I really don't want to be a novelist

Chapter 431 Kind Mr. Raleigh
Facing the bag that Leina handed over, Hoss and Little Gerrit froze for a moment.

Leina continued,
"It's food. I keep it for nothing."

Little Gretel looked at the small bag of food that Leina handed over, and looked at Leina.

He didn't reach for it, and he didn't speak.

Hoss, who was next to him, looked at Leina, even more embarrassed, opened his mouth, and fell silent again.

How can it be useless? This is food.

She gave them the last bit of food, what would Leina do,
Just go back to the front door of the previous house and sit numb and hopeless, waiting for death to come?

But Hoss and Little Gerrit's family really didn't have any more food to give to Leina.

"Leina, keep it."

Little Gretel raised his head and said to Leina.

Leina lowered her head, smiled at little Gerrit, and said nothing.

He just stuffed the small bag of food into Little Gerrit's hand, then reached out and stroked Little Gerrit's hair,

Just turned around and left.

Little Gerrit took the little bag of food, looked at Leina, and wanted to call her back,
Hoss also took two steps forward,
But in the end, he just watched Leina walking farther and farther in the night, and she could no longer see Leina's figure.

They couldn't stop Leina, because even if they let Leina stay, there would be no food to keep Leina alive.

"Father... Howth."

Little Gerrit turned around, called out to Hoss, and handed Hoss the small bag of food that Leina had given him.

"Um……"

Hoss's rough and tanned face remained silent, and he took it over,
He couldn't help but say again,
"If there is more food at home...Little Gerrit, you said those who still have more food at home, why don't they want to have Leina, even if it's because of Leina's field."

"Father, they waited until Leina and the others died, and the fields belonged to them as well."

They, of course, refer to those families where only women and very young children are left in the family,

Without food, they would soon die.

Listen to little Gerrit,

Hoss tightly clenched the small bag of food in his hand again, trying to say something, but in the end he remained silent.

Little Gerrit looked at the dark night in the distance. Under the darkness, there should be many numb people sitting at the door of many houses in the village, waiting for death.

Little Gerrit wanted to think of a way.

But he figured it out.

Tightening his mouth, little Gerrit felt a little uncomfortable.

"Let's go... go back to the house."

At last it was Hoth who spoke again to little Gerrit,

Take him into the house.

……

In the evening, I ate a small dinner.

I don't know if it's about Leina when I came back, or hunger,
Little Gerrit was lying in bed, fully clothed, tossing and turning.

He had many questions in his mind, and these questions made him extremely uncomfortable.

As soon as I closed my eyes, those questions appeared in my mind, accompanied by the figures of some people.

at last,

And little Gretel, who was still unable to sleep, got up from the bed,

Then lightly, he opened the bedroom door, opened the door again, and walked out of the room.

outside late at night,
It was dark, with a cold wind blowing, and the moon in the night was half covered by clouds.

Standing in front of the house, looking in the direction of Leina's house, little Gretel walked in that direction.

And not long after little Gerrit became a monk, the door of Howth's bedroom in the house also opened.

Followed little Gerrit out of the house.

……

"Dong dong..."

"It's time to eat, why are you still in the study? If you don't need dinner, maybe I can eat it by myself."

Professor Worth, who was watching "The Ordinary and the Great" in his study, was awakened by a knock on the door.
Recovering from the stories in the book,

"Here we come."

In response, Professor Worth paused, took the "Ordinary and Great" with him, and left the study.

"Why do you read "The Ordinary and the Great" again? Haven't you read it many times, and claim to be the reader who knows "The Ordinary and the Great" best besides writer I?"

The wife had just put a fairly sumptuous dinner on the table, glanced at the book that Voss was still holding in his hand when he came out of the study, and teased.

"Hey……"

Still immersed in the emotions of the world in the book, Professor Worth couldn't hear his wife's words clearly for a while, but just looked at the sumptuous dinner on the table and couldn't help sighing.

"Why are you sighing at the dining table, are you dissatisfied with my dinner tonight?"

"No, no."

His wife pretended to be angry, and Professor Worth finally came back to his senses, shook his head and said,

"Just read the great chapter of "The Ordinary and the Great", and I still can't get rid of the emotions in the story. If only little Gerrit had such a big dinner..."

"Okay, I forgive you. It's a really hard work. So why are you reading it again?"

