, men are fickle.

My younger sister likes to listen to the palace people reading to her, so I hugged my "Three Character Classic" and read it to her with great interest, although my younger sister always crawled away after listening to it.

I thought she might not like the "San Zi Jing", so I begged Tai Fu to teach me some other books. Tai Fu was overjoyed and thought that I was eager to learn, but I was too lazy to tell him that I only read books because my sister liked it.

In the third year after my sister was born, I suddenly realized that the person my sister likes most may not be me, but my father.

There are many evidences. For example, every morning after my sister gets up and goes for a walk in the treasury, she will always talk about the father for at least half an hour when she comes back, and her face is often flushed with excitement.

Every now and then, the younger sister would go to the imperial study to make trouble, cursing the father and the emperor for being stupid or the court officials for being useless.

I am so sad.

My younger sister only scolds my father and not me, she must like my father more than me.

Then, a lot of things happened.

But my sister lives in the palace, and I always live happily.

The grand master asked me: Why study?
I answer: my sister likes it.

Taifu Gongsun looked at me with the feeling that iron could not be made into steel, but Taifu Yao praised my true temperament.

In fact, when I was young, I really didn't know who to listen to. They all looked like my teachers, but they didn't seem to teach anything.

Until the age of nine, my sister suddenly fell ill because of eating poisonous pastries.

That was the first time in my life that I had such a clear concept of 'life' and 'death'.

Not long after, my sister was sent to Jiangnan for medical treatment, and I was really sad.

The enthusiasm for reading disappeared in an instant. I wrote to my sister when I was free. For example, when I was in Beijing for the Lantern Festival, I sent my sister a lantern made by myself. I learned new tricks such as weaving garlands and straw ropes. Send it to Jiangnan.

At that time, I simply thought that in the whole world, only going to Beijing for the festival, my sister must be very lonely in the south of the Yangtze River.

Will she secretly hide under the quilt and cry?
Could it be that she was wronged, but no one helped her out?

Sometimes, when I feel lonely, I go to the places where my sister often goes. Until one day, I suddenly remembered that my sister likes to go to the treasury. Does this mean that my sister’s hobby is money?
After getting this discovery, I am very happy, because I feel that I know a lot more about my sister.

So, I wrote an IOU to my sister, promising to give her all the best things when I ascend the throne in the future.

When I celebrated my tenth birthday, my parents asked me what gift I wanted. I said I wanted to go to Jiangnan to see my sister. They wanted to agree to me because they wanted to go too.

As a result, there was an uprising army riot among the people that year. Although it was suppressed by force by the imperial court, most of these rebels who were determined to get rid of the royal family fled.

In this way, my wish to go to Jiangnan will be in vain.

There is also good news, that is, my sister's illness is getting better gradually.

When I was 12 years old, my mother brought a girl who was the same age as my sister from outside the palace. She said she was a poor person she met on the road, so she took her with her and adopted her.

I didn't dislike her at first, because she looked so pitiful, thin, and startled.Sometimes I would take her to play together, but this situation continued until one day, when I suddenly found out that my father, queen, and queen were too kind to her...

It's as if... he pinned his guilt towards his sister on her.

I started to fight for my sister.

I hate her, and when I found out that she was still trying to please me intentionally or unintentionally, I hated her even more.

She can replace anyone she wants, except my sister!

Although I have reached the point where I feel annoyed when I see her, I have never targeted her. I have never done anything that a gentleman should not do.

I simply avoided her and rejected all her overtures.

……

What I didn't expect was that the queen mother would want her to be my princess because she sympathized with her?
I thought she would resist, but she turned out to be happy with it.

Fine.

Since I can't resist, I can only accept it.

Only later did I know that at her age, it was not suitable for her to stay in the palace. If she was sent out of the palace, she would have to be arranged by her relatives again.

It is not ruled out that she has longed for power.

Because I hated her too much, I didn't have any contact with her that a husband and wife should have. Until she chose to become a monk after my accident, I can say with certainty that I have never owed her.

If it wasn't for the kindness of the empress father and mother, she might have died long ago. If it wasn't for marrying me, she might have been sold by the relatives in the family to be some old man's concubine.

We don't have feelings for each other, and I don't want her to.

Because the marriage was not going well, I began to rebel against the emperor father and the queen mother intentionally or unintentionally. Later, the emperor abdicated due to illness, but I wanted to make some achievements and gain power and freedom.

The queen mother decided to take my father to the south of the Yangtze River for training, so that he could see his younger sister, I am very envious.

That concubine, no, she has to be called the queen, and she doesn't seem to want to see me, so she chose to accompany the emperor and queen mother to Jiangnan to serve the sick.

In the middle of the court, the grand master told me that Wala was too deceitful, and he had to show them some color for his hard work.

I said: good.

However, I was thinking absent-mindedly, if my sister has been seeing a doctor in Jiangnan and cannot return to Beijing, or else I should just move the capital to Jiangnan.

At that time, I was full of heart and soul, and it was all about making some achievements.

Then Grand Master Gongsun and my personal eunuch repeatedly persuaded me, saying that this is such a good opportunity to make contributions, and boasting that I will become a good emperor who will go down in history.

I was blown a little by the praise.

agreed.

But I never thought that there is a price to be paid for defeat...

I didn't want to recall what happened later, but I have to admit that what my sister said to me turned out to be the most accurate prediction for the rest of my life.

She questioned me in front of the Heroic Soul Monument: Xu Shengshi, so many people have died, don’t you have nightmares!
and so.

For the first half of my life, Shangjing was my home;

For the rest of my life, Shangjing became a forbidden place that I would never dare to step into.

　The episodes will be written slowly, and the modern chapters will be interspersed with personal episodes.

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