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Chapter 836: Bastard (4)

After finishing speaking, Jing Shijialan turned back, supported the guard's hand, and got off the chariot.

Wanyan looked at Jing Shijialan's back in disbelief, and her fingers that were holding the handle turned red.

Beside the chariot, Jing Shijialan turned his head slightly, and gave Wanyan a sharp profile.

"The fact is that, if you can accept it, accept it; if you can't accept it, endure it."

Jing Shijialan strode away, leaving Wanyan alone in the same place, full of resentment, hatred, shock, puzzlement and struggle, all pent up in her heart.

But all Wanyan can show is her stiff smile and clenched fists.

With mixed feelings, Wanyan didn't even realize that the guard helping her down from the chariot was a completely unfamiliar face.

When taking off Wanyan's hair crown, Yanhan carefully pulled out the hairpin, while looking worriedly at Wanyan in the mirror.

When she came back from the afternoon, Wanyan's face was so pale.

Up to now, there is still no recovery of a little bit of blood.

Yanhan knew what happened, but she really didn't know how to talk to Wanyan.

"Second Miss, wash up, you can go to bed."

Yan Han's voice was very soft, but Wanyan suddenly came back to her senses as if she was taken aback.

Wanyan nodded, her exhaustion was evident in her words.

Seeing Wanyan like this, Yan Han couldn't help asking:

"Second Miss... are you...really okay?"

"fine……"

Wanyan pretended to be calm and said that she was about to reach out to pick off the earrings on her ears, but when she touched her ears, she realized that she had already taken off the earrings.

"It turned out to be taken off, I didn't notice..." Wanyan withdrew her hand abruptly, and made amends for herself equally abruptly.

Wanyan raised her eyes to look at Yanhan in the mirror, and saw her worried and understanding expression.

Wanyan let out a long sigh, her straight back suddenly collapsed, and she fell on the table.

All her pretense was demolished in an instant.

"Okay... Yan Han, to be honest, I'm really a little panicked.

Jing Shajialan has a son, and all my plans have been disrupted!
Originally, I thought that as long as I didn't give birth to Jing Shijialan, Tianxuan Palace would not dare to harm me.

In this way, there is still a period of peace between me and Tianxuan Hall, and the Hall of Death and Life can be built steadily.

But now, Jing Shajialan already has a child, and there is a successor to the position of the Holy One, so I am useless...

Then we are here now, we are hostages without any bargaining chips, and we will only drag down the hall.

I guess once the big wedding is over and they no longer worry about going against the destiny, they will immediately control me and threaten my brother and the others...

No, no, no... This place is too dangerous, we must leave as soon as possible. "

While talking, Wanyan had already stood up, and was so anxious that she pulled Yanhan up to leave.

Yan Han let Wan Yan hold her hand, but Wan Yan let go of Yan Han's hand first.

"No... no! I'm really crazy...

Now that I am gone, I am the one who violated the marriage contract. Not only can we not escape, but it also gives Tianxuan Palace a reason to crusade against the main hall...

no no no..."

While talking to herself, Wanyan kept walking from side to side like ants on a hot pot.

Yan Han looked at Wan Yan in front of her, she was flustered and lost her composure, she didn't have the calm and wise appearance of the Four Gods and True Monarchs at any time.

Yanhan grasped Wanyan's wrist with both hands, fixed her in place, looked at Wanyan with worried eyes, and asked seriously:
"Second Miss, what's the matter with you?"

Wanyan, who suddenly calmed down, looked at Yanhan's eyes, and her eye sockets turned red without warning.

When she spoke again, Wanyan's voice became hoarse.

"I just don't know what's wrong with me...Yanhan...I'm now...I'm very panicked...very panicked...

I know that the more it is like this, the more I have to calm down and think... I also know that as long as I think about it, there will be a way out...

But I don't know what's wrong, Yanhan, I don't know why, my heart can't calm down at all, my heart is very, very chaotic..."

Wanyan grabs Yanhan's hand, as if grasping a life-saving straw.

At that moment, Yan Han saw helplessness in Wan Yan's eyes for the first time.

Yanhan looked at Wanyan, hesitated for too long, and finally clicked out the answer.

"Second Miss, is it because of that person, does he have an illegitimate child?"

This sentence is the answer that Wanyan clearly knows.

But when she really heard it, she was stunned as if she had been hit with a stick.

Wanyan's lips moved and moved, trembling non-stop.

At that moment, many words flooded into Wanyan's mind, wanting to help her explain this matter.

But in the end, Wanyan's holding Yanhan's hands gradually dropped down, and she fell down on the stool with a "plop", powerlessly, only acknowledging.

"Yes……"

Wanyan looked up at Yanhan, her facial features were distorted by the pain.

"Yes... Yan Han, I'm really crazy! I can't control myself now!"

Saying that, Wanyan desperately grabbed the collar of her chest, and even beat her chest with her fist, powerlessly said:

"Isn't this my own heart? Why can't I control it?

I don't want to care, I don't want to be sad, I don't want to be heartbroken, why can't I do it!
Why the more I don't think about it, the more I care, the sadder, the more heartbroken!

Isn't it that Jing Shajialan had an illegitimate child?So what?
I never loved him, and I never wanted him to love me. Now he loves someone else, and they have the crystallization of love. What does this have to do with me?

Besides leaving me less time to prepare, how does it affect me?
There has never been any love between me and him, there was no love before, and there will never be any in the future. We just perform our duties and seek what we need.

I am now...why am I so crazy now? "

Wanyan grasped Yanhan's hand tighter and tighter, watching Yanhan's eyes getting redder and redder.

However, Yan Han, who knew all the answers, could only watch Wan Yan in pain like crazy.

Other than that, you can only hold her hand tightly.

In the end, even with her head up, a tear broke through everything and fell from the corner of Wanyan's eye.

A tear with warmth woke Wanyan up.

Wanyan slowly let go of Yanhan's hand, trembling, caressed her face, and wiped a tear from her cheek.

Wanyan was so shocked that she looked at the tear in her palm, as if she saw a devil.

"What am I doing?" Wanyan looked at Yanhan, her eyes were almost dull in shock.

"Am I crying? Am I crying for Pure Shakyamuni?"

Yan Han didn't say anything, but suddenly hugged Wanyan into her arms.

It turns out that your brain has forgotten, and your heart is still loving him instinctively.

Second Miss, your heart must be very painful.

Betrayed by the one I love the most, but I don't even have a reason to cry.

(End of this chapter)