Buddhist small green plum

Chapter 357 The Extraordinary Past Life Xie Ying'an ([-])
From the moment Uncle Li learned that Li Qingran was married, I began to control myself not to deliberately inquire about her.

Anyway, hearing it would only add to the discomfort, so it would be better not to listen.

I thought the boy's liking was just a dream, and it was empty when I woke up, but after ten years of the dream, instead of waking up, I became more and more addicted to it.

Under Wen Ren's coercion, I also broke my face with the Li family.

It's not that I have to tear myself apart with the Li family, but I'm no match for the voice in my heart, which tells me what to do, and I must do what I do.

Outrageous, that's what I thought at first too.

I also tried to fight against it, but in the end I lost, and the backlash was too serious, and then I stopped struggling.

Wen Ren's group of cronies and friends are too messy, he can do anything, it's not that I can't protect Li Qingran, but there are such uncontrollable things, I think, there is a high probability that I really can't protect Li Qingran.

I'm very clear that the uncontrollable thing seems to be towards Wen Shiyi subconsciously.

Later, after a while, I sent a text message to Li Qingmo asking him when Li Qingran was leaving, and Li Qingmo quickly called back.

He said: "Don't contact me again in the future, I will never be able to be your brother again in my life!"

His voice was choked and angry, and I could hear it clearly through the microphone.

I held the phone that was hung up, and at that moment, I felt a little relieved.

Li Qingmo has always been hard-spoken and soft-hearted. With his brother protecting Li Qingran, what else can I worry about?

Later, life in university was very ordinary. Not long after I entered school, I was valued by the old professor of the finance department, and I was very busy almost every day.

Occasionally, in the dead of night, I would think of Li Qingran, but with the passage of time, her appearance was not blurred in my mind, but became clearer.

It's not that I haven't thought about why I fell in love with Li Qingran. She is obviously not beautiful, her head doesn't seem very smart, and her personality is not clear enough...

But liking is liking. In this world, there are only violent feelings, and there is never any reason at all.

Until the second half of the second semester of my sophomore year, I endured it for nearly two years, and I couldn't bear it anymore. I bought a ticket to F University overnight. At that time, I just wanted to hide in the dark and take a peek at Li Qingran.

Deep lovesickness can be understood at a glance.

It was also that one glance that made me completely desperate for the years to come.

Before that, I had to admit that I was always thinking of luck. As long as Li Qingran's life is not so good, maybe I can fight for it again.

Why not fight against fate?It's better than being in constant anxiety and feeling like you don't belong.

Until I saw that Li Qingran was acting very intimately with that man, they got out of the car hand in hand, and entered the school together.

I have seen the photo of that man no less than a hundred times, even in the crowd, I can recognize him at a glance. He is tall and almost covers most of Li Qingran. It is ridiculous that I am still deceiving myself in my heart. Li Qingran.

Heh~ Li Qingmo told me personally that Professor Lin picked up Li Qingran, so who else is beside him, not Li Qingran?

It was also at that moment that my blood froze, like falling into an ice cave.

With shaking hands, I took out a cigarette from my pocket and lit it. When the smoke filled my eyes, I suddenly wanted to laugh.

In this relationship, I was really the only one who was persistent from the beginning to the end.

I rushed back overnight again, and as soon as I landed, I saw Wen Shiyi waiting for me.

Is it Wen Shiyi?I can't remember her name, I just know that she was my tablemate for a while, in fact, I don't want to be with her at the same table, but this sentence comes to the corner of my mouth every time, and I can't say it. After a few times, I simply gave up.

She gives me the feeling that she is evil, even if I don't believe in evil.

After seeing me, she laughed, as if she had said something else, but I didn't listen to a word, I just walked past her.

At the moment when Li Qingran made a mistake, I made it very clear to Wen Shiyi that I could take care of her for the rest of her life, but it was just taking care of her, nothing more.

I don't remember how she reacted at the time, but she agreed anyway, and there was a persistent look in her eyes that I didn't like, as if she was sure that I would fall in love with her in the future.

