rain like flowers

Chapter 128 Missing
"Then do you miss me? Don't you really miss me after so long?" Yang Jinhua said in a low voice, although his tone was a little murmured, but his eyes were extremely eager, and he couldn't believe that the woman opposite was still like this Is the cloud calm and the wind is light, does she really not care?Do you really miss yourself at all?
Li Ruyu stared at the computer screen for a while, slowly raised her head, and said in a low voice: "Are you talking about the body or the soul?"

Yang Jinhua said anxiously: "You know it!" His tone suddenly rose, but he looked at Li Ruyu with burning eyes.

"I know? What do I know? I'm not you, so how can I know what you think?" Li Ruyu asked innocently.

"You really are..." Yang Jinhua was a little annoyed, and quickly jumped onto the bed again, looking down at her.

"Hehe, it's useless to stand tall."

"Say it, don't you say it?" Yang Jinhua smirked, and pulled Li Ruyu's pajamas at the same time. Accompanied by giggles, Li Ruyu hurriedly said, "Okay, okay, I like to tease you the most." He also looked at Yang Jinhua enthusiastically.

"You asked me if I miss you, okay, let me ask you first, why do you think I must ask my uncle and aunt to teach me how to play the piano?"

"This..." Yang Jinhua was a little confused, as if he didn't understand what she meant.

"You are so restless today, so this is what you want to ask?" Li Ruyu rolled her eyes: "Actually, you still asked me if I miss you, why did I look for my uncle and aunt, there are so many talented people, why did I choose Looking for them, don't you know, you're driving me crazy?

You still ask me if I miss you, you, I really don’t understand me, I’m afraid that I’ll feel uncomfortable thinking about you, that’s why I asked my uncle and aunt to learn piano, because only when I face them can I pretend that I don’t miss you at all . "

"Ru Yu" Yang Jinhua yelled in a low voice, like a murmur, nothing is more enthusiastic than hearing Li Ruyu miss him, perhaps what he wants is such a straightforward answer.

He already knew that she must miss him, but even if she missed him, why couldn't she come to him on her own initiative, why would she rather suffer than express her love to him so straightforwardly?

"But why are you so indifferent to me? You miss me so much?"

"Hey, you are too much, what should I do? Should I kneel down and beg you? I was...don't you know? I can do that for you.

In fact, it's not easy, you don't even know how much courage I had to muster up to find you like that, and then get your livid and even dismissive eyes. "

"I didn't, I was just angry at that time." Yang Jinhua didn't want to make Li Ruyu angry at this time, he was even a little afraid that Li Ruyu would be angry, afraid that she would leave him again, maybe he would only know how to cherish it if he lost it, and his heart began to shudder .

"Hmph, anyway, I have seen your face, you were really rude to me at that time." Li Ruyu thought, in fact, she has forgotten most of Yang Jinhua's expression that day in these days, maybe her memory It's really too bad.

It's really impossible for people to refuse to accept old age. If she was 22 years old, she would probably never forget Yang Jinhua's fierce and even aloof eyes. At that moment, thinking of those eyes really shuddered.However, at the age of 27, I feel like I really can't remember many things, and my memory has really declined a lot.

Li Ruyu took Yang Jinhua's hand, and her tone became soothing: "Okay, don't make trouble with me, you know, I miss you, I love you too, in fact, I never thought of being separated from you, I just have Time is just rushing out of words, you say I won't find you, how can I find you?

I'm a girl, some things have to be initiated by boys, don't make trouble with me, in fact, these days, when will I miss you?I don't think you probably know what I went through when you broke up with me, do you? "

Yang Jinhua was a little touched, and looked at Li Ruyu busy, he really wanted to know, what did she do?
"You broke up with me, you are the one who wants to break up with me."

"No, it's obviously you," Yang Jinhua muttered, but seeing Li Ruyu's eyes, he immediately stopped talking.

"You listen to me first."

"Actually, when you were about to break up with me, I was really sad, but I still pretended to have a calm expression. In fact, you know that I'm used to it. Even when it's the saddest time, it's okay for me to talk to customers." No problem.

I can show the brightest smile and say amusing words, but it really feels like everyone is drunk and I am alone. It seems that I am smiling so happily, but at that moment I am really empty and lonely.

Because you are no longer by my side, you don’t want me anymore, so I have to bear it too, that day I really wanted to kneel down and beg your forgiveness, even if you beat me and scolded me and said I was cheap, it didn’t matter, but when I thought of my parents .

It's been so long, at least as an adult, I haven't even kneeled down before my parents. Besides, with your character, you won't fight me.In fact, it’s nothing, it’s all over, and at that time I even wanted to commit suicide.

I feel that life is boring, I look at everything as if I can see your shadow, I feel that the sky is black, as if only death can relieve me, I have prepared a knife, ready to cut my wrist.

But when I think of my mother, if that is really the case, she will be so sad, so I can't do it, I dare not and can't bear the sad eyes of my mother, for fear that she will be sad.

Afterwards, I just watch horror movies, you know I am most afraid of horror movies, especially ghosts and so on, like "Sadako", "Mountain Village Old Corpse" and "The Grudge" are when we broke up I read it.

It's very strange, when I watched it, my eyes were fixed on the computer screen, but my scalp felt a little numb when those horrible images hit, but it was only a flash, and my head seemed to be shaken for a while.

Even watching a horror movie can’t stop my tears. In fact, it’s been too long, and I’ve forgotten many things. Anyway, maybe people are right. Time is the only antidote to a broken relationship. Slowly, some things will be relieved. In fact, it’s not a big deal, right, anyone can live without him, right? "

Yang Jinhua's expression was a bit complicated, because Li Ruyu always liked to tell the truth, but the truth hurts the most.

"I knew you didn't like to hear it, and I can't think of anything else. I must have made you angry that time, and you must have been very angry."

Yang Jinhua suddenly hugged Li Ruyu vigorously, as if she was afraid that she would suddenly disappear again. Only such a tight hug can make him feel that Li Ruyu is still by his side.

"I'm sorry, I know I shouldn't make such a request now, but I really miss you now, I really miss you."

(End of this chapter)