I really don't want to be a novelist

Chapter 177 Hahaha...

At the end of the lust chapter,
It's just that Senna's roommate, Belinda, buried Senna.

The lust chapter ends here.

Carol is sitting in the office,
Then re-read the chapter on lust, pausing for a long time without taking any action.

The lust chapter is far less depressing than the gluttony chapter when you read it.

On the contrary, the author used a cold and calm narrative style, and told a very peaceful story in a straightforward manner.

It is clearly written as a chapter of lust, but some passages have a holy feeling.

After reading the whole article, the calm mood faded, and the depression gradually spread.
More enduring than the gluttony chapter.

Carol felt that she might not be able to forget the aging and sick low-level prostitute Sanashes described in the chapter on lust for a long time.

Because some details are not self-conscious when reading it, and it becomes more depressing when you think about it after reading it.

Maybe when I think about it again, my heart will be pricked again, and I will feel sad.

such as,

Having sex with Senna, coming here for that pure desire and obsession, and being ashamed of his own desire, do young men really exist?

There is no mention of the young man's identity, name, story,
What was revealed from the young man's mouth was more his description of Senna's appearance at different times, and he basically never mentioned his own affairs.

Some of the appearances of Senna he described to Senna, some are the appearances when he saw Senna, and some are his fantasies when he imagined Senna.

Could the young man be Senna's fantasy too?

The author has not written about this in the entire article.

But there are many details. For example, Senna was already weak and seriously ill at the time. How could she have sex with such a young man again?
Also, when the young man appeared and left, there were several descriptions of sunlight coming in through the window in the text,

Sunshine is warm and bright, is it also a metaphor.

And more importantly,

During the development of the plot, Senna's roommate Belinda changed several male partners in succession,
There is a small businessman, a lawyer who does not make much money, and a bachelor who is also at the bottom of the slums.
The attitude of these people when they faced Belinda, a whore, was also quite interesting.
When the little businessman came, he wore a coat but no underwear, hugged Belinda all the way into the room, and gave Belinda a gift that looked expensive but was actually cheap.

The lawyer came in a suit and leather shoes, and waited quietly for Belinda to take a shower before entering the room with Belinda, but this lawyer liked to abuse, and every time Belinda needed to charge more money, only willing to receive.

But the single person is much more straightforward. When he sees Belinda, he pushes Belinda to the ground, and then gradually enters the house. He always likes to tell Belinda that he will take care of Belinda when he becomes rich. Linda is a lover.

And that's not the point.

The key point is that the author didn't describe the gazes these people cast towards Senna and the young man who were in the living room when they entered the room, or even the slightest description of paying attention to them.

……

Thinking of this, Carol, a reader, felt even more uncomfortable.

Undoubtedly, although the young man is driven by desire, such pure desire is already the last beauty in life for Senna.

But if it's Senna's fantasy... even if it's a beautiful fantasy, it's only to this extent, which is even more uncomfortable.

Looking at the beginning of this chapter, Carol, a reader, is still looking forward to the redemption of Senna, the protagonist of this chapter.
Even if it is small and insignificant, it can make people feel a glimmer of hope.
But throughout the whole story, Senashus is like a stone falling into a calm river, never struggling once, just sinking and sinking in the water.

Let the hearts of readers sink after reading it.

But perhaps it is so,
It makes Carroll, a reader, think this book is better,

It is the description of such a story that can make people unforgettable for a long time.

Or to put it mildly.

Most classic masterpieces are tragedies, and Carroll can barely accept it.

Although it is depressing and uncomfortable, I am more moved by the excellence and greatness of this book.

And in the chapter on lust,

In fact, there are a lot of ironic descriptions,
For example, Senna, whore is a believer,
Could be a whore but worried about not going to heaven if she killed herself.

Her roommate, Belinda, mocked her for it.

"call……"

"It's a great work."

While feeling depressed, Carol looked forward to the end of the chapter on lust,
I am also a little excited, because such an excellent work will be in his hands until it is published,
He felt a sense of honor about it.

I also feel admiration for my 'wisdom eye'.

"Look, you will all admire my vision. Oh, how can Burt Press, which has been silent and is about to lose its voice in the publishing industry, publish such an excellent work."

"Oh, what luck they've had to have a book like this submitted to Burt's, damn it, damn it!"

Carroll in his office, imitating what future Burt Press competitors might say,
Then he laughed happily again.

It's great to have this book as his first book as editor-in-chief of Burt Press!
……

"Delwin Publishing Editor-in-Chief Lou: Mr. Ji, have you received the email from the Europa Science Fiction Awards Committee? The publisher has already received it.

Clumsy and extraordinary: received.

Editor-in-Chief Lou: Congratulations again, Mr. Ji, for winning the Europa Science Fiction Award for Best Novel Science Fiction Novel. I see that it has been trending on some social media.

Clumsy and uncommon: Thank you, is it on the hot search?
Editor-in-Chief Lou: Yes, Mr. Ji was too busy to read his works. There is already news about your award-winning Mr. Ji on some social media, and some readers’ comments are quite interesting.

Clumsy and Uncommon: Isn't it a second-rate award?Such a big influence? "

Ji Zhuo is having dinner outside,
After receiving news from the editor-in-chief Lou of Delwin Publishing House, we chatted briefly.

"Editor Lou: It's not...a second-rate award. It's just not top-notch in the world, but it's still the best science fiction award in Europe. And before you, Mr. Ji, there were very few other science fiction writers in China who won this award. .

Clumsy and extraordinary: Oh, I see.

Editor-in-Chief Lou: Well...Mr. Ji, if you plan to go to the scene to receive the award, the publishing house can help you arrange travel. The award ceremony will be in half a month.

Editor-in-Chief Lou: If you don’t want to go, Mr. Ji, the organizing committee can reply to the email in advance and ask them to send the trophy over. "

"Clumsy and extraordinary: let them send it."

Ji Zhuo thought about it, Europe is so far away, and the publishing house arranges travel, and then arranges some activities, such as interviews and signings.

Then don't delay writing your own new book... Hey, I'm such a hardworking author.

Ji Zhuo sighed, admiring his hard work.

"Editor-in-Chief Lou: Alright, then do we need to reply to emails on your behalf... Well, there may be an online connection and interview at that time.

Clumsy and uncommon: OK, thank you, Editor-in-Chief Lou.

Editor-in-Chief Lou: Mr. Ji, you are welcome. The publishing house serves authors like Mr. Ji.Of course, it would be better if Mr. Ji would give more consideration to our publishing house when he has a suitable new book.

Clumsy and uncommon: Hmm. "

Editor-in-Chief Lou joked, but Ji Zhuo looked a little guilty,
After all, a new book was submitted to another publishing house.

　It's been a long time since I asked for a monthly ticket.

　　please.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)