During my four years in college, I never went to see Li Qingran again.

I don't want to admit that Wen Shiyi also stayed with me in college for four years. Even in four years, we didn't even say ten words together.

My dad said a few years ago that the business was too busy, and he always felt that he was too old to cope with it. So I joined the company at his request as soon as I graduated.

In the first year of work, I monopolized the entire market in City F, and I was well-known in the shopping malls with thunderous means.

It was also this year, under Wen Ren's urging, Wen Shiyi and I scribbled a marriage certificate, but there was no wedding.

There is almost no difference between before and after marriage, but during that time my mother often came to see me, maybe she knew what I was thinking, every time she looked at me hesitant to speak, and her eyes were red when she left.

In the year when I heard that Li Qingran had a child, I sat in a daze under the pavilion in the backyard, and I added a lot of gray hair to my temples overnight.

After dawn, I wiped off the morning dew on my face and smiled wryly. I thought I let go, but I just thought.

It was also during that time that I heard that Ruan Ruan, Li Qingran's previous tablemate, had a marriage problem. Perhaps because I could get more sporadic information about Li Qingran from her, I hired her here with a high salary.

I am quite impressed with Ji Yanchen, after all he tried to 'seduce' Li Qingran when he was young...

I don't know when Ji Yanchen suddenly became my opponent. The title of 'Ji Shen' is not for nothing, even if he is in business, he is also a genius.

I met him at chess, and felt that life had some meaning, but unfortunately, after only four years of fighting, he chose to commit suicide, still in that decisive way.

In the mall, many people said that I forced him to death, but only I knew that it was because he couldn't hold on anymore, and there was no light in his world.

Now, my world is almost exactly the same as his, and I don't know how long I can last.

In the tenth year of marriage, Wen Shiyi said that he wanted to talk to me.

I didn't even put down the briefcase in my hand, I just glanced at her and asked her what she was talking about?
She looked at me fixedly, there was no attachment in her eyes from ten years ago, only the tears gushing out of her eyes: "Xie Ying'an, I can't cover your heart for ten years..."

I wasn't moved at all. I told her this ten years ago, and she didn't believe it.

As if anticipating my reaction, she shook her head and smiled wryly: "Forget it, how many decades can life last? From now on, I won't pester you again."

I still don't say a word, I don't really care if she pesters or not.

"I can't ask for it." Before leaving, Wen Shiyi looked at me with a little pity in his eyes: "Xie Ying'an, you are just like me, but you are also a poor person."

It was because of that pitiful look that I went to see Li Qingran again after ten years.

...they're all lying to me...

I don't remember how I got to the hospital, but when I saw the skinny face in the ward, the tears I had held back for more than ten years suddenly burst into tears.

My heart hurts until I suffocate...

Li Qingran lay alone in this room for more than ten years.

Enduring the pain in my body, I stepped forward and held her skinny hand, and fell ill overnight from anxiety and anxiety.

I stayed with Li Qingran in the hospital for a long time.

My mother advised me to look forward, and Uncle Li also advised me not to live in the past.

But none of them told me why Li Qingran kept living in the past?Even so, why can't I accompany her.

After all, I was more than ten years late to accompany her on this road.

During the third month with Li Qingran, the hospital issued a critical illness notice, and the doctor said that her kidneys were failing and that she would not last a week.

I took the critical illness notice and read it word by word for a long time, but I couldn't hold it back and spit out a mouthful of blood.

In a daze, I remembered the Fanchen Temple that my grandfather had mentioned when I was a child.

I never believed in this, but for Li Qingran I chose to believe it once.

I climbed thousands of steps with Li Qingran in my arms, almost costing me more than half my life. Near the top of the mountain, I pricked my own finger, then Li Qingran's, and the blood merged with the blood.

I suppressed the broken words, closed my eyes, held Li Qingran's hand, and made a devout promise: "I hope the Buddha will show mercy and ask for a next life..."

(End of this chapter)