I really don't want to be a novelist

Chapter 355 The Disappearing Shadow

Throwing the rubbish into the trash can, Chang Mo stood not far from the trash can,
He was already thinking about whether to go to the hospital in advance.

No wonder the room feels so clean when I wake up,

What was thrown in the elevator was the garbage in his house.

But yesterday he was so restless that he had no intention of tidying up the house at all.
Before he fell asleep in the living room, he didn't remember that he had gone out to throw garbage, and even threw it in the elevator.

At this time, someone passed by, it was a woman, she glanced behind Chang Mo strangely,
Then, frowning, he quickened his pace and left.

Catching the gaze of the passing woman, Chang Mo immediately turned around behind him,
But there was nothing behind him, and he could only see the flower beds in the community to the side.

"...Hey, don't step on it, the grass that was just planted was trampled to death again!"

At this time, someone behind Chang Mo shouted again,
It's an aunt in cleaning clothes.

Chang Mo suddenly turned his head, and then looked around, but there was only him around,
And the cleaning lady also looked at him.

But he was standing on the side of the road and never stepped into the flower bed.

"Who are you talking to?"

Chang Mo took a step forward and asked nervously.

Seeing Chang Mo approaching, the aunt was also a little nervous.

"Follow you...boy, I'm not telling you, if there is a road, don't take it, and if you go there, you can take a short cut and take two steps, don't you think..."

The cleaning aunt walked away while talking.

Chang Mo froze in place and didn't move for a long time.

slowly,
Chang Mo lowered his head again, looking at the ground beside him.

At this time, the sun in the sky just emerged from the clouds again,
But on the ground, he did not see his own shadow.

"Huh...huh..."

Chang Mo gasped again heavily,

A little anxious, a little angry, and his eyes were a little red.

He ran out of the community, just wanting to get out of here.

……

"...I'm sorry. You don't quite meet our requirements, so please come over."

Chang Mo still rushed to the interview place, and waited for a while until the interview time,
The interviewer just asked him a few casual questions and let him leave.

Is there something wrong, if you don’t meet the requirements, why did you ask me to come for an interview?
I came here from such a long distance, is the travel fare free, and let me go after a few words?
Chang Mo was already very anxious because of the shadow, but when he heard the interviewer's words again,

I couldn't help thinking more irritably in my heart.

But he didn't say anything, just exhaled and stood up, ready to leave.

But at this time, the interviewer gave him a strange look, and then said aloud,

"...I'm sorry, we did delay your time, and we can reimburse you for the round-trip travel expenses."

Hearing this sentence,
Chang Mo suddenly turned his head back, but saw the interviewer looking at the position beside him,

But Chang Mo turned his head to look, there was nothing there,

"What are you looking at? Where are you looking at!"

Chang Mo's eyes turned red immediately, and the accumulated emotions seemed to be vented,
Like going crazy, yelling at the interviewer,
Seeing Chang Mo's crazy appearance, the interviewer took two steps back in fear,
Then he frowned and looked at Chang Mo inexplicably,

"Sir, please be quiet, or I will call security."

"Huh...huh..."

Chang Mo panted heavily, staring at the person in front of him with red eyes.

"...Hey, you, what's the matter. With your quality, you deserve to be unable to find a job!"

Chang Mo didn't speak, but the interviewer suddenly glanced at the position behind Chang Mo, and said angrily,

Chang Mo's heavy breathing became heavier. He stared at the person in front of him without turning his head.
"Who are you talking to, who are you talking to!"

Chang Mo finally couldn't help roaring, this weird scene really made him uneasy,

And these anxieties made him fear and made him angry.

The interviewer frowned, watching Chang Mo walk towards him step by step,
took a few steps back.

"Security! Security..."

The interviewer is already calling someone.

Hearing movement outside, Chang Mo panted and stopped,

Then he turned his head, sure enough, he saw nothing behind him,
It's just that someone outside the office heard the interviewer's shout and wanted to rush in.

Chang Mo's eyes were red, his head was lowered, and he left silently.

The people next to him looked at him, but did not stop him.

"Who is it? It's really... talking inexplicably..."

……

After leaving the interview company, Chang Mo stood by the side of the road.

It was almost noon, when it was the hottest day, and there were not many vehicles coming and going here.

The empty road, the open sight, and the scorching sun did not give Chang Mo any sense of security.

"Huh...huh..."

Chang Mo took a deep breath, as if he was a little out of breath.

With his head down, his eyes and pupils were a little dilated, staring at the ground, but his shadow was still gone.

He looked around back and forth, then gradually squatted down again, hugging his head tightly,

"Ah...ah!"