"It's not that I saw the discussion on the Internet. Maybe "The Ordinary and the Great" is not my first work."

"So Professor Worth, the translator who claims to know the author I and "The Ordinary and the Great" best, wants to try to find out other works of I."

After listening to Voss' words, his wife became a little interested.

"Yes."

"Looking for I's other works, it sounds really interesting, maybe I can also consider participating in this collective activity. So have you noticed anything?"

"...Well, at the beginning I wanted to study the textual characteristics of "The Ordinary and the Great", but obviously, the stories in the book are too attractive. Before you asked me to have dinner, I was immersed in In the story, the previous things are left behind."

The wife and Professor Worth had dinner and talked,

"So, why do some people think that this is not I's first work, I have other works, or that I is another pen name of a certain writer?"

"Hmm... because the writing is sophisticated and fluent, and the writing style also makes people feel familiar."

"Maybe it's just an illusion?"

"Maybe."

"But it's an interesting thing."

"So my dear wife is going to take part in this too?"

"Of course, at least I won't be like a professor who gets sucked into the story and then forgets what I'm going to do."

The wife was joking.

The two finished their dinner one after another.

I didn't go back to the study either.

Each took a copy of "Ordinary and Great" and flipped through it.

""The Ordinary and the Great"...I...Who is I? Do I have other famous works? Let me take a look..."

My wife muttered, and opened "The Ordinary and the Great".

At the beginning, it was still full of enthusiasm, but it gradually became silent after that.

Waiting for Professor Worth next to him to come back to his senses by chance, he turned his head to look at his wife,
But seeing his wife's face was tense and with some depressed emotions, her eyes focused on the opened "Ordinary and Great",

I just turn the pages from time to time, and the expression on my face changes from time to time as the plot develops.

I don't remember the previous things, I just read the book again.

Professor Worth couldn't help but smile,
Turning his head again, he continued to read.

Now that you've read this far, let's just finish reading it.

……

In the article "Ordinary and Great",

The plot continues to progress.

Tossing and turning at night, and little Gretel, unable to sleep,

Wearing coarse linen clothes that have never been taken off, blowing the cold night wind,
He walked towards Leina's house.

After passing through the night and arriving at the door of Leina's house, which was submerged in the night,
Little Gerrit gradually slowed down.

Just to the door of Leina's house,
Little Gerrit saw that way, the figure sitting before the open door.

The figure sat there without moving for a long time, as if it had been stiffened by the cold wind at night.

That motionless figure was Leina.

Leina was still wearing the clothes that Little Gerrit had on when she saw her at nightfall,
It seems that she has been sitting here since she came back from the little Gerrit's house.

At this moment, little Gretel walked out of the night, but Leina did not raise her head,

He just sat there with numb eyes, as if he didn't care whether it was a human or a beast approaching.

In the darkness of night, there was no light in the village, and Leina, whose eyes were numb,

The night was reflected in his eyes, and naturally there was no light at all.

"Leina..."

Little Gerrit gave a small cry.

Leina, who was sitting there, seemed to hear the sound, and finally made some movements,
She turned her head, looked at Little Gerrit, paused again, and seemed to see Little Gerrit clearly.
There was a little smile on her face,
"Little Gerrit? Is there anything I can do for you?"

Little Gretel squatted down in front of Leina,

"Leina, you go back to the house, it's cold outside."

When Leina heard what little Gerrit said, she smiled and stroked Little Gerrit's hair,

But neither spoke nor moved.

"Leina, I know you feel like you're going to die, no matter where you are."

"But you might be able to figure out a way to survive."

"What are you doing alive?"

Leina didn't smile anymore, she just asked little Gretel seriously.

It was a question little Gerrit could not answer.

Little Gretel looked at Leina silently.

Seemingly knowing that little Gerrit couldn't answer this question, Leina just stroked little Gerrit's hair again,
Then he asked as if coaxing little Gerrit,
"Besides, how can I survive? There is no food at home. Maybe in a few days, I will die here or somewhere else."

"Maybe I made it through. It's the harvest season, but the fields at home are not cultivated, and no one goes to harvest. At that time, I will also die."

"Why is there no one to reap and no one to plow?"

"I'm a woman, little Gretel. It's the will of the Lord, the will of the church. Women can't work in the fields. They can't plow and they can't reap."

"But, Leina, you are about to die, do you still want to discipline the will of the church?"

