Song Ye's white moonlight stand-in, I'm not right

Chapter 98 Self Doubt

Yu Xi poured the shrimp paste and beef into the mushroom soup pot all at once, and said, "I'll give you all to eat."

Qi Yue doesn't eat chili, only Yu Xi remembers it.

She smiled: "I want to try the red oil pot today."

The two hit it off immediately, and the stimulation and pain brought by the chili pepper were far more than anything else. Qi Yue snotted and burst into tears, and she suspected that her brain fluid flowed out, but she left all the other bad things behind. the back of the head.

In the middle of the journey, Qi Yue's stomach felt uncomfortable due to the stimulation of the chili pepper, so Yu Xi poured her water to drink and insisted not to let her eat the red oil pot again.

Qi Yue held onto the sink in the bathroom and threw up a few times, the feeling of overwhelming stomach finally calmed down a bit.

She slapped her face with cold water, trying to look a little more normal.

Qi Yue stood up and looked at herself in the mirror. The face of another person behind her was reflected in the mirror, and Qi Yue froze for a moment.

This mirror is shared by male and female bathrooms. When she first saw a man standing behind her and saw who it was, she was not too shocked. She had seen it once before.

Yu Xi was still waiting for her, Qi Yue didn't intend to say hello to this person, and turned to leave.

"Why are you here?" Song Yan grabbed her wrist, "With whom?"

Qi Yue didn't shake it off, turned around and looked at him indifferently: "What does this have to do with you?"

Song Yan was taken aback, and slowly let go of her hand.

"Qi Yue, don't lose your temper with me, okay?" Song Yan said these two words in a low voice, "Tomorrow is your birthday."

Qi Yue couldn't understand his brain circuit, which meant, should she compromise again on her birthday?

"Did you not understand that you are the one who lost your temper, not me?"

"Besides, do you care?"

Song Yan had a lump in his throat and couldn't say a word.

Qi Yue was always articulate, and it was easy for him to be speechless.

Song Yan thinks about it carefully, isn't he just being awkward? Knowing that Qi Yue hates Qi Huan, he forced her to help Qi Huan take care of the child, and asked her to let Cheng Zhi cry. When Cheng Zhi cried, he habitually attributed the mistake On to Qi Yue.

What is wrong with children, they don't understand anything, and the adults who care about them become the target of public criticism.

The more Song Yan thought about it, the more sad he became. Later, he only felt that his face was so hot that he was going to burn someone, and he became more and more ashamed.

"If you feel that breaking up with me makes you unaccustomed, or you can't bear the feeling of not being able to control me, and after losing it, you feel that you don't have enough regrets, so you come back and pester me."

"Then you really don't need it, you don't understand love at all, you just selfishly think that I should be by your side, as a substitute, and I should accommodate you in everything, but whenever I show a little resistance, you I don't get used to it."

"Song Yan, you are not a child anymore, you should grow up."

"I also think a lot these days, we are not suitable, use each other, deceive each other, it really doesn't make any sense."

"Don't put your mind on me from now on."

Qi Yue's words sentenced Song Yan to death, and a few words negated all of Song Yan's love, and those loves that grew wildly were destroyed by the violent storm, and turned upside down.

Just a few words did not make Song Yan give up, but made him doubt himself.

Is it really like what Qi Yue said, it's just because I'm not used to it, it's just because I can't let it go.I don't want to see the person who has been controlled by me for several years turn indifferent to him in a blink of an eye and fall into the arms of others, so I want to pester her instead.

If Qi Huan hadn't told him that the person who was so good to him was Qi Yue, would he still do it?
Song Yan didn't know the answer, and he felt sad when he thought about it.

Qi Yue closed her eyes for a while, as if she was enduring something extremely, and finally, she said: "If one day you figure out the difference between love and possessiveness, or you understand love, come to me again."

Song Yan stared blankly at Qi Yue's leaving back, raised his hand and rubbed his face, the strong squeeze gradually brought him back to his senses.

So just now Qi Yue denied everything he did, and declared that he would not pester her anymore?

Why did she deny everything he did based on suspicion, why did she condemn him to death only on suspicion?

Song Yan didn't know how love should be defined, or in other words, after living for so many years, he didn't feel love, and no one taught him how to love.

As soon as Song Zhaonian cheated on her when she was a child, Shen Qiong made the whole family restless, and she even hated Song Yan.

Song Zhaonian spent time outside taking care of his little three and four, while Shen Qiong cried holding him at home.

At that time, Song Yan thought, how could someone be so disgusting?In the future, when he has someone he likes, he must be loyal to her.

Song Yan believes that he must be loyal to love, so even if he can't think of Qi Huan at all, he still has to numb himself, brainwash himself, and tell himself that he loves Qi Huan.

After Qi Yue escaped from the substitute game and admitted that he was also a substitute, Song Yan was very unwilling. Why did Qi Yue treat him like this?

A person slowly fades away in life, and the imprints she leaves all remind him that that person once existed, and you are used to her existence.

Habit is a more powerful synonym than liking.

From the initial suspicion, to the later longing, and then to the involuntary feeling later, everything is declaring to him: you are miserable, you are in love with her.

Song Yan has never had self-doubt, but Qi Yue's few words today made him unable to look directly at his abnormal behavior in frustration.

Song Yan leaned against the sink behind him, feeling extremely powerless. It was a kind of powerlessness conveyed to him by the nerve control center, from the inside out, not just a sense of physical powerlessness.

"Little Yan, why haven't you come in for so long? Everyone has been waiting for you for a long time." Qi Huan ran out to look for him, looking at him unexpectedly.

Song Yan raised his eyes to meet Qi Huan's. After not loving, without the lover filter, Qi Huan is really inferior to Qi Yue.

They are obviously different at all, how could he recognize the wrong person for a while?
Seeing Song Yan looking at her, Qi Huan was surprised for a moment: "Xiao Yan, what happened?"

Song Yan didn't speak, stood up and walked out.

Qi Huan chased him out: "Is there something wrong with Xiaozhi's birth certificate?"

When Song Yan heard this, his footsteps stopped for a moment, and a self-deprecating smile appeared on the corner of his lips.

If it wasn't for his instruction, how could Qi Huan have the audacity to think that her position in his heart is so important?
After thinking about it, Song Yan felt that he was really stupid.

"No, none of your business."

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Qi Yue and Yu Xi returned to the room, and there was still an hour and a half before twelve quarters.

They bought beer and sat on the floor, back to back, looking up at the bright moon and stars in the sky.

"Qi Yue, let me tell you something." After drinking for three rounds, Yu Xi blushed, and said quite seriously.

Qi Yue was also drunk. Hearing her tone, she sat up and asked her what was the matter while hiccupping.

"Happy Birthday!"

Qi Yue laughed out loud, and turned to look at her: "Are you pinching a little bit?"

A quarter past twelve, not one cent more, not one cent less.

"That is, who made you more important than pigs in my heart." Yu Xi said proudly.

"Happy birthday, 28 years old, may you stay away from the world and find your true soul."

(End of this chapter)