With his head buried, Chang Mo yelled indiscriminately,

This kind of weird thing happened to him, which made him extremely painful,
But there is nothing to do, nothing to do.

Been venting here for quite a while,
Finally, a text message from the phone rang.

He made an appointment with a psychiatrist for the afternoon, and it was almost time.

His eyes were still a little red, Chang Mo stood up staggeringly,

Dragging his body forward step by step.

Finally flagged down a taxi on the side of the road.

"Go to the Third City Hospital, right?"

Chang Mo got into the taxi and hadn't spoken to the taxi driver yet.

The taxi driver said out loud,
It seems that someone has already given the address instead of Chang Mo, and the taxi driver repeated the address.

Chang Mo froze for a moment, then fell silent, sitting in the back seat with his head down.

But the driver didn't ask any more questions. Instead, he nodded and started the car.

"...Young man, are you going to the Third Hospital to work? Are you doing well studying medicine now?"

"...Hey, young man, why are you talking so aggressively? Why can't I see that you are sick when I'm sick?"

"...Young man, you have rage here, why do you scold people when you catch them? I saw you were a quiet young man just now, why are you like this..."

Along the way, Chang Mo never spoke aloud,
But the driver seemed to be talking to him all the time, and he seemed a little annoyed.

Until the driver stepped on the brakes and stopped the car on the side of the road.
Chang Mo raised his head again,

"Master, I haven't spoken all the way."

"Are you sick...you get out of here, get out of here now..."

The driver seemed a little angry because of Chang Mo's words, and a little panicked,

Reaching out and pushing open the door in the back row, he yelled at Chang Mo.

Chang Mo was silent and got out of the car silently.

"...Made, I encountered a mental illness while driving today, it's really unlucky!"

The driver cursed and drove away.

Chang Mo stood on the side of the road and watched.

Although the driver did not send Chang Mo to the location, the distance is not far away.

Chang Mo looked back and forth, then walked towards the hospital.

……

"... Mr. Chang Mo, you sit down first."

"Would you like a glass of water? I think you're a little nervous."

Finally arrived at the hospital, finally stepped into the doctor's consultation room,
Chang Mo breathed a sigh of relief,

Maybe I just have some mental problems.
Thinking of this, Chang Mo turned to the doctor with some hope.

The doctor is a middle-aged man in his 50s and [-]s, wearing a clean white coat.

With a smile on his face at all times, he looks very gentle.

Seeing Chang Mo's appearance, he first poured Chang Mo a glass of water.

Chang Mo reached out to pick it up,

The doctor's hand holding the water glass couldn't help but pause,
As if hearing something, he frowned, but then he stretched it out, with a smile still on his face,

"I really want you to relax, Mr. Chang, so that it will be convenient for your diagnosis and treatment. However, there is only water in my consultation room, and I don't have any drinks prepared for the time being."

"...Doctor, I haven't spoken."

Chang Mo paused, took the water, and said to the doctor.

When the doctor heard Chang Mo's words, his eyes were thoughtful, and he seemed to be aware of the problem.

It's just that the doctor's thoughtful gaze made Chang Mo uneasy, and even more anxious.

Because the doctor's eyes did not look directly at Chang Mo, but at the position behind Chang Mo,
"Doctor, what are you looking at?"

"I'm looking at you. Where do you think I'm looking?"

asked the doctor.

"Behind me."

"Then where do you think you are now?"

"I'm on the left side of your line of sight, closer to your front."

"This location?"

"This location?"

Chang Mo didn't speak so frequently, but the doctor turned his head back and forth in two directions very frequently,
After going back and forth several times, the doctor seemed to understand,
Just listening to the command in one direction, his eyes gradually fell on Chang Mo,
"That's it?"

"Correct."

"That's it?"

"Yes……"

The doctor asked twice in a row,
"But here, I can only see your shadow. Can you see the lamp on top?"

"The light in the consulting room just casts your shadow on this stool over here."

Chang Mo was startled by the doctor's words, and the hairs all over his body stood on end.

Am I the shadow and I can't see the shadow because I am the shadow?

Chang Mo suddenly raised his head in panic and fear, looking at the top of his head,

There was indeed a light on the roof of the consulting room,

I looked around again, but couldn't see his shadow.

Am I the shadow?
no, no...

Chang Mo shook his head back and forth in fear, then bowed down a little dejectedly.

But then,

Chang Mo sat up straight again in panic and fear,

shook his head abruptly,

"No... no..."

But at this time, the doctor turned his eyes, but finally fell on Chang Mo.

"...In my eyes, you are here."

"You don't have to be so nervous, your symptoms..."

The doctor said, but this time he looked at Chang Mo again.