Little Gerrit finally said what he wanted to say, and he also looked at Leina seriously.

But Leina shook her head, and said to little Gretel,
"Little Gretel, if I die like this, I can return to the embrace of the Lord. If I live like this, I will be abandoned by the Lord."

"Maybe I live to accept the test of the Lord, but I can't live to return to the kingdom of heaven after death."

Leina gave little Gretel the answer.

Little Gerrit was a little discouraged, and at the same time had a kind of inexplicable anger.

Because Leina is unwilling to violate this oracle or church law even if she is about to die.

"Leina! Is this matter so important? Is it really right?"

"Don't say such things, little Gerrit!"

Leina's expression suddenly changed when Little Gretel questioned the Lord and the church.

Even when Leina talked about her own death before, she didn't have such an expression,

"Little Gerrit, don't say such things anymore. If you do this, others and the Lord will doubt your piety. This is not good for you..."

Leina shook her head and said to Little Gretel, with deep worry in her eyes.

Looking at Leina's appearance, little Gretel became even more angry, and at the same time felt a deep sense of powerlessness.

why is this,

Obviously they are going to starve to death.Obviously the church conscripted the men in their families and let them be abandoned,

But it's still like this, it's still like this!

Little Gerrit was angry, his eyes were a little red.

"Is devotion to the Lord so important? Leina, the church has abandoned you, and they have taken your food! Leina!"

"Don't, don't say that... This is the Lord's test, this is the Lord's test for me!"

"Then why didn't the Lord test the priests in the church, why didn't he test Mr. Raleigh, and why didn't he test Dr. Monk? Is it because they are devout enough?"

"Stop talking, little Gretel, this is the Lord's test for me... Lord..."

Leina's expression became panicked, she hugged little Gerrit, not wanting little Gerrit to talk,
After stopping little Gretel, Leina repeated some prayers in her mouth.

Little Gerrit didn't say any more, but the anger accumulated in his heart didn't fade away for a long time.
He has the urge to smash everything in front of him to pieces, there are too many things that make him have this urge.

After breaking free from Leina, little Gerrit looked at Leina who was still panicking, worried, and praying repeatedly,

Little Gerrit suddenly had a deeper understanding of how his father Huss faced those people who were panicking and repeating prayers when their grandfather Medioc died.

"Leina..."

"Little Gerrit, stop talking about that."

Little Gerrit is gone.

Turning around, he couldn't tell whether he was angry or sad and left.

His figure was lost in the night,
But right after, another figure walked out of the night beside him,
It's Howth,
Hoss came with Little Gerrit and heard the conversation between Little Gerrit and Leina.

"Hoth?"

Leina looked at little Gretel walking away, and seemed a little uncomfortable,

Then he turned his head slowly, and saw Hoth's figure,

"Um……"

Hoss didn't say much, just took out half a piece of black bread from his body.

"Your grain can make several pieces of black bread."

Leina didn't want the black bread that Hoss handed over,
But the hunger in her body, when Hoss handed the black bread to her mouth,
She still opened her mouth,

Then he took the black bread and ate it faster and faster, eating the whole piece of black bread into his stomach.

"...Leina... Humans still need to eat to survive."

Hoss said another word to Leina,
He followed the direction that little Gerrit left, and walked back to his house.

Leina was on the spot, still sitting in a daze.

……

The plot continues to develop.

Certain residents of the village had lost their calculations.

Someone took their land before they died.

It's Mr. Raleigh.

Mr Raleigh in the village, the third day that the men who went on without food and became kings and warriors of the Church left,

to the village.

At a very cheap price, ten fields and one bag of grain, these fields where only women's families remained were taken away.

Even though there are quite a few fields, there is only two months to harvest grain.

But even so, there are still people flocking to it.

Moreover, Mr. Raleigh also took many people as servants at home.

In the village, the numb figures of those sitting at the door of the houses suddenly disappeared.

And in the village, those fields taken away by Mr. Raleigh,
In a short period of time, it was the same as the previous fields,
A large area was surrounded, and many sheep were fed with the crops in the field that were not yet ready for harvest.

"...Mr. Raleigh is really a devout believer of the Lord. He is so kind and saved those lost lambs who couldn't survive."

Little Gerrit sat at the door of his house,
It happened that not far away, Grandpa Burton and several residents in the village were praising Mr. Raleigh's kindness.

(End of this chapter)