Chang Mo opened his eyes again.

The doctor still spoke softly,
"...I probably already understand what's going on with you, so let's make another test form."

"Let me see if your cognitive abilities have been affected."

The doctor took out something similar to a card from the side, and asked Chang Mo to watch it in turn,
Then he asked Chang Mo some questions.

Sometimes Chang Mo answered, and the doctor went on to the next question,
Chang Mo didn't answer, but the doctor seemed to have received the answer, and continued to the next question.

With that, the doctor ended the questioning.

"...Mr. Chang, according to our current examination, you don't seem to have a serious mental illness like schizophrenia. Apart from being unclear and unable to control the personality of your significant other, you have no awareness of anything other than yourself. problem, and no other hallucinations arise.

So you might be more like a split personality. "

"Is there a cure?"

The doctor paused, and then said to Chang Mo,
"Let me prescribe some medicine for you first. When you feel that there may be a second personality emerging, you can take the medicine and see if you can relieve it after trying."

"However, for mental illnesses, medicines are only palliative. Mr. Chang, can I ask you, when did you start to have the current symptoms?"

The doctor asked,

Chang Mo considered his words and prepared to answer,

The doctor seemed to be taken aback at this moment, as if he had already heard the answer,

Immediately after the doctor seemed to react,
"Well, Mr. Chang, your other personality just gave a somewhat impolite answer. Can you tell me the answer to the question I asked just now?"

"It started the day before yesterday. On that day, I just showed up for an interview with a company. The sun was very bright that day. I was walking under the sun, and I was going to the convenience store to buy a bottle of water to drink.

But when I walked towards the front steps of the convenience store, I looked down but didn't see my own shadow. "

"shadow?"

"Yes. My shadow disappeared. Then my life became very strange."

"When I was lying on the bed, I could hear the same voice from under the bed. I lowered my head and probed under the bed, and the sound came to the bed again..."

Chang Mo told the doctor what happened to him today.

The doctor listened silently, and remained silent until Chang Mo finished speaking.

Chang Mo looked at the doctor, waiting for the doctor to give him an answer and comfort.

But the doctor sat stiffly behind the table, motionless, only the muscles on his face gradually changed.
The originally gentle face gradually became fierce, and the originally calm eyes became dark and resentful.

Seeing the doctor's sudden change, Chang Mo's eyes showed fear,

He turned his head subconsciously, lowered his head, and looked for the shadow of the doctor on the ground.
Didn't see it!

The doctor's shadow... was gone too.

"Doctor? Doctor..."

Chang Mo looked at the doctor nervously, and tentatively called,

The doctor seemed to be stimulated, and stood up suddenly,
He leaned forward and looked oppressively at Chang Mo,

"...Ma De, a mentally ill person who dares to yell at me. A social trash, dregs, what use are you to say!"

"Why don't you die, you dare to scold me, if you are hospitalized, I will feel better for you...Made..."

The doctor's face was grim and resentful, and he grabbed the collar of Chang Mo's clothes,
One punch hit Chang Mo,

Chang Mo naturally reached out to block it.

But I saw the doctor's face turned red, as if he had been slapped.

"You still dare to beat me, you still dare to resist, you are all scum, garbage, you are all animals! How dare you beat me!"

The doctor became more and more hysterical, but at this moment,
The ferocious look on the doctor's face quickly faded away,
Then he withdrew his hand and stood where he was,

He didn't talk to Chang Mo, so he picked up the water glass in front of Chang Mo, and took another glass of water for Chang Mo.
"Looking at it now, let's take conservative treatment first, you take some medicine first, and see the situation."

"Then let's consider whether we need further hospitalization. I'll leave you a phone number. If you encounter any situation, you can contact me."

The doctor was drinking water while talking to Chang Mo,
It seemed that he got up just to fetch water for Chang Mo, and the previous scene seemed to have never happened.

"it is good……"

Chang Mo lowered his head, unwilling to stay in this consulting room for a long time.

The scene just now made him uncontrollably terrified.

Because, he doesn't know that his own cognition has problems with other things around him,

Or this doctor also encountered the same problem as him,

The shadow disappeared.

"Then I'll prescribe some medicine for you...Okay, the medicine has already been prescribed, so you can go get it."

The doctor came back to the computer, talked with Chang Mo gently, and prescribed medicine for Chang Mo,

Just like the situation just now, it was just Chang Mo's illusion.

Just waiting for Chang Mo to stand up and walk out of the door of the consulting room with some anxiety.

Behind him, the doctor's resentful voice sounded again,
"...What kind of medicine do you still take? It's a waste. How dare you scold me, Ma De..."

(End of this chapter)